So here is the next post. The next post is about salary. I have a consistent 12 thousand dollar average.  But I have three master's degrees.  Sometimes there is correlation between education and salary, but that is not always the case.  Sometimes there are trends based on identity, but my averages are way out of scope for that.  So what is the deal. 

I am forming one theory which is that I have two levels of aptitude and ability.  I have an ability and disability.  And I suddenly had an idea that maybe people can't afford my ability. And that part of their choice to regard me according to my worst self is ironically an admission that the other work I am capable of is out of their price range.

I mean is that bad to say? I just think it got worse and worse as I improved at some things, and I can't be paid for it.  Personally, I think people should have been humble enough to allow me participation in a middle level, and if they can be in denial enough to treat me as low class trash, then they could be in denial to treat me as middle management mediocre.

But if I give people the benefit of the doubt, then maybe my society has recognized themselves as unworthy of my more useful gifts, and they have rejected them on principle.

Do you think this is arrogant? I simply look for an explanation.  The thing that gives me meaning is that when I was in middle school and saw the movie Amadeus, at the end when they toss Mozart's body into a pauper's mass grave, I thought with the most dear wishes that I would be like that too. 

There is something else that I decided not to say.