Hello everyone it is Wednesday morning at 8 am. I am at north central Bronx hospital. I took a cab here like every day and it came at 6:30 instead of 7. Really that is okay with me but that meant I had to wait outside instead of coming into the hospital so I got a coffee at Dunkin’ Donuts. It was ok but I just feel that the security people out there think I am a suspicious person. But some people can probably tell that I am a social worker.

So now I am inside the hospital and I finished my coffee. I am tired because of my medicine but was able to wake up fine so I am thankful for that.

I hope someday I can reduce the latuda to 20 mg instead of 40. I think the mental health people at housing and program have hurt my health and it will get worse.

I guess now I am seen as paranoid but most of my issues with other people being mean to me are real. And why not be insightful and speculate about it. Other people are allowed to use their minds. People always want me to live in the moment and focus on the meaningless things around me but that is the thievery of northern meditation. A sad loss that I will not let take everything from me.

Anyway what is left is mailing Medicaid paperwork, calling my mom about the water damage, doing laundry, getting ready for tomorrows inspection, and that is all.

Well, have a good day.