Ok back to the torture topic. I am a little tired of the subject myself. I think it was a power play from Greenville to NYU.  I do not know who has concluded what.  I actually think some people think it is my whole adulthood.  But I think of it more as three two year periods of a level 5 assault from stn, with many willing human weapons.

So three living hells.  And the rest just a hard life.  I feel that I always have company and many, many people dip into these same levels for significant time periods in their lives.  And then there is something else, which is losses, and that is pretty extreme as well.  And then the blindness from a lot of onlookers.  

There is something else interesting which is that I have for my whole life felt guilty to have a roof over my head but feel like this housing I have is fair and right. I always have stared at the ceiling in places and felt unworthy. But here I feel like a pea in the pod with everyone.

So that is interesting. I just wish we had a stop and shop and I don't understand why people had to hurt us all by taking it away. It makes me have despair for the whole country and world.