Ok everyone I deleted my ad because I feel that I am better off doing an engagement post. Because I won’t get link clicks either way but I might as well get publicity for nami.

I just thought it might reach my friends but boosting no longer helps you reach your friends. You simply can’t reach your friends. It could be that some people with different identities can reach their friends but they blocked it on mine.

It’s kind of interesting because things that would have been illegal in terms of treating people differently were accepted on facebook. So we had something like an experiment. I think the results are not good and it is a ruined angry society.

But anyway I will probably try to run the ad again but I just feel that on this one I won’t play along with facebook’s little trick where you simply get nothing for your ad. Like to take money for clicks and block the clicks. I know they do that. I mean should I take them to court and subpoena some testimonies from former disgruntled? Surely there are some whistleblowers by now. 

But anyway I should read more about their court case. I saw two different explanations and thought there must be two different cases.

 Honestly the liberals who try to control my “outness” remind me of the PCA people who will only accept me if I hetero marry. Which for me would be a gay marriage. That’s the issue. And I’ve done what I am supposed to and I am surprised at people who think they can afford to lose God’s approval on their treatment of me.

That is all I will say for now.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just got a good message from the conspiracy. And yesterday a friend acknowledged the conspiracy. So that helps me tolerate some other awareness of a failed writing career. But I could still get discovered. I just went to two used bookstores and contemplated it all. The main good thing was at the second bookstore when I was aware of book culture and gamer nerds. I just felt some community and meaning. 

I only made 18 dollars store credit at one store and 3 dollars cash at the other store but honestly that is cool to get something plus not waste the books.

My mom is back to normal. I don’t know why there was a zap earlier but I describe it in the next post.

Ravneet has agreed to be a bookstore gamer nerd with me and I am really happy about that. That will be a good life in heaven and honestly I can feel some happy memories about Barnes and Noble. It was a mostly happy life except for some of the mistreatment.

I’m kind of aware of some of my limits as a reader as well. I just think some people are way more in genius range as readers. But I did okay and churned out some jokes.

I am leaning towards making the most of social media and not depending on literary dreams coming true. I mean possibly my treasure is in heaven in that one. But I still believe in doing what you can and that is a way to gain a harvest in heaven too.

Anyway I just feel like you know what, there already are a lot of books and games and characters out there. But people milk narnia possibly a lot when maybe there should be a few more wells.

But actually there are whole flourishing genres from those books, like lord of the rings too.

However when I see plushies in bookstores I sometimes see a lack of cuteness and questioned how some people got rolled through. 

But anyway what does that translate to. It means do well on ai because I have an eye.

I also disagree with some writers announcements that ai can’t be copyrighted. I think what the truth is that it is a shared copyright and the ai engines have sold their share when they make a deal with canva and the artist has bought it with a pro subscription so they should be able to publish without being copied. 

I need to post this.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. It is 11:37 on Thursday. I am doing some laundry and soon going to get lunch with a friend. 

My mom has been doing okay on this trip but she just bothered me. We had an okay discussion about how I was going to take a bag of books to the used bookstore. She wanted me to put them in the back of my dad’s truck but I was planning to keep them in the inside on the passenger seat. It was okay and concluded fine. And then she came back to my room and started fussing. It makes me sad but it could be worse. 

My sister dismisses these problems as normal and it is my fault. I need to prepare myself to be slandered by her.

It is part of accepting that the world hates me. To also accept that actually some credible people in my life criticize me and ignore some problems against me. I will be misperceived. I need to tolerate it. 

Some of it is from being disabled. There are just always people who blame you for not being normal. Mental Illness is especially something where people see the gap and blame you for it. 

This morning could have been different. I did everything I could for a peaceful interaction but it wasn’t good enough.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 5 pm on Wednesday. Later I am going to a class. I had a weird day because I wanted to do networking with 540 but I didn’t like my appearance on my phone so I couldn’t go through with it. So I really let Becky down but I think she knows I will be back. I think I will send her a message.

At the mall I got a few new shirts and I had to get more than one for it to be a deal and wow it was a deal! It was like buy two get two free. I mean wow and I do kind of need these shirts and went a year and a half without shopping. I think I should find two pairs of pants too while I am here and then mail them to myself. Hopefully that will go okay. I mean maybe mail the old clothes. Hmm that is what I should do because all three pairs of khaki pants I brought are in tatters. 

Gice I hate to be a kook but last night I heard a voice that said “abundance is enough.” And I think it addresses facebook spending and clothes because I wondered if I was greedy with these video boosts or was about to be. Like if I spent 500 dollars just to get the numbers but I know not to do that. So that is interesting. And I think it is okay to have the shirts.

So that is interesting. Ravneet told me she is broke so I hope there were some joke book sales. I mean any sales at all would make a difference. How could it not be at least a hundred? Ten thousand people saw the ad.

So anyway I am thankful for these years of life with a pattern.

I gathered some books to sell to Mr. K’s bookstore. It will be interesting to see how they do. It kind of makes me feel more peaceful about losing my other book collection.

Anyway I found at the house a pinnacle of human folly book and I am happy with it. And I have a copy of library book and joke book. 

Some of the other books are not as exciting to me now but when you read them the poems are still pretty good.

Today my friend Ginger acknowledged the conspiracy. I might tell a key leader soon that I think it is cruel for me to have zero sales.

But anyway I need to keep adding to time capsule club. People might really want to put that on their resume.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. it is about 3:45 on Tuesday. I am going to my sister’s house later to visit with family. It will not be easy but I can do it.

I feel hated today by many sources but probably tomorrow will be better and I got a lot of hearts on my last facebook share. And on my jokes page I got 1000 haha icons. That makes me happy. It is a funny joke. I got a few critics and really that is how it should be because someone should put in a word for actual alcoholics. The joke was basically about “alcoholics unanimous.”

I have two hours until we leave to go to my sister’s house. Hopefully at 6:30 I can hop on zoom and say hey to Tami and the pals.

Tomorrow I will probably go to the mall. I need to text a few more people: Joel, Vance, John C, Wade, and some other people.

Right now I think I will make a coffee and see if I can cheer up.

I would estimate selling about 100 joke books from that ad if life was normal. But something is not right and no one will tell me. I just have to guess while people hate me.

But I think I am prepared to be hated by the world. That is actually a spiritual thing that you are supposed to be able to tolerate. And eventually the church will still love you.

I am really affected by getting too much news on my phone. I think I need to turn it to YouTube.

Something else bothering me is how aggressive spellcheck is and how it changes things earlier in your sentence that you have already said. I mean it is weird times but people can get rewards.

Well, have a nice day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 4:35 pm. I was at the mall earlier today and saw that the mall Easter Bunny was hopping and clapping and dancing. Well that is great so I told the person they were doing a good job. I said “I used to be a mall Easter Bunny.” I said “I don’t know how old you are but you could become a mascot.” I said “you’re doing a great job.”

It was very heartwarming and I hope it made their day. 

I mean they could go pro. They have what it takes.

Anyway now I will rest for a while.