Hello everyone. I am watching some youtube videos of cooking and music.

I think I should do some treadmilling.  But it is okay I think I am just having a break from walking and will start again soon.

I think that soon I will make some potatoes with cheese and sour cream and honey mustard sauce.

I think it is disturbing me a little bit to not know what to eat. But actually I have some canned goods in the cupboard and I could thaw some chicken and make peanut butter chicken and rice. Hmm I wonder if that is what I should do.  But I do not have enough milk. The milk is for the coffee. I think it is soon time for afternoon coffee. I think I will make the potatoes now. And maybe boil some eggs later.

I am glad because we have gotten through a lot of the heat wave. 

Well have a good day everyone.

 Pals I started a new account and tried it on the phone and it would not work. I am gong to send them a message saying I think that is dishonest to tell me it is the payment when they set it to not accept my card.

It is refusal to serve. It is illegal and dishonest. I am tired of all these problems.

I am not going to the mensa meeting today. I don't go to every meeting every week.

I don't appreciate having these problems. 

 Hello everyone. 

I have been trying to do ads on tik tok and I can't for some reason. It is really frustrating and I think it compares with refusal to serve.

So I guess just not do that for now. I mean why did my facebook ads not work.

I am tired of these problems.  It is not fair. It does not benefit anyone. 

I really can't stand it. I am so sick of it. It just goes on and on. 

I tried to make a new account.  But then my password did not work. 

I don't appreciate it.

But I don't even know if that will solve the problems. I think it won't.

I guess I have some ideas for more ads but I question it. 

I mean maybe wait and just save the money.

 Pals. I messed up a worldly monk post because I thought it was this blog. I just forgot. I am going to mop the floor in a while but I think I don't have inspection.

I just secured a 700 dollar credit card called Fortiva. It is for low credit people. I do not know why it was not 1500 but it is okay. I think it is because of having a lot of recent inquiries. But there might be a weird home loan attempt from scammers on my credit. 

So I mean I do not know but what is my status. I have paid my website fee for the year, my books are posted on amazon, my lease is good for another 6 months, and I have distributed 3000 books to trustworthy people.  And some work reached people on facebook.  I just sometimes evaluate my expendability.  Because I was also stewarding other people's support of me.

Anyway I think I will live on the destiny card for two weeks and not do any more spending on those other cards.  And then with the next deposit, try to clear off a hundred hundred hundred. Actually maybe 150. Then I will be down to 1400 on a few of those cards.  Except I did spend on facebook didn't I.

Does anyone see it like I do? Like to go for the numbers because this is an opportunity that no one else in history has had except our time period?  I would be curious if anyone agrees with me that it is worth it.

But I can see how people might see how I am also a computer potato. 

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone. Today is Friday. It is the second to last day of the heat wave and then we have a week of nice normal weather. Right now I am making coffee and I got three chores done for inspection.  Still left is dishes, throw away the pizza box, make bed, mop floor, and that is mostly it. I think I will wait until 11 am to get it done.

The memes on facebook are doing well and I think I will be at the old 1.2 mil number. It was weird how right when I felt I was at 200 mil, the echo church people emailed me.  They have good numbers too on their stuff.  And my numbers are partially their numbers because I am a remote member.

But anyway that is interesting. They really wanted me to come visit them. But I couldn't.  Also I did like that meeting last night and am thankful to be included.

I felt trauma as I went to sleep and I had gotten revved up from random ad music on facebook and then I felt a stomachache but I need to take my pantropazole.  I will get that bottle out of the clothes bag and get back on track.

I had an interesting dream where I was in my dorm a USC but it was next to the Russell House and my sister visited and I did something so funny like a funny walk and it made me feel hopeful about getting a funny role in heaven like tryouts or something.  And it had to do with mascotting but I wanted to be a journalist of some kind. So that is interesting.

Ok the coffee is ready. We do not have Nami groups today. I think I am going to phone some friends today. Maybe Beth, Sarge, Brian R, and that is all for now. I think my phone a friend program is back to normal. Thanks to everyone who helped me during the hardest of times. But I have had a lot of hard times haven't I in my life! Why is that, I do not know. But I have had a good life. God provided for me and I am a poet. That is what I wanted. I think mainly the books are for teens.  It is sweet and has an evangelical music quality and I did trust God for that. People think I don't do that stuff that they do but I kind of do.

Well, that is all.  I might apply for a fortiva card later. But I will go get mail first. I am waiting to go to the post office Monday.

 Readers who take seriously my "this is abuse" statement: there is something that is abuse but I am provided for and I am back to feeling okay and hopeful. There is a path forward and I am safe in terms of daily living etc.  There are just crimes that people got away with and missing career elements that compare to people simply not ever receiving a paycheck.  It is something like that but what do I do. 

But like I said, I will try some ads for the younger people soon and see how that goes. And I have new professional organizations, events scheduled, food in the fridge. I am okay. I mean a lot of people aren't okay right now but we don't need to just make that the new norm.

PC USA determined that the Israel's attack on Palestine was a genocide.  I mean I think USA is also defending Israel from a genocide from Iran. I just do believe that when that is in the news.  I also think Obama might have been right when he said that Palestine needed to be a separate state.  But they wanted quite a chunk of territory and on maps you can kind of see it as a an aggression against basic existence for Jews in a region where Muslims do have a lot of location options. But 30k children.  So some people did not do right.

Anyway thanks everyone. 

Ok soon I will take my medicine. Gice.  There is something to be sad about which is that I have inspection tomorrow. But I did laundry earlier this week so that is good.  Only a few dishes, then clean the table. I might not do well because of missing medicine one and a half times.

Gice. I have not prayed that well but I will try to later.

Ok thanks everyone. I am praying for God to break up the curses that people pray. I am prayign for those prayers to be counteracted and translated.  I myself have prayed like that before but in the end we want blessings for ourselves and do we really want to see bad news every day? I don't.  So anyway I mention that because a lot of people will have their prayers in the jackpots.  Like replicated 45 million times. So I mean there are going to be some thoughtful people who get discovered.

 Hello everyone. It is Thursday, July 2. I just went to a meeting and it was nice. Soon I have to take my medicine. It will be okay. I had a rough afternoon but am okay. I mean wow I am thankful for what I have but I sometimes feel the missing stuff and it hurts me a lot.  But now what is missing is the book sales, isn't it? Like isn't that all and I will feel like all is well? I mean not really because where is my girlfriend and why can't I take a trip to the beach. I mean not everyone can go on a vacation.  

But anyway I am just so thankful for air conditioning and I have a pepsi in the refrigerator and some ice cream.  Today is the midpoint of the heat wave. It kind of gives me hope for future populations because air conditioning exists and people can stay inside like they do for snow days.

So anyway I enjoyed that meeting. Someone named Joy was nice to me.

Becky is nice to me too. I love Becky.  She is a nice person.  

Tik Tok is helping me. I think everyone is participating in the conspiracy. I think it is a little something for the youngsters.

Wow that dalmation video was just incredible and amazing, how sweet. Hard to believe.  Just great and think of all the nice innocent people who have an innocent social life on social media.  I mean there is a lot of nonpornographic stuff and God knows that some people needed all of it.  Except abuse of course, that is terrible, and the accident videos where people fall.  And yet what would the middle schoolers want to watch? Maybe some grownups falling off cliffs.

Wow I made myself laugh.

So okay. I am okay now.  I miss my comedy class but now I am going to have a double comedy class, individual coaching and trauma class. I possibly need to recruit some people. Wow I think I will.

But wait a minute it is female and gnc only.  Well that is okay I think I can find some people.

Some long distance people.