Hello everyone, this is Refried. I feel better after drinking that coffee and having a train that was not crowded. I think it was a reward because I did not pick up food and snacks to take home. But they might have just been nice to me because they know I had a rough time making the video.

But I feel good about it.  I can see the video with no sound and it is okay. And I think it makes enough sense but is just the usual facebook material. I also think I repurposed it enough and it is good content.  

I think it will be at 100k thruplays, which was my goal.  The views is low, like three times that, but really that is okay too and reminds me of my poems and jokes page followers.

Thanks for the support, everyone. I guess now I will catch up on sleep for a while.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I am at Panera on 86 st. No need to join me. People have been getting in my way on purpose for some reason but the train ride was awesome and uncrowded.

Delores and Tomoya and Gladys were all nice to me this morning and I felt better after being scared that the cops were going to say my Bronx page was like a crime or something.

I think it is okay. Also I am tired but that is because of my sleep schedule and not lack of sleep.

I am going to try to get my rent check at 9 am and then go home. Tomorrow I will prepare my speech for toastmasters. It really snuck up on me but it is only a five minute speech. 

Honestly it has been a rough week with mental health ups and downs. But I mostly still feel much better and am glad to have hope about my health.

Well that is all, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 5:48 am on Thursday. I am waiting until about 11 am to take my medicine.  I also am hopefully talking to my comedy coach in the afternoon and then I might go to that event but I might not.  The books might be for the park.  Now it is not as easy because I felt that the event gave me momentum. But it is okay.

I should visit the website again.  So anyway I stayed up because I felt like praying for the video people and I need to go to 86 street to get my rent check.  So I need to leave here at 8 am. That is two hours from now. I think I might try to clean something or hmm I should do laundry. I guess it is okay to wait a day or so but I was going to do that tonight.  However what did I do tonight? I boosted that video.  I think people will like it.  It is really a compilation of material that has already been popular on facebook. And I did a remix of it. I think people will like it and already the thru play numbers are great.

I feel like the total views isn't as high as they made it sound like it would be, but the population for this always gets less than a different kind of boost.  It just still does seem like halfsies and fourthsies.

I think they really want me to do the ai videos on instagram and that is what they are rewarding.  I mean in a way I trust them but I think they are wrong sometimes.  Like they haven't ever really appreciated the blobs as much as some of the other art.  But maybe they just really like for the religion to be more life changing for people.

So anyway, that is kind of an interesting few days. I need to prepare my toastmasters speech.  Is that for this Saturday? I man wow that happened fast. I believe I will in fact get it done. I should go through the training thing soon.  I mean I could do that now but I don't know if I will quite yet.

I think the video is just right. It is kind of funny, kind of serious, kind of simple, kind of deep. 

My apartment isn't that messy. I do need to take the trash out though. Does anyone have any thoughts?

I like the video. I am going to do another one sometime hopefully of stores I like and buildings, maybe hospitals in new york but maybe places like fed ex office in greenville and then play that song from I think Chris Sligh that says "I've seen...miracles just happen..." I like that song and always wanted to do like a collage video of customer service locations.  Not necessarily about the service but just the places themselves, like these parts of our lives that were in fact cool and took work to provide etc.

I mean maybe I should have kept that to myself and just done the video as a surprise for everyone. I don't think I am going to have a ton of videos but it is weird because I have thought of video ideas like this before.  Like some news montages with evangelical songs.

Anyway, it is pretty funny, isn't it. I think it is.  I can feel the meaning and purpose which was in question a few days ago because of this very song.  So that is interesting.

I guess I will be busy for a few days. I think I will check the toastmaster module real quick. 

 Hey everyone, I am going to cook that taco meat soon hopefully. Like in one hour. The trolls on facbook are bothering me. It is weird americans. I guess just don't worry about it. I am kind of embarrassed for them, but kind of disturbed sometimes.  So possibly just take a lot of breaks. 

Maybe I will watch some more youtube and cooking videos.

Possibly I will call Erline in a while.

I feel like the animal videos kind of cured the weird disorientation. Like to think I had to be a martyr or I didn't do right. When just survival is a fight for so many people. That reminds me to write a few poems.

 Ok pals, the new SCBWI policy.  It does keep me from advertising for the book I would have posted. So now I wonder if I was wrong to show the support.  But maybe it will just take time to see how things work out.  And honestly I did not do the program in other years at all, so maybe my self publishing outlets are just different.  I just think that publishers are going to use software for their purposes and then say none of us can use it for our own ideas even when we are the ones who take a hit for copyright.  Like if you don't copy anyone else's work, you are the one whose ideas aren't protected.

Also, what about young people who aren't already in the field and just innocently use whatever tools are available in their software.

So I do not know.  I kind of lean towards a policy where you have to disclose and you can't win a contest.  It could be also that it changes the social scene, like it just means it will be a different participation and some other regular people will have to be outside of some things.

I mean I could see myself losing membership, and yet I know I am a real kids book writer. They do want feedback so maybe I will share more thoughts.

There is something else where I have a rejection status that does not make me feel that inclined to like join the cause with other writers.  Like they counted and I didn't.  And now I am supposed to join with them for justice? 

Well that is all my thoughts. I should send this link to the feedback people.

 Ok I posted it on my Bronx Civil Social page.  pretty funny. I feel like certain types of evangelism can come across as disrespectful right when you need it to.  I think the video is only muted in Japan.  Isn't that weird? Like I think they are letting me use the song.  But I don't know. I will need to send the link to a friend and see if the audio works. But it works when I view it. I guess I could use one of my other pages and visit it as an outsider.

So that was an adventure. I wish I had seen my friend Pam's presentation today. I mean way to go, Pam. It was kind of big time. 

What about this storm coming here this weekend? I think I ahve enough water and coke, and that is what I need.  What about legionaire's disease? I think my building is okay so far.  But I should take a shower while it is still okay.

The SCBWI people are saying to do bookshop. I just don't know if I can but i might.  Ok people also reminded me about the talks from JF.  They are really inexpensive and that might be cool to go to.  I think there is one today. But I am going to my group tonight.

What should I do about the BAC? I just don't know.  I kind of think I should show up.  I jsut question why I have to do hard things like that sometime.  Really people have made it easier for me but I feel like it could have been easier. I mean maybe check my spam folder. 

Alright, now I will see if my regular page can view the video with audio.  It is not that big of a deal.  But I kind of feel happy that I was able to create a video like that at all.  I mean maybe I could do more with news footage sometime.

Hey everyone, I just watched the video after some hours away from it and I think it is pretty cool. I think it is kind of schizophrenic but what if that is okay.  I mean honestly it could be a good example of a that kind of perspective.  I am thankful that I can email it to my friend Ginger. I do not know when I will do that. Maybe when I hear back from her soon from that email she sent.

I am glad I did not post the video prematurely but what if I had, it is okay.

I have not heard back from the BAC people about when to bring the books and I don't really want to just show up at the event if I don't hear from them again.  So I do not know what to do about that.  If there is a political factor, I don't really have the capacity for that.  

My numbers were good for my facebook posts. I prayed some but not as well as I would have really wanted to.  But I think it is okay and I can always revisit. I mean it's not that big of a deal, and yet I do find it to be effective communication with a real impact. For me, that is how facebook has usually been, even though it got junky. I actually do agree with people who felt like "this is it," back in 2016 and 2020, and yet life is still going on for the next generation, and are we just going to let everything self destruct? I kind of have to say no on that and keep trucking.

So anyway, the U.N. meetings are going on in New York.