Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 5 pm. I just woke up from my second round of sleep.  Later I will do some laundry.  My next thing is to take out the trash. I might take out two trash bags worth. Then possibly I will be out of trash bags. I think that is a good enough goal is one laundry two trash.

Any writing goals? Not really.  I am not sure I correctly sent that new comedy routine. Wow it is almost more of an irony routine.  But I think it was just right. I mean maybe perform it somewhere soon.

What about Monday? Hmm, maybe. 

I have not checked my finger but assume it is healing slowly.  I might need to google diabetes or something, because this could be a sign.  I am becoming more confident that it was staph and not mrsa. And that it was more normal and maybe not caught from the hospital or stairwell.

And yet this has been a weird chain of events. 

I will check the smoke stats in a second. I hope my computer internet is back to normal soon.

I ate a little bit of french bread pizza and oreos.  Maybe another coffee would be good. I just wish I could walk to the coffee shop.

I guess the main thing is another round of cleaning. I sprayed pretty thoroughly and did do three loads of laundry plus the stuffed animals this week.  So a lot was improved. And I threw away the sleeping bag.  But definitely I will get some stuff done later if I can.

And maybe eat some lucky charms.  I have eaten two barbecues and a hot pocket and two frozen meals since the last grocery order.  What I am not doing great on is eggs.  I should be boiling the eggs more often, though I did do a good scramble and fry last time.

I am done well with granola bars and cereal, and I made that corn casserole.  What about potatoes.  Maybe I will do a potato casserole soon.  

I have eaten popcorn, peanut butter rice, and some other stuff.  Maybe improve on oatmeal and grits is a good idea. I will cook that sausage too.  I mean maybe some grits and sausage is next. Grits, sausge and eggs. Maybe clean and then make grits, sausage, and eggs.

Does anyone have any opinions.

 Pals my anxiety disorder is also a medical condition and this week has been rough and the medical places were doing weird stuff. The fact that I had to start over at City MD. And the fact that some places lost my trust. I mean we got through it but there are things wrong and how am I supposed to interpret that and why would it always be in everyone else's favor when they are the ones who did not tell the truth and do what they are supposed to.

I mean there is something kind of funny. Because if it is a game there is something kind of comical. Like hello from these people. I mean what does it all mean. Possibly it is something to distract me and think about as I feel anxious about breathing for about ten more hours. I mean this is honestly not that easy to get through. I think I will call Dilarom tomorrow and tell her it is a problem that DM is in my notes.

Ok there is something I just remembered which is my comedy coach session tonight. I actually think there was something at 5 that I was supposed to do and forgot about.

But it is okay. I mean just survival is something. It is good that I did not go to the comedy last night. This air stuff is not a joke. I mean am I the only one totally freaked out about it? This is different than last time.

I think the back of my tongue it getting pinched from a chipped piece of the bruxism.  But it is okay but I can't figure it out. But anyway gice it is not easy when you have anxiety and a lot of problems. I think tonight after comedy I will try to do some more laundry.

 Pals. I read the notes from the doctor. She said she used ai but it seemed like her notes. That is interesting.

Everyone put DM in my history now but I don't have DM. I don't. I know I don't. Maybe pre. And I need to lose the twenty pounds that they made me gain on purpose through abuse.

So I guess that doctor read the HHC notes. Because HHC says I have PTSD and that usually didn't show up on the notes for a long time.

So that is interesting. I guess read about PTSD. I mean maybe read about the other stuff, 

I mean it is kind of comical because it is like kirkus reviews, too. Like the positive and negative.

Maybe the AI picked up that false note from the bad person at NCB. That person was a nazi. An absolute actual nazi. I am going to have to write letters to these places and get a lawyer to help me.

Hello everyone, I went online and talked to an awesome doctor. Thanks NYP Columbia. I was worried and really thought I had to go have my appendix taken out, possibly at a hospital where they were mean to me sometimes.  But the nice person thinks I am okay for now. So the issue is to survive the air quality.  It is getting worse again now but I am okay. Actually it is worse on this side of the room so I might need to move to the other area. But I am okay.

Gice I have been very high maintenance this week as a medical patient but it was all real stuff. Maybe I will feel better from not being on the antibiotics anymore too. It did not make me feel that bad but I could feel it some.

So okay, one more day and then it will probably get better.  I think that it might be kind of bad tonight, though. But I am okay. Earlier I was coughing some and that is not a good feeling from it. Like the fear of starting to gag and wretch.  But I am okay. I need to drink some coffee.

I mean one of these days my health is not going to be okay. But for now I seem okay.

The doctor said the pain would be more constant and there would be some other symptoms.  So likely a random cramp. Also I remembered how to describe it. It is like if you got sprayed with pain.  That is it. I actually think it is a latuda side effect.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Pals, the bridge people just had a fire drill so they could check on us. I accidentally locked myself out of my apartment because I had washed my keychain. So three people climbed the stairs on my behalf. Two for the fire drill and one to unlock my door. And Daniella and Gloria were downstairs and nice. So I am not being tortured even though I disagree with the elevator situation.

There is something else. I think my infection might have been staph and not mrsa. And that means it came from my room. That makes the most sense to me and I also think it was aggravated by the detergent. I mean people think that theory is stupid like a cover up for my germs but I did something different with my laundry the day before and washed out the inside of a bag. So my hand was like the rag to wash out a surface with the tide. I just think that was it because my clothes make me itch so there is an allergy factor.

Anyway. The other thing is that I worried about my lungs because all the sprays I have used are irritants, plus gasping some at night, shredding my lungs, and then the smoke particles. Like what if that causes an infection. Well I have had antibiotics for a week so I think I will be okay. And what if I don’t end up being ok. That is ok too.

So anyway, the last thing is that sometimes I feel a pain in the corner of my lower right side. Lower than the liver. I don’t think anything is there but intestines but it could be a kidney. But my pee is normal. Dark yellow two days ago and light yellow today. That is normal for me. Like slightly abnormal two days ago. But I have only felt the pain three random times. It also reminds me of the latuda pain like it is like, well hmm I need to find a way to describe it. I just think I have felt something similar in another area before like stomach. It is like a transient fire cramp.  It only lasts for a few seconds. I think it is a latuda thing and kind of random. However I will pay attention. I mean if it happens again it could be worse and need some kind of emergency surgery. The most likely thing is kidney crystals. So I will drink water. But I just haven’t felt my normal kidney problems.

 Pals, this is Refried. We are having an air quality situation in NYC. It is very serious. I believe some people should evacuate if they are able to. However some evacuation may be dangerous if it is too smoky.

I am staying in my apartment. I am going to try not to use services and oxygen no matter what. I believe supplies are limited. I have an inhaler for my asthma so if I can’t breathe past that, then neither can anyone else.

Right now I am a little anxious and have been having asthma at night. So when I have slight shortness of breath I think it is because there is already not enough oxygen. But there is enough oxygen right now. It is just poor air quality that triggers inflammation. That is different than smoke in a burning building so you can’t breathe.

However to me the levels are really bad and it could become so bad no one can breathe indoors. 

Last time we had an air quality scare I felt that I would use the shower if I needed better air. But this time I feel that won’t really help.

I think it is expected to last one day. Some rain would be nice. I am glad my breathing is ok. Just some fear. But it is subsiding some and I can get it off my mind some.

I think they should consider bussing some people out of here.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I was going to go to a comedy thing tonight but the air quality was bad and my asthma has been bad lately. I have gotten trapped outside gagging before and I decided to stay home.

I did feel ok and like I had the stamina for the trip downtown but I did not feel that it was safe.

So I have to miss out. I hope people understand. Many disabled people have to not participate in stuff and might feel like they let people down. I just have to accept some limitations. This means that I will probably go to Bruce’s show on Aug 2.

Something happy is that I joined toastmasters. I am thankful and excited. This makes me kind of busy. I think that caps it off for me in terms of activities.

Tonight the staff gave us food. A hamburger and chicken. Wow that was just what I needed. I think now I will make some coffee.

Will I wash more stuff later. Really I would like to do two loads. To have a stack of clean clothes and two clean towels. I sprayed the floor and surfaces and stuff I didn’t get to before as much. Then I put a shirt over my chair and sat on that. I think it is okay now.

Remember that I dropped the nail on the floor in the corner and then found it again and picked it up with a Kleenex. Now are we sure that was the same thing I dropped. Well of course it is a priority to clean that area and I did spray it well. 

As for the infected site. It seems to not be infected but it is not completely healed either. Possibly from having a 5.7 A-1C. now do we know if all the bacteria is gone from the scab skin layer that might not have been reached by the medicine drink.  I am thinking do one more application of the newer ointment. And tonight is the final dose of the drink medicine.

I’m going to miss my sleeping bag but I decided to throw it away.