Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 11:23. I am drinking coffee but it did not brew right so it is questionable but okay. I posted my video earlier and I felt kind of middle of the road about it, like not as enthused as I felt Sunday immediately after the show.  But the people who watched it liked it and got the jokes, and there is nothing I really feel ashamed of about it. I mean I don't like that I start closing my eyes too much in the second half, but it is only four minutes,  And I am okay with the rocking even though I kind of look a little too much like I am dancing.  But it's not that bad and I think it is an okay amount that I stop sometimes and stand still.  And then the rushed, stress feeling, I think no one really notices that much because of the variety on facebook, and because of the sound being off for some people.  

I am okay with the captions and think the jokes still come through.  Basically it is a video of me doing actual stand up comedy and I am happy with that.  I think I am not going to send it around with a boost but I might harvest all the videos sometime and take the jokes out.  I think that would give me about 40-50 usuable clips and I could do them as reels and put them on a separate page with some other selfie videos and boost them sometime.  I mean maybe shoot for the fall on that, or consult with the teacher of the trauma class which I will hopefully take soon.  I need to ask my mom tomorrow.

Anyway, appearance.  It is just a huge shirt and I think I look kind of larger than I had to in the video, but really it is a real thing that I am over-overweight.  But the reasons for that are psych meds and abuse, and I will do the best I can.  I mean things will go how they go.  I think I will try to do some walks downtown.

Also- profile views.  It is okay. I am just mostly okay and consistent throughout the six videos that I have. I just really think it is okay and other people are other people and I am me for certain reasons.  And I did keep in shape for the first 20 years of adulthood.  And then seven in new york until the bad people ruined it. I mean how bad.  God will say how he feels about it someday. To me it seems that with my particular case, he always thinks it is best to let the damages accrue.