Ok I think I am cracking the code on that. The issue is if I am asking a church to help out, shouldn't it be the other church.  And my feeling is that they already do their thing and I do mine, and they know that 2000 dollars would pay for half a year of the outreach in question.  It also creates kind of an agenda feeling, like what's in it for my other church that would help me go there. It is a mission other than the actual theme of the event.  This is the stuff that pastors have to figure out a lot. But a lot of solves itself because they are doing their main mission.  So do I have any conflicts of interests.  Not really, just a limited budget.  So now we question facebook not monetizing me.  And where are they? In the location of my church's jurisdiction.

I mean maybe this is interesting, maybe I just simply don't have enough money for a one day event where I would be utterly tormented anyway.  And then what else? I feel how close I am to being able to ask for help from my new york church but have felt like it is not right to ask for help on the memes.  And honestly I think I am right about both things.

Anyway I kind of think I am going to ask about the trip, to send another person and myself, but the other person hasn't been accepted with a free ticket. So hmm. I just think this is an opportunity to work this out.

I mean it might come down to the fact that I am not that active of a member.

But really I think all parties see the interests and goals.  And at the end of the day we try to save money but pray for the world because my gosh we do want people to go to heaven.

So anyway I have been feeling gallbladder twinges and I just ate a small piece of cheesecake and I am not sure that was a good idea but probably I will be fine. It feels lower than the gallbladder like the liver but I think it is the gallbladder. It is not that bad. 

Gice I think I can't ask for another person to go with me because they would have to be accepted too.  That is the issue and possibly one that I don't want to navigate and wait for. But I will think about this some more. I think actually most anyone who would go with me would also be innocent and not photo bombing the event.