Hello everyone. I have inspection tomorrow. I need to make a list of what to do: trash, counter, dishes, bathroom, laundry, make bed, clear floor and table.

Gice something was dreadfully wrong at nami. I might never go back. Like you think you will never leave but you do. Hopefully I can put in a call tomorrow.

I mean frankly I don’t understand reality. And my book order got messed up, and honestly I don’t see myself staying in New York. Worst of all, I feel like my mom has not made arrangements for the check next month and my sister is going to bumble it.

This morning was weirdly awful and then it was okay but I can’t tell if NYP is still helping me happily or is mad.

I do not know but I think there was a message telling me all these people are friends.

Gice ups and downs live and learn it was not an easy week and yet so fun in some ways. I hope I did not let down my new law friend pals.

I think it is okay and yet it is not okay. Things are not okay at nami and I don’t know what to do about it.

Gice I also got two A minuses. One from NYU and one from Cordova. Some of it is because I relied on them for mental health support, and some was because I sharked them about my book rights. Pretty funny what happened.

Are you Gice reading this. I am not coming after y’all for that and I know I would lose.

I forgot to tell them I wanted to be a lawyer for Judgement Day but they probably surmised.

I think they are my friends now.

Really though the speed of that dramatic moment today when I really did have to do a doctors appointment.

There are some other secret messages that say my books aren’t going to be torn up.

Thanks everyone. I got some stuff wrong though like when I said great instead of beautiful in that Woodruff Road essay and when I said luxury instead of blessing in the VCFA phrasing. But I meant well both times for my gf named Ravneet. I don’t think it means God is mad. It is probably fine. Ravneet you are very brave and it is going to be so fun and we probably have at least a million years but I feel like God did say “you don’t know what you are asking” when you request a forever person. Like there is stuff we don’t know but he also didn’t say no.

So anyway this is a good day. I will be back to normal with meds all in good time. I don’t want to make myself feel bad after the bad feeling that happened. I talked to my sister again and it was okay. She is at USC and had regained a lost account.

So that is good.

An A and two A minuses. That is a semester.

Well that is all everyone. Thanks for tuning in. I had a good time and appreciate the attention everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, May 14 at 11 am.  The law firm decided not to take my case but it was still a good experience.  I possibly told them too much.  I also am aware of how my mental health is gone and I might not be well enough to participate in legal action. 

However I wrote a lot of interesting stuff.  I think they did not like that I called people names and they might have felt that I called them names but I didn't.  But I told them in the paperwork that I call people names sometimes. I just told them everything because that is what I do.  

I need to revisit some of the emails and make copies for my new thin book.  The thin book will not be released still for a while though.

Are the law firm people mad at me? I do not know. I will miss them a lot.  It won't be the same around here.  That process lasted about a week. I learned a lot and Columbia Law School gave me an A.

 Hello everyone. It is 4:45 on Thursday. I need to take my medicine soon. I know what my next step is. I am going to ask my sister for a thousand dollars. I think if she doesn’t have it then that is okay. It is hard to wait because I feel motivated to get this stuff done. But really I am okay and need to make a milkshake and take medicine. Am I eating enough. I made a mistake on one of my documents and didn’t list selfishness in the faults list. So I need to correct that tomorrow. I was trying to tell them I am lazy and selfish but don’t lie cheat and steal. And yet I am in the hole now for about one grand.

Gice it is not that easy to not feel good but I am mostly okay and got some sleep yesterday. And I took my medicine. Should I go to Nami tomorrow? I might do that if I feel like it.

Does anyone have any thoughts? I think what I am doing now is essentially writing another thin book. It is going to be called Tale of Three Cities.

I am saying that to put a thin disguise on what is actually happening. I saw a few hallucinations tonight so I think we are all on the right track.

Ok everyone, I think the conspiracy is saying to rest my case.  

https://www.nytimes.com/video/us/100000007162707/minneapolis-police-protest-burn.html

Lawyers, if you are reading this, I have more to send but think it is time to clam up.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Monday, May 11. I went to a meeting and then watched a youtube video of Princeton's Chapel Service. It was good. My therapist helped me with how I did not feel good.  I think I am okay now.  Soon I will go to the post office but I am waiting until the computer says my order has arrived.  It was a large order and I am taking my cart. I hope even the cart is enough room. It is 40 books total.  I think the cart will be fine.

So okay, there is some bad news, which is that my mom does not want to support the facebook video outreach.  So possibly that hobby is mostly over or at least postponed.  But she was not mad that I asked. She just doesn't like it for some reason. I mean that is weird to me. How can you not like that.

So anyway that means I will be kind of tight with my budget for a while and might not get to go to Asheville in October. Well that is okay. What I am worried about is that my mom is not going to double up on deposits and instead is going to grant my sister access to do the checks.  I could see this as a good thing I guess, like maybe it means my mom is about to cut me off for being gay.  So this is when and how we arrange for my sister to help me survive instead.  But practically speaking, I am a little bit worried about being able to pay the rent on time in June. But I think it will be okay.

About this thermostat quote, I think it can be cheapened to be about power, and maybe you aren't supposed to go after the power and even influence, but the service. That is how I felt before when I said it and I am going to have to agree with myself again.

Well have a great day everyone.

 Hello everyone, today is Saturday, May 9. I walked to Starbucks and got a chai.  And I also ate at McDonalds before that. I'm doing okay and just resting in my apartment.  One of my neighbors is really noisy and it has started driving me crazy. But I am okay. He is just really loud and talks to himself a lot. I would definitely rather have that annoyance than other problems, though.

I am relieved to feel mostly normal. I was worried that the low iron might be caused by one of my psych meds, but it is not. So I don't have a medicine change on the horizon.  That is a relief.  Wow that would be horrible.

I think I am going to listen to music for a while. I am just kind of shaken up by the week. Tomorrow I will try to go to both church services and bible study later. That sounds like a bit much but really isn't.

I think I don't owe any phone a friends any calls except maybe Charlotte tomorrow. I have a plan to give away my book rights at least temporarily if I sense that there are revenge plans from the people who murdered me.

I think I will play video games on my phone also.  I mean honestly I am a little shaken up sometimes.

My sister said this is me: