Pals, it is kind of not cool to take someone else’s email and post it but this is from the comedy thing I went to and it makes me really happy. And remember last time I let everyone down. Also my friend Angela Cerilio died and I let her down but before that I didn’t let her down and I visited her. She is in heaven now and has relief from a rough time at the end. I kind of am glad I didn’t follow up because I don’t think I could have handled it or visited again. But anyway some blessings are still happening even though I have had some problems in the Bronx. 

Also thanks Dr. Heravian, you are a pal who helped me so much.

 

Pals, I was having trouble uploading images to my blog. Ok so I showed this image to Tita from SCBWI. I think ai “scraped” this guy for one of my blobs. It was probably different enough but I will be a watchdog for this. I am not using ai for writing so far and expect that I am more likely to be copied on both art and writing. So far I have had two questionable images out of about 300. Plus one that was clearly an artists style: that cartoon fruit picture. That is a signature style that probably many people would recognize. In fact it was so obvious when the image was generated that I assumed they had permission and it was like Canva’s graphic design program. The other issue was the mouse that was reminiscent of Despereaux. And yet my mouse rendition was so much cuter that I decided to keep it. I think I beat people to groundhogs too but you know what everyone? Ai is cool technology and I believe we will all work this out. Creative people will be creative and the same processes and principles to protect originality will play out.

 

 Pals, I could make a corn dip: Corn, sour cream and mayo, a lot of shredded cheese, and then heat it up. And eat with Corn chips. Wow, that is cool.

Gice one of my friends from Iq societies made an Ai version of himself for people to talk to.  I mean I guess the idea is to get psychology advice. It is kind of cool but I am actually a little skeptical. Like wouldn't he like to talk to people himself? But I guess he uploaded a lot of content and the ai personality answers questions as if it is him.  I just wanted to really say hello to him and I couldn't.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 

hello everyone, it is about 10:32. I had a dream that lasted a long time and I was at a young life camp and a guy there was on staff and we were with a bunch of volunteers or something and I was kind of trying to demonstrate that I had once been a leader but he was also seeing why I myself was not on staff.  It was really a cool dream and it just went on and on and then my sister was also updating me about her business and I need to call her and find out how it is going.

So anyway I think I am feeling the low iron again so I need to take an iron pill soon. I am glad I got good sleep.  It was a fun day yesterday and a good step towards doing more socializing. 

At comedy there was a funny young Chinese American girl who had a hilarious routine about creating start ups and using her dating life to find new hires.  It was really funny and after the show she said hello and bowed a little when I told her she was funny. And it was a sweet moment that I will remember. 

The people were really funny and I especially liked the MC. He was a young guy, precious, and a cute Indian person. I mean he could go really far as a comedian and was good at improv.  So that was a blessing. I do not know why I felt tortured like leaving and I think I seemed suspicious to the club but it was okay and I met a cool guy named Andy Engel. 

I felt important there because I just applied to an agent who is from a place that helped two of my favorite authors in the past. I am talking about like years ago, major literary history. And I was like wow, what if I get accepted, I would feel important.  But we do not know what will work out or not and I think I can accept if just something went wrong and I did not get a good career with my material. I mean that is kind of unfair but in a way the lottery aspect of creative careers is a real thing for everyone.  And yet if you really do bring it with content then you should have something at least, like musicians who play in bars, like they still get to be musicians and people do like their music and recognize it.

So anyway, I am often thankful for my coffee shop life in Greenville.  Not everyone has that.

Well, that is all everyone, thanks for helping me get through the weird time. I might go downtown and get the medicine. My face looks a little better. It is just weird for it to be the worst ever during this conference. like what is the meaning of that but possibly it was done on purpose by the mental health abusers.

Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Sunday, Aug 2. I had a nice day and went to my friend's comedy class show.  It was great and there was an amazing surprise which was that Jon Stewart was there.  Can you believe that? And there were several people who might have gotten discovered.  So that is great.  I forgot to tell him hello. 

I wanted to tell him my favorite joke of his and could not remember it.  But now I do remember it.  It is when he said Bjork was not at the Oscars because Dick Cheney shot her.  Man that was hilarious.  Because of that swan dress which I also did like.  So that was great. I am going to see if he has a website.

After that I went to Gemini diner and had steak and eggs and it was great.  I talked to my friend Katie and I think she is a match for middle church.  It is really sweet and her religion is healthier than mine so that is kind of interesting. It made me kind of question some of my religious habits, like maybe there is more that I don't understand well than I realize. 

Have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, it's me again. I just need to reiterate how sweet Dr. Oouyang is. The notes are really sweet and I hope that this positive can help me get through a bad time with this problem.  

I need to rest and then go do laundry. I do feel tired. I think I am not manic and have gotten plenty of sleep lately but am worn out from psychological. I mean it is psychiatric actually. But I am okay and not seeing any more visions so far. But that is fine.  That is not really the issue.

The issue is I am going crazy in this apartment and fell behind on chores a little.  And yet not that bad, just some trash to take out and laundry.

Also a friendly face from Mensa.  Some nice people who supported me.  That is nice of them and humble. They took a beating sometimes but I am one of them so we are in it together in terms of seeking credit for a test score from high school that is partially a measure of privilege. I mean just admit it. We read books.

So anyway. Will I do laundry now or at like 6 am. I am thinking at about 2 am. And I can use the elevator so that is really nice. I think another thing is bothering me is that there are some flies and bugs in my apartment. But I have fly paper. So that is not out of control either.  I think my schedule is clear this week so I will clean up if I can.

There was something funny on the notes. People are really creative and I appreciate it. It is fun games and helps Ravneet feel better and be safe too. Is that true Ravneet. Ravneet would say, Well...

Pretty funny. Ok everyone I think we all did okay and this is hard times but let's just get the ideas on paper and it is a meaningful happy purpose. 

I think I am expected to be age appropriate in a certain way which is so crazy. Another creative, funny thing.  But I am saying is that I am an oldie but goody at that organization while also being a child at heart.  And so many of them are like that.  And who cracked the code? People from a long time ago. I mean how sweet and thoughtful. They saw my lonely art appreciation, that did in fact have relief from some stars, and then they cracked the code that I was a children's book person. I mean how sweet.  And I am like, I like Sandy Skoglund and surrealism.  And they are like, this is a children's book author.

So anyway that is happy. Hopefully I won't fall asleep yet and I can get stuff done and be ready to do three socializing tomorrow plus medicine. Yay for anxiety medicine that might actually make me feel better.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I had an online appointment for my face and Dr. Ouyang helped me so much. Thank you Dr. OuYang.  I love all the NYP doctors so much and other medical people too, but people are mean to me sometimes so I can't just go around saying everyone does right. But Dr. Ouyang prescribed me something different than usual and I think it might really help.

So that is cool and at least I have some hope.  But I will also need to use self control. 

Anyway I feel a little better. I think I also need to clean up a little in the apartment and that will help.  And then getting out tomorrow will be good.  And I should go do laundry in a little while. It will be fine.

So what else to say. I do not want to be presumptuous of people if they do not feel mutual with me but I felt a peace from the author Sharon Flake that made me remember teaching days.  And it is reminiscent of the connection I feel with Lucille Clifton for certain reasons and the comfort I felt when Nikki Giovanni died. And I don't know how much to say about it except that I think in some way I am going to sit at the black table for literary heaven. I mean probably I could have kept that to myself and I don't mean it in more thorough ways than it is.  And I do not plan to steal from other people who are those people's Refried Beans, like I am for Ogden Nash, Roald Dahl, and maybe Anne Lamott and a few others. Like what I am saying is the club I am imposing myself on is full of other people's example writers.  But there is something different than that for me that overlaps with my teaching and reading life. I am going to try to send Dr. Tracy a note soon to tell her I met Sharon Flake.  And as for what I have read, shelving is something too, and could be more in some ways. And I do not mean to diminish anything but it was a social peace.  But social peace can also be supernatural but that was a happy time that I had and then maybe I ruined it but I think I didn't. 

People have done a lot for me and I think a lot of people are in for a happy surprise. If you are wrenched by this then you probably have an India on the horizon.  And Africa. So anyway, thanks everyone.

I am going to see if there are notes from my frantic doctor's visit and then I will try to do laundry. I am not sure I have the ticket I need for the comedy show tomorrow but it will be okay. And I should invite my friend Katie to go to the show instead of just meeting up later so what does this mean. Maybe get up early.

Ok there is something I left out but am still thinking about. It is about A.P. and how much like an advertiser she is. So I need to think about some more branding and interpretation.  Also is there a muslim task at hand that is not complete yet even by me. Like maybe I need to be alert to help people.