Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 1:20 on Sunday, Sept 6. I am listening to a recording of a presentation that I liked at the SCBWI conference. Friday I found out that the agent of choice did not accept me.

Today I went to Starbucks and drank a mocha. Later I am going to try to go get pizza, but I need to take an iron pill, because I feel myself getting tired. It is a certain kind of tired that also has a mental spaciness.

Ravneet is helping me get through this weekend and I am doing okay. I think I might believe things to be a certain way for myself. Last night I got upset because I realized an amazon package was not delivered, and I suspected mail interference.  But this morning I see that things are in order.

My mom had a second hip surgery and my sister is taking care of her. I called her this morning and she was okay. But she had pain but I think she is getting through it.

Wow someone on the recording just said something really good. It is about middle grade not being dead.

Other stuff going on is my recent neurology appointment.  Dr. Gokhan said I do not have lupus.  I think I am going to call it autoimmune from now on.  Something made me laugh at the appointment.  It was a comedian on the show called "Sherrie," which was playing in the waiting room. And I laughed really loud, and then Dr. Gokhan later laughed when I said I might get a stroke from eating spicy food. 

So that is kind of funny but we do not know what anything means. I did not get any notes from either doctor at that hospital for these last two appointments. And I am kind of sad about that, because I like notes. But I think they suspect that I am skipping some meds. But I am doing the best I can.

So anyway. I think the agent of choice was my final effort. Thanks KG.

Well everyone, I hope you all have a good day. I am thankful for what I have, and sometimes I know when some of my jokes are only a little bit funny.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just slept for a while, and I feel better. I had a dream where I was at a basketball game and a guy kept trying to make these shots from behind the goal and then another guy did some swishes and then I was at home and told my mom I was going to bilo to meet a friend so I left but then was on a bike or something and cut through a culdesac that doesn’t exist and there was this guy with a shiny pink tri corner outfit and he was a dad and he had left colorful twizzlers out on his porch area for the Easter bunny and then I was on Pelham road on a long boardwalk that went straight to bilo but it was at night and I had a light on my bike and a girl was in front of me talking to someone else about a film school project and then I woke up.

So that is neat about the twizzlers and Easter bunny.

I think I am okay about the other stuff on my mind and can get a pizza or something soon. I mean possibly I need to do a grocery order but I kind of want a pizza but now my bank accounts aren’t that great.

Does anyone have any thoughts? There are many different supernatural feelings for many different things and that is why I started thinking that anything positive might be more supernatural than we realize.

Anyway I need to clean my apartment some so I will take out the trash soon and maybe do laundry sometime.

I am glad I am caught up on sleep and medicine.

 Hey everyone, this is Refried. I took 5 books to the arts council and met a nice person named Tracy. She let me put the books on a table. Thanks, Tracy! She said I could come to an event and leave free books for everyone and I wouldn’t even have to hand them out personally. But maybe I should mingle. I think there is a possible gig but I might have something else scheduled that day.

But anyway that went well and I jibber jabbered at high speed so tomorrow I will try to slow down and not get in trouble about the medicine.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. The next thing to do today is walk back to westchester square. But it is hot and humid outside. So maybe I will but I don’t know.

I mean maybe it is not urgent to give those books to that office but I think I will but I remembered another possible person to send to yesterday.

But it is slowing down for a reason but that could just be my feeling of disability.

I kind of think passing out books in parks might be my new thing to do. I wanted to give that lady one today but it seemed like she was on a cellphone and I did not want to be weird.

So anyway ups and downs live and learn. It is time to eat some lunch. I mean what’s it going to be for lunch today. I guess fettuccine Alfredo. Hmm I could actually boil pasta and use that sauce. That is what I will do.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Thursday, Sept 3.  I think after I finish my coffee, I will walk to the post office. It might be at about 11 or 12. I have good news which is that my weight was 194 today. So I am losing weight at a good rate.  This week it was because of the walking and not eating much for two days when I was working on the art and poems.  Some of it has happened gradually at about 3 pounds a month for four months.  That was the point. That was the issue.

So hopefully it will continue until I am right back at 186. It is possible I will lose a little more than that because of the low iron, but honestly I would rather the low iron be fixed.

I feel better today and don't have the headache. I think it was from the sausage or something.

I am not getting more face problems.  I think the issue has been successfully stopped and now I just need to stop the anxiety habits.  But that will also be reduced because there won't be a problem in the first place.  So the habit is also guaranteed to be reduced.  So forget your little blame plan that you have in mind.

Anyway in the news today it said that Gloria Steinem died.  She was in my comedy routine and it is a good joke.  Thanks Gloria Steinem.  Everyone knows I like all the liberals.  It is supernatural. When I went to that young life thing, tears started streaming down my face as soon as I saw the planned parenthood building. It was supernatural evangelical tears.  We do not know why but it is my calling. But we kind of do know why and it is because most liberalism is really from christianity. It just is.

Anyway I can't believe my weight is at 194.  It happened faster than I expected but I am used to it being totally hopeless. I think part of it is the angle that the scale is on but it is still consistent relatively.

Honestly my bmi isn't that great but I am still thankful that it has improved. It is now 32.3.  I believe I will get it back down to 31 and that is normal for me. I mean that is only a couple of pounds away.

But I need to build some muscle back so that is a factor. I mean in that way I am a little worse than I was before no matter what.  And some of that is from disease.  But I am on the right track as long as north central doesn't attack me tomorrow. I think they won't.  Can't people see that I am sane enough right now? This needs to be good enough for people.

Anyway, how are my facebook numbers.  Very good, but I can't spend more for a while. I mean that is serious. I have used up that budget. That was with a little bonus this month.  But I have a credit card in better condition than normal.  The Ollo card.  Which I will use for steak and eggs at the diner.

Well, that is all for now. Thanks everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I have had a headache today. Is it from that piece of sausage that I ate at McDonalds a few days ago? I do not know. But I am okay. I am making some coffee. I thought it was a caffeine headache but I bet it is the lupus.

I think I still have anemia tongue but it is not that bad.  

I wonder if that poetry spell happened in conjunction with MC's group.  Because I had just been wondering if it wouldn't happen again because I left the creative writing group on Mondays.  And then it happened overnight and is back to normal now.  So maybe God was showing me that it could still happen.

I mean that is cool and interesting.  And then what are the poems like? There is quite a variety and they are mostly okay.  And yet kind of an odd assortment to be a revelation.  And yet it wasn't really prophecy necessarily but sacred art. Like it is. Sorry but it is. It was inspired.  But there were mistakes too and corrections and editing.  And yet I could do no wrong, either.

But I kind of could do wrong when I was yapping about it and I would feel the air get colder in my soul.

So that is interesting. Something I was aware of was kind of the paper rock scissors component with millions of people. Like God doesn't exalt people to wrench others and doesn't have an economy that is abusively competitive.  You don't have to suffer when someone else is doing well.  That is healthy church life and it is us who mess it up.  

But anyway it was also interesting that the Holy Spirit backed up the exact content that is already usually on my blog. Where I am like this is what I am eating and I need to do these chores and I should pray more.

But anyway does anyone have any thoughts? I mean that was interesting. I guess just read the poems and think about it. I am glad it only lasted a day because I was like man how am I going to do a whole three days, or even a week.  And I think last time it was two weeks.

I feel my headache a little bit.  What should I do about these health problems. I guess the next step is talk to Dr. Gokhan, and then later make an appointment to check my iron levels again at Dr. Parik.

The headache is not a low iron emergency. It is either from caffeine, a certain time, the weather, or  the sausage biscuit.

Pals, I cut my bank account too close paying back cards.  I hope there aren't too many more that go through tomorrow or something.  Probably this was all. I thought I calculated well but I guess it was that 80 for US Bank that really hit me. But it will be okay. 

Well, have a good day, everyone.

 Pals, the numbers on my posts are back to normal. So that is good. This is a good batch running right now. I do not know if the poetry thing will continue. It might have passed with me not boosting a blog post on my normal facebook page. So I do not know.

I did not go to the post office. I got tired and slept. I am caught up on medicine. I mean at 4 pm maybe I could still walk to the post office to get the roach motels. But I think I am waiting a day or so.

That was an interesting poem adventure, wasn't it? I do not know if it will continue.

Pals I have sure been at my computer a lot.  Now my internet is slow again. So maybe I will try to stay off of it sometimes. I mean just today there was a five hour chunk where I was sleeping.

I mean if you think about this opportunity to communicate with people all over the world, it is kind of out of the ordinary and something to make the most of while it exists.

I think I lost a pound in the past couple of days. That is really good. I mean that is a tenth of my goal.

I am going to assume that I am back to normal unless I think of more poems. 

I wonder if it is bad that I did not boost any of the worldly monk posts yet. Well I just haven't on that page and I think it is okay. I mean I have boosted a lot of posts recently.