Hi everyone, this is Refried. The weather is great today and I am sitting outside. I feel tired and fatigued and it is either from low iron or lupus. I am thinking it is from the low iron. Because I haven’t eaten spicy food and it actually feels more like low energy than fatigue.

I am missing a presentation today that probably would have been really good. But I feel like I would actually be participating in a charade where I pretend that I haven’t already reached certain levels of writing. And I felt that would be helping the oppressors maintain their discrimination practices that keep me from providing for my family.

Anyway along those lines I started a new video page called bully chronicles. So far I have three videos and I think I can find more on my phone. Some of it will be a specific series called the question show where I discuss respect issues. And the rest of it will probably be about specific incidents. I wish I had this two years ago but I don’t think it is too late to revisit some material and it is going to be awesome.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Friday, April 17. I am working on getting my room ready for inspection. I took out two bags of trash, picked up clothes, cleaned the counter, made the bed, and that is all.  However after last inspection I cleaned the shelves in two areas. So I think even now I am okay. But I might keep chipping away at a few more chores.  Inspection is at 12 pm.  So that is in three hours. The room is too warm because they do not have the air conditioning on.  I think they should by now because it is the law.  But I do see that we have a cooler week ahead of us so I am trying to be patient.  And yet I do lack sleep and it is really not right for them to mess up our sleep during a season change.  That is why there are laws.

But anyway I just texted with a friend of mine about an idea I have for a product.  And I ordered supplies and think I could sell twenty items this month and get started.  The idea is for albatross necklaces.  I think really I could do a whole series with some variety.

It is weird that it took me so long to get it done but I found some charms to use and some matching chains, and I just need to make copies of the poem, Rime of the Ancient Mariner. The poem is actually kind of sad but the joke is funny.  Who will I market to? Will I just do giveaways? I mean I do not know.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Gice it is too warm in my room. It is actually illegal for them to not have the air conditioning on. They do it every spring and fall for as much as they can get away with.

Tomorrow is inspection. I could have used some sleep. I think instead I will try to get things cleaned one thing at a time instead of sleeping and getting it done at 10 am.

Gice a weird facebook day.

 Gice in my mind just now I could see the good Americans and the good country that didn’t treat me like crap. I could feel it like what nice people. It has been hidden for a while. I hope I can recover my respect.

Gice probably soon a sherbet shake. One more day of a warm room. Actually I could go outside for a while now.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, April 16. Tonight I went to a mental health group and it was great with nice people. I wasn't that helpful for others but I shared a good chunk of gender experience.  Like how I absolutely can't compromise on clothes but am totally okay with no surgery, like genuinely of course not.  Some people aren't like that.

But anyway I posted my book. I mean was I weird, I don't know. I don't have to boost the post. I just decided to say what I think the conspiracy thought of for me to say. And it is ridiculous.  I genuinely don't see it.  I mean are they trying to help me understand how other people don't see my missing career?

I think the poem book sandwiched in the other thin books is special.  It is a surprise, and supernatural.  But I don't think it is the Odyssey or Paradise Lost as some people insinuated to me through secret messages. 

I mean was I stupid to bring it up? I just don't see that as my comps, though I do see some other stuff as my comps. So maybe that is the issue is that it isn't as good as my mice series or joke book.

I mean Joke book is good. I think I should do an ad soon and I will do that purple joke and then the joke book link very soon.  

Probably not until tomorrow though.

Gice I am having a hard time because it is so warm in this building but I think we have a cooler week so far.  I should have gone downstairs and visited earlier but I didn't because I forgot.

Does anyone have any thoughts? I mean is the point that those books aren't that good anyway?

 gice 

i feel that i will really miss out on that presentation about writing clean humor for teens.

but i wont be talked to like i'm a beginner or worse, treated like my work is dirty in some way. it should have been game over after that scholarship application.

like a phone call and then I get a phone call from a publisher.  

but instead it is the same game as my church did where people take turns trying to convert me even though I have followed jesus for thirty years. only now it is three masters degrees a hundred books and a hundred million social media in other countries. but please tell me your little puns and teach me to be as clean as you

Need Not Apply

 Hi Kate, this is Refried, just wondering if you want to talk on the phone next week sometime.  This week I unexpectedly quit two writing groups! One because a guy in my small critique group was bullying me, and the other because the organization took back their conference scholarship when i told them I was gay. 

I will tell you all about it but it is kind of sad. It took me a few weeks to realize I would not have equal status in the conservative group and I would have no path to publicity like the other people do. 

In the other group a guy had harassed me a few times before and this time came in the group late and addressed me as "Re-cunt." Like "Refried," but a bad name.  Can you believe that? It is because he does not like my religious poems.

That is kind of crazy. I thank you for not being like that!!!  I enjoyed Patricia's presentation! I remember her last one and it was also awesome. 

Ok have a great day, Kate, I am doing okay, just staying in touch.

from Refried Bean