ok pals, three new memes are dropping tomorrow, possibly tonight but I want to ask a mentor about her opinion on one. How is the skin spot, you ask? Better, not swollen, smaller red area, but still not back to normal and this was 2.5 days. So let's see, two more doses and it is three days, really 3.3.  And to me that should do it and the rest of the doses should be to just do right for the finish up.  And yet I question if there is something not working, which means I need to find that other tube.  Which I should do anyway. I saw it go under something. But I can't remember and I have checked everywhere. I checked under the treadmill, under the chair mostly, under the bed, on the table, most of the chair area, near the wall, but I have not done perfect.  So possibly I will do another search. I don't expect any kind of visit anywhere tomorrow, even online.  I kind of understand the idea of treating each random thing as it happens instead of going onto a lupus tangent.  But it would have helped if I had known that low iron can mess with the skin like this and it also matches lupus symptoms.  Because I did have a lupus attack from that spicy food.  And it was not a joke either.  It had near symptoms and people are like tra la la we don't believe you.  

Why would I malinger lupus. I am a schizophrenia person. I would exaggerate my actual disorganization and dementia if I wanted more attention.  Which I do want more attention.  But to me, lupus is not the best path to that at all.  

But anyway it is great that I have had five years since figuring it out.  And I have eaten almost normally.  But the medicine problems for psych meds were not a happy thing.  And why the abuse, I just don't understand.  Is it to prevent some kind of survivor guilt? I have said before I don't agree with that.

But anyway maybe that is it.  I just don't think it is.  I think there really are nazis at the hospitals.

But anyway, time to rest a while. I like the new memes. I could post them but I just think I should do the wise thing and ask someone's opinion first just to guess reactions out there.

 Gice I saw a funny video which is a Saturday night live actress on focus on the family and she is just like she was on the show. So maybe that will be my cast in heaven when I do sketch comedy. I mean I am not trying to assume. Maybe I will have different buddies but I think that is my true genre when I don't have depression.  I think that would also mean I won't be a guy but I will be myself the way I am now but not oppressed.

So anyway, that is interesting. Gice today was kind of an off day with not much done. I made two weak videos, attended mensa, which was nice, and talked to my friend Philip. That made me feel a lot better and I think he had ups and downs lately too.

I guess I could have called two other phone a friends. But I don't know, I think it is okay to be more normal with phone a friends and not have a crisis feeling to it all the time.

So anyway, does anyone have any thoughts about the recent events?

I think I need to call my friend Liz.  I think I will do that now.

 Hey everyone, this is Refried. Thanks for reading my blog. I had a rough month and it is described in the next thirty posts or so. My skin had two infections and some other random splotches as well. It is probably from lupus. It is weird to have another disease and everyone is in denial but possibly some people have kept an eye on it.

Something unfortunate is that I got bullied for three years by mental health workers and my medicine got messed up. It hurt my health and I went in the direction of diabetes. But we reduced the offending medicine and wow it’s magic, I am ok again. I am still on 20 mg of the offending medicine so I wonder what would happen if we fixed the medicine back to where it obviously should be.

Anyway I am thinking of walking to the 7-11 area to get a calzone. And I could pick up corn chips for a corn dip. But that would be salty so I am not sure that is good. But I think it would be a good use of four groceries plus chips.

I just feel like the medical people let me say mrsa mrsa mrsa mrsa publicly for a month when it is not mrsa and it is probably from lupus which was aggravated by stress from people who did it on purpose. 

Gice I think actually there might be a spiritual battle component that I have assumed was already intervened upon and it isn’t. Like there is going to always be opposition to everything I do. 

Did you guys see that lawyer who made himself known when I told Karla I thought it might have been from the hospital? Like he crept out from behind the corner two feet from me with his little lanyard. What a loser. The hospital factor only helps my case because those bullies are doing the same abuse.

And why was that lawyer there? Because he knows we do have a legitimate case against them worth 500k in a better society. And guess what. You will pay with your reputation in classrooms 400 years from now. 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 4:54. I just took out some trash and looked for a missing medicine. I saw the tube of trisulf ointment when it went out of sight but I can't remember where it is. It might be between the bed and the wall. I think that is where it is.  

I will try again to find it later. Just in case I need it. I just am not sure this other stuff worked.  I think it would be gone by now. But it is lessened. And then I am not sure I trust the sight unseen assumption about the left arm. I think if the right hand is mrsa then the left arm is another patch of it.  And I got it because the germs are still in my room.

But I also think I have skin problems because of lupus and the Latuda aggravates it and everyone thinks that is okay and it is not. And you think it is okay that you were trying to give me diabetes and it is not.

What is wrong with you people.  I guess I will rest soon. Will I walk to Starbucks or is it asking for trouble. I mean you could say what good would come from a walk to Starbucks other than some racial incident.

Anyway I will rest soon. The good news is my a1c is back to normal and my blood sugar too. I mean what a bunch of bullcrap it was to be overmedicated. I think I should protect the medicine and move away if they try to hurt me again.

But gice I think the muciproxin is working.

I tried calling a friend but the phone did not ring.

Well have a good day everyone.

 hello everyone, this is Refried.

I went and got the aquifor for my other arm.  I think it is a sign that they know it is lupus.  Because that is for general skin problems. And for skin that is hungry for something so it eats a bacteria.  And my skin wants minerals.  So I bought some Honey Nut Cheerios as well. I am so happy because I used my OTC card successfully. So that is good. Soon I will apply the auquafor.  I also need to mop the floor soon.  Because another resident bled all over the stairwell and elevator.  And I think they didn't even call 911.  Maybe after he left the building.  They told him to walk to the hospital. I called 911 too. 

I need to acclimate myself to less care as if I did not live near two hospitals and an urgent care.  They are racist there so I need to not go. It will just cause more problems. So online only.  Maybe go to ER at 68.  Honestly I don't trust them totally anymore either. I don't understand this process and who it benefits.

But anyway at least I have a doctor but there seems to be something about it where there is a built in argument that you don't deserve a doctor.  So we create a wait list effect for a student.  That is satisfying the heart appetite of a right winger.  I mean why are the doctors so compliant with that.  Maybe because they are the ones being cheated by the socialism.

It is actually maybe a little bit worse than just plain socialism. But at the same time, the taxpayers are paying for medical care. So maybe I should get a taxpayer to sue when they try to make it equivalent to me not having care. I mean I could do that now with montifiore.

Anyway this is a skin disease. I guess we will see if it is lupus. I mean why so slow I do not know.

And yet I think maybe Dr. Rojas did know it was lupus and that is why she was paying attention to the ears so much.  Because of kidneys.  You think I don't know but I do.

So anyway. I think this cream for the other staph is working okay. I think it is on the three day success and not 2 day.  If it is not okay in three days I might pay some people a visit.

Well, I am not doing that much other stuff right now anyway. I could go to the grocery store or something. But I can't eat that date appetizer because of my food allergies. So that is sad. I mean I knew that was a thing and they were like how do we say this, we don't care.  We care about one thing which is defeating whitey and you are the only whitey we know right now.

 hello everyone, this is refried. I think the of course you don't have lupus game is over soon. 

I guess I need to read up on it. This is probably a flare. The anxiety, the skin, the fatigue, and that headache symptom a couple of weeks ago with a neurological effect too.

It is classic.  So that is what the low iron is about.  I just think a colonoscopy charade is inappropriate. like is that what has to be ruled out before you can say what is obvious.  I mean come on.

Like we have to do something invasive before we acknowledge what you told us five years ago.

So anyway, I just don't understand. It reminds me of schizophrenia.  like how people think I am supposed to have no rights. People with lupus are supposed to have no diagnosis.  And it is once again really about the autism.

I do feel better about the skin stuff because of figuring that out. I mean wow I told the last doctor that twice. I mean there was every opportunity to investigate it but we will wait until you have a deadly skin infection.

Is it going away. I think it is but I still have some worries but I see how this antibiotic is enough for now and then we can do something more aggressive later if it doesn't work well enough.

The other issue is that some of the health problems are from Latuda or the other extra antipsychotics prescribed as a response to the abuse from 20-30 racists in mental health or health jobs. Your solution is to make me take more medicine, and it has clearly damaged my health. And you thought no one would notice and everyone would side against the schizophrenic autism person, but God has shown you to fail.

The correct medicine is 600 trileptal and 1 mg rispderal.  And anything else hurt me. Your trazodone, your little add ons to medicate your medicine, your monitoring of my skin because you ruined it, I mean I do not know how you people keep a straight face. How you let me seem dirty with mrsa when it is your treatment that is dirty. Your notes, your records, your career, and your life.  Just disgusting racism is all you know and do. A mob of racists, busted by God in front of everyone, and still trying to peddle your lies and poisons.

And soon your main task will be giving people their euthanasia medicine. It was what was in your heart all along, to destroy people's lives and get paid for it. It will be celebrated in universities as the answer to the police brutality against black people.  The people who get all the tax dollars from grants will give their self righteous presentations praising the mass euthanasia of all the disabled and depressed white people in New York hospitals.