Candy Haul

 Hello everyone. Today is Wednesday, March 26. I just went to Walgreens to get water.  I have enough room in my cart for two large packages of bottled water.  But I only got one and instead bought a twelve pack of pepsi and thirty dollars worth of candy. Really it's not that much candy: Two packs of peeps, a cadbury eggs, some jelly beans and mike and ikes, and some goobers.

It cost 47 dollars.  Ouch! But definitely what I want to spend money on. 

On my way back, this truck tried to run me over at the crosswalk even though I had the light. And I imagined the newspaper saying someone got dragged on the street to death, and I knew they would ignore my real name and insist on using my old name.  And I was stewing a little bit and then I heard someone shout my real name loudly.  I think it was Jahnazia.  She was walking with Benny. It was great to see both her and Benny.  And then oddly James held the door for me when I got back to the building.  James gets mad at me sometimes so I don't know what the occasion was.  I just don't answer my door at 3 am because it is not a good habit.  I mean maybe it is, maybe I am wrong, maybe I should be a 24-7 food extraordinaire.  But to me there should be off hours.

So anyway, then Brian who works in the office was nice enough to me. I think it was because I bought water. But the feeling this morning where the holy spirit receded was disturbing.  It is a sign of being mistreated.  I don't know if anyone cares about noticing those patterns, but to me it was surprising.  The HS likes when people are nice to me and that is why I had a steady flow of it at the hospital last week.  

But I am going to expect some kind of resurrection during times where people are mean and God's presence leaves. I mean I honestly have wondered if it is a simple as the holy spirit doesn't like snakes. But Jesus felt that God left him at the cross and I think that is weirdly how it works.

So anyway I don't know what the mental health people are up to but I am wondering if I get sent to the hospital soon.  Or maybe I can do a PHP. I would love to do a PHP.  Online or in person.  Would my attendance be okay? I do not know.  I only have four years left so I might not be too much of a hog if I chose to participate. Even every year, would that be so greedy? I do not know, but I do think it is greedy to take a hospital bed when the manic episode people need one.