Hello everyone, I hope some pals are reading this.

The scbwi conference looks really fun and I am going to try to go.  I think I can go. My mom is a financial martyr for children's books. Thanks mom.  I guess a torture martyr too but that is more complicated.

Anyway I did not mean to get on that tangent but I am going to try to go to the conference and if I am able to go to the illustrator thing I will even though gice I know there is a difference okay. I do know that and probably people know I know because I did my best on writing and they did their best on art.

Ok.  Should I call Hallie and Jocelyn.  I just don't know if I can have roommates with my condition.

Also I think I am staying at the other hotel.  But for two nights instead of one. 

So all I need is the 600 and I could have registered today. But I will be patient. I kind of couldn't have registered today.

Ok. I am not giving a presentation because I would not do well and I am not successful enough and do ai. But I will be a mascot as usual. We think I might be little critter.

Gice.  Thanks for helping me, it has not been easy. The swindle really hurt me.

Gice I am not sure I surpassed horizon cow with anything but maybe that is appropriate.

I think the main happy thing is that the imaginary mice are real and we are all going to have imaginary animal friends in heaven. Probably some people at this conference will design portions of heaven. I mean the life too. I just believe that. I believe Jim Henson has actual creatures now somewhere. 

Anyway I drank some egg nog and now I need to see if there are other groceries. The christmas trees hopefully are for Doug. But we know my word is not good. It isn't and that is what happened but possibly it was too good for a while like literally no blips I mean that is kind of weird. It means your socializing is your job but that is why social work but still that is not necessarily and yet it has its rewards.

Gice the immediate thing is that I need to eat some food from my new groceries but am tired.

I think my comedy will be okay but can y'all tell that I am out of it? Can anyone see it? Probably peopel can see the depression too and feel it.

I got some cokes and rations. Now there is no more room on my new card but I got the thing I really wanted which was that review deal. I got the smaller deal. I think that is right for now. 

I don't know if people are mad at me.  I did skip medicine last night and feel it but I had to for inspection and then they stood me up for inspection. Tomorrow I will need to go downtown early so they don't harrass me. I have my comedy show.  That means take my medicine at midnight which is only in three hours.  I mean do people think I shouldn't have gotten the food? I jsut got some party dips and cokes.

Gice I like listening to the conservatives on their shows. It is fun to pray for them to get rewards in heaven because you know they will be so happy.

Does anyone have any thoughts? I will get up and pour some egg nog soon.

Well have a great day, everyone.

 they are saying to do another blog post to add crystal w to the event list with those other 7 people. and then say how Troy and Lisa were nice to me. They sure were. I just searched their faces looking for the mad feelings and it was not there. 

Now could I have been in that short story group? I don't know. I don't feel like I can do this stuff anymore. I had to skip Shemaiah's group too.  I mean maybe suggest that for other people. 

Pals it is good news that there is a middle section of USA that doesn't want bad things to happen.

I do not know what to google. Maybe low iron fatigue.

gice the pizza is old now. gice possibly some groceries with that onion dip. cokes, vitamin waters, hmm I do not know. any thoughts. chicken pie, rice with sauce. hmm what about rice and a really good sauce. what are some good grocery store sauces.

 gice my agent wants me to get a new hat. it is the lowly worm hat from out of print. 

maybe but i don't know if i can and i don't usually wear hats like that but princeton also said i should.

so okay i guess so. i will try to order it when i can.

i signed up for the new reviews but see how great that old one was. i mean how precious and nice. i just feel like that was a good person who did justice with an honest reading.  she liked some poems but found some of it boring and gave me 2 out of 4 stars. 

gice i need to rehearse the comedy one more time. i am going to rely on the notes.

i think it will be okay.

i am not calling any friends about it.

monday is toastmasters. it is not easy.

but I can do it.

are people mad at me.

the focus on the family people said to not complain

i might go to 7 11 but i might not.

gice i think i am going to send around the buffalo chicken tenders poem soon

but i cant afford it right now so later this month

i feel good like meaningful work this week. the copyrights, the new compilation, the meetings, the reviews, the comedy show, i mean that is a lot and I am blessed. however I feel some health stuff.

 

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I had a great time at my Kid Lit group today. It was kind of a small crowd. I hope I am not ruining it for people or something.

I told them about the visions when I participate and I think they are no exception but for some reason I had not even thought about noticing the supernatural stuff with them.  But it there and I felt it some today. But I also felt kind of a thought battle and I didn't do so well. So that is interesting.

I mean that guy said a school bought 500 copies of his book.  And it was his elementary school from when he was a kid.  Well I am happy with that and the book looks really nice. 

I possibly was selfish and slow to listen to others but I think it is okay.

Anyway I was reminded of a book review club and I updated a book that I got a review on years ago.  So hopefully this goes well.  I signed up for ten reviews. It is much cheaper than kirkus.  I mean it helps with google-ability and kirkus doesn't. And to me kirkus should.

Pals I think I will have another coffee soon.  But I have to take medicine tonight. I skipped a dose and wasn't planning on that but it was because of inspection and the book meeting.

I will be tortured by housing too but I have to live my life and have goals. I think my goals are going to be over soon. I think I have dementia. I just can't function that well anymore.

Are people mad at me? I do not know.  I think they aren't. I think there is a conspiracy.

 Hello everyone, Noreema is not here today and this is my eleventh time this year being stood up for inspection. Hopefully I will have an income soon and escape this bullcrap dirty organization. Basically your policies and practices are dirtier than my apartment after five years of disorganized catatonia. 

So anyway will 'i go to the spirituality group. I mean I might as well.

I guess try to get some praying done.

I looked on the copyright website and my stuff is not listed yet.

That book that came out in 2023 is kind of weird to me. Like I think they saw my name and wrote something but it is still different enough so I don't have a problem and I doubt they do.

Also I remember that days after I posted Sparkity Bonkins, someone came out with a traditionally published book called Sparkly Bumpkins. I mean wow, to me you said the F.U. to yourself. And then when I did Blob Mentality on smashwords, it was within hours that google posted some opera blobs singing. So have fun with that on judgement day, privileged brats who whoops didn't go to church.  Meanwhile at social work school I'm the only southerner people have ever met so they take turns heaping their political bullcrap on my face. Then the 60 thousand worse off people with more literal poverty as I descend into the liberal wastelands of worthlessness and lies.