Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Sunday, Oct 18 at 11:42 pm. I am eating a chicken and cheese sandwich.  That is good for me and I think I eat less sandwiches than the average person.

Anyway I might not post the two questionable memes at all. I mean maybe I will, but I think the feeling might pass and I can save it for another time. Possibly I will show a friend or two but maybe not.

So anyway I think this was a good creative burst and boost.  The memes are doing well in India and Africa, and I can pray for people and ask for forgiveness based on my awareness of the abuse happening.

One of my ads doesn't have good numbers and I really think it is bullcrap for facebook to give me an estimate and then the real numbers are a fourth of that. But I kind of think okay, if it starts out at 60-80 per dollar and increases as a continual ad, then maybe it is not that different from usual. So I will see how it goes. I mean I think it is something I won't pay that much attention to.

I don't think God is going to snootily say "I guess your ads didn't work," on Judgement Day. And then add that I wasn't blessed because of personal sin. I think that is what some people want to happen, but that is not it. I mean we know that, don't we, from the other supernatural aspects of all of it? And yet sometimes I am fooled and feel like crap.  But I think that is the thing I never fully learn is that God is not a crappy snooty snide snobby loser like a lot of people who have snubbed me.  I mean he will say their names someday and point out that he wasn't like them at all.

In about two hours I have to take my medicine. It will be fine. 

Well, that was an interesting adventure this weekend wasn't it? It was supposed to be a fun conference, but it became all about surviving more emotional abuse. The weird thing to me is God really doesn't like it so why are they doing it? He shows himself opposed to it every time. I mean what are you people thinking.