Anyway also tonight I went to Toastmasters and loved it.  I think I have to apply to be in the group permanently and it costs 60 dollars.  Well that is worth it if they accept me. I need to read about it some more but I think I will like it a lot.

Something made me laugh at Toastmasters which is there was a guy there who reminds me of one of my rabbit children's book characters.  And it really cracked me up like nothing else has in years.

I mean the comedy of it.  And it reminds me of when I went to the blessing of the animals with my guinea pig named Fred and I felt emotional.  I think that some of my mind is just with animals and that is where I can have normal feelings. I mean think about how my fiction handicap wasn't a problem when I wrote about the mice. Like there was a real story arc instead of a joke form wit structure.

So anyway, I need to google some more stuff and mentally prepare to have some kind of show of forgiveness.  Because I did feel a supernatural lack of anger towards Karla and Daniella. I mean they have done a lot for me but this elevator drama is really bad. I could call the New York Post about it and might.

But it is serious and yet I feel very far away from saying G.D. or anything like that.  I don't feel as loving towards the other 30 bullies that I interacted with to recover from the stairwell disease, but I also don't feel that hateful.  But they will turn up in writing.  Possibly a list of Goofuses and Gallants for the Bronx Civil Social page. Hmm I think that is a good idea.