Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just paid a payment on my US bank card. It is an account that was transferred from American Express. I think I will keep the account. They did something sketchy with the bank account info but it is okay for now. Also, what about the other cards. I think I can call and ask to have them removed, or like two people removed.  

I mean that is questionable but in a way they have the main account number as the real account and the other cards as just usable things that are not connected to people's credit. However I still think it is questionable but at this point, I am the one in question.  So I mean I do not really know what to do about that. Hopefully it will be okay.

Something good that happened is that I got a good groundhog picture on ai.  That always helps my mood when there are good renditions.  Last night I felt the mental effects of too much ai.  Like when you play Tetris for too long.

Wow that was actually disturbing to think I had to close the business account.  I think it is okay now.

I did spend my whole deposit paying off credit cards.  But I had enough but it turned out to be kind of exact but I am at peace for now.  I hope my sister is able to do the normal deposit on the 15th. I mean possibly we could wait and do the 20th and it could be mom again.

There are storms and rain today so I am not taking a walk. I kind of miss it, like that was the right activity to be doing.  Yesterday was an 8 mile day.  

I saw a lot of link clicks on some of my posts and thought they might have gone to the book site, but I think facebook was counting the post likes. But it was interesting to feel the feeling of the amazon link working, because that is how it should be.  I mean I honestly have to wonder if facebook is actually blocking my site.  I just have to wonder that.  Because what I have done all these years simply should have worked.  And it has to be someone else's decision for it not to work. People say that is delusional, but they say anything I do is delusional.  The other thing is that other people's books are also not selling. So it is an industry thing. Also, people are noticing the scams of publishing and agents, and who gets rolled through and who doesn't.  Only sometimes now, it is who gets rolled through to nothing.

Because the billionaires have automated the systems to benefit themselves. I think some of the politics is going to be harder to deny as well.  The people who thought they could be superior through a vote and now that is over and everyone wishes they still had a good social media blessing.  But that was an injustice they were happy to overlook.

Anyway back to this low iron thing. I am trying a new low iron medicine soon but can't pick it up until Sept 4. I also need to go to the medicaid office that day. I mean am I wrong about the timing. I think it is okay. But I should go to the post office in the next day or so in case medicaid mailed me anything.

Well, that is all.  What should I be doing. I think I should be taking a walk.  Yesterday I left my mug on the bench. Hopefully Luis got it so it is not wasted.  I am using one of the Ihop mugs I bought on eBay. It is a small mug so I might need two coffees. And I ate some Corn Pops. I think the low iron might help me lose weight by reducing my appetite.

I feel good right now so it could be that night time is going to be the issue with the medicine etc. But I think the issue last night was the low iron again.  Are you guys sick of me saying that? Well I am tired of having the problem and usually my health problems get better with care.  But not this time.  And some people don't care.  And it is suspicious to me. Very suspicious.  

Also I need to remind myself that I saw how I wasn't going to ever get the money from the books. 

I saw it a long time ago and it is part of the torture. I saw the torture. I was more accepting of the torture so I need to remember that the financial thing is part of the torture.  And it has to do with being a children's book writer.  And that is going to work out and is a thing that can make up for the other losses.  I don't know if that is how to phrase it on subjects like that.  Like if it is supposed to be something religious instead.  I just think the suffering is part of a children's book writer profile and it is like all of us doing a little something for the kiddos.  

So maybe I will clean my apartment or something. 

Pals, here is a picture I did on ai.  It reminds me a little bit of Miro.  Honestly when I type in "wallpaper design," the pictures are only of a certain quality.  So that is weird.

But anyway, I think I have now been back to my better medicine for four days, so I am seeing the improvements.  The dreams are back to normal, I feel more love, and hopefully my skin will be better soon, too.  That might take a second because it has to heal from the last episode. But I think it is working.  what else: Digestion.  I think the digestion is better but I felt a little sick last night like slight nausea. That might be from stopping it. Or it could be from low iron. I just think the low iron is a problem that we need to solve and it is not getting better.

I also feel more energy, but I have to make sure there is not a manic effect. So far I am sleeping well, so that is good.  I think yesterday I just felt that feeling after the caffeine and worried a little bit.

Yesterday I walked 8 miles. It felt normal.  So hopefully I will continue walking and get back to normal with health. 

I think I should clean my apartment as well as I can so the apartment people have no reason to be mean to me.  It is not that bad but could be better. I should do dishes soon, organize the clothes, and do laundry Wednesday. Maybe tidy the floor and table too, and make the bed. I mean maybe do like a normal inspection.  

Well, what do you guys think about the medicine thing.  I think what is most urgent is the low iron.

 

 Well, I lost a friend on facebook because I shared a free seminary course from one of the stupider seminaries.  Good riddance.  You really can't tolerate a post about a free bible study? Because they are probably wrong about the gays? My guess is that you're not above it in any way except that you watched a lot of late night TV. Goodbye, you ruined our country with your disrespect for other people's religion.

 

hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. Today is Monday, August 31. I just went to McDonalds. I walked there, about two miles. Then back.  I found a pair of sunglasses on the ground, and then a small compact New Testament. I can't believe it! Those are really awesome finds!!

At McDonalds I got the big breakfast. And I got a coffee. I was not able to drink the whole orange drink so I took it home with some leftovers.

I need to take today's iron pill. I feel mostly okay. My mom helped me with a banking error.  But I think the date of the deposit changed by five days with no notice.  But I do not know, but it is okay.

I sent my sister a text, also. I think that is good. I kind of think phone calls are good sometimes but what if they aren't? What if texting is better and some people figured that out a long time ago.

In two hours I have therapy. It is a surprise that it is today.

I think part of my feeling of not knowing what to do with myself is because I have more consciousness to spend because of reducing some medicine for health purposes.  Let's see how it goes. I think we will see an improvement on my health.

I also sent margarita a message. I might send some other people messages, too. But not right this second.

Well, have a good day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. One of my posts unfortunately attracted worship of a hindu idea. 

It was a googly eyed creature that reminded of them of something they call Jaganath.

So I mean what do I do, I do not know. I did not mean to do that.

I am not horrified by it. It is kind of a funny story for the future.

But possibly I should pause the ad or erase the comments.

Ok I am unable to upload the photos on this page but I will later on.

Ok I will figure out what to do. This boost just didn't go that well. 

I guess you live and learn. But it wasn't that bad but kind of lower numbers etc.

 Hello everyone, I just discovered a great new artist on instagram: April Bedard, known as aprilbedardartist.

Wow that is the ultimate plagiarism challenge is not to copy that. Did you see the googly eyed creatures? It looks like wrapping paper. I will have to be careful with my ai prompts which recently featured “googly eyed squiggles squiggling spaced apart on paper or blanket”

The renditions did not come close to being as cute as the art I just saw. I mean I can see that and not be jealous but it is definitely a style I believe in.

There are a lot of us who like googly eyed creatures. And I will not be the best at it. I need to accept that. I am just happy to have imaginary animals as my friends.

Anyway I think maybe my books are sharing ok and I just don’t get the cash for it and it is a secret.

I can live with that as long as it is not wasted.

It is about 12:44 right now. I think I will drink some more decaf soon. Do you think the pepperoni from the pizza I ate two days ago caused a reaction? Or the sunlight from yesterday? I just think this summer is a lupus flare for me.

But it could mainly be the low iron. I just feel that it is not getting that much better.

But my fatigue is not that bad.

Well, have a good day everyone.