Hello everyone, this is Refried. I got some sleep and had interesting dreams. Then I took my medicine.  So I won't feel as good for a while but then it will be okay. I think I will try to clean my apartment. Inspection is at 11 and I had forgotten about that.

So okay the list for inspection: do trash in table area, then take trash out, make bed, sweep and mop, wipe counter, put clothes in cart, close cabinets and that is all.  That is not a lot.  I will do all that at ten oclock.

So okay. Pals honestly I see a lot of bugs. But it could be less but it is okay.  I think they are doing a second bug bomb next friday.

What does everyone think about yesterday? Well I do not know.

Pals what do you think about those books? I think they are kind of boring but interesting for a book that is boring.  Like it is just me yapping but I do say interesting things but I have a lot of books that aren't just me yapping.

 Hello everyone, I drank some coffee. I think I will take my medicine at about 3 am, possibly 4 am.  I did not email Amar about Toastmasters. So I do not know when the next meeting is.

I read some of those books that sold. I think they are okay and maybe some people will find them interesting.  But to me, the poems and stories are better. But that was when I did those prayers.  And some people might like reading my opinions.

Tomorrow will I call any phone a friends? I do not know.

I do not want to be bullied anymore but it is possible that people are intervening.

I mean honestly it was not that easy to get through the pest control thing.

Maybe tomorrow I will call my sister.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, October 23 at 11:58 pm.  I am making some coffee. I washed out the coffee maker. I think the coffee did not absorb the poison but just now I am like okay of course it did, coffee is actually used for that.  So I need to start over with a bag that was not out.

So I will do that. I mean maybe that works out because I cleaned out the coffee maker with this hot boiling coffee and then I will do a different batch.  My apartment doesn't feel covered in poison and there are still a lot of bugs crawling around. I think they are going to do it again next Friday.

I feel tired but I took my medicine yesterday so am kind of okay. I guess soon I should take more medicine. I felt good prayer feelings this afternoon and prayed a lot. So that is a couple of days after about a week of not doing that well. 

Then unfortunately there were some squids and eels and dragons. But I am okay and I mostly think that is done for now. I think I can stop it whenever and take a break and it is kind of like when hospitals give people medicine to make their delusions go away.

The nami group helped me a lot tonight and I think that is kind of cool because I was like gosh what do I do, I am praying for shame and horror on the bad people but should do forgiveness but that did not feel right either but meanwhile I felt the good prayer feeling of the Holy Spirit.  So then in the nami meeting it became more productive and positive. And personally I think it is cool how that was provided just when I needed it. But I had a spell when typing an email about the pest control thing.  Because I was not invited to the community meeting where they told people the instructions.

Anyway I guess now I will try to make the coffee again. Maybe I will eat some lucky charms.

The hospital told me some opinions which is try to work work work work work. Like the song from the Bridge soundtrack.

Hello everyone, it is 8:35. I have taken my medicine and prepped my room for bug spray.  In about five minutes I will take my bag downstairs.  should I use a cart today? I mean maybe I will. Or maybe not because if I have to like go somewhere or something. So I guess just use the bag. But I don't know, maybe put a box of books and use the cart.

I had a Young Life dream this morning and it was interesting, I don't really remember it that well.  But I think possibly I am able to see the Young Life thing as different like instead of having a nervous breakdown because of some weird thing, just maybe the normal onset of mental illness and my conclusion was that I had to quit.   So it is not necessarily bad and I am not necessarily a mismatch for it.  And I will be a writer for teens which is related.

So anyway, that is interesting. I mean the dream was interesting, I do not have that many dreams about it but when I do, it often does match the culture and goals of it.

So anyway ok I am thinking cart, which means I am not done packing up.  I mean this whole bug prep thing has been really hard on me and does not match my sleep schedule.

Well, see y'all later.

 Pals, it's me, Refried. It is 10:19 on Thursday, Oct 22. I just finished a replay of an awesome video!! I think I will watch it a few more times, too. It happens to be relevant to me and so interesting.

Gice. JF is a Jody. and a sci-fi heroine like Ellen. So that is great and I will pray for her constituents.

Meanwhile, I put the groceries in bags so the bug spray won't make me waste all that. And the last thing I need to do is take out the trash in case Noremi wants to do inspection tomorrow.

Today I turned in my rent check. I am thankful and there is a new conspiracy game involving grapes.

I got an email from the New York Times tonight referencing a comment I made at the Alli conference. And I myself wanted to contact someone and point out someone else's response that I think was more genius than the accidental funny thing about mine.  So basically, the guy was saying to read the classics because it helps you think better and I said Edith Wharton and the Bell Jar were very elevating. I know the bell jar is by sylvia plath but I meant that book in particular. Well there is something funny about that, because Ethan Frome and The Bell Jar are both books about suicide and depression or something. Like that is as dark as it gets in realistic literature. And it is kind of funny, because I said it was elevating, but obviously not in terms of mood.  So then this lady said "tasteless."  And I don't know if she was joking but I think she was pointing out that my comment was tasteless but what else is tasteless? Refried Beans. And then if people find my facebook page based on that, I have several jokes that absolutely crossed any line of decency. And there is the fact that she really might have thought I was joking about suicide and her wit might have also been accidental.  So anyway I just wanted her to win something for that. I think she is probably British. I just mean if the conspiracy is doing stuff then to me she should get something.

Pals. I was able to pray today so ask God what you want if you want to add to the same jackpots. I do not know what is causing the violence but I think it is from my prayers and I don't know how to fix it.

Well, that is all everyone. 

 Hello everyone. I just attended an online support group.  I forgot about schizophrenia day downtown. Wow I wish I had remembered and yet was I really up for the commute? Not really. 

Pals I am sad that I missed the event but it is okay. I still had a good time at group even though gosh it is only once a year and I love going there in person but I was just downtown last night and can only do so much. 

Is my facebook page weird with weird posts. I mean I do not know. It is probably okay.

I sold two books but I think it is not from the ads.  I just don't understand why the ads never work and I think it is cruel.

Pals I wish my computer filter was nicer looking but I am thankful to have a computer at all.

Pals I need to check my credit card accounts. I guess I will get that done right now.

 hey everyone,

This is Refried. It is 4 pm. I made some coffee and took a shower. I am watching a replay video of a good presentation and I finished listening to music on YouTube. I made a new meme today and I think it is pretty good:

I really think there is something to this idea and what is in the Bible and how people bring life experience to it too.

But anyway I am glad I had a free day today. I thought I was going to have to leave my apartment because of a bug spray thing. But it is tomorrow. It will be ok. My friend Delores suggested going to the library. So maybe I will give away books in the park tomorrow and then go to the library.

I need to bag up stuff so it doesn’t get ruined by the bug bomb. I can do that soon. I will go downstairs and ask if they have any bags.

I need to attend to my credit card accounts. Possibly I will work on that at about 9 pm.