Pals that was a good grocery haul yesterday. I am thankful and I had a good day. It was also a Ravneet sighting.  That is so sweet. Ravneet has been giving me very good secret messages.

Pals can we agree that I am not the proverbial person of the day at this conference? But I am a nice participant but people generally are a step up from me? Also I am disabled and I believe people's career is not hinging on being discovered by me in an awkward conversation. I am going to try not to be too hyper in the chats also. Remember those other times?  But I did like all those people. But I might not be on the prowl for an agent.  But hopefully I will also be respectful.  Because I do have some respect but in some ways I think the book industry could have been more warehouse-y and less BN control.

Also I believe the mistreatment of evangelicals, southerners, and poor whiteys is a hypocrisy that will not be overlooked by history.

Anyway that is enough of that. 

Does anyone have any thoughts? That was not cool that I did two cheesecake posts but I was trying to tag my cheesecake group. But they felt that my post was inappropriate. A store bought cheesecake when they are professionals in some cases.  Get it cases? Bake cases?

Well, that's all everyone, thank for reading my blog.  6000 views in a month!

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 2:35 on Wednesday. I just made coffee. I paid two credit card bills. I am a little bit late on bbt which I forgot about. But tomorrow I will fix that and get it down lower too.

I think this next round of payments will help but I need to not do a lot of facebook stuff. I feel peaceful and don't have a lot of posts that I am eager to boost.

I feel that the society problems got away from us and the good people that argued are going to have to face the folly of the political discord.  And the hypocrisies. I mean a lot of that was about social media.  And some people made money off of it.

But personally people will probably wisely repair what they can.

But I guess I don't know.

Soon I will drink some coffee and watch YouTube a little bit.  I have my meeting later.

I am really excited about talking to the website person.

I wanted to go to the ABC store (not alcohol but a cheap home and clothing store) and buy some new sheets because my sleeping bag is gone now. I am having a hard time being patient. But I can go do that tomorrow morning.

I feel better because of taking my medicine but I also do feel sluggish and low mood.

But I am okay and it could be worse. My sense of being bullied by the whole bronx is very strong but some people have been nice to me. Like think of PHP. I wonder if some people know I should be on just the 600 trileptal 100 Risperdal.  That is what I believe.  And to not be bullied.  That is what it should be.

I am glad I am seeing stuff again.  It just has changed locations but I am glad to not waste my gifts.  The gift is "discerning spirits." It works on good things too like to see people's spiritual power in whatever way it comes across.

So anyway I think that demon that probably turned human or angel can go help the partner in crime who was combined and disguised in that white blank Spiderman type person.  Do you gice understand that? I know some people believe me and recognize it as being exactly how it works.

I think it might be the conspiracy like the original Greenville conspiracy that now has the supernatural phenomenons.  So let's see if that is the case.

Gice I am not worried about my face problems, just tired of it.  It is okay. Sometimes I do worry but I am okay for now. Drena is right about how some of it is from going stir crazy in my apartment. At least I got a walk in today. I just wish I could have gone to Westchester Square but I will do that soon.

 Pals, this is Refried. It is 1:21 on Wednesday. I talked to Drena at 11:18. I was late. Sorry about that Drena. I am so glad she called me and I was able to talk at least for most of the appointment. I had some major stuff on my mind. I saw another demon last night that looked like a queen and stared straight at me. Pretty crazy. Honestly I could matchmake and get her to be friends with that demon who looked up at me from the book in hell that time. I think that would be a sweet love story. And then my life would be weird with very few converts but a hundred or so demons that were redeemed. Again, I don’t know, but if you consider purgatory and other realms, the timeline for salvation expands.

But anyway thanks again pals from India. You are simply part of the team. We will help the whole world won’t we. 

So okay. That is interesting. Also I think it was two demons disguised as one white bald thing so I need to consider whether one of those demons is still on the loose. Kind of scary. 

My walk to Starbucks was kind of rough. Did I feel fatigue? I think I need to take an iron pill soon.

But what is the real issue. I think it is the heat.

I need to go buy a sheet from ABC.

I just really wanted to get that done but couldn’t.

It is ok. I just don’t know when. What about tomorrow morning. Hmm maybe.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Pals, I just got groceries. It was Instacart and the person was nice. There were a few substitutions but the cheesecake and key lime pie were a success. Now I need to put the ice cream in the freezer. It is Neapolitan. That is ok but I am surprised there was no strawberry but it is ok.

I am thankful for my groceries.

I had to make three trips up the stairs. Karla carried the water so maybe the abuse reports are done for now. I might withhold the complaint against Daniella’s license. I like all the new hires. That is a lot of work from Karla.

So I am calming down. I did a report yesterday and it went well and concluded the main stuff.

Then at night I imagined going to the hospital and having the exact conversation. Except clearly I don’t need to go to the hospital.

Gice when I was a kid I wanted neopolitan ice cream because it was always what was pictured in the cartoons.

I just put it in the freezer. I told the Instacart person it might flood. I tipped her 60 dollars.

I should not tell that should I. Well rattle that around in your pea brain when you judge me. My money went to the working poor.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I got a lot of views on that memory of my teacher.

Pals, my finger is healed.  That weird spot is gone.  Yay, I am thankful. Also the way it healed was normal and not diabetes.

Tomorrow I have an appointment and then I go downtown to get my rent check.

Today I need to take out one bag of trash if I have another trash bag.

I should have gotten groceries but I am being abused at housing again with no elevator for a month.

Pals, can you believe that my finger is healed. Wow, that took a while but it was because it was healing underneath the treatment.

Pretty funny if I went to middle church and showed them the paranochia for a children's sermon.

I am just joking, it is because I was just watching that on the service video.

Pray for Betty Jean because her house burned.

I have been talking to one of my old friends on the phone and I felt spiritual power when we talked about grace church. Way to go Matt. It is so cool when I feel people's spiritual spirits.

So anyway, that is all. I am really sad about nance. This is a weird and sad thing that she is gone.

 Jacqui, I really like your post about whiteness. I really think you are in the heights of philosophy and theology when you write about white.

I am a half and half churcher for echo and middle.

For certain reasons that become apparent sometimes.

I am having some ups and downs at housing but in a way not at all because our elevator is shut down. 

It is good for me to care about people other than myself.

However some people have been misled into a conflict of interest with their service jobs. And this is going to hurt them and I will not excuse it as other suffering innocents are tortured, killed, and abused.

People make their choice and should have a learning curve and understanding about context and peer pressure. However some morality has already been established in history and the human heart. And if people choose the hypocrisy then they will have to face the sorrows.

 Pals, I lost a loved one. An uncomplicated relationship. My first MFA creative writing teacher. Nance Van Winckel. I am really sad and feeling sadder as time passes.

It brings back happy memories too and as I remember her, I can almost convince myself I am in my room during my creative writing program. It is kind of interesting how similar the arrangement of the furniture is to my apartment now.

I will post on facebook and the tribute page soon but it is going to take me some time to think about this. I am imagining Nance with the children’s book animals in heaven, and I think she is a special person there.

She came from a Presbyterian family but was atheist. I believe she is in heaven. She was really funny and something cool about her religious humor is that she didn’t make me feel responsible for her salvation. That is what some people’s atheism is about. It is about torturing people who care about their spiritual life. But I believe Nance was different and connected with me in a religious humor zone. It was very comical.

I think the school might have seen potential in me to be the punk evangelical writer who writes stories where the religious person goes to the strip club to pass out tracts and then scrogs all the people at one time.

But I did not become that. I stayed innocent and my books will be handed to teens from someone who was always a children’s book writer. I mean how cute for all of us. 

I will miss Nance Van Winckel and probably pray to her sometimes.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is July 24 at 3:37. I am not going to the hearing voices group today.  I just don't think I need to be at every group.

I have my next book ready to go but want to review it a little more. It is really good. Some people did not get a mention.  Is that bad or good, I have to think about it.

Also as far as who is going to be heartbroken, that is from their organization.  You supported it, you probably suggested it, and they were happy to do it.  And you set them up for mockery, to think their supposed greatness could be demonstrated through harm. 

I have said all my stuff and I have said it early, so I already named it as it unfolds. Monday I need to get my rent check.  I needed to do that today, but I am slowed down considerably by the abuse, which is the point.  But they do want that money, don't they.  And yet it weakens their argument that it is all charity.  So hmm, what are we to do but count on other people's racism and blindness.

Anyway I think they thought I would already post some stuff but I had more ideas, didn't I? Because it is never-ending as long as I stay alive. So as you try to escalate me, what is really escalating? Your abuse until it becomes undeniable in front of a crowd of God's actual people as opposed to your dirty supporters.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried.

The Bridge made me feel bad again. But I have two options to stand up to it and will do that soon. I got some good secret messages also.

Tonight I should cook the sausage. It is too bad I don’t have cheese but that is okay. I could cook the shrimp but I think I am going to cook sausage.

I don’t plan to get in a back and forth with the bridge. Just report every time. I mean this is what happened with the last racists. And they were sent away.

Should I cook the shrimp since it is easier. I think no. I think cook the sausage. At nine oclock.

And order the three books to send to Tristan. 

And work on the new project. 

The praying isn’t the same when I don’t have the posts running in India.

I am also going to have to say that some people want to argue that this kind of racism is what some people have dealt with their whole life. And for some that may be true but for most, guess what. I know that it is not true and that me and most of the people I know never did this to anyone. And it was quite the contrary from millions of people.

Anyway I could go on but I have already said stuff at other times.

Well, that is all. You want me to post that photo but it is going somewhere else.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday at 10:50 am.  I need to go get my rent check but I have a few days so I am thinking I will go tomorrow.

I think today I will mail the books to Tristan from amazon. At about 3 pm.

Other than that I will try to clean my apartment some.

My ad boosts were a success.

There was a mysterious comment that was probably insulting but I think really the page is doing well.

I think I should do some more videos for the question show.

Today I have comedy. I might try to think of some more jokes ahead of time.

Well, have a good day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Wednesday, July 22. I knew today would be a kicker but I did not expect what actually happened.  I don't know if I should say anything about it.

But maybe an update is needed.  My report about the elevator was successful.  I do not know what the outcome will be, but my report was accepted an forwarded to a higher accountability.

So I think that is all the post for now on that page.

The montefiore people did not visit me at Grab and Go because they did not want to be featured.

I was a little pushy getting off the shuttle but sometimes you just have to go ahead and not be too excusing.

What else. I got some good snacks.  That is nice. I mean I got snacks at the hospital also.  

I have really been aware of people suffering. All kinds of stuff. 

So I am okay for now and need to email the comedy coach.

I will try to do that at about 6:30. I need to rest for a second.

 Hello everyone, today is Tuesday, July 21. There is a storm warning for later and possible flooding.  I guess I will probably stay inside now. I went to Burger King a while ago and 7-11 to get milk. I felt that the worker was of a certain caliber that the soldier reminded me of.  I am careful not to say things like that too often but I don't think people realize how good some workers are in their context.  

I got a huge jug of milk so I will probably eat some cereal later. I am glad I could get some coffee and I saw two pals on my trip.  Sometimes I do have a good neighborly feeling so let's not forget that when I get targeted by harrassment and racism.  Also everyone, they are in on the conspiracy. 

There are other things to say but I don't need to commentate on every single thing that happens.  Maybe in heaven I will give lectures about conservatism and liberalism.

My facebook pages are doing well. I am thankful.  I can't tell how racist that guy is who commented. His profile is suspicious but I saw nothing wrong with his comment. And I deleted that other one.

I got good sleep last night and had an interesting dream with two teachers from yore.

I will check on my videos. Are people proud of me for spending less? Or do they think I should have used that new card.  I just think I have to be macro and not mega. 

Well, have a good day everyone.  

 Writer pals, I fixed that meme, sorry about that, it just took some time to get it right.

Gice I boosted those posts and it was the right thing to do. I can see some posts to boost next.

But I have to wait a while because of the cash.

My phone is showing different numbers than the computer. Facebook does that sometimes, I mean who knows, it might still say zero on some pages.

Now I am going somewhere and I hope I stay safe!

 Hello everyone, here is my other blog that has some new posts: https://refriedbeanblog5.blogspot.com/

I kind of talked too much in bible study tonight to try to impress the new person.  Well that is too bad but the bible study leader said that the teaching that we all in some way killed christ is not true.  The actual teaching is that he died voluntarily and would have done it for any of us. I mean I am not sure that is true. I think quantity was a factor and things are what they are.  

But anyway I had a good day and listened to good music.

Also I finally cooked the fish sticks and made a good sauce: mayonnaise, soy sauce, and honey. Try it with Gorton's frozen fried sea food.

Also: parentrified children.  What about youthministerfied children or socialworkerfied children.

Also, I posted that "fecebook" meme.  Kind of in bad taste and yet this parasite problem is causing me to see too many photos online of people sitting on toilets. 

 Pals, this is Refried. I am unfortunately a liberal.  What I just posted in front of Egyptian audiences has no excuse except New York City dirt grime racial activism.  And yet that was what I was standing up to.  And yet I know God approves of all this online stuff I do.  And he stood up for me with the great elevator scam of 2026. I think everyone is kind of surprised by it. Some supernatural intervention. 

Anyway I posted what I posted for certain reasons and I didn't have to be that brave.  This page is not that brave.  Some of the recent memes were kind of brave. It is not that easy sometimes everyone.  And some of it is not brave but a question of judgement.  And some of it doesn't matter that much. And some does.

Anyway I guess I will also soon post a blog link on my regular page.

 Ok this is an interesting article. I like some of those mean girls so I am hesitating before posting it on facebook. Also I think the speaker girls might actually be a sign of evangelicals moving in the right direction, not furthering the wrong direction.  But this is one of the best articles I have read about it.

https://bekahgwen.substack.com/p/the-mean-girls-of-american-evangelicalism?utm_source=multiple-personal-recommendations-email&utm_medium=email&triedRedirect=true

Ok I took my medicine and thought some more about the elevator.  There is a case for letting them do it and just be thankful for not having worse torture.  But mainly I think it is wrong and it is a hardship and there is an emotional abuse factor. So I am going to email Elizabeth Hanson about it again Monday. 

I am going to list the three abuses: health, financial, and emotional. And the way she can get like an all you can eat buffet effect for any time I want to leave my room or go back to my room is another hit of abuse. But I think they are busted and an omh person came and saw me have asthma on the stairwell during an air quality problem. And the other person witnessed the aftermath of an infection.

And who sees the emotional abuse. Hmm. I do not know but it is probably Drena.

And the fact that I am willing to settle it with a simple rent discount.

However the Bridge is an abusive company. So I have partially agreed to be abused here.

I think some people know that inspection was never that much of a party either.

 Pals, I just discussed the elevator and rent discount option with Gloria and it was very positive. Way to go Gloria. Unfortunately there is still going to be a certain Bronx meme on my Bronx page.

It is a very good meme and will be proven as absolutely true. I think it has already been established by people’s choices and actions. I don’t know what everyone was thinking but the permanent thing has happened.

Anyway Gloria gave me two cookies. Thanks Gloria.

Soon I will take a shower and I think tomorrow is when I do the dishes. I just wish I could cook the yummier food tonight but I just can’t. One day at a time.

I think I will be taking my medicine at about 11 pm.

 hello everyone, this is Refried. I am drinking coffee. I need to wash the dishes and I did find a few new bandaids so I believe I can wash some dishes soon. I made a few videos. I didn’t have the attention span to do five or six. But I think the ones I did are cute. Maybe later I will do a few more. I think my decision to switch back to jokes and memes helped slow down the budget. I mean there simply is not budget to boost the videos. But they are cute and worth sharing.

I feel frustrated with food management but I think once I wash even just the pan then I can cook two dishes: the friend shrimp and the toaster strudels.

I am a little upset about all the racism and persecution. Karla’s bullcrap disrespect for turning off the elevator. Wow Karla you’re so powerful. The new hires must admire you so much. Too bad you cheated your nicest rent paying client and will face a permanent abuse report on your record. Also whoops you’re not in my will anymore.

Who’s next, oh hi Daphne, why aren’t you in jail yet? Because Dr Dalmeus is covering for you? You’re all just so powerful. who can keep from cowering from your overwhelming domination. All you have to do is abuse disabled people and half the country will respect you for the next one or two years before China takes us all as slaves. But I’ll be dead by then, won’t I, because you are murdering me in broad daylight.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am downstairs in my building.  I am doing a load of laundry. I will feel good after I finish that and it is about the 6th or 7th small load this week.

Doug gave me some cold water and he gave me some yesterday too. I feel better and it was defnitely IBS earlier. I mean it is weird how sometimes you really don’t know what it is. People might think I am a prima Donna privilege brat for thinking I might need to go to the ER for nausea but I don’t usually have nausea and it is a bad sign for the conditions I do have. But I figured it out. It is post antibiotic SIBO IBS that is making me sick and really it could be worse.

What should I eat for lunch. I am thinking cereal. My clothes are in the dryer. It is two towels and three shirts and two pants. These washing machines are good for washing stuffed animals because they don’t use enough water except for some clients.

Did my other post hurt y’all’s feelings? Well I am really sorry but when five places are mean to you during a medical emergency then you have to suspect the whole community and systems that got you here.