Gice it’s not that easy to have heartburn. It doesn’t feel good. It gets worse then better then worse so you think you can control it with your thoughts but you can’t.

But it could be worse and I think the tums will help.

Well have a good day

 Gice I have heartburn and I can't take the tums because of the poison spray all over my cupboard contents. Do I have another tums in a different bag. I will check.

Ok I found some in a bag from my last trip. I also have mylanta but I think it has been too warm for a month so I do not know if I will take any of that but I ate two tums. I bet two tums is enough.

This brings back the feeling of being bullied by racist trash. But everyone knows it. I think they will be gone soon and people will intervene and the people who supported them blindly will be humiliated.

So anyway I hope I feel better soon. There was something funny in my email today that cracks me up.

Well I guess listen to music for a while and see if that helps.

 Gice I have a little bit of gastritis and heartburn but it is ok. I just ate a lot today and ate it fast.

Gice my doctor confronted the apartment people. They said I am not losing housing.

I guess just try to feel better.

 Hello everyone, it is Thursday. Oct 29. I just got home at 8:40 from a 3:30 appointment that I left for at about 10 am.  But I had a nice day and I like my doctor, who is Dr. Fatima.  I have to go back on the latuda and am not happy about it but I just really like this doctor and will do what she says. But I felt the toxic abuse feeling this morning from the apartment and emailed Drena and it was a bit much for Drena and she had to put me on automatic message status. But I think part of that is because my sister is coming to visit and the conspiracy thinks maybe my sister should visit Dr. Fatima with me next week.  I think it means my sister is going to get some health news about me.  Last time it was Dr. Rojas telling her I had heart problems.  I think we might be looking at a dementia update this time.  But it is okay. I actually am okay if I take my iron pills.

I did not plan to go downtown but I did go to the Luke's lobster place which was a tiny place that mainly sells lobster rolls and I did like it and I had lobster bisque which was good but possibly too spicy for my food intolerance but still yummy.  So then I went and got coffee and dessert at Kaboozles, which is my favorite restaurant.  That was yummy but the music was too loud and it seemed to be on purpose.

Then I took a cab to Grand Central and took the 6 train back to the Bronx and it was a good train ride.  My train rides today were mostly easy. I saw a new pal at Grand Central and a poster that confirmed what I think is a third deal.  

I mean wow way to go because it doesn't always go that smoothly. But possibly the pretend nature of it helps.

Gice I think these feelings of toxic abuse are nothing to play with.  It is probably from the conspiracy but to me you don't just do evil like that. But maybe that is like some kind of chaplain secret strategy that people do all the time but I just don't think you drink poison for a good cause.

So anyway what did y'all think of the food.  I liked it. I thought it was a good day. 

There was a cursing guy I had to avoid on my way home but I was able to avoid him and it was okay. 

I guess I have a little disorganization myself.  I told Dr. Fatima about the recent issues. I think she thinks I am being mistreated at housing and the housing people are busted.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, I am at the hospital waiting for my doctors appointment. They are about to ruin my medicine and put me back on latuda. My health was ruined and it got better this year after reducing the latuda.  I had to reduce it to nothing when my skin was messed up this summer and I had a staph infection on my hand. 

I believe any doctor will agree with me and these bullies will be defeated easily in court.

I knew in March that Karla was going to bully me. Tomorrow is another day of it.

Today the oaf they always send to harrass me during escalations was yelling in the hallway so I left for my appointment earlier than I wanted to. 

I have sent a lot of emails to document their harm and it is absolutely believable and irrefutable.

So far I have won a lot of the power struggles this year and most people know Karla is abusing me. How long is the Bridge going to allow it? Last time it went on for a year and a half. 

 

Refried Bean <smefird@gmail.com>	8:15 AM (0 minutes ago)
to Drena

Drena,

I just wanted to tell you that the feeling of being abused is overwhelming and they are going to ruin my medicine today. Because Karla abuses me.  It is not right.

I felt better this month and could not believe what I tolerated for the last three years. And now it is going to start again because Karla is racist, and the hospital people are wrong.

I do not know who to report to, I already reported this and it is still happening. It is going to be a lawsuit eventually and I believe I will win. I just can't believe it. I should not have to ingest poison that tears up my face and digestion because Karla likes to feel powerful.  She is not a health proxy, she is not in charge of my career that I earned three degrees for, she does now know what medicine is best, she is mean to me and always has been. She is a child abuser. 

Please someone help me, I do not know how to escape these nazis.

from Refried

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 8 am. I just turned in my comedy routine. I was not able to let go of a few jokes. I do not want to waste them and think it is funnier how it is. But we will see. Maybe I can edit but I just think I am right about this. And last time Ben was wrong about something so I don't even know if he is doing stuff on purpose.

So anyway I got good sleep but woke up feeling persecuted by Karla and the hospital.  I just am on the right medicine and they are going to make me take the latuda again and ruin my health.  The overwhelming feeling this past month while I waited for the latuda problem to go away is that I can't believe they were allowed to ruin my health for three years.  

At noon I will go to the hospital and talk to Dr. Fatima. I am glad it is a doctor that I like.

I saw that I lost a facebook friend. They are sick of seeing my face and some people side with the abusers because they have never had an opportunity to prove they are not racist.  But I think most people are not fooled. It is just like the Sharlene bullcrap.  Remember when I ruined everyone's christmas? This is the same racist bullcrap.

I am so sad about the ruined country, the bad politics of society, my missing poetry success, the hypocritical media roll throughs where some people get celebrated and some don't, and the actual justice people disappeared, the stupid anti gender people still being stupid and controlling, and most of all, the bullies who are allowed to personally abuse me. I can't wait until life is over. This is the familiar feeling that the racists at the Bronx have always caused on purpose and gotten away with for some reason.