Hello everyone.  I think I am going to take an inventory of the year so far.  That is kind of rude but honestly I am bored and I do feel like I need to improve my attitude about some stuff.

So okay, I think early on was that book of rhymes and it was supernatural. That was really cool, but are the rhymes that good? I am not sure the meter is even right on some of them.  But anyway, that was a good start, and then the book of three books for that.

Then I also ordered about 200 books and gave those away. That is a few goals completed, one big hospital send, a class set, and some bonus people.  That is good.

Then the trip to Greenville, and I found out I did not have to caregive for my mom's hip surgery.  That went well.

Also, I feel like my mom gave me enough money in the winter.  This summer I do not have enough money but I made my choice to get a lawyer and that was in fact worth it. I did need that and feel better and feel like some things will be resolved just from not writing anything with no regard for anything.

So anyway, the comedy class was another good thing and the jokes were good. I feel like my appearance was not that good in the video but tolerable for my page and adds variety. So that is okay. Also now, a facebook page, compiled patiently from several years of doing the best I can.

Ok now I am kind of drawing a blank.  I transitioned from some phone a friends to other phone a friends, and I continued attending nami groups.  I also had some hospital appointments and feel some community from that.

What else. I gave joke books to delivery drivers and about 30 other people, maybe even forty. I sent a few queries, I attended the children's book conference, I participated in Writing For Your Life and 540.

I kept my PO Box, I reduced my horrible medicine, and I bought three new shirts and two pairs of jeans.

I used my SNAP benefits and was relieved from the grocery store commute problem.

I socialized with three friends in New York, and maybe went downtown a few other times.

What else. Ok, the videos.  I think that is the other major thing.  I started making ai videos and sending them to India, and I am nearing the 200 million mark.  But there is a delay and I am using good self control.  

What about church. I attended online sometimes but just can't tithe. I mean I have kept up a tithing charade despite living off credit cards and charity.  There is something to it, but my facebook pages need to be seen as legitimate christian missions, too, and can't a church help with that? I mean why not, I do not know, and yet I feel that with this conspiracy, it could be appropriate for me to stick to my civilian status.

Ok what else.  I watched the news, and prayed a medium amount. I could have done much better but had some good days.  I saw a few visions but not a lot.  Maybe if we reduce the latuda I will see some good stuff again.

What else.  I passed inspection every week so far and tolerated a lot of missed appointments from the staff person in question.  The power play of a rude gesture of disrespect.  So time to pray for forgiveness again.  Hopefully something will get better soon, and yet it never really does, I am on a downward path and it is not the christian "descent to greatness." It is just me being bullied.

I think that is all from this year. I am forgetting Ravneet! I just miss Ravneet and I am not sure that the secret messages are maintaining our closeness enough. but possibly I kept that official in a good way.

Ok is there anything else. It is midyear. It went by fast.  I liked that post where someone talked about their summer bucket list.  That is a cute idea.  Summer goes by fast.

Ok therapy and taking the shuttle to North Central Bronx. That has gone well.  

Kirkus reviews. That was another thing.  Posts on my jokes page, only mostly okay on normal page.

Watching youtube, mixing it up with the music and food videos, maybe not watching as much this year.

I just can't think of anything else. Well, have a good day everyone.