Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 5:30 am on Monday. I got some sleep and took my medicine and soon I will probably sleep some more. I was just reviewing my list of given books and I am at about 2850 plus maybe 300-400 that for some reason did not get recorded. So it is about 3000 which is a career. 

But I think it is wasteful to not keep distributing. I am sad that I am not more successful and don't have a name that reaches more into lasting literary resources. I think I delivered on that level and was wronged in some way. But I also think that heaven is not that far away and I can look forward to better results then someday.  Maybe with the same books. I have said that before. You just think it won't be you who gets the injustice, but it has been me enough about other things that I should have expected it more.  But at least I passed the time doing something meaningful to me.

I am also sad right not to be repelled by post office problems.  I need to order some more thin books and mail out about three main packages to people. I do not know when I will do that but I might wait a couple of days. Today is June 1st. 

My old facebook ad account has now disappeared so there are about 23 million impressions that I have no record of.  Plus the organic on that.  So I mean that is weird but maybe that is the point is that I already had this whole career for five years and that was that. But I think I might try to reach two hundred million and yet I am not sure the videos are that meaningful.

Anyway I think I need to express sometime on facebook that I think the conspiracy has been cruel to me.

I mean should I finish up with this book hobby. And say that is that. And do something else. I just am not sure there is anything else that I can do. Except maybe walk more. I mean I guess keep giving books but some people say people have enough books. Well maybe that is true.

I mean just for people to damage my health and then say it was all a beauty contest. Have fun with that in front of all of humanity. People say, they will all fall for it then, too. I just am not sure that is true.

It is weird that I did not get the social justice people but maybe they were meant to have a blind spot.

 Hopefully I can reverse the escalation. I actually haven’t missed a dose of medicine since Wednesday morning. So I think I am at five days in a row and they should not be escalating me even by their warped bullcrap standards.

I do not respect them for this. I have stuff to do this week and don’t need to be brimming with anger. But hopefully I will think of a few more videos and it will be worth it.

In fifteen minutes I have my online Bible study. I am planning to go and I think it will help.

I think my Facebook posts are okay. I think people are really hesitant about the gerbil post but it is okay and I am glad I posted it.

I did not practice comedy today but probably will later.

I have to repeat that I disagree with the conspiracy’s cruel management of my books. It is mean and hurt me and everyone in my life.

 Ok I do kind of feel like crap and I figured out it is from inspection not going well and that has nothing to do with inspection but is because I missed two doses of medicine but not in a row of course. But really one just got postponed so I think I only missed one dose. And this is because I had to be somewhere on time one day and my sleep schedule is messed up because the bridge tortured me and ruined my life. So now we are in slur land and I will need to make some videos for my bully chronicles page. It also makes me think of lost friends and that is also too bad. So I need to maybe socialize a little differently and get back to phoning some friends again.

Anyway I decided to make some coffee here and I might not walk to Starbucks. I will try to call Philip soon. He might be mad at me.

 Hello everyone, I have not checked on the gerbil post recently but I did just go online and my other post is doing okay. I mean ups and downs live and learn. I am happy because I am going to be able to send an assortment of thin books soon, plus the autism event. I actually might need to order ten or fifteen extra.

Anyway I just saw a video that is funnier than my stuff but it doesn't mean to waste my jokes, either. 

I made a taco dip that is really yummy.  I can't remember if I drank coffee. I am now going to attend online church but I am late. I don't know why but I think I missed it because I took medicine. I had a weird half dreams. 

I don't plan to unpost the gerbil post. I think it is funny.

People can hate me if thy want, it is fine. I have had a lot of friends and things come and go in life. You just don't know what things will get messed up and what things will last sometimes.

I think I should fix another coffee. Or maybe walk to starbucks. Hmm I am thinking walk to starbucks. But in an hour or so probably.

Well, have a good day everyone. I might end up sleeping because of the medicine.

 hello everyone, soon it is time to take my medicine. I boosted the gerbil post and feel good about it.  As for the other post, I think it is okay. I wanted to make that "distribute the book to every man, woman, and child," joke, but the book does have something inappropriate for children in it.  But you can tell by the reading level that like it isn't a picture book. And I say it has legal documents.

I just wonder because I saw a children's social work post on linked in and sometimes that happens if agencies check on you. And I don't know who are my real friends from social work school.  

So anyway, that is the kind of stuff that happens as years go by and the original books haven't reached people. But I think it was assessed that I might not live long after the books reach people.

Some people get celebrated and some people don't.  I am not as impressed by some things as I once was. I think some younger people will see through some things that meant something for a while.

Anyway does anyone have any opinions? Ravneet is the one who suggested to do a black and white photo.

I remembered the thing I needed to do today: rehearse the comedy show.

Does anyone have any thoughts about my book? I would be curious to know who agrees with certain decisions.  I just think I did get it right but why why why. I mean I have to say that, why. 

I think it has to do with prophecy. Like you keep it clean and then you tap into the truly offensive. kind of like wisdom and foolishness.

Gice what do you think about the Kansas song "dust in the wind." It seems that it will stand the test of time, which is kind of ironic.

Well have a good day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I posted a couple of posts. I think they were good posts. I think there is some stuff on the news that I am missing.

I can mail my next two packages from another post office if my post office does not send them.

I do want to mail the next packages. I felt renewed strength this afternoon and easily chose what to put in each box. So next is a phone call. I mean I could send a message tomorrow on facebook but I think I will wait until Monday.

After that I think I will try to send birthday presents and a graduation present for my nieces. I think I will send some of those wooden animals from 59th street. 

Some people are very persecuted right now. I am doing ok as compared to the past few years. It is just hard for me to tell whether this is a storm that will pass or if it is some kind of severe assault that no one will escape unscathed.

 Hello everyone. I went to the post office and got my package. It went fine. I wanted to talk to Ron but had to wait because a worker was being observed. 

I am sad that the worker might get in trouble but I did report very serious delays and deliberate impediment of getting mail.

So anyway then I went to McDonalds and I should have given this homeless guy half my nuggets and I ate too much. But at least he got the rest of the orange drink.

I think I will drink coffee later even though I did have an ice coffee. I think in two hours I will have another coffee.

I took an iron pill last night and feel better. I slept a lot and had dreams that were interesting. The dreams seemed normal to me and not supernatural.

I felt upset last night and triggered about the writing career. I think because the books did not look good on the Amazon site and because I was not able to get the books at the post office. But actually I am also a little stumped about mailouts. I don’t know who wants a book and it is hard to ask when I have already sent messages to hundreds of people.

Anyway I am wondering if PFR is next. Like should I send a message to Danny Dotson.

Well I hope I am not out of joke books by then.

Ok everyone have a good day.