Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Monday, Oct 19. I have a doctors appointment later at 1:40. So I will leave here at 11 because it takes a while to get there. Then after that I think I will try to go to the bank for a rent check and to pay back Dan for a consulting session. I did get interesting info but my lawyer helped me see a different path. It has to do with nonprofit status.  Dan said there is a program you can sign up for where they are allowed to get the donations on your behalf without you being registered. But my lawyers said to be very cautious about accepting donations as a sole proprietor or LLC.  All of that is very valuable to me and I am not going to mix it up with donations right now.

I believe I am being escalated again but I am taking my medicine according to the prescription.  I told Dr. Talreja I could not longer tolerate the latuda. And that was after asking him to change it at the prior appointment.  And I do have extra risperdal to take if I feel that I need to. I take it almost every day and Daniella said I could miss a dose sometimes, and I also have a status where I am in charge of my medicine.  So no one should be escalating me, and certainly not law enforcement when I have done nothing wrong.

Last time there was a fire drill, I had that spiritual vacuum cold feeling I get when the holy spirit leaves because of the mistreatment.  And I wonder if it is because of the firemen being part of the problem.  But I don't know, but they were mean to me when the bacon set off the fire alarm Saturday.  Both of them were mean on purpose.  The female turned around and walked off when I was telling her something, and the guy told me I had to unblock the window when it doesn't even open. Then I went to Starbucks and a cop was rude to me there in a provocative way.  Also the fact that they were there at all might have been one of there things where they drive up a car near me and sometimes do a beep sound. The other thing about it is that I can tell if I am escalated because I feel mad and despairing about housing, the Bronx, and being tortured until I die.

I feel that there might be some intervention from outside people and those who abuse me are going to be held accountable.  In fact, I think the elevator report already resulted in consequences this summer. But I am feeling fear again and it is not fair. 

I think if I lose housing in December then I will fly to Poland and fight in the Ukraine War. Have I already said that? I can't remember if I have.  My back cramped up yesterday because of the stress when I felt like I could not safely sleep at night and had to wait until 5 am. 

I think soon I will request an entire rent refund for the whole five years.