Gice, today is Sunday, April 19. I just went outside and sat on the bench but it is raining a little bit. I drank coffee earlier and just ate jello.  Hopefully the jello will give me some energy and soon I will make some food.  I think maybe oatmeal might do the trick.  And some fish sticks.  That is yummy.  I wanted to go to McDonalds but it is too rainy.

I told Amanda that I don't think the conspiracy burned down our church. I gave her the phone number of the person who started the conspiracy. I mean that is all I can do and I think it was good self control that I didn't mess up their investigation when it was originally happening. 

But anyway tomorrow I will hopefully get a copy of my new book.  I think maybe I would enjoy reading more of these books in my free time.  But I actually have had some time away from making ai memes.  

I don't think I do that bad with my ai budget.  Don't you guys think I did okay? I just shouldn't be judged negatively for everything.

I miss Ravneet and hope she can go to some restaurants with me soon. Should I be looking at cookbooks? Was I wrong that the torture is over? I mean maybe they are still going to torture me.

So are you Gice thinking cereal is on the menu for today? Well maybe for dessert.

I felt happy when I gave Diamond the pack of cheese.  It made me happy. And I sent Amanda a message.

Gice are there friends I am supposed to be calling? I mean I do not know.

I miss my friend Lauren and I think she might have hurt me to document what Hannah did.  But to me it felt like she really took Hannah's side.

I miss Danielle too, Danielle Spector.  And Courtney.  Gice am I supposed to still be writing stuff? Like some imaginary animal scenes or something? I genuinely feel like I can't.

Well, that is all everyone. Maybe som new videos later for my bullying blog but I think I don't need to rush that and it can mostly be therapeutic.

Ok next up is books for MC. What should I send. I think she wants a copy of the mice books and then maybe Library Book, and then what, maybe some thin books. I mean I do not know.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Gice I forgot the epilepsy conference. I just didn't register when I got the email.  I thought I would remember it and Friday I did remember it wand I was like hmm I think I didn't register. So my weekend could have been very different.  I mean maybe I am not functioning well. 

Are they mad at me, I do not now.  I mean it was a light touch with the affiliation, and finally when the trains didn't go there properly, I missed it. Are people saying ha ha about it?

I could have said hello to Anli Liu. Sorry Dr. Liu. I wish I had not missed it on either year.  But I also have a sleep problem right now and have to walk an extra mile to get to the train.

So anyway I missed out but am doing the best I can.

Does anyone have any thoughts? I think I will send Marissa Hudson a note and see if she wants to get lunch soon.

 Hello everyone, do you Gice like my poem from yesterday? I think it was awesome. Like so stupid and reflects a real idea but also kind of not caring in a certain way.  And yet I did care.

So anyway, I got some sleep but not a lot. Probably about 6-7 hours. I mean okay. 4:13, then maybe 5, woke up at 1 pm. I mean that could be 8 hours. I dreamt I was volunteering somewhere with New York cares and I was cleaning a lot of stuff and I told them about my guinea pigs. That was what the main discussion was about.  It was sweet and nice to think about Fred, Roger, and Dave.

I can't tell if I am being sharked by someone and I don't know what it means. I feel that I was nice to that person and was a sincere participant in something that was obviously relevant to me.  So I guess just do as normal. I mean I do not understand, I really don't. Possibly the issue is that I became more public in the past two years with more christian themed stuff and some people are mad about public straightforward christianity that isn't themed around criticizing the south. Like maybe they think you either hate the south or are the south.

Well I do not know. I really don't.  But it is weird to lose three associations in one week.  Is it because of the recent book? I really think there is not much in this book that is relevant to anything like that. Is there a poem? I mean I do not know. I am not used to anyone caring about the content of my rhymes especially.

And possibly that was the role I did not expect was to have a conspicuous rejection from literally everyone. Just for people to generally hate me. I mean I do not know. Am I supposed to be talking more to phone a friends? I mean I do not know.

Gice pretty funny Sunday post from Nancy. I just think it was kind of funny. Like to me it passes as a sincere Sunday share. But maybe it is not a laughing matter but I think she is going to be okay and might be doing her part. Like that is what I genuinely think.

Well anyway, I made coffee. Should I sit outside. I mean I do not know. Is there a project I can work on? I mean maybe I should do some more art memes. That is what  facebook was saying and boost for less.

Well hmm I do not know. I am just doing one video right now and I feel good about it.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am sitting outside because it is cool outside and it makes me feel better. I feel fine I am just tired of my warm room. But it has gotten better but interestingly is still too warm.

I think I won both of the recent power plays. Because even though they lied to my face about the air conditioning, I believe my prior report meant that they got a visit from the up and ups and were found noncompliant. But it is sad because they are my friends but they made their choice. It is pretty serious to mess up a whole building of psych patients sleep for four days during every single season change.

So anyway I think my video page is going well so far. I have a lot more ideas for posts. I think I had videos along this line a year or so ago and did not know what to do with them. So now this is that and I think it will be a success to just share the blog occasionally.

I boosted a mouse video and I am happy with it. I think it adds variety. I am proud and happy to contribute to the wide world and perennially everlasting genre of mice characters and mice scenes. I believe it will also never get old in heaven.

I think I am not doing a virtual appointment tonight because I am ok for now. I don’t feel the low energy feeling. I think I will save that for when I also need a psychological boost.

Does anyone have any thoughts about missing the presentation today? I am sad and think I would have liked to give them one more chance.

However I think if this was going to be a charade like the church status was for so long except this time it’s my career, then no thank you.

I am thankful that I caught up on some sleep this morning. Hopefully I will sleep better tonight and be doing better. But I was okay today and was thankful for that.

I think my medicine is okay even if I miss a dose sometimes. Well, have a great day everyone.

 Hi everyone, this is Refried. The weather is great today and I am sitting outside. I feel tired and fatigued and it is either from low iron or lupus. I am thinking it is from the low iron. Because I haven’t eaten spicy food and it actually feels more like low energy than fatigue.

I am missing a presentation today that probably would have been really good. But I feel like I would actually be participating in a charade where I pretend that I haven’t already reached certain levels of writing. And I felt that would be helping the oppressors maintain their discrimination practices that keep me from providing for my family.

Anyway along those lines I started a new video page called bully chronicles. So far I have three videos and I think I can find more on my phone. Some of it will be a specific series called the question show where I discuss respect issues. And the rest of it will probably be about specific incidents. I wish I had this two years ago but I don’t think it is too late to revisit some material and it is going to be awesome.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Friday, April 17. I am working on getting my room ready for inspection. I took out two bags of trash, picked up clothes, cleaned the counter, made the bed, and that is all.  However after last inspection I cleaned the shelves in two areas. So I think even now I am okay. But I might keep chipping away at a few more chores.  Inspection is at 12 pm.  So that is in three hours. The room is too warm because they do not have the air conditioning on.  I think they should by now because it is the law.  But I do see that we have a cooler week ahead of us so I am trying to be patient.  And yet I do lack sleep and it is really not right for them to mess up our sleep during a season change.  That is why there are laws.

But anyway I just texted with a friend of mine about an idea I have for a product.  And I ordered supplies and think I could sell twenty items this month and get started.  The idea is for albatross necklaces.  I think really I could do a whole series with some variety.

It is weird that it took me so long to get it done but I found some charms to use and some matching chains, and I just need to make copies of the poem, Rime of the Ancient Mariner. The poem is actually kind of sad but the joke is funny.  Who will I market to? Will I just do giveaways? I mean I do not know.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Gice it is too warm in my room. It is actually illegal for them to not have the air conditioning on. They do it every spring and fall for as much as they can get away with.

Tomorrow is inspection. I could have used some sleep. I think instead I will try to get things cleaned one thing at a time instead of sleeping and getting it done at 10 am.

Gice a weird facebook day.