Hello everyone, it is 3:25. Unfortunately I started thinking of the origin of my mom’s problems towards me and accidentally prayed to Satan. So that was mentally ill of me and I got through it and it only was a second of compulsive problems. You just wonder what evil is in the house if there has been a thirty year attack.

But my mom is a Baptist and Presbyterian and really we are fine and most of it was her disability. 

Anyway I mostly feel fine. I feel relief and a content feeling like when I do stuff that is meaningful to me.

I think I might not be able to do a video boost like this again for a while unless I get a good budget and new income of some kind. Otherwise I think I am going to spend the extra money on books to give away. Because I do not want to waste that work.

I just saw some cute wool mice videos that are much better than mine. But mine are cute too, and I think that is the main thing is to always go for the cuteness.

I am glad there are other videos of this style and I don’t feel jealous or competitive. I feel like part of a genre and I am happy about it. 

I mean this is how it could have been with my writing but people hurt me. But that might have been part of the NYU education effort, to mess with my psychology for teaching purposes. I mean honestly I have to find some sympathy for any kind of bad person because a lot of it does happen from things that are hurtful or unfair.

Speaking of which, what do I think about this new Erica Kirk situation where she got targeted online. Well I think I agree with her statement that it is really cruel and racist.

However if I am not mistaken she is a major conservative force in the Trump camp and I don’t mean one of his concentration camps. So I think on that basis the people who are fighting life and death to save the Mexicans felt that they had no reason to spare her. Also my guess is that it was probably scheduled for today because of the no kings protests and this is the online material. I think that is kind of mean. I’m just still in the middle and think that you can still have character during a social civil war.