Gice that was a bit much in that next post, wasn't it. I think that is one of the few times I have ever said that, but it makes sense that it is about a googly eyed creature video.

Anyway I possibly hit numbers that are affected by time of the week etc.  But this is still a good reach for these videos.  I just feel like it slowed down a little for some of it.  I think there is more fluctuation for this than the memes. 

But I think it will be around 3 mil for all the posts. That is very good and I am happy with that amount of views. I mean honestly that is not thru plays.  That is just views. But these videos are simple and people can see the creatures and move on.

So anyway, that is good.  Soon I will go downtown to get my rent check. In about an hour. Then I will come back and go to the post office.  Then maybe I will go to Walgreens and get some over the counter iron pills.

My dreams were cool and vivid for the second or third night in a row. I think it is from reducing the latuda. The latuda caused suppression and striving in my dreams and I did not like it. I think I will feel much better and question why all this happened to me.

I need to make sure I keep my mood in check for my trip, because there could be effects from less medicine.  But I think mostly I will just be happier and more normal. And without that intense spiritual hole feeling.

Gice, these videos.  I just feel like the numbers dipped some but mostly it is good and I love the videos. That is fun and other people make videos too so why be selfish.  But I feel my missing friends and the junky media trash on the feeds, it is just horrible. And weird that those problems are so much of what is actually wrong in our country. So much of it is the algorithms and if there was a more friend friendly line up then it would change our lives like original facebook.

Anyway I always say that. Gice as I settle down I can remember the book goals.  I mean the consistent lesson is be thankful for what I have and things will be better in heaven without the problems.

I prayed a lot this weekend and other people can learn to do their share on that. I mean do people not want to have a say in things that can help people, I do not know.  There are a lot of good people out there.

I mean think of all the workers and coworkers who are nice people, and the facebookers who just wanted a laugh like anyone else.

So okay.  my numbers came back from labs.  It mostly seems okay. I believe the iron issue is partially from pantropazole. And maybe signs of kidney lupus. But so far in the clear.

Gice, psych meds, a horrible thing. I did get some benefit from lower doses, but these recent years have reminded me of other bad times, and how horrible it is. I mean being drugged like that, the weight of it, the health decline, the cap on consciousness and personality, the insult of it, the devastation.

Anyway does anyone have any thoughts.  I just thought that the video views were going to be more than the memes but I think we are looking at a similar range.  And that is still great. I mean 200k overnight for the lobster, that is awesome.  But I just notice the frog is not hitting that high as compared to the cost.

But anyway, okay everyone, that is all. Ups and downs, live and learn. Two more days until my trip.

Mostly I am done aren't I, like I lived most of my life. Yoo hoo, Ravneet, do you want to play cards.

Gice I missed another mensa games day, I just can't hack it at this time.

 Gice praise God and Jesus for the relief and hallelujah, the video was approved. I just loved the video and did not want it to get canceled for some reason.  I mean sorry to be religious about it but I am really relieved.  It still probably won't start sharing for a while but it at least has passed the review.

I guess that is also a reminder to be thankful for the other stuff that went well, like the publishing on amazon.  I mean the books did not reach a lot of people, but I at least got copies of the books and was able to legally change my name and advertise.  I think I reached about 600 thousand or even a million americans with the pen name, and it would be very publically unjust for anyone to mess that up.

So I think I am okay.  But honestly it should be like that.  It is my old nickname and it is original to use it.

Gice sometimes I haven't done that well. I think we should all look on the bright side about that.  Like what a mess every thing is but there will some day be a strainer that brings up some jewels and smooth magic stones from our lives.

Anyway, it was nice to see a photo of Sion.  Sion, I don't think I have sent you any books.  Gice I need to get Brian McC's mailing address and send a message to Sharon E.

I can do it, it just isn't easy. I am just aware of Sharon E's church schedule for some reason.  I mean whe might not even want a book but she is on the list.

Gice I just am so thankful that this lobster video is going to reach a lot of people.  It is number three and sometime I will do the mice for the next round of boosts. But I think this is enough for now.  3 and 3.

Ok that is all for now.  Thanks everyone for helping me stay alive. This is a good moment in my life, when the lobster video shares.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 9:30 pm on Sunday, March 15. I made another video and am waiting for it to be approved. I believe it will be my last one for a while. They are taking a long time to approve it.  They took a long time to run one of the other ones even though they approved it quickly.  And the last one took a while to approve but is now running fine.  I haven't checked the numbers but I am sure it is less than the glitter bear.  But I think this next one is really cute and will be popular. I mean it could be classic.

I hope it gets approved. If it doesn't then I guess I will eventually find my way to tik tok. Because come on, I don't need them to ruin this for me. It is a good opportunity.

So anyway is the conspiracy in on it. I think they might be because the creature looks a little bit like a lobster. I just don't understand why I can't have a paycheck for anything.

But anyway my trip will not be easy. I feel tired. I think I need to take my iron medicine. So I will go to the store sometime for that.  Tomorrow morning I will try to go get my rent check.  I think it will be okay.

Gice I just wish that instagram wasn't torturing me with this ad approval.  It is just not nice. It really hurts me. It puts me in a tired state of mind instead of happy.  But I have had some happiness with this so maybe it is okay.  I just feel like it is very exciting because I had thought maybe some day I would work with sesame street to animate the floopydoos and do some mice and now I can absolutely do it myself.  At least if these resources are maintained.  But are the tech people going to be weird about who they let be successful? I mean I do not know. That would be a weird persecution.

Anyway I suspect that in heaven, people get to help create real creatures with personalities and lands and stuff like earth.  Because Jesus helped make earth.  So I bet it is like that. I mean there are probably smart people who create all these eco systems that they figure out and predict, etc.  And God manages all of it.

Anyway it could be hours before I get good news about that ad.  And it is the last one. Why can't this be easy. But I should not complain because last time I was getting upset because I could not download the video but then the canva video turned out cuter than I expected.

Well, thanks for being my friend, everyone. We have sure had a good time, haven't we. I mean honestly, sometimes not.  Well, that is all.  Ravneet, can you please talk to me a lot on my train trip. Thanks.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Sunday, March 15. I just attended church online. It was great, way to go. I am sharing some videos on my instagram page. It is going well. 

I have five hours now before bible study. Maybe I should take a walk. I will also call my friend Philip. Also I should figure out something about mailing books this week.  I have to go downtown and actually my time is limited to go to the post office etc. But maybe get up early tomorrow, I mean maybe skip meds tonight and go at 9 am.  What do you gice think about that. I think that is a good idea.

I think that is what I will do. Right now I am checking the bank account I used for group therapy. I think I have to end it but I should have called during the week this past week.

Gice I keep thinking that things are getting better but I am not sure they are. But anyway what do you gice think about the conspiracy's choices.  I personally am still skeptical about whether it was the best route. I am just not sure. I think possibly some fighting would have been avoided if I was accepted in 2012.

But I do not know. Maybe some of it was other people's participation in the conspiracy.  Today I prayed for Mongolia.  I think my videos should be able to reach them but they probably won't. But I do like India.

Do you gice like my books. I am just tired of other people stumbling upon a few of my ideas fifteen years later than me and having whole careers out of it with the threat to call me a plagiarist.

But it will probably work out and some writers understand my condition. And this is earth and some people are in concentration camps. And for me, I had a joke or two copied but have jelly beans and coffee.

Anyway I did not mean to depress anyone but  are you sure you are doing what you are supposed to when this stuff is happening? 

Anyway this morning I had a dream where I played the Growing Pains theme on the piano.  That is weird isn't it. I think supernatural stuff will happen from the conservatives but it wont be conversion therapy. 

Well, that is all everyone, have a good day.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 3 am on Sunday, March 15.  Soon I will take my medicine.  I think that soon I might be allowed to skip the latuda and only take one mg rispderal and 600 trileptal.  I do not know why housing hurt my life on purpose.  I just don't understand.

But anyway I am tired now. I just need to take the medicine and eat a granola bar and then go to sleep.  But I can stay up late if I want to.  I am starting to feel some fears about my trip but it will be okay.

I mean it is just a train ride like normal. I will pack one bag and I won't take that much with me, maybe literally one change of clothes. And then a grocery store bag for if I get food at the train station.

I mean in a way it might be fun. I am taking a trip. That is fun. It is just not that easy because I also need to email the social work people and it is possible that there will be a snafu.  So maybe email all the certificates to myself in case I have to use a different computer.  I could do that now.

So okay I will do that.  Gice I am going to try to give more books away. I am at about 150 for the year so far. That is good and I might hit 500 total at that rate.

Gice I hope my life changes soon and things get better in a certain way that includes income.  But I do not know if that is the plan.  I just don't know what will happen but I do sometimes feel like I might have gotten most of my stuff done. And yet there could be a whole year of mice videos ahead of me.

Gice do you have any thoughts.

Hello everyone, it is Saturday, March 14. Also known as pi day. I should be praying because I did find a good prayer window with a lot of overlapping people and needs but I got upset about something and was going to come rant on this blog but I actually like those people too. I think I need to think through that some and they might think they have a final word when they don't.

But anyway I decided to get up and type a while. That was fun to do the videos and I will do more but I think something funny is that I expect most of my videos to be very simular to what I already posted. Maybe I can branch out a lot with the mice and have plot scenes that are very specific.

But anyway who doesn't like a glitter bear. That might not get old.  And then blobs. I mean this might be the way to keep blobbing after I started to think I had already imagined all the possible combos.

Ravneet, are you reading this? Hopefully I will be doing better now on less medicine. 

I hope my books sell better soon. I think the idea was to protect the creative process.  

People say why be upset about that and not that. Well I do not know. 

Ok everyone. A lot of people are really having a hard time and have stresses and risks that other people don't have. And a lot of people might go to hell. So okay. Let's pray for people because you just never know when something is going to come from the side and fix that thing that you felt you had a lifelong fight against. 

Ok.  That is all for now everyone. Gice I think my status is the same. Audience is the same. Budget is the same. Gice it was a green light on praying for cash for people. I will do everything I can. Gice I think we are going to get a lot of rewards in heaven. Like almost everyone we can think of is going to get stuff.

I mean am I the only one who wants that? I think some people also want food and shelter. I am like that and did officially ask God to let me opt out of torture and have comfort and food.

So anyway. Gice.  The train trip.  I can do it.  The blob book. Late. It is okay. monday I will mail a few books to people. Then keep some here.

Gice sorry I did not do well today but I kind of did because I made videos.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Saturday, March 14. My video that I boosted eventually did share, and I shared a glitter bear video, too. So that is cool and I will keep working on that. I think I will keep doing still images on facebook and videos on instagram.  That is a fun hobby. It seems that I have to pay to share but the numbers aren't that bad. I will probably share to India sometimes.

It is taking me too long to get a good rendition of the dark purple blob in the silver maze. I should not have to generate that twenty times for a good one when they are perfectly capable of doing something cute. But it is okay and I can be patient. I posted one that is not perfect and has white stitches that are too reminscient of teeth.  But it is still cute.

I mean I think for one thing, get the idea out there, and then I can do both of those series, the glitter bear tunnels and the blobs. So anyway, I like this technology and agree that it is a gift from God. I mean I almost feel it for me personally, like someone like me who just for some reason never got it going with the art software suddenly can generate a cool rendition of any idea I ever have.  

I am going to try to do some mice videos also. Maybe some squirrels, but I do not know.  Maybe some mice eating supper.

I just need to not be too lonely. I mean maybe I am fine.

Well, have a good day everyone.