Hello everyone. Today is Tuesday, March 25. Today was a good food day with a lot of chicken.

I also went downtown to get my rent check.

And I went to my mental health program and had a good time. 

I do not trust my mental health program anymore but I don't feel as tortured as I felt last week by them.

I think maybe God is helping me have impressive stats for Judgement Day, like to end up with over two or three million acts of disrespect towards me.  That is a lot and it is definitely possible if you include the media at my bookstore job, all the hundreds of thousands of social interactions, and things like career financials and most of all, what has been absent.  Wow that is when I hit the hundreds of millions.

Today I received a book in the mail called Holy Fools.  I am learning about saints who were in a category of orthodox foolishness where they were very unusual rejected people.  What I am learning that I didn't expect is that some of them were despised in their day.  That is helpful to me, because in the evangelical tradition growing up, your success as a christian was very social. Like it was about converting people or gathering a small crowd of people who actually already heard the gospel anyway. 

So I learned to pray instead, and that has gone well, except when my portion of the spoils got taken away.  But God did other stuff for me, so I think I should go with that and invest further in praying for people's salvation and forgiveness.  A lot has happened that none of us predicted twenty years ago.  We were all stuck in jobs and stressed, and then suddenly we had an online feed of entertainment and love that lasted almost ten years until the selfish people ruined it.  So that can happen again in some way for other people too.