Hello everyone, this is Refried. For some reason I could not access my blog a few minutes ago but I restarted Safari and it did fine. I got a lot of views from that ad I did and I think I might start sharing stories or something like that. Maybe that will help me not waste all my writing. I mean who knows, maybe that will be enough for me though I don't understand why I can't simply sell some books.  I sold other people's books for twelve years.

Anyway I need to think about this section of my writing life. Do I need to keep trying to sell the books online or should I call it. I mean I do not know. Maybe I will do some videos and maybe I won't.

I was happy that my blog got a thousand views this month. That is more than I thought at first. Some were from yesterday. It said I got 80 views yesterday.  But I do not even remember posting anything yesterday. It is just my normal daily journal.

So anyway I think my mom needs more help and socializing than she has but I can't do anything about it. I mean I guess just keep trying to help her and sometimes something gets through. She did like the present I sent her. I will call her tomorrow on her birthday. I think Anne does okay for her and hopefully that can go on until the end. Maybe I will be more helpful than I realize in some way.

A lot of people have family sufferings right now and the political problems.

So I will just be thankful for what I have and try to get exercise sometimes. I should watch some movies but I do not really know what to watch. I mean maybe Elf or something from the 90s.

Do my blog views mean I have also sold some books? I am trying to figure out if maybe I did sell some but it is a secret.  If that is the case I should do some more ads sometime. 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried.  I just got home from church and ate a calzone. It was great. I actually have to wonder if some prayers from the church helped me because the calzone was so good and then I had a piece of chocolate and a strawberry fruit roll up and it was just really yummy.

So anyway I beat a level or two of royal match and that is good. At church I saw that some conservative comedians are being bullied and I am not happy about it but then I got surprised with a puppet show. So that is great. 

I do not know how much I will be bullied or have been but I think it is going to be a shame at some point and people will be faced with the hypocrisy of it.

Anyway that is enough of that.  I will go on facebook soon. I talked to a friend on the phone and it was great. Hopefully I will start up my phone a friending soon. 

Downtown I went to Wegmans and got a pumpkin pie, a cheese plate, and a thing of fudge. Honestly it was a little bit expensive but worth it to me.

They were selling little turkey dinners for one person and it seemed nice but 17 dollars is about three dollars too much for me on that. I mean maybe even 5 dollars too much. But I see the appeal of it.

I am not eating my cheese plate yet because of the calzone.

Well that was a nice trip downtown. I am going to start going to Piano Piano soon hopefully and composing music.

Have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I just wrote a nice blog post but decided to keep it to myself for now.

It is 1:30 Sunday morning and I just drank afternoon coffee. I will try to take my medicine at 2 am.  I probably won't go to sleep until 3.  Then I will try to wake up at 9 and leave for church at 10.

I have had some loneliness and boredom but mostly it is a good thing because I am thankful for my health and safety.  And I have had plenty of socializing this week.  Something interesting every day without even phone a friends.  But I need to catch up with phone a friends soon. I think the medicaid crisis distracted me for a while after the hospital. I might go back to Jewish Board Pros program this week but I do not know.  They were nice to me sometimes and mean to me sometimes because they think that is healthy.  I don't think it is.  I think being nice is healthy.

I read my mad blog book yesterday and was a little disturbed by some of it but couldn't read everything because my attention span can only read half a book.  But that is better than last year when I could not read at all for many months.  Actually that was this year.

So anyway I think I am okay with my medicine and need to not have any symptoms so they won't torture me and raise any doses.

Weirdly I am not able to easily see a doctor but I think if I get on the waiting list I would be seen soon enough.  I think they are still helping me but tonight when I scratched my eye I felt disturbed.

Then I saw a small bug and remembered these other bugs from a week or so ago and I started fearing an infestation. Well I think that won't happen but it gave me the idea of throwing away the giant stuffed bear behind my chair.   I could move my furniture around some and start treadmilling more easily.  So I think I will do that for inspection next week.

Well, that is all. I might post the other post too but I do not know. 

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Saturday, Nov 22. I had a nice time talking to Mensa people. I am glad I went. There are regulars there an I feel that I have at least ten friends.  Tomorrow morning I will try to go to church in person. I slept until 1 pm today and had this dream I kept replaying about helping people with a boat caravan and it was a field trip and I was helping some stragglers catch up.

So anyway I think I should go take a walk but it will be dark soon. I mean should I walk on the treadmill instead? Maybe I will but I do not know for sure.

I boosted some more facebook posts. I think I am going to extend one ad if they let me and let it run for about 7-8 days at 20 dollars a day. I just like it and it is doing well. And I wish I had spent more on it so if they offer an extension I will.

Anyway I think it is time for some food now. What should I eat? Are you guys thinking bacon and eggs again? Or cheesy rice? I don't think I can do corn casserole without more sour cream. I made a good choice to go to discussion group today. Maybe I will make pancakes. Pancakes, eggs, and bacon.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, Nov 21 at 2:30. I have gotten fourteen things done today. That is really good for mental illness. It's not the same as working, but it is a good productive day. 

Soon it will be time for afternoon coffee.  I just ate lunch and cooked bacon and eggs. Before that was a one hour support group. I did okay. Before that I walked to the post office to mail medicaid paperwork and pick up the lego present for my nieces. Before that I turned in my rent check. Besides that were things like taking a shower, brushing my teeth, and drinking coffee.  

That is very good. I think tonight I will go online to talk to a doctor about my food intolerances.  The doctor I am supposed to see as my PCP did not have any open appointments. I think that is not right, like something is not right about that. But I so far am okay and know what to do and where to go.

I wonder if I will use the treadmill today. Maybe I will.  And maybe read the Mad Blog book. I don't feel like boosting the christmas posts yet but I could.

I feel mostly okay like my problems are under control. I did not go to pros program this week but I think I am done with that.

I hope that I get to visit Ravneet sometime soon.  Yoo hoo, Ravneet.

Today Ravneet helped me know what to do. 

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just did laundry and a nice person named Sassy found four of my books and kept them and it makes me so happy. She deserves free books because she was nice with the washer and dryer.  She did not take two dryers like she could have. I was prepared to leave without drying my clothes.  But as it is I have four pairs of pants, 5 skivvies, four long sleeve white t shirts, five short sleeve shirts, and underwear.  So that is good for now, though I usually do two loads.

That got me a head start on inspection and I also threw out one bag of trash.  Next I will make my bed. The floor is mostly clean from last time. So I need to do dishes and the counter but that is easy. I will put the clothes away and clean up the bathroom a little bit. It will be fine. I think after that I will be fine. I think doing paperwork also counts as chores today and Karla knows I am doing the best I can.

Do I need to give more books away? Did people at pros want some more books? I gave them a lot but I guess there are several hundred people. Interestingly some people were really into it. I might have underestimated how much they might be appreciated. 

To me that is why they need to reach people. I don't understand why an ad on facebook wasn't enough for them to sell. I think that needs to be enough and I don't know how to make that happen myself. Like why should I now be okay if I get an agent? I think it already should have been successful.

But anyway I feel better. The conspiracy knows I had a rough time about it yesterday morning.

Anyway my mom got her birthday present and was happy. I think we all should have given her more presents over the years but she really made herself unblessable in many ways. 

So anyway I already had a prophetic dream about that and she was in the yard near the lake surrounded by alligators. So I should have prayed more for them all.

Anyway, that is all for now. I am going to a group tonight which will probably be a small group. I will try not to be selfish. But I also need to finish getting ready for inspection.

Well have a nice day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, Nov 20. I just prepared all my medicaid paperwork for turning it in the second time after they said they did not receive it before. I don't have great proof that I turned it in before, but I have some proof. I think it was because of the shut down that it got bumbled.

I will take it to the office in person tomorrow. I only provided slight proof of my small business. I did not show all records but I think that is okay. I kind of wonder if I should have showed the facebook totals from my last accounts two years ago. I think what I showed was okay.

It is not okay with me that they pretended not to receive it or even didn't receive it. This was the first year I used their envelope and why should that make it not get there? It should be the opposite. 

Anyway I feel good that I am almost done, and also that my info is honest. I mean I simply do qualify.

I think actually me and my family of origin are more frugal than their standard.

So anyway I have a group tonight that I will go to and maybe phone a friend soon. Sometimes I have nothing to say to anyone and I think it is because of my medicine.