Hello everyone, I just successfully went and got some waters and 7ups. Then I went to Popeyes chicken and got some food for the weekend. 

It is warm in this apartment right now. I do not know if the air is on but if it is not it will simply be a report and the Bridge will be fined for their consistent, disrespectful illegal abuse. 

It's fall weather again, time for the Bridge to cheat us out of our rent and legal rights.

Anyway, maybe the air will come back on later and it is just on low. Let's give them a chance, like fools every time. 

I think I will go downstairs and ask if the air conditioning is on.

Pals.  Someone bought my book called "Failed Mission to the Liberals." I think it was probably one of my facebook friends. My guess is that it was Anne Shaughnessy. Thanks, Anne. I am going to reread the book right now to see how I feel about others reading it.

Wasn't that so heartwarming today at Dunkin Donuts when that person bought that guy a sandwich? I mean it really just made my day and I thought about it later and was happy for like ten minutes.

But I do have scatterbrain so I did forget about it.

But anyway I had a good day but I need to get my apartment under control. 

Also I need to take my medicine in just a little while. I am getting tired but need to take the medicine as soon as I can. But I do feel back to normal.  The issue yesterday was because of the MSF event.  That is what I think, unless it had to do with phone a friends.

But I do not know.

So anyway I just read that Trump is trying to bribe voters with tax money.  And there was something bad on the news site that I saw.  Also, NBC is showing some news to only subscribers, which is disturbing to me in some ways, like it might be a way of tracking people or something. But I do not know.

Anyway I did two humor memes tonight and they were both very extreme.  I mean it is rough when your mental health also happens to be in question.  But I think they are funny jokes.

Pals I am so tired but it is hard to go take my medicine but I of course will.

Have a good day everyone. Tomorrow is Sept 11. Honestly it gets me every year.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, Sept 10. I did not post that blog post on my facebook page but probably will soon but that was kind of weird how that happened. 

So anyway, then I went to support group and I kind of talked too much and didn't do perfect. But people were nice to me but sorry everyone that I was kind of greedy. I did not mean to be. I just forgot and was wordy.  But I also always think that people do need support and there should be a few hands up for each person usually. 

So anyway I did the best I could and last night I did not go to support group and I think nami tries to support the regulars when we need it and they knew some stuff happened recently.

However I possibly was selfish.

And this brings us to another interesting topic, which is that I sometimes saw my sister as the chomp chain on super Mario and she saw me as bowser.  But the bad things those particular characters do is reversed, and my sister blocks stuff like bowser, and I was greedy like the chomp chain.  

Isn't that so bad of me to say? Well I just find it interesting and I do not know what it means, except it might have been set up to be written right now on this blog.

The Re-Stains of the Day

 Hello everyone, I just thought of a blog post topic that might belong on my mad blog. In fact, I think I will put it on the mad blog soon.  But it is about writing and publishing.  And for some reason, while thinking about Substack a few minutes ago, I happened upon this topic that I find myself absolutely suddenly outraged about.  I mean I did not even know that this was percolating in my mind, but here it is.

Recently I saw a video where someone was questioning the expectation for writers to have "platforms," or rather, supply all the readers themselves before an agent and publisher accept them.  I also questioned this five years ago when it became a thing, and I was suggesting that the word "platform's" meaning had sneakily changed.  So anyway, finally some other people are seeing something sketchy about it, and I do agree. 

But there is something else that I find even more outrageous, and for some reason, I just now saw it so clearly in my mind after not really realizing how offended I am by this other thing.

So here it is... email lists.  This popular recent writing advice, or really just the stated news fact that you might not be able to reach anyone without your own email list, is another mandate from that same time where some people became popular and the experts began telling all of us failure people to be more like them, at least on the surface.  So what is offensive about being told to have an email list?

Well, the reason that email lists started to seem necessary is because the much more successful social media platforms were suddenly transformed from one of the best things that ever happened to us into a horrible thieving counter-monetized social life-stealing swindle.  And the same people who ruined facebook on purpose were the ones saying to now invest in email lists.

The overt bullying from political people to their own friends after thirty years in which they too did not succeed in helping immigrants is what I am talking about.  And to just say, well now you have to have an email list, is simply part of that hypocrisy.  Because at one point, there was a blessing that we had called social media, which included opportunities to reach people.  But up and ups and low down dirties all decided to ruin it for us. 

It is a fact, and people made their choice, and it can't be undone in order to hide it. Does it tarnish anyone's success? Not necessarily.  But not necessarily not, either.  Because wow, there were winners and losers, and did all the losers deserve it? Probably not. So what about the winners? Before I get on that tangent, I have one more thing to say about email lists and platforms.  The people who chase those things that seem to work and prescribe them to the rest of us who seem so inferior actually probably aren't seeing the real keys to success.  The real things that people who succeed on those levels do are likely to start years before and be very integrated in their lives as organic decisions that aren't that different from anyone who is doing what they really care about. And most writers do care and have something to say. I mean, sure, why not list the things that are working, why not give people the opportunity for relevant education, why not point out the clues that seem to suddenly work.  And yet, "you're going to need an email list because we are ruining this platform that we also told you to have," is nothing other than total bullcrap. Do you think that is sour grapes from me? Or is it the feces that you smeared all over the church of better writers.

 Pals, guess what, I saw my buddy named Danielle! At Starbucks!  from Jewish Board! It was so fun and she helped me not be scared of the story shield.  But I told her there was one that had to do with her because there is a Daniella and a Danielle and the evil forces might not know which one to attack. I mean you don't just tell someone that.  But I did but she is still my friend.

I think it is a reward because I volunteered to be a leader at the MSF event but nice I am not a good leader! I am going to have to tell the people I am not a good leader and don't know how to run the music.

But maybe they want to listen to Starbucks music. But I think that is what I should do now if find the playlist.

Ok thanks everyone.

 Hi everyone, this is Refried. It is 2:48. I feel back to normal but expect some visions for a day or so and figured out why it is happening. It is probably because of the Doctors Without Borders mapping event. God likes them and I have seizures sometimes when I pray for them. And that was also probably why the hurricane happened when I was at NCB, and there could also be an Asheville connection from when I prayed at the gas station that time. I am not saying that it is about me, but I have wondered what the meaning is and possibly that is the way that it is ironically not about me.

So anyway I know I seem like a kook now but it is actually the opposite. I am volunteering tonight in the meeting but my internet is not that great. But I think I will try to use my computer instead of my phone if I can. And I will log on at home and not Starbucks.

Soon I talk to Drena. I am glad I figured out why I was having slight spells of something.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Pals, if you do not get your book, please let me know or just order one later. I am sorry that sometimes the packages get torn or misdelivered etc.

The next batch is for Bronx Council for the Arts. There may be enough for the park or a normal few at pastors, priests, and guides. But there might not. So please be patient everyone and to my knowledge the Amazon page works so let’s none of us be too proud to just spend $5.