hello everyone, this is Refried.

I went and got the aquifor for my other arm.  I think it is a sign that they know it is lupus.  Because that is for general skin problems. And for skin that is hungry for something so it eats a bacteria.  And my skin wants minerals.  So I bought some Honey Nut Cheerios as well. I am so happy because I used my OTC card successfully. So that is good. Soon I will apply the auquafor.  I also need to mop the floor soon.  Because another resident bled all over the stairwell and elevator.  And I think they didn't even call 911.  Maybe after he left the building.  They told him to walk to the hospital. I called 911 too. 

I need to acclimate myself to less care as if I did not live near two hospitals and an urgent care.  They are racist there so I need to not go. It will just cause more problems. So online only.  Maybe go to ER at 68.  Honestly I don't trust them totally anymore either. I don't understand this process and who it benefits.

But anyway at least I have a doctor but there seems to be something about it where there is a built in argument that you don't deserve a doctor.  So we create a wait list effect for a student.  That is satisfying the heart appetite of a right winger.  I mean why are the doctors so compliant with that.  Maybe because they are the ones being cheated by the socialism.

It is actually maybe a little bit worse than just plain socialism. But at the same time, the taxpayers are paying for medical care. So maybe I should get a taxpayer to sue when they try to make it equivalent to me not having care. I mean I could do that now with montifiore.

Anyway this is a skin disease. I guess we will see if it is lupus. I mean why so slow I do not know.

And yet I think maybe Dr. Rojas did know it was lupus and that is why she was paying attention to the ears so much.  Because of kidneys.  You think I don't know but I do.

So anyway. I think this cream for the other staph is working okay. I think it is on the three day success and not 2 day.  If it is not okay in three days I might pay some people a visit.

Well, I am not doing that much other stuff right now anyway. I could go to the grocery store or something. But I can't eat that date appetizer because of my food allergies. So that is sad. I mean I knew that was a thing and they were like how do we say this, we don't care.  We care about one thing which is defeating whitey and you are the only whitey we know right now.

 hello everyone, this is refried. I think the of course you don't have lupus game is over soon. 

I guess I need to read up on it. This is probably a flare. The anxiety, the skin, the fatigue, and that headache symptom a couple of weeks ago with a neurological effect too.

It is classic.  So that is what the low iron is about.  I just think a colonoscopy charade is inappropriate. like is that what has to be ruled out before you can say what is obvious.  I mean come on.

Like we have to do something invasive before we acknowledge what you told us five years ago.

So anyway, I just don't understand. It reminds me of schizophrenia.  like how people think I am supposed to have no rights. People with lupus are supposed to have no diagnosis.  And it is once again really about the autism.

I do feel better about the skin stuff because of figuring that out. I mean wow I told the last doctor that twice. I mean there was every opportunity to investigate it but we will wait until you have a deadly skin infection.

Is it going away. I think it is but I still have some worries but I see how this antibiotic is enough for now and then we can do something more aggressive later if it doesn't work well enough.

The other issue is that some of the health problems are from Latuda or the other extra antipsychotics prescribed as a response to the abuse from 20-30 racists in mental health or health jobs. Your solution is to make me take more medicine, and it has clearly damaged my health. And you thought no one would notice and everyone would side against the schizophrenic autism person, but God has shown you to fail.

The correct medicine is 600 trileptal and 1 mg rispderal.  And anything else hurt me. Your trazodone, your little add ons to medicate your medicine, your monitoring of my skin because you ruined it, I mean I do not know how you people keep a straight face. How you let me seem dirty with mrsa when it is your treatment that is dirty. Your notes, your records, your career, and your life.  Just disgusting racism is all you know and do. A mob of racists, busted by God in front of everyone, and still trying to peddle your lies and poisons.

And soon your main task will be giving people their euthanasia medicine. It was what was in your heart all along, to destroy people's lives and get paid for it. It will be celebrated in universities as the answer to the police brutality against black people.  The people who get all the tax dollars from grants will give their self righteous presentations praising the mass euthanasia of all the disabled and depressed white people in New York hospitals.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I took an atarax as prescribed by Dr. OuYang. Thanks Dr. Ouyang. This is almost a week after it was prescribed, but I thought it could help me breathe better and maybe counteract the new itchy spot on my left arm.

It is causing a slight throat tickle making me have to cough a little bit but it is not out of control. Also the breathing is fine. I don't feel that much less anxious. But I don't feel bad anxiety either and am not worried about my breathing.  So it might be helping my breathing.  Frankly when I take a clonazapam I feel suppressed breathing which is a risk.  But it does help with the anxiety which messes up my breathing in its own way.  So possibly it is about time that I started relying more on an inhaler.  Dr. Parik prescribed a new one and I have it ready to use sometime.  Probably I will use it soon because of all the recent asthma and anxiety.

So okay.  There is something else to say. They tried to tell me to get tested for colon cancer but I believe it is not colon cancer. I do not know if anyone already cracked the code and they just are waiting for me to say it.  But I believe it is Lupus. And I told people that. I told them it was lupus.  But low iron can be from lupus and so can skin problems. And skin infections can also happen more with low iron. I mean maybe everyone thinks I was slow with google myself. Kidney stuff is also from Lupus.

But this left arm itch is driving me crazy! However I believe it is from A-1 steak sauce that I ate three times in a row when tomatoes give me excema. I have not scratched the itch all day and it has itched constantly.  But it is probably not mrsa.

However the right hand thing probably is staph again. But it is happening because of low iron. However it is interesting to look around to try to determine causes and see what was out of whack and I was treated like crap at a hospital and had an obvious deliberate problem at housing.

So do people find this funny? Because I mostly don't. But I am kind of relieved. It is because of that Indian food I ate. It was really spicy, I got fatigue, and before you know it, I have a skin infection. I had the headache too, and the neurological symptoms. I mean are we just going to play around with this like it is a fun guess the lupus game for 7 years? Isn't it sweet that Ravneet was the first to know about that?

I am actually a textbook case for this stuff.  I have autism, I had a super immune system that helped me have 12 years perfect attendance, and then I was tortured and my autism was traumatized and now I hum to myself, have asthma and food allergies, and my immune system attacks me. We have a lot to go on as a culture and I just wonder if the autism advances are happening.  At a faster rate there seems to be revenge on white people, starting with the vulnerable.  I hate to say that on a fun lupus post, but I think some schools cannot be trusted. They are creating a new juicy narrative to satisfy people with bad heart appetites, while the truth is more and more obvious as a national devastation for all.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Friday, August 7. It is 3:40 pm. I am doing okay and having a good day. Definitely I have had some ups and downs lately.  Dr. Parik believes that I do not have mrsa. So my new itchy spot, I mean on the left arm, is probably excema or something.  It is where my arm was against the mattress with no sheet above it so who knows, I mean it could be something random but I am just glad for it not to be mrsa. And yet isn't that kind of suspicious? I mean two definite infections and one spot that could be something?

And yet, the staph explanation seems more plausible. I think I did have a stye a month or so ago.  so I might have rubbed it, gotten germs all over my computer, and then it got irritated. I mean I can remember that irritation from laundry. I mean honestly, this next thing that is being treated now could have come from doing laundry also.  I mean couldn't it have? Well I do not know.  

I think it would be beneficial to take the atarax later.  Benedrylficial. I think tonight I will also be taking a poof of my new inhaler.  The fact is that my asthma flared up this summer. It was anxiety and possibly a spiritual factor.  

This evening, maybe I will walk to McDonalds or something. Or is there anything I need at Walgreens? I actually think I need some more coffee.  Maybe tomorrow I will walk to the far away grocery store.

Can people tell that I did lose 5-7 pounds? I believe I did. It doesn't show up in medical visits but at home I am consistently at 199. As opposed to 208-210. So I think I am headed in the right direction and I have not been eating that much. Like I really think I have not been eating as much as some other times.

Anyway, this play by play heath stuff might drive y'all crazy. But that is what has been happening. I just feel like some health conditions are just conditions but an infection is a little bit of an emergency.

Dr. Parik knows the pharmacy did not give me the aqua medicine. So that will be another trip downtown. Gice, to be honest with you, time is going to fly and I probably only have a few years left.  And who knows, it could be sooner than that. We do not know. I mean maybe God is going to try to show everyone that we do not know. And yet Jesus did know exactly, didn't he. And he told people what to expect.

So anyway, do I have colon cancer. I don't think I do but they do not want to be wrong. Low iron is sometimes just low iron when you are 50. But I need to take the iron pills. 

Well, that is all. I think they are helping me be okay. I think they are not mad at me. I mean why was montifiore mean to me, I do not know. It is important to report the things that are serious like that medicine going to the wrong place. 

 Pals, this is Refried. Some good news is that the nice people at a certain publication accepted some of my books as a gift. But I had to tell them there might be germs on them.  But I think it is safe.

But that is kind of sad and weird. However maybe they can get a joke out of it. like putting a disclaimer on your gifts that says "This product is not meant as biological warfare."

Or something like that. Honestly I just have some concerns that I am getting more skin problems and it is a more serious problems that needs cleaning in my apartment on levels I might not be able to do myself.

However it does seem like the antibiotic is working and yet we could have known last week what the culprit was. And no one did a culture. So now I have a new suspicious itchy spot and one that is hopefully healing but we won't know for a couple of days. I just think it is getting better.

But I think I am going to have to log on about this new patch on my arm. And yet it could be a bug bite or excema. I think one thing we can suspect is that it came from the mattress on that spot.  But I got a bug bite nearby and I am certain that was a bug bite. This could be an unscratched mosquito bite. But wow it is kind of suspicious isn't it.

Gice it won't insult me if the books have to go in the trashcan.  

It is kind of funny because of that video they did.

 hello everyone, this is refried. It is Friday aug 7. I am thankful I got good sleep. I just drank coffee. Will I go for a walk today? maybe. I think the medicine is working on the new itchy spot. Also it seems that it was never mrsa but probably staph.  But I personally still don't know for sure.  Let's see if this medicine actually is working or if I am just hoping it is. I think it is. Also what was it that got infected? I think it was a mosquito bite.  Which now I have a bite on my other arm too but it seems like an obvious mosquito bite and I did see a mosquito.  And maybe some people are like, "it's always something."  And I have to say that well, it is always something sometimes.  And I got derailed from a few things this summer.  The elevator, the air quality, the low iron, going to the hospital, and then something that is either from the hospital or possibly from the ocd stress from elevator or the stairwell. My guess is stress plus apartment. And that is a thing. And basically when the housing people abuse me, my health permanently declines.  And I am reminded of the main medicine and health problems from two years ago.

It wasn't that long ago. The Gracie Square visit was 2024. I believe that was march. So two years. I hope Haley calls me today. It might only be if I am a good exercise buddy. So I will check the weather, I mean maybe I will walk to Starbucks.

Yesterday it was so fun to be back at 168. I just love them all so much but I wasn't consistently perfect with my thoughts and behavior. But it was still good and I think I might have felt some good supernatural prayer a few times.  But that was interesting about the OCD urge later and they gave me exactly enough time for it. Wasn't that weird? I think it was okay. And Dr. P got a blobs book.  Why didn't he want a library book or pinnacle of human folly? I mean I do not know.  But maybe they agreed with me that this is not a joke and I do not need to spread germs. I mean it is kind of an interesting impression they got from me. Like hi, I might have mrsa, hi I might have mrsa.  I think they will be nice to me but I will probably be paranoid about racism for the rest of my life.

Anyway I got my tetanus shot, as I requested by email at the mall that time. I do think it is good to stay up to date on that. I think last night when I suddenly didn't feel good, it was because of that.  And I was worried that it was because of the skin medicine. But then I was okay and sat up in bed and could breathe okay and saw some mild visions of random things. Just random people visions that weren't interpretable and seemed related to getting medicine.

But I had a healing feeling too so maybe people prayed.  It makes me want to pray more for the sick and maybe pray for the healers too, like praying for them to pray.  You can boost other people's prayers, I believe that is true.

Anyway I might send in a statement about how I feel like my notes are messed up. But it is okay for now.  I think the doctors think it is okay to just say pre diabetes instead of taking off that other thing, but really there should be no mention. But really I should lose ten pounds if I can and then it is not as much of an issue.