This is a fun presentation that I am listening to. It is a cool event. I mean honestly it might be the coolest event there is. 

I might go get a piece of pizza soon. I mean should I go to starbucks. I just think I want to go get a piece of pizza. I kind of don't feel good from waiting to take my medicine and not sleeping.

But I am okay but I just think nothing is going to make me feel okay.

I need to mail some books but I think I might do that tomorrow.

Am I going to go online to a nami meeting today. I do not know.

I think just wait a while and decide about the pizza.  Does anyone have any thoughts.

 Hello everyone, good news, I passed inspection.  I also took my medicine just now because I told Karla I was going to take my medicine and that is why I asked her if she would do inspection early. So I felt I needed to go ahead and take the medicine. I think I will not feel good for a while.

But it is okay. I am attending a Theology Camp online right now and it is great. 

I ate some apple jacks and a fun size snickers. I feel okay. I drank coffee earlier. I kind of want to walk to Starbucks but I am listening to this stuff online. 

Will I go to any groups later. Hmm I do not know.

Karla addressed the issue with me saying stuff about her.  

She said that she took an ethics class in college. I kind of feel bad for criticizing her integrity when she has probably worked hard.  But she did turn off the elevator and air conditioning unfairly.

So I think it is okay that I have said stuff because that is the role and re-enactment that is happening for advocacy purposes.  I think Daniella helps Karla and our staff is good right now.

I am feeling the medicine right now and will have to lay down. Have a great day everyone.

Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, Oct 9 at 7:30 am.  I think I am done cleaning for now. I think I have it as good as I can do it, which isn't that good, but noticeabley different from yesterday and the day before. I acutally do have one more bag of trash to take out and replace and then that will be it.  There are still a few things in the sink but it is clean.  And the stove and counter are clean. But it looks cluttered but is actually much better.  And the bed is made, the table is clear, the floor is swept and mopped, the clothes are on the chair, the cart has the books. There are still two clutter corners but it is not that bad. It is not really food trash or something like that. Also there is a pile of clothes in the corner of the bathroom but it is always like that and i think it is okay.

I might see if Daniella can come look at it since she saw it at its worst a week ago during the air conditioning swindle. 

I mean I still have an hour or so and could do some improvements if I need to.  But I think I am done with the main stuff. I also changed clothes. I kind of think I should go sit outside for a while and drink the coffee I just made.  Hmm. Maybe I will wait until after I finish the coffee and then go outside.

I mean if you think about it, I cleared out some of that food two weeks ago.  And did about 6 bags of trash total this month.  I mean that is a lot of trash, where does that come from.

Well, does anyone have any thoughts?

 Hello everyone, it is 6:30 am. The sink and counter area are almost done. It took about seven rounds of cleaning. And I threw away some stuff.  This chair area is the other problem area. It is kind of getting hot in my room. I am going to turn the fan on.

Ok the fan is on and I am cooling off. I think I will take a break and then do make my bed at 7 am. So that means, make bed, do final wipe down, throw away water bottles, do a final sweep, and clear corner some. 

Then I really think that should do it.  I mean they know when a room is not clean, but it could be much worse. I have been working on it for several days.

I am getting tired now. I did not sleep that much tonight.

Does anyone have any thoughts?

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, Oct 9 at 6 am. I am still cleaning my apartment for inspection.  I just tackled a few trouble spots. I still need to finish the sink but it is almost done.  And I cleared that counter area.  It is almost done too and needs one more wipe down. Then the stove.  But they are all a normal mess now. I think the area near my chair could use some work too.  

I also cleaned the shower some and it is much better.  And I threw away some old socks and random trash. There was someone upstairs knocking on a client's door, and I think that is weird for 6 am. Like who was that, I do not know. It might be someone assessing the workers.  Because my motivation reflects them.

So let's see. What is done so far: swept and mopped floor, did dishes, did preliminary sink wipe down, cleared counter, threw away two medium trash containers, cleaned shower, picked up trash from bathroom floor, cleared table, made bed, consolidated books, put up clothes, filled cart, took out three bags of trash.

I mean honestly that is not much.  What is left to do: Kind of some of the same stuff because it is not quite clean yet.  The sink, the counter, the stove, the bathroom floor, the bed, the table. 

I think I will rest for a while and then start again at 7 am.  Maybe that is what that knocking is about, to let me know they could come to my door at 7 am. Well I think I did pretty good so far.

Theology camp is fun and I believe I will see some visions. I already saw a few things. I think they are fine without me but would probably like to know what sights I see.

I hear Karla outside, I think I will say hello.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, Oct 8. At 6:30. I am going to go to a support group. I am skipping my comedy class tonight because I have inspection tomorrow. It just has to be that way. Inspection is not easy for me. I have done quite a few chores for it but still have four more things I need to do.  Floor, shower, counter, and table. I can do it. I think I will start again at 8 pm. I mean I could clear the table now. Maybe I should do that. Hmm I just can't. I will have to wait a while. The sink is normal now and just needs a little bit of cleaning with the counter and stove. The floor is a challenge and I hope I have two swiffer things. 

I went to an online program and asked a question after it had already been answered but it will be okay. 

They are not mad and I did the best I could. I cleaned my room some of the time but I think that is okay.

I am sad to miss comedy but I made the right choice and I can feel that this is right. It actually has been a rough couple of days in terms of knowing what to do with myself and feeling tired. Last night I took my medicine before group and did not feel well enough to stay.  

What do you gice think about my face. I think it is okay. I think it only has one really bad place and this summer there were twelve problems at one time.  Because of the medicine and the lupus flare and anxiety.

So I think I am okay even though I still am low functioning. I am going to clear off this table soon.  It will all go into a bag and the bag will go in the closet. Then I think I will do the floor.  Then the counter, then the shower.  It is going just fine.

Ok I wiped off the stove. So that is trash, bed, boxes, cart, clothes, laundry, cokes and water, sink, dishes, and that is all so far. Well see you later everyone.

 Pals, good news that cheers me up. Lee said I could mail him a book. I just kind of recognize the address and am not sure why the other book did not get to him.  But he might get two books this time, one for a friend.  A Joke Book. Pretty funny. My mouse father has been handling some very important business lately. I have decided to skip comedy tonight and work on inspection. I can do it.  Even with the extra time it is not that easy.  But I just threw out a bag of trash and picked up some clothes in the bathroom. So next is the main thing I am procrastinating which is cleaning out the sink.  I can do it.  After that it is mostly easy and I could wait until much later. I will do the floor soon after that but I think I am going to clear the table.  That will make me feel like I really got it clean enough. I think I will put the clothes on a chair and then put the boxes of books in the cart. 

Pals.  Do the SCBWI people think I am mad at them? I am not at all. I think they have to be consistent and decided that a priority right now is defending their profession from very overt plagiarism from non players.  Like it isn't even from peers.  But they would say I am a peer but I would say my work is what is going to be copied. And there are some jokes and phrases that if they get copied, I will take a baseball bat to a china shop.  I need to google what is available in NYC for that.

So anyway, let's calm down. I am going to be able to clean my apartment in time. What do you think they will say about the bugs? Well I have a lot of bug traps that are working.

Maybe clear off the table before doing the sink.

I think the people I was jealous of got disqualified temporarily. It might put everyone in a jam for me to say that but I am thinking add S and D and do a group snapshot sometime. Does anyone have any thoughts. I do not know if this is the same list as before.

I think that cold empty feeling from this morning was because of the fire drill. But I do not know. I mean maybe they really are targeting my comedy career or something. That is really weird. I am not even that good at comedy and my ideas this time are not as funny.