Pals. This is Refried. Today is Monday. My mom was just nice to me on the phone. Thanks mom.  I took an iron pill earlier.  I think I am averaging every other day now.  But I am not sure it is working and yet it does work some and make the fatigue better.

So okay. The finger infection does look better and yet there are still traces of it and I think there will be traces of it after the full 7 days. But I do not know. I mean maybe it is okay.

I think I forgot my psych meds last night but that is okay. I feel fine. It could help the iron pill be absorbed better. 

Now, to everyone who rolls your eyes when I say lupus. I agree that I do not need another diagnosis. Another illness, another disease.  I already have enough stuff.  But at the same time, I do have the real symptoms that are sometimes serious and undeniable. I am thankful to have gotten another five years in with normal eating except a few foods I had to skip.  That is great and might be enough to hope for.

Gice my room is warm now, is the air conditioning working properly? I mean is it here we go again?

Anyway maybe it is okay.  I am going to try to clean the apartment some today.  Make bed, take out trash, mop floor, maybe tidy books, do dishes, wipe counter.  So the same inspection stuff. I will do that later.

I also have a toastmasters meeting later. It will be pretty fun. I am the grammarian again. I think there is something missing with this role process. I think I need to participate in table topics before being the MC.

So I will see how that goes. I will do the best I can. I think I need to go downstairs and ask them if the air conditioning is on. 

Yesterday I made a corn dip and it was great. Pals I think the air conditioning is not on. Wow I do not need that to start up again in the middle of august.

 Wow, those were good notes. I just added more medicine and I do think it is going in the right direction. In just a while I have my children's book critique group.

I have a section ready, I hope it goes well. 1100 words exactly.

Thanks Patrick and Dr. Zhao.

Thanks Dr. Parik.

It is probably not from my sink, it is from the skin picking and computer.  But also the low iron lupus skin tendencies. The low iron might have to do with Latuda digestion but I don't think it is only that.

So I just need to take my medicine. I have been taking the medicine but that can also add to the exact problem so every other day is best. I mean I have taken it sometimes and the bottle is going to run out some day and people can't say I did not try.

So anyway. Gice.  The new memes.  I need to wait one more day and ask Drena. Claire said don't do it but I think she used to do that other times when it was a definite thumbs up.

I just do kind of believe in this meme and think I have to be brave.  But while waiting to hear from an agent! I mean that I kind of crazy. And I could lose my Facebook account over it.  And yet it is kind of nailing it in a way. I think it could really benefit the discussion.

So anyway it is a maybe on that. Other than that, what is next, calling my mom about copyrights.

 Pals, good news.  Another Dr, Dr. Zhao, thinks it is not mrsa. She prescribed something else but I think I might be able to proceed with the original idea from Dr. Parik.  They think it is regular staph. The other one might also be like that.  The other one was mostly itchy at first, too.  But she just really thinks it is not mrsa. So I think maybe hope for the best.

She told me that it would be strange for doctors not to do right.  That was helpful to me. It both affirms it and does not assume anything.

So I think I will trust these people, I mean what else would I do. Like no oral antibiotics were prescribed, and these are the people I trust. So I think we are okay.

Ravneet, yoo hoo, are you out there somewhere? It seems to just be low iron skin.

Gice I told Dr. Yuan that I might have a skin problem from low iron.

Gice I think we need to stop the latuda. Do we know that the low iron isn't from that? I mean it is probably from the lupus but there are some other factors.

Anyway I might have iron transfusions in the future but Dr. Dalmeus said I could get an injection.

Well, have a good day, everyone. Thanks for being there for me.

I am not going to Walgreens that soon. I think they think the other place is excema.  Pretty funny.

And yet it is not funny because I don't understand how it is not mrsa.

Well, that is all everyone.

 ok pals, three new memes are dropping tomorrow, possibly tonight but I want to ask a mentor about her opinion on one. How is the skin spot, you ask? Better, not swollen, smaller red area, but still not back to normal and this was 2.5 days. So let's see, two more doses and it is three days, really 3.3.  And to me that should do it and the rest of the doses should be to just do right for the finish up.  And yet I question if there is something not working, which means I need to find that other tube.  Which I should do anyway. I saw it go under something. But I can't remember and I have checked everywhere. I checked under the treadmill, under the chair mostly, under the bed, on the table, most of the chair area, near the wall, but I have not done perfect.  So possibly I will do another search. I don't expect any kind of visit anywhere tomorrow, even online.  I kind of understand the idea of treating each random thing as it happens instead of going onto a lupus tangent.  But it would have helped if I had known that low iron can mess with the skin like this and it also matches lupus symptoms.  Because I did have a lupus attack from that spicy food.  And it was not a joke either.  It had near symptoms and people are like tra la la we don't believe you.  

Why would I malinger lupus. I am a schizophrenia person. I would exaggerate my actual disorganization and dementia if I wanted more attention.  Which I do want more attention.  But to me, lupus is not the best path to that at all.  

But anyway it is great that I have had five years since figuring it out.  And I have eaten almost normally.  But the medicine problems for psych meds were not a happy thing.  And why the abuse, I just don't understand.  Is it to prevent some kind of survivor guilt? I have said before I don't agree with that.

But anyway maybe that is it.  I just don't think it is.  I think there really are nazis at the hospitals.

But anyway, time to rest a while. I like the new memes. I could post them but I just think I should do the wise thing and ask someone's opinion first just to guess reactions out there.

 Gice I saw a funny video which is a Saturday night live actress on focus on the family and she is just like she was on the show. So maybe that will be my cast in heaven when I do sketch comedy. I mean I am not trying to assume. Maybe I will have different buddies but I think that is my true genre when I don't have depression.  I think that would also mean I won't be a guy but I will be myself the way I am now but not oppressed.

So anyway, that is interesting. Gice today was kind of an off day with not much done. I made two weak videos, attended mensa, which was nice, and talked to my friend Philip. That made me feel a lot better and I think he had ups and downs lately too.

I guess I could have called two other phone a friends. But I don't know, I think it is okay to be more normal with phone a friends and not have a crisis feeling to it all the time.

So anyway, does anyone have any thoughts about the recent events?

I think I need to call my friend Liz.  I think I will do that now.

 Hey everyone, this is Refried. Thanks for reading my blog. I had a rough month and it is described in the next thirty posts or so. My skin had two infections and some other random splotches as well. It is probably from lupus. It is weird to have another disease and everyone is in denial but possibly some people have kept an eye on it.

Something unfortunate is that I got bullied for three years by mental health workers and my medicine got messed up. It hurt my health and I went in the direction of diabetes. But we reduced the offending medicine and wow it’s magic, I am ok again. I am still on 20 mg of the offending medicine so I wonder what would happen if we fixed the medicine back to where it obviously should be.

Anyway I am thinking of walking to the 7-11 area to get a calzone. And I could pick up corn chips for a corn dip. But that would be salty so I am not sure that is good. But I think it would be a good use of four groceries plus chips.

I just feel like the medical people let me say mrsa mrsa mrsa mrsa publicly for a month when it is not mrsa and it is probably from lupus which was aggravated by stress from people who did it on purpose. 

Gice I think actually there might be a spiritual battle component that I have assumed was already intervened upon and it isn’t. Like there is going to always be opposition to everything I do. 

Did you guys see that lawyer who made himself known when I told Karla I thought it might have been from the hospital? Like he crept out from behind the corner two feet from me with his little lanyard. What a loser. The hospital factor only helps my case because those bullies are doing the same abuse.

And why was that lawyer there? Because he knows we do have a legitimate case against them worth 500k in a better society. And guess what. You will pay with your reputation in classrooms 400 years from now. 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 4:54. I just took out some trash and looked for a missing medicine. I saw the tube of trisulf ointment when it went out of sight but I can't remember where it is. It might be between the bed and the wall. I think that is where it is.  

I will try again to find it later. Just in case I need it. I just am not sure this other stuff worked.  I think it would be gone by now. But it is lessened. And then I am not sure I trust the sight unseen assumption about the left arm. I think if the right hand is mrsa then the left arm is another patch of it.  And I got it because the germs are still in my room.

But I also think I have skin problems because of lupus and the Latuda aggravates it and everyone thinks that is okay and it is not. And you think it is okay that you were trying to give me diabetes and it is not.

What is wrong with you people.  I guess I will rest soon. Will I walk to Starbucks or is it asking for trouble. I mean you could say what good would come from a walk to Starbucks other than some racial incident.

Anyway I will rest soon. The good news is my a1c is back to normal and my blood sugar too. I mean what a bunch of bullcrap it was to be overmedicated. I think I should protect the medicine and move away if they try to hurt me again.

But gice I think the muciproxin is working.

I tried calling a friend but the phone did not ring.

Well have a good day everyone.