Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just woke up and had interesting dreams. Then I called my mom but have not heard back yet but hopefully she is doing fine. She does not keep her phone next to her and I told her she needs to but I think it is probably okay. A caregiver is coming to be with her at about one oclock.

I am microwaving some coffee.  I might go walk and get some milk but I could wait until tomorrow. I am getting harrassed more in the streets and yesterday I had to call 911 for something and the guy came after me and I said okay I won't call but 911 was still on the phone so when he went to go keep hurting that other person then I finished the call and the security people handled it.

But anyway about four people got in my way on purpose on that post office trip.  But it wasn't that weird but I will be calling cops more often I think. A guy flashed a knife in my support group and I think that was meant towards me but I am not that worried. I just know I am entering a new time where I am not safe.  But I really feel that I do not die until I am 53. And we should all be interested to see what happens.

Probably at about 3 pm I will go to starbucks or something. I mean I do not know if stuff is still happening that is important but I feel like I mostly just completed some stuff.  I think today I should make some videos. But I do not know when I will boost stuff because I need to wait until my new card gets here.

Wow I can't believe it, the books and the new card. That is exactly what I needed. I don't know who all will get the books but I will keep contacting friends because some facebookers did not get one.  Also the indigo girls but they are on tour. And EB.

I think I am okay with my third essay. And I think that Shemaiah will read it if I want her to but I don't think I need that. I think instead she is offering for me to have a good time and actually do the prompt.

So maybe Monday I will work on that in my creative writing group. I am blessed and God takes care of me and my family. It bothered me when Anne sounded mad when I said I supported her going to the beach. But I thought she might like to know that was my opinion.

 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. My new book is ready except for the Kirkus review. I don't really know what to do about that because it will be hard to wait another month.

Someone was nice to me today. Thanks Caitlin! Caitlin accepted an email from me in a good way. I really appreciated it and did not assume that kindness.

I did a book cover. It is okay. Possibly I should have used canva googly eyes.  It is not too late to fix it but I am not sure. It kind of is reminiscent of bopscotch.

I think I will call my mom again. I mean I do not know. Should I call my sister? I could imagine my sister going crazy right now because she had to get her family ready for the beach.  Possibly her kids have friends going with them.  So that meant less flexibility.  But to me beach trips can wait.

Ok let's try to chip away at inspection some more.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, May 22 at 9:08 am.  I am cleaning up for inspection. I took three bags of trash out and will do the bed and counter soon.  There are no dishes. I might tidy up the table. I am glad I did laundry this week, too.

My mom texted and she is doing well. I am waiting to hear what her discharge plan is. They waited to see how it went before assigning her care from either a facility or home.  She said they recommend home care. I think my sister will be there soon and will take her home.  Anne wants to leave and go to the beach tomorrow. So this is the mid air trapeze scenario where someone, not me, needs to figure out a plan.  I think my mom is relying on the hospital to tell her what to do.  It is possible that she will arrange it herself.  I just feel like it should have already been scheduled weeks ago.  And I also feel like as much as it seems like I got the easier deal to not be there, my family has shown some disregard for my social work license by being the neglectful bumbles that they are. Like I really do have to worry about my mom being set out on a bench in front of the hospital without a ride home.

Anyway I had a most interesting dream where two people were helping me with AI and we could all imagine stuff and it would come true but there were always these characters with video cameras watching us and waiting to see what we would do.  And I felt that I needed to not overdo it with the AI because of these people's other relationships. So that is interesting. It was kind of supernatural and I do not know what it means. Possibly this is in fact a key day that God is doing stuff on.  And the way the hip surgery did get rescheduled after I fell and caused that plumbing problem.  I will call mom in a little while.

I saw a person in the hallway and I wondered if it was a bad person from one of the racist networks trying to take away my license. She was knocking on another neighbor's door. Well I do not know.

 Hello everyone, my mom's hip surgery went well. Now I think is the challenge where they have to work out some care and what is going to happen? 

I feel better today and had a hard time calming down last night after some angst.  I called a friend and we talked about our other friend who is having problems and this friend also kind of got riled up about me and my legal inquiries. So that is weird.  Anyway, this morning I am eating leftover food and I got messages from my sister, had interesting dreams, and am okay.

I also feel like I made some more lawyer friends and yet there is something different which is that I think that person yesterday might be my actual lawyer if anything happens with the books. But I think they might think that I can expect a good path forward without much problem unless there really is a problem.

Like possibly other people's lawyers will also know they don't have a case against me. So that is weird.

I will drink some coffee now if I have milk that is still good. I just read my new book and I think that soon I will write the essay about liberals and then after that we are just waiting for one thing which is the next kirkus review.

Well, that is all, everyone, have a good day.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. Today is Wednesday, May 20. I just had a legal consultation and it went great. I asked all my questions.  However when I emailed them to thank them, I realized that there was some unfinished business. So I don't know if I did okay. That might be how it works.  I mean I think I might have gotten a B this time from law school.

I think the remaining issue is that even if they keep me as a client, they might not defend me from defamation accusations if they read my stuff and think I was wrong. So they were not promising that.  But they did confidently, assuredly say that truth is the absolute defense. That helps me a lot.

I think we are on good terms and they answered literally all my questions about literary law. I mean it is kind of weird, how this whole thing has been a haggle shuffle and you think it's one thing and then there is the real issue.  But possibly the main need in this situation was on the phone and they helped me immediately.  I mean that is really impressive.  The experience was better than I expected.

I mean I am a little shaken up because I think I have to start over if there is another problem. But there is not another problem. And I think that how it works is that if there is another problem then I will have money from an audience and then you just pay the lawyers and they do the best they can if they remotely think you have a case. So this brings us to the fact that I think I know how it works and I don't.

Alright, here is the other issue.  My mom doesn't have her after care arranged for her hip surgery which is tomorrow. I do not understand why it is not settled and planned. My parents were never stupid people and now my mom is one of those stubborn fools who is impossible to take care of. I am sure my sister will handle it fine. She has 48 hours to find the right place for mom to recover. I think they should choose a facility over caregivers. But why isn't that done? I want to say I am tired of being tortured, but at least I am not there. My mom told me she did not wish me to be one of the caregivers.

Ok I have to go to a meeting now. I might come back and edit some of this. 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 12:24 on Monday night or Tuesday morning. Some crazy stuff happened today. I was on my way to comedy class, thinking about recent wheeling and dealings, and stumbled upon another issue in my mind. So then I made a phone call and got a good response. And then as I walked to comedy class, there was unexpected construction equipment everywhere around Lincoln center area, like for blocks and blocks, and I started coughing and gagging. Like wretching with no end in sight to the chemical problems. But I kept walking and got away from it and finished what I was working on. And then felt some feelings of excitement and relief, because I think God has just done another surprising switch up where what I really needed was provided amidst a disguise of other horrible issues. But it is not over and I have to type up some stuff tonight. But I expect it to be light and momentary.

I thought I might not be able to make it back to my comedy class but I was able to and worked on some new jokes. It didn’t go that well but actually I have enough for a great routine and am almost done. So that is exciting and I am friends with everyone in the class. And it feels different now, like I have recovered from some of the torture from the past three years. I mean how weird but maybe I can really stick with this hobby and have a community.