Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 5:30 am on Monday. I got some sleep and took my medicine and soon I will probably sleep some more. I was just reviewing my list of given books and I am at about 2850 plus maybe 300-400 that for some reason did not get recorded. So it is about 3000 which is a career. 

But I think it is wasteful to not keep distributing. I am sad that I am not more successful and don't have a name that reaches more into lasting literary resources. I think I delivered on that level and was wronged in some way. But I also think that heaven is not that far away and I can look forward to better results then someday.  Maybe with the same books. I have said that before. You just think it won't be you who gets the injustice, but it has been me enough about other things that I should have expected it more.  But at least I passed the time doing something meaningful to me.

I am also sad right not to be repelled by post office problems.  I need to order some more thin books and mail out about three main packages to people. I do not know when I will do that but I might wait a couple of days. Today is June 1st. 

My old facebook ad account has now disappeared so there are about 23 million impressions that I have no record of.  Plus the organic on that.  So I mean that is weird but maybe that is the point is that I already had this whole career for five years and that was that. But I think I might try to reach two hundred million and yet I am not sure the videos are that meaningful.

Anyway I think I need to express sometime on facebook that I think the conspiracy has been cruel to me.

I mean should I finish up with this book hobby. And say that is that. And do something else. I just am not sure there is anything else that I can do. Except maybe walk more. I mean I guess keep giving books but some people say people have enough books. Well maybe that is true.

I mean just for people to damage my health and then say it was all a beauty contest. Have fun with that in front of all of humanity. People say, they will all fall for it then, too. I just am not sure that is true.

It is weird that I did not get the social justice people but maybe they were meant to have a blind spot.