Hello everyone, this is Refried. I got about four hours of sleep and it felt good. I am taking two packages to the post office soon.  Probably in about an hour. It will be a far walk.  I don't think any legal witnesses are needed but there is a funny aspect to it. These packages are going to really cool people. Ok I will say it, one person grew up in actual Compton.  As many people know, in creative writing school I had a funny conversation with my teacher named Trinie and I mixed up the Comptons with the Hamptons.  And she happened to live in both L.A. and NYC.

I mean the comedy of it all.  And that isn't even the thing.  The thing is that the other package is to a psychologist who I don't know but who I think would find my case most interesting. 

I think I might need to follow up with some people soon but I think everyone can be patient.

Gice I have an order of books that did not get here correctly. And I paid for it with affirm and it needs to get here and the issue was with the post office but Amazon has the order so they do need to get it to me.

Karla was nice to me at inspection yesterday. I really enjoyed talking to her. 

There is something else but I am waiting and making sure it is not a weird manic idea. 

 Ok I found an inconsistency, where I said they were targeting a readership past my time.  But when you are preventing publication, you are not trying to ruin someone in front of their audience but keep them from presenting to their audience. So people might see an issue of me wanting something both ways.  And in this case also "wanting" some persecution. So like there are three problems. 

But I think what I am saying might not be an issue.  Like I think it is consistent with a multifaceted group of people doing anything and everything to ruin any of it, so why not target all of it.  Target every possibility, target every audience real or imagined, so yes publication or not I lose. So possibly it is not that bad that I went ahead and added a phrase here and there.  I just feel like they did both things. For some people to miss out entirely and for some people to see a shell of what it could have been.

And then the conspirators are saying, no, that's the good stuff. And it has to do with the concept of "meta," too.  Like to step back and name it. To be above it.

Well that is interesting. Remember when Matthew Dickman didn't like that section of my humor paper on chicken poems?  And later I was like, no, that is good stuff.

I don't think I was able to interpret all the secret messages. 

Gice I know some people don't like that abortion post on my jokes page, but I think it is a good post and I am leaving it. It doesn't mean I have reverted. And I know how stupid it is in some ways, like people can say, gee, because we all carry so many scalpels everywhere.  But that is why I am leaving it, is because it is just a stupid post and I do care about the issue and think there are solutions that have not been accepted because people are lazy and wanted to fight instead of fix.

So anyway, that is all, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, May 15 at 11:34 am. I don't feel that good and am thirsty and tired but I feel better than other times recently. I just need to drink some water but I wish I had kool-aid.

Inspection is in thirty minutes and I am almost ready. I am going to tell Karla for the third week in a row that I do not feel good. But I think my room will be okay. I just need to do a few more dishes.

Gice what do you think about the case. I think it was questionable for me to send that other link about escalation. But it is my other legal issue and I thought it could have relevant information if Barnes and Noble also escalates people.  And yet when I read it, it is not the same happy feeling as the other notes.

But I mostly think all three of those links were there for a reason.  Like the sesame street video is kind of stupid but it proves the UNCF thing. I mean honestly the case goes on and on.  Like Jarndyce and Jarndyce.  Which is also funny because this book is going to be called "Tale of Three Cities."

This morning I can see the case of the Barnes and Noble customers and the facebook friends.  I mean it does start to have to be in God's hands.

But anyway the issue now is I am thirsty and have inspection soon. Pretty funny how in the middle of the communications I am like by the way I am publishing this.  And how it was almost hard to not publish it before they made their decision.  

And then the other thing that is real is where I was like I am going to sue and for the pay off ask for lawyer friends. Like suing barnes and noble to give me new friends. And the fact that the idea is actually real, supernaturally supported, and part of the original case. I mean that is crazy. And then the advertising factor, where I have a different set of friends than I would have with a different life.  

So anyway I just wish I had some Kool Aid and ice.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone. I have inspection tomorrow. I need to make a list of what to do: trash, counter, dishes, bathroom, laundry, make bed, clear floor and table.

Gice something was dreadfully wrong at nami. I might never go back. Like you think you will never leave but you do. Hopefully I can put in a call tomorrow.

I mean frankly I don’t understand reality. And my book order got messed up, and honestly I don’t see myself staying in New York. Worst of all, I feel like my mom has not made arrangements for the check next month and my sister is going to bumble it.

This morning was weirdly awful and then it was okay but I can’t tell if NYP is still helping me happily or is mad.

I do not know but I think there was a message telling me all these people are friends.

Gice ups and downs live and learn it was not an easy week and yet so fun in some ways. I hope I did not let down my new law friend pals.

I think it is okay and yet it is not okay. Things are not okay at nami and I don’t know what to do about it.

Gice I also got two A minuses. One from NYU and one from Cordova. Some of it is because I relied on them for mental health support, and some was because I sharked them about my book rights. Pretty funny what happened.

Are you Gice reading this. I am not coming after y’all for that and I know I would lose.

I forgot to tell them I wanted to be a lawyer for Judgement Day but they probably surmised.

I think they are my friends now.

Really though the speed of that dramatic moment today when I really did have to do a doctors appointment.

There are some other secret messages that say my books aren’t going to be torn up.

Thanks everyone. I got some stuff wrong though like when I said great instead of beautiful in that Woodruff Road essay and when I said luxury instead of blessing in the VCFA phrasing. But I meant well both times for my gf named Ravneet. I don’t think it means God is mad. It is probably fine. Ravneet you are very brave and it is going to be so fun and we probably have at least a million years but I feel like God did say “you don’t know what you are asking” when you request a forever person. Like there is stuff we don’t know but he also didn’t say no.

So anyway this is a good day. I will be back to normal with meds all in good time. I don’t want to make myself feel bad after the bad feeling that happened. I talked to my sister again and it was okay. She is at USC and had regained a lost account.

So that is good.

An A and two A minuses. That is a semester.

Well that is all everyone. Thanks for tuning in. I had a good time and appreciate the attention everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, May 14 at 11 am.  The law firm decided not to take my case but it was still a good experience.  I possibly told them too much.  I also am aware of how my mental health is gone and I might not be well enough to participate in legal action. 

However I wrote a lot of interesting stuff.  I think they did not like that I called people names and they might have felt that I called them names but I didn't.  But I told them in the paperwork that I call people names sometimes. I just told them everything because that is what I do.  

I need to revisit some of the emails and make copies for my new thin book.  The thin book will not be released still for a while though.

Are the law firm people mad at me? I do not know. I will miss them a lot.  It won't be the same around here.  That process lasted about a week. I learned a lot and Columbia Law School gave me an A.

 Hello everyone. It is 4:45 on Thursday. I need to take my medicine soon. I know what my next step is. I am going to ask my sister for a thousand dollars. I think if she doesn’t have it then that is okay. It is hard to wait because I feel motivated to get this stuff done. But really I am okay and need to make a milkshake and take medicine. Am I eating enough. I made a mistake on one of my documents and didn’t list selfishness in the faults list. So I need to correct that tomorrow. I was trying to tell them I am lazy and selfish but don’t lie cheat and steal. And yet I am in the hole now for about one grand.

Gice it is not that easy to not feel good but I am mostly okay and got some sleep yesterday. And I took my medicine. Should I go to Nami tomorrow? I might do that if I feel like it.

Does anyone have any thoughts? I think what I am doing now is essentially writing another thin book. It is going to be called Tale of Three Cities.

I am saying that to put a thin disguise on what is actually happening. I saw a few hallucinations tonight so I think we are all on the right track.