Pals, this is Refried. It is 1:21 on Wednesday. I talked to Drena at 11:18. I was late. Sorry about that Drena. I am so glad she called me and I was able to talk at least for most of the appointment. I had some major stuff on my mind. I saw another demon last night that looked like a queen and stared straight at me. Pretty crazy. Honestly I could matchmake and get her to be friends with that demon who looked up at me from the book in hell that time. I think that would be a sweet love story. And the. My life would be weird with very few converts but a hundred or so demons that were redeemed. Again, I don’t know, but if you consider purgatory and other realms, the timeline for salvation expands.

But anyway thanks again pals from India. You are simply part of the team. We will help the whole world won’t we. 

So okay. That is interesting. Also I think it was two demons disguised as one white bald thing so I need to consider whether one of those demons is still on the loose. Kind of scary. 

My walk to Starbucks was kind of rough. Did I feel fatigue? I think I need to take an iron pill soon.

But what is the real issue. I think it is the heat.

I need to go buy a sheet from ABC.

I just really wanted to get that done but couldn’t.

It is ok. I just don’t know when. What about tomorrow morning. Hmm maybe.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Pals, I just got groceries. It was Instacart and the person was nice. There were a few substitutions but the cheesecake and key lime pie were a success. Now I need to put the ice cream in the freezer. It is Neapolitan. That is ok but I am surprised there was no strawberry but it is ok.

I am thankful for my groceries.

I had to make three trips up the stairs. Karla carried the water so maybe the abuse reports are done for now. I might withhold the complaint against Daniella’s license. I like all the new hires. That is a lot of work from Karla.

So I am calming down. I did a report yesterday and it went well and concluded the main stuff.

Then at night I imagined going to the hospital and having the exact conversation. Except clearly I don’t need to go to the hospital.

Gice when I was a kid I wanted neopolitan ice cream because it was always what was pictured in the cartoons.

I just put it in the freezer. I told the Instacart person it might flood. I tipped her 60 dollars.

I should not tell that should I. Well rattle that around in your pea brain when you judge me. My money went to the working poor.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I got a lot of views on that memory of my teacher.

Pals, my finger is healed.  That weird spot is gone.  Yay, I am thankful. Also the way it healed was normal and not diabetes.

Tomorrow I have an appointment and then I go downtown to get my rent check.

Today I need to take out one bag of trash if I have another trash bag.

I should have gotten groceries but I am being abused at housing again with no elevator for a month.

Pals, can you believe that my finger is healed. Wow, that took a while but it was because it was healing underneath the treatment.

Pretty funny if I went to middle church and showed them the paranochia for a children's sermon.

I am just joking, it is because I was just watching that on the service video.

Pray for Betty Jean because her house burned.

I have been talking to one of my old friends on the phone and I felt spiritual power when we talked about grace church. Way to go Matt. It is so cool when I feel people's spiritual spirits.

So anyway, that is all. I am really sad about nance. This is a weird and sad thing that she is gone.

 Jacqui, I really like your post about whiteness. I really think you are in the heights of philosophy and theology when you write about white.

I am a half and half churcher for echo and middle.

For certain reasons that become apparent sometimes.

I am having some ups and downs at housing but in a way not at all because our elevator is shut down. 

It is good for me to care about people other than myself.

However some people have been misled into a conflict of interest with their service jobs. And this is going to hurt them and I will not excuse it as other suffering innocents are tortured, killed, and abused.

People make their choice and should have a learning curve and understanding about context and peer pressure. However some morality has already been established in history and the human heart. And if people choose the hypocrisy then they will have to face the sorrows.

 Pals, I lost a loved one. An uncomplicated relationship. My first MFA creative writing teacher. Nance Van Winckel. I am really sad and feeling sadder as time passes.

It brings back happy memories too and as I remember her, I can almost convince myself I am in my room during my creative writing program. It is kind of interesting how similar the arrangement of the furniture is to my apartment now.

I will post on facebook and the tribute page soon but it is going to take me some time to think about this. I am imagining Nance with the children’s book animals in heaven, and I think she is a special person there.

She came from a Presbyterian family but was atheist. I believe she is in heaven. She was really funny and something cool about her religious humor is that she didn’t make me feel responsible for her salvation. That is what some people’s atheism is about. It is about torturing people who care about their spiritual life. But I believe Nance was different and connected with me in a religious humor zone. It was very comical.

I think the school might have seen potential in me to be the punk evangelical writer who writes stories where the religious person goes to the strip club to pass out tracts and then scrogs all the people at one time.

But I did not become that. I stayed innocent and my books will be handed to teens from someone who was always a children’s book writer. I mean how cute for all of us. 

I will miss Nance Van Winckel and probably pray to her sometimes.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is July 24 at 3:37. I am not going to the hearing voices group today.  I just don't think I need to be at every group.

I have my next book ready to go but want to review it a little more. It is really good. Some people did not get a mention.  Is that bad or good, I have to think about it.

Also as far as who is going to be heartbroken, that is from their organization.  You supported it, you probably suggested it, and they were happy to do it.  And you set them up for mockery, to think their supposed greatness could be demonstrated through harm. 

I have said all my stuff and I have said it early, so I already named it as it unfolds. Monday I need to get my rent check.  I needed to do that today, but I am slowed down considerably by the abuse, which is the point.  But they do want that money, don't they.  And yet it weakens their argument that it is all charity.  So hmm, what are we to do but count on other people's racism and blindness.

Anyway I think they thought I would already post some stuff but I had more ideas, didn't I? Because it is never-ending as long as I stay alive. So as you try to escalate me, what is really escalating? Your abuse until it becomes undeniable in front of a crowd of God's actual people as opposed to your dirty supporters.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried.

The Bridge made me feel bad again. But I have two options to stand up to it and will do that soon. I got some good secret messages also.

Tonight I should cook the sausage. It is too bad I don’t have cheese but that is okay. I could cook the shrimp but I think I am going to cook sausage.

I don’t plan to get in a back and forth with the bridge. Just report every time. I mean this is what happened with the last racists. And they were sent away.

Should I cook the shrimp since it is easier. I think no. I think cook the sausage. At nine oclock.

And order the three books to send to Tristan. 

And work on the new project. 

The praying isn’t the same when I don’t have the posts running in India.

I am also going to have to say that some people want to argue that this kind of racism is what some people have dealt with their whole life. And for some that may be true but for most, guess what. I know that it is not true and that me and most of the people I know never did this to anyone. And it was quite the contrary from millions of people.

Anyway I could go on but I have already said stuff at other times.

Well, that is all. You want me to post that photo but it is going somewhere else.