Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday the 13th.  I am trying to prepare for inspection. The sink is next and a pan I used for fish sticks. But that is almost all that is left to do. Maybe sweeping.  I talked to Karla, my case manager yesterday.  She got promoted to director of the building. Wow I believe she can do it. It is not that easy but she will be great. She is keeping me as a client.

So I am taking a five minute break and then I will keep cleaning.

I am listening to a podcast. It is great, I did not plan for it in my day but it helps me stay sane in a day that is hard because of inspection plus this mandatory training that I can't be unattentive for.

But let's not freak out. Because I just take the trash out, clean the sink, sweep, and that is about enough.

What about mailing books. Maybe to Flynn. Maybe let some people wait but get some of it done.

But I do not know. Maybe the theology fellas are helping me get stuff done.

Ok break is over everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 9:23 pm on Thursday. I had such a great day today. I got good sleep, went outside when it was cool, took some books to some nice people, had a good therapy session, watched a good conference and saw a good person from ai rejoicing in the exact great way. I mean that is why God has blessed those people, is because there are people with that attitude in the mix.  Wow, all the people were actually cool, so I am thankful I got to listen to some of it. But the way that guy said this is from the Lord, I mean the main thing is that you just pray for everyone to have that relationship with God like that. 

Anyway, other people said good stuff too. Soon I will see the finale. Gice God is doing a lot of great stuff at this turn of the millenium and he has included so many people and provided foils as well, so you can be blessed for not being a part of stuff if you got left out. And how he loves the 80s children. 

Ok three minutes until the livestream. 

Ok I will revisit this soon.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just took some books to my PCP doctors office. It was not that easy to walk there but it worked out great. So that was five books for them this week. Next time I will try to bring some for the desk people.  I feel like everyone wants a joke book now but don't you gice think a poetry book is cool too? I just think Horizon Cow will always be a book of choice.  I have given away 300 copies plus one hundred each of the books inside it and 100 joke books that use the same jokes. So we are looking at around 600-700 books out there from those jokes. I mean are they that funny, I do not know.

So anyway, okay. It is warm in my apartment but I feel good. I got good sleep last night and this morning.  I saw the sunrise and think I might try to go outside more often to see the sunrise and sunset.

I drank some more sparkling grape juice and some coffee this morning.  Possibly soon will be some more orange sherbert shake. I need to cook some potatoes soon too.  That was actually the main expense and I hope it is worth it. I mean if I am going to spend 30 dollars on potatoes with cheese and sour cream, it is possible I should just order thai food.

So anyway I need to write down that I gave two books to the thai food people. I mean the Joke Books are still a giveaway favorite and yet wow I feel like a certain window has passed. I also kind of question the low quality graphics.  Do you guys have any opinions? Hmm I do not know. Also, should I do a black and white edition and reach more people with giveaways?  It would cost about 10 dollars instead of 20. I do not know if that is worth it. Like full color for just double. Hmm I do not know.

Well anyway, giving books does make me feel better. I need to mail Flynn's books and GSYK. And recieve this next order which wow was not as much as I originally planned. But it has four library and five joke. And then only three horizon cows. I mean honestly I almost just canceled it.

Gice what do you think about my train trip.  It is Wednesday. I hope it goes okay. Life is hard for a lot of people. A train trip isn't that hard for me, I just sit in a seat.  But in a way it is not easy and I wish I was visiting in May.  But it is okay. 

Tonight I have inspection.  Clear floor, do dishes, clear counter, make bed, clear table, tidy, put clothes in cart, probably not laundry this time.  That is not that hard, I can do it.

So okay.  The other news is that I might be regarded as not having capacity to do an advance directive. That is an interesting development.  I just think I do have competency for that and can make a list of very specific health requests.  But anyway that is interesting.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, March 12 at 6 am. I just drank some sparkling grape juice and before that I had orange sherbet with milk.  The sherbert was too frozen to mix well but that is okay. 

I put the eggs and milk in the refrigerator.  I think this grocery order was a little bit too expensive but I am glad I have the stuff, like the water, tide, etc.

Last night I felt content after cooling off outside and then getting the groceries and being in the cool trauma class that I am in. It felt like I was in a school program and I wonder if I need to be taking classes like that in these final years. It might give me a sense of purpose.

Maybe do a certificate program or something, or just keep doing those CE credits. I mean I do not know.

Life would feel very different if I had book sales. I do not know why I have to be treated so cruelly in that category.

Facebook is kind of depressing but I think I will stay on it and try to outlast the problems, most of which have been caused deliberately.  How sad that we were all so blessed and things deteriorated.  A lot of people made that choice though.  

Yesterday I missed a talk that I wanted to go to but attended a good class on AI.  Possibly I did not do right because I had to contact the organization about getting my certificates which meant I did not say something nice about the talks but I gave everyone a good evaluation.

I just don't see why they had to delay the certificates. That is frustrating. I might eventually complain.

It is very warm in my room. I will probably go outside when it is a little bit later this morning and the sun is out. I think the sun will not come out for another hour because of daylight savings time. I personally like daylight savings time.

Anyway there are a lot of suffering people out there who now have high gas prices and food might go up again because of that.  Just a lot of people not doing right. But the truth will be told. People's choices and our problems, etc.

Anyway speaking of choices I have low iron. It is because of the pantropazole.  So I really do need to take the iron medicine but it was too hard to get the medicine at Walgreens so I will try again.

I like my doctors and might take them some books later today. Then go to the post office, then maybe get iron from Walgreens. Well, have a good day everyone.

 Gice I got a 100 on my test for neurology.  Yippee, that means I am at 37.5 hours.  Tomorrow I will get my other certificates.  Yay everyone.  I am so thankful. After I studied, I felt that I would probably pass.  And then during the presentation, I could tell that the quiz would be humane.

So that is great, everyone. Sorry I missed three meetings tonight!

 Hello everyone. Today is Tuesday. Soon I will walk to my doctor’s appointment for a follow up about my gallbladder. It is acting up again a little bit because I ate some of those peanut butter and jelly uncrustables recently.

Tonight I am taking a class online and I hope I pass it. I should review the slides again before the session. If I had chosen to go to the presentation on guided imagery I would just be finishing up now. But I think it worked out.

Dr. Talreja reduced my medicine to 20 mg latuda yesterday. I am glad about that and have hope that I can recover some of my health but some damage might last a while. I think I hurt his feelings with my blog posts but that hospital did torture me.

Well, that is all for now.

 Hello everyone, I just studied some slides about the brain and the disease of reward systems involved with addiction. I believe I will be able to learn the material in the class and get a certificate for the CE.

Unfortunately, I am feeling mad as I learn because I can see some of the offensive mistakes in my medicine that have ruined my life at various times.  And the way doctors don't really know that much more than any of us do, and think it is okay when they ignore the more reliable info that we tell them.  Such as, "this medicine is ruining my life." Such as "you have ruined my health permanently and I will never recover."

Anyway, I think I will post about it on facebook soon. I mean in a way I am a broken record by now.  It is the same stuff.  I was fine on 600 mg trileptal and 1 mg risperdal.  Anything else damages exactly the reward system.  The other meds make me hungry because they are torturing my appetite system already, so to comfort it, I eat.  And all psych meds do that, and millions of doctors have given their patients diabetes and don't give a crap and never will.

Also on my mind are the social media problems and the way people found that they were able to ruin our social lives.  And they did. They ruined all kinds of things in our world, and some people were okay with it, because it meant pain for their enemies. So they were hypocrits and did not stand up to it.

Anyway I need to find that article where O.D. the neurologist gave due propers to God and Jesus.  Because frankly he did and now he is very successful. And I think it is a good example that people can use to teach others what due propers looks like.