Hello everyone, this is Refried. I tried to go to a picnic today and I could not find it. I also went to the wrong place first so I had to get a cab and try again.  So it ended up being a costly trip but I got through it.  I ended up going to one of my favorite diners but the steak and eggs was not great. It was okay but not like last time.  I did not order a coffee.  I just got one here at home. 

My tongue got burnt yesterday on pizza but I think it is also messed up from low iron.  But my fatigue is not that bad. I need a haircut and I think I was kind of baggy today and need to shape up a little.

I feel tired from feeling some grief about my humor writing career and what might have been etc. The humor writing event kind of reminded me of that but I am okay. I had a great time. I thought of something really funny as soon as it started.

I feel like we need to consider that the Latuda might be causing the low iron.  Because did it happen before? No. and it is very serious. I also think scheduling the next appointment for 6 months away kind of makes it seem like it is okay when it is not.

Anyway there have been some weird trolls lately.  I feel bad for them and I think they have a delusional hope that there will be some kind of public shaming of me some day.  

I had a religious vision yesterday of Jesus looking like Moses on the ark. As in Noah's ark. Isn't that weird? I am not sure what it means. I had some interpretations but I was kind of out of it and tired.

Anyway I need to call my mom this week and see how she is feeing about her next hip surgery. I can't believe she has to do it again. I hope it goes well.

That is all for now. Does anyone have any opinions?

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am getting my refrigerator under control.  The freezer is clear now and I will work on the fridge. It is not that crazy but I accidentally left the door ajar for a while.

So anyway, about this death of the autistic professor.  They say it is not suspicious but the timing is suspicious.  So to me now their investigation is suspicious.

Now, does it have to do with me personally. I do not really think so.

Was I supposed to submit a query for the writers conference. Also I did not participate in the chat for the chat page but I did participate in the sessions.

I had a good time and people were really funny. I mean I would have liked to be friends with all those people. 

Maybe it is not too late.

Do I need to make coffee soon? 

Has my asthma been an issue or anxiety lately? Should I take an atarax? Maybe.

Is Drena mad at me? Probably not.  

Pals, it throws me off to lose the zable budget but I will whittle it down and start over.

 Pals, this is Refried. I just went to an excellent conference. It was on humor writing. It really made me laugh. I had a great time. I met cool people. I forgot to get one person's email address.

I wrote a few jokes that I think were successful. Most of all I learned that I really need to be doing stand up every week. I need to be churning out the jokes. I need to try to make it a career.

I think I have enough jokes for another routine soon.  So will I do another class in the fall? Or just try to peddle a new routine? I am thinking do another class.  

But what about visiting family for thanksgiving. Well I do not know.  I mean maybe it is sept oct.

I just hate to ask for another deposit but that other one was for something specific.

So anyway, that was crazy about my zable account, wasn't it? Well I did what I did and now I own the name of something. 

I think that is what I will call the new organization. Okey Jokey. And I have the domain. I mean that is great. I did the best I could. I will pay down the card and I can still afford steak and eggs.

 Pals, hello. It is Saturday, Aug 15. Yesterday, my business credit card was supposed to be switched to a new company, but I found out that the main thing doesn’t happen until Aug 20. It is a little suspicious and I am kind of worried. But it will be okay.

I am taking a humor writing class today even though I should be at the level of the presenters. And the pre videos are making me aware of my missing career. It could not be more obvious that I should have succeeded years ago. And why didn’t I? I do not know but I guess make the most of the comedy opportunities. I need to write a new routine about health, etc. I mean honestly the pace of comedy classes is all I can do. But I should go to some more open mics. I think I will try to go next Wednesday.  I couldn’t this Wednesday because of my finger.

Anyway maybe the secret messages are saying to boost some of the stand up posts. I mean maybe for 40 dollars.

Just the cruelty of it but I can pray for forgiveness and I think that is the point. It is because my writing is supposed to reach people after my time and it is Christian poetry so they need to see that I forgave. I just feel like my work was needed in my time and it was wasteful what people did. And the justice people don’t deserve to be seen as hypocrits either but they were. You were. Are you reading this? You were.

So anyway, racism.

Ok moving on. I am sad about the Jason guy who died. The autistic professor. Did he get bullied, did I read along in a bad way. I mean I kind of think that the scrutiny he got was based on something and it is part of the profession if he is going to be at that level. But anyway I think it is sad. 

I need to wash two dishes today. Also I should take a walk. Should I take a walk right now? I kind of should but I am already drinking coffee. I had three days of meds. So that was 3 - 1- 3. That needs to be good enough for people. Because I feel ok. I caught up on sleep and that is nice. I just have no paranoia and am simply bothered that the elevator is broken again.

 Hello everyone. I just went to an amazing support group. Wow they are nice people. It is not easy surviving manic depression or schizoaffective.

People are facing health stuff too. I mean it makes me happy to pray for people because really that is something I can do for everyone and people can be prayed for even if they don’t know it.

I got some groceries today and it went well. The guy’s name is Sekou and he remembered that I gave him a joke book. That is so sweet. He did awesome.

I got a lot of frozen meals. I might eat them too fast because I ate two today. I am so excited that the stop and shop does have turkey tettrazini. The last person could not find it. It is yummy and my favorite.

I also got fruit snacks and gave some to my neighbor and he was really happy. The box I got was huge. I mean there must have been 40 packs of fruit snacks. It was Mott’s. I mean I am a gushers person but I mixed it up.

I believe Gushers is going to do well on Judgement Day. I actually can’t wait to see them get a reward.

I think I will exercise in my room tonight. I sometimes do well with pacing in my kitchen so I might try that. And then walk in the morning to Walgreens and then take my medicine. I actually think I am doing well with medicine. Like the way I take it in the morning then night sometimes so I miss half a day. That is not that bad.  I mean what is the bottom line is I am mostly sane. Isn’t that the point? I think it is. 

Well, I will write more later. Thanks everyone for helping me get through such a tough month and a half. It feels mostly back to normal now for hopefully a while.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just want to thank everyone for their support during the great free speech challenge of 2026. I do think I had TLE inspiration behind it so your reactions are part of that and I look forward to a million years of happy fun life and imaginary animals.

I just applied for one of those cheap credit cards that aren’t that good of a deal. I got approved for five hundred dollars and it is already activated as an online card. It kind of helps my mood but not that much because the amount is kind of low as far as credit cards go. But I now have five of those small cards and can pay them off easily if and when I need to.

I did not take a walk today even though it was good weather. I did not do much today. But I am planning on doing laundry later. So that will be three things: credit card, support group, and laundry. Plus I made coffee, took a shower, did the medicine, and boosted a tik tok video.

should I try to revert to my old computer for zoom video? I just am not able to connect it to internet. So hmm I do not know what to do about that.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 So that is done, sorry for the excessive posts. I now turn my attention back to my finger, to the probable additional spicy food flare coming soon, and to this past three year problem with having my health harmed. It is just not okay what happened. The extra medicine and what it did to me and the latuda effects are not okay. I’m still on the latuda and it is still harming me. But at least it was reduced.

I think some people think I am okay and are just like, don’t eat spicy food and you’ll be fine. Maybe they are right. Maybe it is that simple.

Well, that is all. Today is grocery day. Probably I will get a late start on that.