Hello everyone, I just remembered that toastmasters is today. It is at 1 pm. I can do it, it will be fine.

I don't think I will make more canva memes unless I just feel like logging on.

I think my memes have been cool. It is weird that it caught on and reached people when my poems and books didn't but my poems still could reach people in India.

I mean maybe it will be a hobby too in USA but just at a smaller level.

Like okay. 10k views, 3k likes. That is great.  I still got faked out in 2012 but on a normal scale, that is a great appreciation for poetry.  

I just feel like it impacts heaven too for my work to either reach people or not reach people. 

But we need to believe that anything can be made okay and resurrected.

So anyway this Toastmasters stuff is a challenge but I like it and will be hopefully sticking with it.  Hmm tomorrow am I going to Bruce's comedy show? I think I will.

Gice could you believe I got three steaks from that diner? 

Pals. There is something happy with comedy which is that I am usually just happy to be a real comedian and don't have to be the best. I am not as competitively ambitious in ways that don't matter. Like it is about the laughs.  That is interesting, isn't it. I think my striving in other subjects still is part of who I am and influences the kind of jokes I make.  But I am happy to be free in a certain way, to not be like hoping for awards or something. To instead be trying to laugh and make other people have the same laugh.

That is happy. As for the depression, a lot of us are like that. I might make a quote about how it could be from mourning about growing up. Like a lot of comedians have depression. Is it mourning from having to grow up.  But you don't just say stuff like that because of how some people don't have that luxury.

Anyway that is sad but a lot of people are suffering.  Sometimes I can really see it.  Certain loneliness or sickness, poverty and lack of opportunity, rejection and stuff like that.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am making some coffee. It is 11 am. I am going to text Haley and tell her I walked about 15 miles this week. Ok I texted her. Now the coffee is done. I went and got the coffee and just drank some. It is really good even though the thing happens where the grounds get clogged and the coffee is too light. I mean I am not sure what the problem is.

But the coffee is good.  There are too many bugs in my room and I need to get some of those roach motels.  This coffee is really good. I am thankful.

Will I walk somewhere today, maybe.

My facebook account is still working so far but I might have to start a new one. I mean maybe on a different email address or something.

But so far I will keep this one.

Maybe I will make an RB Tostada account with a different address but I am not sure they let us use your phone twice. Do you see what I mean.  

Pals, my new post is doing okay but not as crazy as that duck post. I mean that duck post really got people. And that fish post a few weeks ago. That is really cool to me. I was not planning to post the frog post so soon.  The other weird thing is that it got 912 "other clicks." Well that is very rare for me. I don't usually do as well on clicks. But I guess they went to my profile to see what was going on. 

Pals I felt an upset stress last night but I am okay today. I think I still do have some anxiety.  So possibly I will take an atarax if I need to but it did mess with a coughing feeling last time so I do not know but it also did work.

Well anyway I signed up for the Mensa speech and then they suggested getting three dollars of insurance for it which is ridiculous and then the link doesn't work, so they are like told you so. I mean how ridiculous.  And it is just a speech like any other zoom meeting.  I mean come on, people.

So anyway. I think I need to socialize today some. A few phone calls, a walk, etc. I was going to sit on that bench last night for a while but it was called into question by other people's health.

Gice, the elevator thing.  Total bullcrap. but good conversation with my friend Carmen.

Well ups and downs, live and learn.

Have a good day, everyone.

Hello everyone. This is Refried. I am really tired. I think I will try to take an iron pill soon.  Being tired is from the rough time today after I got hacked. It really shook me up and it lasted for hours and still isn't totally over. But I think it is okay. I think the accounts are secure. I think the two factor thing helped and when I logged them out they could not get back in.

My phone feels half hacked anyway. I mean honestly some of the regular technology seems rigged now.

But anyway, my numbers were lower for that groundhog meme.  I thought it was so funny but maybe it wasn't but to me it was.  However maybe there was a loss culturally. The other two jokes did well.

And the art memes are doing well in USA.  So that is good.

I am okay with all my posts.

I hope the hacking thing is over. My account seems the same with the same access to everything.

I did not phone two friends.  I think I am too tired again to talk to Erline. I mean I could call her right now. Maybe I will send a text but I am too tired really. I am breathing okay. I got anxious but it is mostly normal.Well have a good day everyone.

 

Hello everyone, I am making some new memes on Canva.  Maybe I will do some videos.  Usually I do come up with something usable. I think these are good but I actually wonder if a blank computer is better for that first one, and then only do that one. But I think it should say something and the original plan was "God loves you," but it didn't show up right on that computer.

So I edited it and it is mostly good but I am not sure it has the magical component in the right way. I mean I should use it for something.  But should I use the original with no words. Well I do not know.

 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. 

My blog views are lower for a few days but it is okay.

I enjoyed having all those views for a while.

Today I went to my psychiatrist appointment and it was great. I saw a bunch of pals from PHP and had a good time.  I decided to stay on the medicine I am on. I feel okay on it.  Dr. Talreja said that the latuda is not causing the anemia. He seemed certain and that convinces me.  I told him my most obvious recent lupus symptom and I think that the medical people will be on the lookout for it.

Dr. Talreja said to increase the iron pills to every day but take the Senna.  So I will do that. It is okay. I can do it. It will be okay. But I have to take that medicine. I mean I do not know if Senna is enough for that but it will probably be okay.

After my appointment, I got my rent check and medicine and then went to the diner for steak and eggs.  They gave me a huge long thin steak and it was the equivalent of three steaks.  I do not know why. I feel that it was in appreciation of me as a customer but to me they are the ones to be appreciated.

But it was a yummy meal and I had a good time.

Later I had a spell where I worried that I was going to be marked down for personality disorders but I think I am safe from that and should just be thankful for how things have gone. I have a lot of friends, I got through the worst social anxiety time, and the personality stuff has explanations.  There are actually four categories of issues, but the other conditions are so major that really it doesn't have to be a main thing. I think also it is a background threat if I don't take my medicine.

It was so fun to see the pals today. I figured out that me, Dr. Fatima, and Dilarom are Dave, Fred, and Roger.  Usually I am not included in the three guinea pig pattern so that is cool and funny.

There have been a lot of entertaining things in the conspiracy and I am sorry to have complained.  But at the same time, some stuff has really hurt me sometimes.

I figured out today that in heaven I can have reunions with everyone I have ever known and it will be fun party conferences, possibly in hotels that travel through space or something like that. I mean maybe ocean travel. That could be cool like underwater tours.

Anyway the other thing today was the rollover of my business credit card to a new company. It went well and I was not rejected as a customer.  However there is an issue with them providing cards for my employees and that status has changed since three years ago.

So I mean I do not know what to think but it will be okay.

There is something else: the facebook shares. It is going fine. I can't see the likes and comments easily enough on some posts, but it is okay.  And I am excited to see how some of my ai art is popular in USA. I mean not like millions popular, but popular in that it gets a favorable acceptance.  So that will be a new hobby soon.  Almost the same as India, but with maybe a certain comical style that I will try to repeat.

The other thing is that finally I got the Trileptal prescription. I do not really know what all these doctors are up to. Possibly it has to do with throwing off the legal sharks.  I mean it is kind of funny to think of the law people tracking the medicine for twenty years and having to collect proof from all the different doctors, etc. to prove whatever they will try to prove.  And then there is no case. I mean is that the idea, I do not know.  

Pals. I think writers digest might have followed up after that contest that I entered and did not win.  I mean maybe that is it or maybe it is another literary outreach from my queries.  Whatever it was, it made me laugh so much, and I had a great time. Thanks, pals.  I think I will be okay to not be bitter in a bad way and resentful with no respect for people. I think I did well keeping that to myself, and maybe I will resume being a book person like normal.

Well, that is all for today except that I might eat some ice cream soon.  That was such a weird spell this evening when I misread the notes and had some paranoia.  But I am okay. I do not know why that happened but the support group helped and I did the best I could.

I hope BB did not have to throw away all those books. I think they are safe enough. I mean ups and downs live and learn.  I think we are peacefully not competitors because of the political differences.

Anyway, have a great day, everyone.

 Hey everyone, I forgot tonight is laundry night. I took a shower though, so that is a mostly good and productive day, but unfortunately without exercise.  But I did get good stuff done.  A few memes, a therapy session, some cleaning, pest control, a shower, a community group, and tolerating a trigger stressor. I mean that was a rough trick but I am okay and was immediately thankful for the India people.

So that is okay but in a way it tests my memory too.  To see that a breakthrough like that did already happen and on more than one page.

Does anyone have any thoughts and comments?

I mean should I plow on through to do laundry without resting? I need to take medicine soon so maybe do the laundry sooner like at 11. Then medicine at 1. That is kind of late but it is okay.

I do not know if I did that good at autism tonight.  But it was pretty fun and a lot of people were stimming and I think it is cool that they believe me about my autism. They see it. They know it is true.

I mean that is cool because sometimes people don't believe you about stuff.