Ok I have another thing to say about the mistreatment I get as a mentally ill person in New York City. I mean maybe it is that status,  or maybe it overlaps with other stuff like race. But I think there are some people who say, "Now you know how we feel, and this is how we have been treated all along."  And I have to say, for most people I know, I think that is not true.  I mean I am not other people, so I can't say for sure, but I think that what most of my friends in my life have experienced as racism is more like how I got treated at church for mental illness and gender.  Like people were stupid, ignorant, selfish, and I did not get a good piece of normal existence because of it.  But this bullying in the Bronx is on another level.  It is a problem on criminal levels that compares to political historical persecutions and third world problems. Hmm that is another meme. Like maybe a Target being looted and make it like those old first world problems memes but say first world. The sharks are humping themselves right now, thinking they got some dirt on me.

I mean that was the genius of the conspiracy, for me to have thirty thousand abusers and then to walk into another snake pit at social work school of all places. 

But anyway I will just repeat it one more time, that I think this amount of abuse is not the same as how my own identity peers supposedly treated my "different identity" peers in South Carolina. Like white and black growing up. I think we had problems and failures, but I think there is something else that I am being targeted with that used to not have as much of a place in american life.