Hello everyone, this is Refried. My new book is ready except for the Kirkus review. I don't really know what to do about that because it will be hard to wait another month.

Someone was nice to me today. Thanks Caitlin! Caitlin accepted an email from me in a good way. I really appreciated it and did not assume that kindness.

I did a book cover. It is okay. Possibly I should have used canva googly eyes.  It is not too late to fix it but I am not sure. It kind of is reminiscent of bopscotch.

I think I will call my mom again. I mean I do not know. Should I call my sister? I could imagine my sister going crazy right now because she had to get her family ready for the beach.  Possibly her kids have friends going with them.  So that meant less flexibility.  But to me beach trips can wait.

Ok let's try to chip away at inspection some more.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, May 22 at 9:08 am.  I am cleaning up for inspection. I took three bags of trash out and will do the bed and counter soon.  There are no dishes. I might tidy up the table. I am glad I did laundry this week, too.

My mom texted and she is doing well. I am waiting to hear what her discharge plan is. They waited to see how it went before assigning her care from either a facility or home.  She said they recommend home care. I think my sister will be there soon and will take her home.  Anne wants to leave and go to the beach tomorrow. So this is the mid air trapeze scenario where someone, not me, needs to figure out a plan.  I think my mom is relying on the hospital to tell her what to do.  It is possible that she will arrange it herself.  I just feel like it should have already been scheduled weeks ago.  And I also feel like as much as it seems like I got the easier deal to not be there, my family has shown some disregard for my social work license by being the neglectful bumbles that they are. Like I really do have to worry about my mom being set out on a bench in front of the hospital without a ride home.

Anyway I had a most interesting dream where two people were helping me with AI and we could all imagine stuff and it would come true but there were always these characters with video cameras watching us and waiting to see what we would do.  And I felt that I needed to not overdo it with the AI because of these people's other relationships. So that is interesting. It was kind of supernatural and I do not know what it means. Possibly this is in fact a key day that God is doing stuff on.  And the way the hip surgery did get rescheduled after I fell and caused that plumbing problem.  I will call mom in a little while.

I saw a person in the hallway and I wondered if it was a bad person from one of the racist networks trying to take away my license. She was knocking on another neighbor's door. Well I do not know.

 Hello everyone, my mom's hip surgery went well. Now I think is the challenge where they have to work out some care and what is going to happen? 

I feel better today and had a hard time calming down last night after some angst.  I called a friend and we talked about our other friend who is having problems and this friend also kind of got riled up about me and my legal inquiries. So that is weird.  Anyway, this morning I am eating leftover food and I got messages from my sister, had interesting dreams, and am okay.

I also feel like I made some more lawyer friends and yet there is something different which is that I think that person yesterday might be my actual lawyer if anything happens with the books. But I think they might think that I can expect a good path forward without much problem unless there really is a problem.

Like possibly other people's lawyers will also know they don't have a case against me. So that is weird.

I will drink some coffee now if I have milk that is still good. I just read my new book and I think that soon I will write the essay about liberals and then after that we are just waiting for one thing which is the next kirkus review.

Well, that is all, everyone, have a good day.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. Today is Wednesday, May 20. I just had a legal consultation and it went great. I asked all my questions.  However when I emailed them to thank them, I realized that there was some unfinished business. So I don't know if I did okay. That might be how it works.  I mean I think I might have gotten a B this time from law school.

I think the remaining issue is that even if they keep me as a client, they might not defend me from defamation accusations if they read my stuff and think I was wrong. So they were not promising that.  But they did confidently, assuredly say that truth is the absolute defense. That helps me a lot.

I think we are on good terms and they answered literally all my questions about literary law. I mean it is kind of weird, how this whole thing has been a haggle shuffle and you think it's one thing and then there is the real issue.  But possibly the main need in this situation was on the phone and they helped me immediately.  I mean that is really impressive.  The experience was better than I expected.

I mean I am a little shaken up because I think I have to start over if there is another problem. But there is not another problem. And I think that how it works is that if there is another problem then I will have money from an audience and then you just pay the lawyers and they do the best they can if they remotely think you have a case. So this brings us to the fact that I think I know how it works and I don't.

Alright, here is the other issue.  My mom doesn't have her after care arranged for her hip surgery which is tomorrow. I do not understand why it is not settled and planned. My parents were never stupid people and now my mom is one of those stubborn fools who is impossible to take care of. I am sure my sister will handle it fine. She has 48 hours to find the right place for mom to recover. I think they should choose a facility over caregivers. But why isn't that done? I want to say I am tired of being tortured, but at least I am not there. My mom told me she did not wish me to be one of the caregivers.

Ok I have to go to a meeting now. I might come back and edit some of this. 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 12:24 on Monday night or Tuesday morning. Some crazy stuff happened today. I was on my way to comedy class, thinking about recent wheeling and dealings, and stumbled upon another issue in my mind. So then I made a phone call and got a good response. And then as I walked to comedy class, there was unexpected construction equipment everywhere around Lincoln center area, like for blocks and blocks, and I started coughing and gagging. Like wretching with no end in sight to the chemical problems. But I kept walking and got away from it and finished what I was working on. And then felt some feelings of excitement and relief, because I think God has just done another surprising switch up where what I really needed was provided amidst a disguise of other horrible issues. But it is not over and I have to type up some stuff tonight. But I expect it to be light and momentary.

I thought I might not be able to make it back to my comedy class but I was able to and worked on some new jokes. It didn’t go that well but actually I have enough for a great routine and am almost done. So that is exciting and I am friends with everyone in the class. And it feels different now, like I have recovered from some of the torture from the past three years. I mean how weird but maybe I can really stick with this hobby and have a community.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Sunday, May 17. I got good sleep but I am taking my medicine after the comedy show. It is fine, it is an 8 hour delay and I don't need to be persecuted for it.

I am going to drink some coffee and leave here at about 1 pm. I kind of want to go to red lobster but I did not think about it in time and me and my friends are keeping it simple. We are going to a comedy show.

I am missing my writers group and I hope we can meet again next month. Because I think we canceled. 

Gice it is a challenge to get through all this with my mental illness and disability.

Anyway, there is something kind of funny which is that the hospital helped me again and I am okay.

I wonder if the kirkus people have read my story collection yet. 

Soon I will make coffee. Gice. The lawyer friends. Pretty fun and funny.

I think that contract about the books is legally binding.  I think I am mostly protected from libel accusations, plagiarism, and people trying to take the book rights. I don't know if I should announce that myself but I think that is what just happened and wow it was supernatural and disguised.

Buster is working through some stuff because Reuben got employee of the month at NYP. Buster is almost okay but had a hard time with it.

Gice you know what I really enjoyed is the attention from Montifiore and Einstein.  That was a good time, almost normal, and yet I was a little manic wasn't I.

Ok I think the star wars is 132 and it is done. Thanks because wow I couldn't do a whole nother thing.

Well, have a good day everyone.