Ok everyone, that was that. I think it is an interesting story, and I think people are in fact setting things up so that they can send me to the hospital at any time.  Possibly they even see it as a reward for switching medications. I really was a trooper but my doctor and mental health people did help me stay on it.  It is Latuda. I think I should be at 40 mg but I think they are going to keep me at 60 for quite a while. The next challenge is to lose weight. I will see if I can walk it off during these next two months.

So okay. Back to normal. Was that blog post okay. I think it was okay.  Something helpful is that the people in my writing group did see it exactly for what it is. Their support was awesome.  When I told friends about the rejected harassment report, they sided with the volunteer organization and said people can't help what their names are.  But that wasn't the point.  And what New York Cares was telling me is that a legal name status is pretty indestructible.  Was that feedback supposed to be a secret? I do not know.

Anyway, this blog is designated as an actual journal and has a private, undisclosed readership.

Let's try to determine if I can be more useful for certain causes. I really think that I should not let people down, but I also think that other people had certain social callings and I don't need to steal from them. Like I only wave certain flags at certain times.  It is similar to staying in your lane, and some of it is like lateral delegation of responsibilities. 

Well, that is all for now. Thanks everyone for helping me get through this rough time which is hopefully just a few more days.