I just feel that if what has happened with my career, times 5, can happen, then there is no reason to think I won't be beaten to death in my neighborhood on any given day.  Or more likely, one of the hospitals.

But maybe the dream I had is telling me something, which is that the good thing already happened, and that was writing the books.  And God did protect that and preserve that and for some reason there is a chicken curse on my paycheck life and relationship status. What is the third thing, is it church?

I mean wow I guess that is on the table, too.  But a lot of people have really been friends with me and they believe what they believe and have their reasons.

I think with that conference in question that my posts might be good for a slide show but maybe no speaker role or attendance. I am going to email steven that.