Good morning everyone, time to skip medicine

 Hi everyone. It is 4:45 on Friday morning. I had a nice day yesterday.  I had a nice week.  I haven't been sleeping well and had some ups and downs with medicine.  But I am okay.  I haven't taken tonights medicine yet.  I feel okay though.  Earlier I felt slight emotional pain and tiredness but now I am okay.  I am waiting for my last book to go through on amazon.  Is it really my last book.  I believe it is.  It is a Bronx Combo book. Did I do right.  I do not know.  I have published a lot of books lately.  I think if I keep doing canva designs then I should start posting online and do a page somewhere like a blog or something and not just keep publishing too many books.  I can't see the sales.  I do not know if I have any book sales.  I am still giving away books.  

This week I published the hardcover format of "Library Book" for libraries.  It is ridiculously expensive but that is because of the format and quality.  And frankly I felt that I needed to make a sampler book available.  Interestingly the novel called Sparkity Bonkins is also in hardcover.  So I think that is good and the bookstores have plenty of five dollar books to choose from and mark up.  I did that right and if anyone feels that is not good enough they are wrong.

Later today I am going to a holiday party at my mental health program.  I am excited and think it will be fun. I will try to socialize well.  At my program they are starting to get mad at me for leaving the main room and wandering too much.  I do not know why.  There seems to be a network of people targeting me.  But really I have felt better in general and partially it is from taking medicine on my own instead of the medicine window at my apartment.  

I signed up for a program that helps rehabilitate prisoners. I have not ever been to jail but I asked them if involuntary commitment would make me eligible and they said yes.  So might as well make the best of it because I would love to be a janitor in a hospital.

Well, that is all everyone. I hope Rvnt visits me for Christmas.  My sister is giving me a handmixer for Christmas and I am going to make a cherry cheesecake pie and some cookies called "Forgotten Cookies," which are like mergingues with chocolate chips.

Maybe soon I will try to make more cooking videos.  Have a good day everyone.

When Staying Alive is Your Fatal Mistake

 Hey everyone, just watching youtube. I shared some poems, did you guys like them?  I think it went well. It is very few likes but it takes time to read poems.  People can tell the timing is off in general, there are actually a lot of poems and jokes I can't share easily in current contexts. 

But that is because of the bad people.  There is starting to be intervention for the racism against me.  Today a bus driver got busted for refusal to serve. It was the second time in a row at that location.

I kept a good one liner to myself earlier. I do not know if I will revisit it.  

I feel better about my food situation and am going to bake some meringues soon. Some chocolate chip divinity cookies.  It will be very yummy. Today I made a casserole.  It was good and I am going to make a chicken casserole soon too.

Well have a nice day everyone.  

"Journal"- ism, as in, some people should have just kept a journal

 Well everyone, how am I doing. One of my new years resolutions is to take my role as a journalist more seriously. But it is not the new year yet.  I forgot my other resolutions but I think for one of them I am wearing more hats, and actually I just can’t remember.

Gice do you think I do wrong in the next post. I think I really should say what I think when I don’t hear anyone else say it.  But I am not watching the news, so that could be why.  Also I am a severely mentally ill schizophrenic with brain damage and dementia, so that also might be why some of my views differ from the people who get paychecks for their work.

 

Yesterday I saw in a workshop that my main job now is to pray for forgiveness for the world. In a way that is wasteful, because couldn’t I have done something more marketable? But in a way, you almost can’t fail because the more people ruin your life, the more you can succeed at praying for forgiveness. I just honestly unfortunately say bad stuff a lot too, which you might see in the next post.

 

As I was saying, this post is more of the friendly day by day play by play post that I wanted the whole blog to be like.  So is the issue that I just need to divide the blog into two different blogs? Hmm. Maybe that is it. Maybe I have two blogs going here and it makes me feel inconsistent. Well I already published most of it.  Is anyone going to buy my books? I thought it was very humble of myself to say I did want an easy life of snacks and comfort. Like I was not hotdogging and stated clearly that I would like to not be abused anymore. But I don’t really see clues that it is going to be over and whenever I do, it immediately turns into a trick.

 

Well, have a good night everyone. I am planning to go to Stop and Shop tomorrow for one bag of groceries because the cart attracts bus abuse from the drivers who try to make me miss my stop on purpose. Replay the videos, you can find my locale on my receipt. I am waving to the camera ten years ago in the store buying pads.

Wow this post is as nasty as the votes that help fentynl dealers target Whitey’s daughters

 Well hello everyone, today is Saturday.  It seems my numbers have been cut on facebook again, but it is hard to tell because my budget for it is so low.  I did get accepted for facebook monetization but there is no list of rates and I am left guessing and spending once again. 

Also I am sad about the news. I don’t see people acknowledging the human shield factor of Israel's war, which is a huge part of the Palestine issue in the first place.  A lot of people, mostly terrorists, have meant their citizenship there as some kind of offense to Israel.  There may be a range in what kind of offense and how much.  But the children there have been human shields for a long time, and now they are being killed by an army that I personally am disappointed to see not do better with the challenge of only hitting the murderers.  Could Americans have helped with that? Some government people only know how to fight with money, in the ways they have assaulted the rest of their own country for forty years.

 

Russia seems suspiciously, oddly and suddenly interested in “war crimes,” as Putin the Poisoner complains about the idea of flooding the Hamas tunnels.  Maybe he was planning on using those tunnels himself, or was working with the Asad people again to make sure America doesn’t help the whole region.

 

I still think Biden is playing Obama instead of defending obvious targets against obvious enemies.  But close up maybe it is hard to tell who is who, just like at our open borders.

 

Well, that’s all, everyone, I ate rotten oatmeal a few hours ago. We will see how that works out overnight. Overnight, like how our neighborhood grocery store closed to make room for a “children’s hospital.”  Probably they will have a lot of patients from a neighborhood with no leaders smart or existent enough to keep a decent grocery store in business. 

a good letter of reference:

 

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Hi everyone, I hope you are all doing okay.  Today is the Friday after Thanksgiving. I hope people are having a nice time, doing some shopping, having good conversations with their family, and eating good food.  I am in SC visiting my family, and it is a good visit so I am thankful. We have definitely had our share of problems and griefs but have a lot to be thankful for.  These days I have started being more thankful for all the time clocked behind me, like years of survival and friends and food and candy.  I am not out there shopping much today but almost went to the mall because a belk's department store credit card is the last of my credit budget that I still have a good portion left on. Other than that, it is time to catch up on credit card bills, and there is not a huge income in sight that will solve that problem fast.  But there is potential income from books, and I might start doing zoom groups to tell people how to get a good facebook page up and running.

 

Anyway, maybe people are interested in that info, maybe not.  Today I went through some old papers at my house, and found about 80 rhymes that I did not include in my rhymes book.  Some of them have potential to not waste, so I am going to add them to one more picture book that I will probably post in December.  That is kind of cool but I did cringe to read some of the old poetry.  Some of it is in fact quite cheesy, influenced by my religious-themed anxiety disorder, and full of some awkward rhymes that anyone can see as being in amateur beginner range for writing.  But I think that over time, I ended up with a great haul of over a thousand joke poems that are good enough for any audience. So I am thankful but also glad to have some perspective on what is important.  My poems just aren't that important but shouldn't be wasted either.

 

I thought about trying again for a business loan but I just think the credit cards are that.  It worked five to ten times better than I even hoped for facebook, but I still have no book sales. I just don't know why. I am perceiving some secret messages that make me think maybe things can change next year, but I still am on the edge of emergency with finances and am starting to question the conspiracy as being abusive after years of generous attention from every one I know and don't know.

 

Well, that is today's blog post, truly a journal entry, and now maybe I will go take a walk or buy my third coffee of the day for a cheap outing. Ok Duke's sandwiches., great idea. I think that is what I might do. Have a great day everyone, go Packers!

Grades Posted

 

Ok everyone, just a heads up that most of my students will receive an A minus at the end of the semester.  The question is just what the A minus will be for.  Unfortunately, for some people, it is not in something good. Some students might have actually hit A or A plus range, but what I am suggesting doing is saving those points for another time that they need that extra boost to get another A minus.  So for now it is an A minus.  It’s kind of simple, but there are actually a lot of calculations done by the imaginary animals who have graphed everyone’s progress quite accurately and faithfully around the clock. This means you might be getting credit for things in dreams, and some animals have access to records of people and places that have affected your progress.  So I may create a shadow report for future auditing purposes that overlap with my future department store job in heaven. It is Efird’s department store, which used to be in North Carolina and now will probably be one of the base locations that I use to establish my gift basket delivery service in heaven. And yes, it will be quite something, and there will be some marbles and stones that could be controversially empowered by off-limits Catholicism. So I personally would not miss out. What can you do now to get on the list.  I don’t mean that as a power play. I am just saying that we are literally days away from actual wooden boxes with trinkets. And are you going to be a “no” on that? Do you have some alternate farm where other imaginary animals are prepping school supplies and office gadgets for you to receive from some other mail out service?  I doubt it, no matter how much you think A.I. and the money sharks are not coming to ruin your life too.