Hello everyone. Dolly Parton died. She was my friend. I will miss her but I feel close to her in heaven, too. I just prayed for scrap to be in a movie. So maybe he will be in a movie with Dolly Parton.

Gice I am sad. I did not expect to be so sad. I felt like I already accepted it.

I mean I could honestly cry a little bit.

But I will try to think of something to say. I actually already have something to say which is that when you discover Dolly Parton she is a better person than you realized. Like you think ha ha Dolly Parton and then you listen to her music or see her speak or read something about her life and it is like wow, what a good person.

Well that is all I will say for now.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I got good sleep and feel better. I felt a little manic last night. Yesterday my prayers went better than usual. I think it is because of the RB Tostada page for some reason.  I could see the timeline for the millennium that I try to use and I asked for trillions of things.  But honestly that is the same amount I ask for when I imagine the world as it is. So then I had to retroactively ask for a trillion times a trillion.  That is not the same as it going well in the moment.  But it was still much better than usual.  So hopefully we will get a lot of stuff.

Gice think of all the college kids. I will try to pray for them too. That is kind of overwhelming to me. I mean think of them but honestly some of them are okay and having a good time. It is their life and they are doing the best they can and succeeding.

So anyway I just made coffee and will drink some soon.  I had a dream last night where I was helping Kamala and I asked her to be in a skit I was writing and she said okay and then I had to write a good enough skit and what I chose to focus on is that their side is better at ethical dilemmas.

So that is kind of weird. The Trump campaigning against me was kind of overwhelming and had other countries helping.  And the other people who were participating in the skit thing did not like me.

But anyway it was just a dream everyone. 

So okay, what am I doing today. Two nice things in the evening. Before that, I guess another walk or two. Maybe I will go get some milk. I am out of money for ad budgets, so that is all for a while. I mean that is kind of weird. I might have to do some twenty dollar boosts in September. Or maybe save up and do just one boost for 60.

The cool new blob got 800k views and has ten dollars left. So it could end at 900. That is the numbers I like to see. I mean that is better than normal, as good as it gets for the images. If I really want to do another batch I could use my Ollo credit card but you know what, I am not. I just don't have the money.

Well, have a good day everyone, thanks for helping me with this recent hacking.

  Hello everyone, this is Refried. I had such an interesting dream where I got legal consultation because of not getting to go on a trip in high school.  And it felt so real.  But the actual scenario was different and there really wasn't cause for legal help.

So that is interesting.

I got an email from a great pal today about a poem.  

And I was able to fix it. It is so weird how I could not see the solution but then I think it is okay now

Fruit Snacks Poem

Wow, guy with the

 gushers T shirt 

on the train.

"Fruit juice is thicker than water."

I think that is much better and seems right.

So anyway, that is interesting. I mean it is a cute little poem now.

Pals, my googly eyed blob is at 550,000 views with probably about 300k to go.  That is great. It is on the ai blobs page.  Those blobs are cool.  Facebook was not that impressed but I think it is cute art.

What about the other posts on the regular page?  I think there are two posts, the frog and the ice cream.  The posts are going okay.  

So honestly that might be all for a while. It was an interesting burst of posts.

Well, have a great day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I had a nice day today. I slept late and then went to a great queer kid lit meeting. Wow, it is nice people who honestly are a step up from me but I am still not an imposter.

Then I went to a comedy class show for someone else's class. It was good and I was mostly not tortured.  Just a few hints of some old symptoms that did mess with me but it is okay.

Before that I got a gyro and it was awesome and the guy was nice. And probably it is not easy to do what he does but it was yummy. I liked that place and I think they had hand sanitizer there.

I will be back hopefully.  They had these cheese things, Spinach things, and cinnamon things, like triangular greek pies.  I think I will pick up some as if from a bakery sometime.

I do not eat gyros often but it was yummy.

So anyway I like the comics. They are funny. I like the classes I take, too though.  I think I will take another Ben class on Wednesdays in the fall. It is jut working well and I think that is my true pace with real jokes.

I didn't feel well for a few minutes and was a little worried but not that worried. Mostly my fatigue is not that bad and I took iron pills for a few weeks now.

Ok what else.  A few dreams this morning.  Very interesting. Like half awake so I was aware I was missing church and then had a dream that I was at some festival and told Amanda and Jacqui some stuff.

So that is interesting.  

At the comedy show they did not give me sugar so I could not drink the coffee.  But it is okay. 

I will make coffee here and have a good evening. I might talk to some phone a friends.

The comedians tonight were funny. I laughed a lot, mostly mildly, but it was not boring. But it is hard to last until the end but it was okay. I mean it was a lot of people. Like 15 comedy routines. That is a lot.

Hey everyone, this was one of my favorite posts. The numbers were better than usual and people were really positive. It  a good surprise. I don’t know why the poems and jokes are not popular in USA and don’t get these same numbers but I am still happy about this. I think I didn’t answer well for one person and should have said something more reassuring but I couldn’t tell if she was trolling me. I think she wasn’t. I think she really felt like God didn’t love her. So I might need to revisit that. Sorry about that. 

Anyway I did not take that iron pill but am going to. There is some thing else I forgot too and it is weird because I always think I won’t forget and then I do forget. Ok I remember. It has to do with maybe mailing books soon. I am going to see if that person named Misha wants some books. Maybe I will do another mailout soon. Like ten people or so. 

Well, that is all. Have a good day everyone.

 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 4:39. I had such a good time at my toastmasters meeting today. I hope I can give a speech someday. 

After that I ate a frozen meal that I like, which is the lean cuisine enchilada.  I added sour cream.  It was great.  Then I took a walk to dunkin donuts and ate a kiddie scoop ice cream cone. It was so yummy. It was a flavor that I have never had before. It was a type of birthday cake ice cream that had actual cake in it. I do not know how they kept the texture like that.

Now for an update on the hacking: I think my account got duplicated in some way, and they are collecting passwords that I would use in the future.  But I think that Facebook is going to fix it successfully.

I am able to run ads and have two new ads going currently.  This is the end of my budget for the recent extra help.  I got a lot out of it.  

Doing two factor authentication on several accounts got on my nerves, and I questioned it.  But in the end, I think it did work and allow me to get the people out of the account.  I think they got into the account because I used their link and was on my phone. So once I used my own link, I could see they were logged on and I kicked them out.  But they already hooked something up to the account, but it can be taken out by facebook.  Also, my meta verified subscription makes me eligible for extra customer service.  And actually, when I have needed it, they did help. So that is interesting.

I can't believe anyone would read this blog.  I have an interesting post every now and then, but usually it is just me yapping about what I do, which is normal survival and less and less, I don't know, high up in terms of being notable.  Like it is literally like, wow, I need to get rid of the bugs in my apartment.

So anyway, the other thing to say is that my poems and jokes get low numbers in USA and my ai art is not like that. So maybe I will share poems on that poem blog and post the link with more ai art.  Because for some reason, that poetry career just isn't endorsed by facebook except to India.  Unless there is a hidden audience.  The reason I think there could be is because I got spiritual asthma from posting that cashier ice cream post. And that was what happened with that Lamb of God post when it reached 2 million people. So why would I get that from posting the ice cream post to 6000 people?

Is it because an agent is considering me and this is it? Hmm, I do not know.  

I think I might see if Marla wants the box of books that got sent back. Mara Taviano.  She has some other friends in Columbia she could share with if she wants to.

Who else. Some hospital people. I think Dr. Banana and Halverson did not get any books, joke book or library book.  Both of those books are good and are meant as a good present.

Pals, the parties in my mind are really fun and kind of like regular socializing with actually some disability. Some memory and attention issues, and whatever the latuda does that makes me not feel feelings correctly.  But you know what, it is possible that the autoimmune condition is also behind it.  I think I might call it that instead of Lupus. I think that is harder to deny.

Well, that is all. I need to take an iron pill. I think I will take one right now.

Have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, I just remembered that toastmasters is today. It is at 1 pm. I can do it, it will be fine.

I don't think I will make more canva memes unless I just feel like logging on.

I think my memes have been cool. It is weird that it caught on and reached people when my poems and books didn't but my poems still could reach people in India.

I mean maybe it will be a hobby too in USA but just at a smaller level.

Like okay. 10k views, 3k likes. That is great.  I still got faked out in 2012 but on a normal scale, that is a great appreciation for poetry.  

I just feel like it impacts heaven too for my work to either reach people or not reach people. 

But we need to believe that anything can be made okay and resurrected.

So anyway this Toastmasters stuff is a challenge but I like it and will be hopefully sticking with it.  Hmm tomorrow am I going to Bruce's comedy show? I think I will.

Gice could you believe I got three steaks from that diner? 

Pals. There is something happy with comedy which is that I am usually just happy to be a real comedian and don't have to be the best. I am not as competitively ambitious in ways that don't matter. Like it is about the laughs.  That is interesting, isn't it. I think my striving in other subjects still is part of who I am and influences the kind of jokes I make.  But I am happy to be free in a certain way, to not be like hoping for awards or something. To instead be trying to laugh and make other people have the same laugh.

That is happy. As for the depression, a lot of us are like that. I might make a quote about how it could be from mourning about growing up. Like a lot of comedians have depression. Is it mourning from having to grow up.  But you don't just say stuff like that because of how some people don't have that luxury.

Anyway that is sad but a lot of people are suffering.  Sometimes I can really see it.  Certain loneliness or sickness, poverty and lack of opportunity, rejection and stuff like that.