Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 4;17 on Sunday, Sept 27. I think I will go sit outside again after I write this blog post. I just read some of a book and I think it was interesting. I also cooked a frozen pizza and it is yummy.

My church service online was good today. I feel that when evangelicals do well, there is a certain pattern of lightness and kindness that is a good presentation of christianity.  Like it is easy and nice and should be, because most of the people are carrying their crosses during the week and need some relief.  And then the other people who never got told, hear something comforting.

I ate some apple jacks earlier and had a coffee and a half.  I am using the decaf some so really I can do an extra.  Later I have a bible study and that is all.

Today I talked on the phone with my mom and we had a good conversation.  She is doing okay after hip surgery two weeks ago. My friend Reco McGhee died but I think actually he was more my sister's friend and Reco Wilson was my friend. And yet wait a minute I think I am confusing Reco with someone else and there are three Recos. Ok I am suddenly a little bit sadder because I did know Reco Mcghee.  So who is that other guy from my sister's class? Wow I did love all my pelham road pals.

Ok I need to go sit outside some more. It is just too warm in my apartment but it could be worse but I don't appreciate it. I think this storm we had could have been much worse even for the places that got hit harder. I mean we could have had a hurricane.

So anyway, does anyone have any thoughts? I am going to pass out books in the park soon I think. But tomorrow is the PPG retreat. Wow I guess take a shower and wake up early for that.  And take an iron pill soon. well have a good day, everyone.

 pals, do you like the new memes? I think they are pretty funny.

It is kind of warm in my apartment but I feel ok.

It is raining outside but not that bad.  

I don't feel that I urgently need to take my medicine righ this second. I am thinking about 4 am.

I need to revisit my friend's post. 

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Sept 26 at 5:30 pm.  Today was not the Toastmasters meeting so I did not have to give a speech. Just now I did laundry and it went well. I think I will have a coffee soon. My room is a little bit too warm but it could be worse. I do not know why it is so warm. Did they turn off the air? That is not cool but it could be worse. Possibly it is a power play, to make us uncomfortable when people have to work in bad conditions. When I say things like that, people think I just made it up, but a lot of stuff in New York and mental health is about power.  And I feel sorry for a lot of people who shame themselves instead of serving others.

Anyway, I have said a lot about that stuff in other posts. I just am glad to have some clean clothes and I only really have three other chores I need to get done this weekend.

I hope there won't be any flooding left for Monday's event.  The pastors, priests, and guides retreat.

Do people like my new poems? I think I might have a few more that I could post from the blog.  But I am not sure they are good enough but I mean maybe why not. I mean, maybe find some more jokes from the books that I have not made memes for yet. But really there is plenty on the page already. And then maybe I could get another year out of it with about thirty from the books sometime.

Are people mad at me for hiding those questionable jokes? Well I just feel like hey why worry about it.  I mean honestly I think it is okay either way.

Should I make some new groundhog memes or something? I think I won't. I think I need to rest from this week.  Possibly I will watch cooking videos or something. I could read some of my books and consider how I feel about the quality. 

I might go outside later if it is not raining. But that might not be smart but I think it would feel better.

Well have a great day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, Sept 25. I am thankful for my life and the coffee I am drinking. I am also thankful for shelter, electricity, and running water, etc. We are about to have a storm in NYC and there could be some flooding.  There have been about twenty weather incidents in the past few years where I have been thankful to be a disabled person who can stay indoors. 

I am not able to say how thankful for everyone who helps me survive which is a lot of people. There are tax dollars involved so it is a lot of people who probably don't feel a lot of credit for what they have done.

I think I am supposed to give a speech tomorrow at Toastmasters. Soon I need to take my medicine and get some sleep. But I think I will write a script for the speech and plan out the order of demonstrating canva.  Because that is what my speech is about.  Using Canva. One reason I need to prepare is so I don't suddenly say something religious at the wrong time. I think I will tell them that during the speech. 

Now do I write it tonight or tomorrow morning.  I am thinking stay up for a while, work on the presentation, and then sleep later until like 11 am tomorrow.  I think I need to rest for a while though because I felt some heartburn. So I will try to feel better and then prepare my speech. I think I will use an outline and maybe do it my own way first without using the tutorials as much.

But I can see how a script is not what I need. I need to do an outline. Anyway I think I did not talk to Ravneet today. I hope she will be okay in the storm. I was online or talking to phone a friends for nine hours today. I think that is good for me but I feel kind of busy.

Something else that makes me happy is that I prayed a lot for that guy who sang the Pledge Allegiance to the Lamb song at FCA that time. And now I think he is blessed because his offering resulted in an interesting outreach to Algeria and some other countries.  And the number of people who will see the video I made with that song is going to be about the number that fit in a USC stadium. I think that is sweet. And you do have to say that the reason I know about that song is because he sang it that time.

I mean frankly you also have to say that is sweet of the facebookers to participate in the conspiracy.

Well, that is all for now. 

 Hello everyone, I had such an interesting dream last night. The dream had a lot to do with the medicine daydream thing and I went to a new college and made friends and there was a simon and garfunkel concert but I was wondering if they would be back together in heaven and then there was a new setting where I went to the mountains and this building was going to collapse but people were trying to get the food out from a convenience store and then sit somewhere that they could be safe and there were some homes that were too dirty inside and two friends had written a children's book and then someone from Doctors Without Borders said I needed care for that old medicine problem.

I mean that is the series of things and it was important in each dream that I had that medicine problem and it made the dream kind of interesting and real.  

But people have helped me with that stuff that happened but this was still an interesting dream.

So anyway, I think my video is doing really well on facebook and some people are appropriately like WTF, but I think also my thought that a certain culture would like it is true.  Like it is not an offensive video. Like all it is is a nice picture of Jesus, a bible verse from genesis, and then nice animals fighting snakes.  And the song that is a cheesy evangelical song.  Do you guys think I should have cut off the chorus part? I mean I do not know, I think it fades better into the background for the intro.

So anyway, I will probably do some other videos sometime.  

I mean to me, there is something theological to consider, which is the idea of animals fighting actual snakes as a revelation and witness of Jesus Christ. And how a lamb is their captain. And he is a literal lamb. Like there is an animal identity thing in the bible.  The wolf thing in Isaiah, the lion and the lamb, it is all real stuff, like possibly people have animal combos that make them who they are.

So anyway, the book of genesis, I mean you gotta love it. When I was a kid I loved it and was so excited in sixth grade when we read about the tree and the garden and I remember the actual paragraphs in the bible, like reading it, and being like yes, this is it, the snake and garden, Adam and Eve. Because you hear about it as a kid and then you learn it and it is a cool story and God knows it.  And you aren't blinded by deception by first hearing about it in a literature class where they call it a myth. You know it is true.

So anyway, that is all.  I feel okay. I had to remake my coffee and really I should go buy milk. I think the storm is not starting yet.

But I kind of feel an okay safe feeling. I don't mean that literature classes did so bad. Most literature classes were very good for many years.

Pals I am sad I could not stay longer at the poetry thing last night but hopefully I will be back. It could be a very frequent social life there. Also the zoom presentation was a good experience so it worked out okay.

Well have a nice day everyone.

 Pals. This is Refried. I kind of want to go buy some milk but I am not sure it is that safe. I might just use ice cream for a couple of days for coffee. 

I just made some coffee so I think I will in fact just use what I have for the next two days.

Today was good but I was tired and had some worries sometimes.  But I think I am okay now and I got some sleep and made an appearance at a poetry thing and then picked up some chinese food which is rare for me, and then I attended something online that made me feel a little better about using ai.

I missed a comedy coach session with Carolyn and I do not know if I just didn't do right or if we will meet next week. I think it has been okay and just right and tracks along as I think of jokes which honestly sometimes is at a slow pace.

The thing with the video and interpreting the animals as different people: I mean I could be wrong about who is who.  I think it brought back some of my problem feelings but I got an email suggesting that my suffering as a loser counts, too. I mean that is how I see it and it does help me to see that.  I think it is an example of the displacement strategy from cognitive behavioral therapy. 

Pals I was so sleepy when I woke up but I got three good hours of sleep. 

What about the video? I paused it and restarted it.  I felt like some comments were powerful. Possibly part of the population for it is more like america than the India pals.

Well, have a good day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I feel better after drinking that coffee and having a train that was not crowded. I think it was a reward because I did not pick up food and snacks to take home. But they might have just been nice to me because they know I had a rough time making the video.

But I feel good about it.  I can see the video with no sound and it is okay. And I think it makes enough sense but is just the usual facebook material. I also think I repurposed it enough and it is good content.  

I think it will be at 100k thruplays, which was my goal.  The views is low, like three times that, but really that is okay too and reminds me of my poems and jokes page followers.

Thanks for the support, everyone. I guess now I will catch up on sleep for a while.