Hello everyone, this is Refried.  It is Sunday, July 5 at 3 pm. I will check the weather but I fell asleep and missed the optimal walking hours. I am going to try to walk to Starbucks if I can. And pick up some milk from the Grab and Go maybe.

I had an interesting dream about mall displays and before that going to some restaurant but there was something else happening but it was all very interesting. 

So anyway those new poems and jokes posts I did got 1.7 million views. I could not believe it. I know that they are a little better than some of the other ones but I think I also graduated into better numbers.  So I will continue posting on that page. I have about 20 new posts and about 80 posts that just haven't been sent around as much. So I will continue that hobby.

Anyway, that is good. Ok I am going to check and see if there are any book sales. There are no book sales.  But there were 300 book page visits, probably with some good curiosity. And about 300 profile visits.  

The profile visits could also theoretically lead to sales if there were any sales happening. I just think for people to expect me to go ten years with no sales is cruel and mean.  And I think if they think we are saving until some ending and letting other people have a chance or something, then that is arrogant. I mean honestly there might not even be a USA by the time that ban is lifted.

Wow I will compare non publishing to book banning and book censorship. I mean these people think they are so great and so noble, being censored, but there are millions of people who don't even get a chance because of their identity politics and snobbery, their little market projections and guessed agendas, and their blatant discrimination. 

It is reminding me of some other stuff. I think that is going to be a different blog post.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Gice I’m not talking about people not knowing me like having a community. I have lots of friends and attention. What I am saying is when I try to figure out if I have a book market it seems like not only do I not, but even the conspiracy I have felt for thirty years is not as vast as I thought and I post on facebook and people are like who are you we have never heard of you and my delusions of fame are proven wrong. And they were very fixed delusions.

So that is what I am talking about. Because the conspiracy seemed national and even worldwide at times.

And then I am like talking in a video and people are like are you serious. They don’t know me.

That is what I am talking about.

But anyway the demons are mostly gone for now. Me and some people coughed them out of our mouths.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Sunday, July 5 at 12:44 am. Soon I have to take my medicine.

I should do that soon and go to sleep.

I don't expect to be bothered by any varmits. Before that demon tried to bother me, I felt that sick depressed feeling. So it was a seizure. But it was a demon and it was trying to get me to feel more special than the nami people, and there was a totem pole appearance and another image that i can't remember, and it was trying to get me to curse or something I think was from earlier. I think it also tried to project obscenity of some sort but that is rare and it wasn't the same as the gracie square demons.

Pretty funny. And I think it was different from the demon that followed me home from Montefiore.

I just don't know who to ask about getting rid of it.  I kind of think I saw some stuff like the totem pole outline because I did try to fight it by thinking of people who got rid of those squids that time.

So maybe just be patient and we will get rid of it when we need to. But it kind of adds to my feeling of stn knowing too much about me. But maybe the demon will convert.

And the reason I say that is because Jesus was talking about how good people try to go to the light.  Or maybe that was someone else but I think it was him. And bad things like darkness.  But the demons he threw in the pigs said please don't send us into the abyss. So they did not like the dark.  And I just htink you have to read that like maybe there was hope. I mean the very fact that they asked him for stuff.

So anyway I mean the demon in my soul might have just seen me type that.

Anyway pretty funny how y'all played that song at the world cup that time.  I had a great time and will be back downtown soon. I might go get coffee at Bellevue. I mean who knows, the demon might have read that just now and it is a time traveler and is going to attack me at Barnes and Noble in 2011.

Now I have to write a novel like that. I don't feel like it. Someone else can have that idea.

Gice.  Surge and Sarge. I mean isn't that kind of scary too? I think it is. Because I really was earlier like maybe I will call Sarge tomorrow. But that is because I thought tomorrow was Saturday.

Also why the bible says not to call people father.  It is to protect those spiritual relationships, not because it is not true. It is to keep it a secret from the evil stuff.

Gice the next thing is to take my medicine. I do not really want to but I am tired so I should so I can go to sleep. But I think I will wait a while and take it at 3 am.

Gice I am glad to be on tik tok but they charged the wrong card, so I am in a slight jam, and there are still no book sales. And that really hurts my feelings. And I think it is delusional to tell myself maybe there are book sales. But maybe there are. Because Ravneet is my person and that is a secret. So book sales could be a secret too.

I just know that people don't know me. I know I am not famous. But people are saying, what about the conspiracy. I mean it does all confuse me.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Saturday, July 4. I just made rice with peanut butter sauce. I did not put enough honey. But it is still good and I could add honey but I just am sitting here so I finished my serving. 

Ravneet said she is proud of me. I had such a good day and got a new credit card called Surge for 500 dollars.  It will come in the mail next week and I will use it as my budget for a while. I mean honestly I think I should pace myself because that is a small budget for two platforms, five pages, and hopefully a thai meal or lobster or hibachi.

So anyway the temperature is now about 88 degrees.  Did I over-react? I think I will not walk to 7-11.  Tomorrow I will probably walk to starbucks in the day time. I mean wow I am thankful that NYC mostly got through that though I am sure some people are out at the fireworks show and I hope they have a good time. 

Well I feel such relief. Also the food people are still my friends and I am going to soon make the dish in question. It is something with goat cheese.  Pretty funny.

Gice this has been a great conspiracy and I am sorry I complained and bragged so much. But did I not tell everyone that was where I chose not to try as hard. I just couldn't, and people will see it and maybe think to themself, I won't be like that when it is me. 

Gice I hope my gallbladder will be okay but if it isn't. I can go to the hospital without feeling like it is a heat emergency. I mean am I over-reacting? Was this not really hot weather? 

Anyway I need to check up on that france stuff. I mean I don't need to be the main reporter for the clash of civilizations. Or populations without the civility. 

No book sales today, everyone, no sign of book sales, but numbers are good. I am participating and not left out. I just don't want to waste the facebook numbers but I also feel like I did the heart of my content already. So really that is a good place to be but I should do the best I can and finish well.

I need to post a recipe for this peanut butter sauce.

Also I believe that possibly it is the angels who time travel. 

Has anyone figured that out before.  I figured it out. But we kind of already know it, because angels are in a different realm that intersects with ours.

Honestly if someone else wants to write that book, go for it. I mean maybe I should do like a short story.  Ok I will try.  But someone else can do the novel. I mean make it a genre, I don't care.  What I care is that people ignored my work from 2012. It was a miracle and you disrespected God and all of humanity.

Ok I guess that is enough of that.

Well have a nice day everyone.

 Well everyone, it is 6 pm on July 4.  Some people went out and did stuff today but I do not know what those people were thinking. I stayed inside and drank two coffees. I can tell I need to not overdo it with the coffee at night but I am okay and think that was a trauma reaction two days ago when I felt a tachychardia feeling. 

So anyway, I extended a tiktok ad that goes to my book page.  It didn't really get that many page visits. Only a hundred.  That is low but people did like it and I got a hundred profile visits too. I should put my website on my profile. I think I have enough stuff on there, though.

I tried to boost an old video and it would not let me. I do not know why. I think it is part of the conspiracy. I think it is part of why I was not successful during the social justice peak years. I was blocked. I do not know why. It does not help anything to hate people over it.

Really I am content with the ad I am running.  The mouse playing basketball and it has a link to my books.

I think that is an okay first impression to make on the young people of America. Kind of funny, because of the imaginary mice series.

So anyway, that was some ups and downs. I mean possibly I could post that same video now and because of the timing, it would be allowed. But I don't know. I think I will stick with the content that does not include me as an influencer. That might be the idea.  The idea is that within the conspiracy, the tik tok and facebook people have identified me as a creator and they will not budge on that. Honestly that is okay with me but I do think I have always had pretty good influencer potential too. Interestingly, my comedy videos are also going to be creator content and not influencer videos. Isn't that interesting? I think it is.

So what are the numbers. 10k video views per 20 dollars. So 50k for a hundred dollars. To me that is worth it in America. That is good enough for me.  But that is only about what, 300 website visits.  But the people aren't there to hop off tiktok.  No sign of sales yet.

My facebook numbers increased like I always had wanted them to. Maybe I will revisit that art page again sometime and do some more God loves you memes. I will not give up and waste these ratios but wow my budget is low but I believe my mom will help me reset in the fall. So it will be the same pace. It is a good pace and I have to take breaks sometimes too. So the next thing is to do the copyrights. I mean I should do that this evening.  That is what Ravneet said to do today. I think tomorrow is okay though. 

Well everyone, have a good fourth of July.

 Well I just saw a little recipe I am going to try, from someone who doesn't torture me. Goat cheese and dates wrapped in prosciutto and fried in olive oil.  You have to keep frying until the meat gets darker than you would expect. Well that will be yummy. I will order those groceries next time.

So okay. It is about 93 degrees, climbing up to 95 later. This is my last day trapped inside.  Some people say I am not trapped inside but wow I can't tell you how much I don't intend to be in 100 degree weather.

So what should I be doing. Well I do not know. I already checked my online stuff. It is going well and I am thankful. I just like to be able to share creative work in some way. To me, that is not a waste. But I wish I had readers for these books. Well don't give up, everyone.

What else.  Treadmill. I am just not feeling it but I believe I will be walking again tomorrow. And I did lose five pounds. So that was unexpected.

I am not sure I am going to chat gpt any of my writing.  But I bet it already got sent through ad is being used as prompts. Ravneet told me to work on my copyright selections. Yeah I should do that.

I could just get the links for the books and email them to Tristan.  Well I will try to get that done soon.  Okay what for food. I still have some potatoes. And I have cheese and sour cream and could make some refried beans. I guess that is what I will do.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I had hoped that I would see book sales on my amazon page and I don't, but at least the demographics are different on my tik tok ads. Maybe I will improve at that and get more page visits. I did get 75. But even I myself don't see how the link works and am not able to click to the amazon page. So I do not really know what to do about that. And 75 is low for what I paid. (36 dollars) Like it will probably be 200 total and it goes up to 400.  But 200 is not bad if there are any sales at all. Like if ten people say hey maybe okay, then it is a profit. And wouldn't it be 20. I mean I do not know.

But that is something and not nothing.  And once again, am I supposed to believe that sales are happening? I have told you all that I don't enjoy that and I feel tortured by this process. I know people are creative, the conspiracy is neat, but don't you see that I can't stand the missing pay off from work.  It is not fair, it is not right, and it covers up your racism, bias, hypocrisy, and selfish reasons for preventing the books from reaching people.  All you see is a game where yes you would love to ruin an evangelical's career. How convenient.  

But maybe that is how people participate is they see the bad thing they want and can have if they let me stay alive.  Well isn't that clever. I just didn't do so bad on my own sometimes did I. So you have to wonder sometimes if maybe you guys are also my persecutors.

Anyway, I know that is not it but I wonder what is it, because this change in events is cool but does not bring about the needed thing.  And I have asked people to stop torturing me. And as you think maybe you help less prosperous populations, representatives from those same populations shame themselves by abusing me, so that didn't really work out, did it. And your clue that it wasn't a good direction should have been that you lost me as an advocate.  Because I was a strong supporter. But you spent what I had to offer, and then turned to absolute barbaric destruction.  So that is your legacy and their legacy.  And the zoom out reveals plenty more of that which can be as defining as anything else triumphant.