Hello everyone, this is Refried. I had to carry my groceries up the stairs because of no elevator. It is taking four or five trips but a nice guy named Josiah offered to help and he carried the heavy water in exchange for a ten pack of coke minis. It was a good deal and positive exchange. Now I am resting and going downstairs soon to bring up the milk, other cokes, and two carts.

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 Hello everyone, this post is probably going to be linked to my new Bronx Civil Social facebook page where I report the abuse and harassment that is happening to me in NYC but especially the Bronx.

Yesterday I had a bad nurse at the Er and a tablet worker who sent my medicine to the wrong place, probably deliberately. So then I had to have a new appointment at City MD and I felt like it worked out because he was an awesome doctor who fixed the thing that the other place did not fix. But the nurse there did my blood pressure about 8 times, always having to do that thing where they make it too tight because supposedly it did not succeed at getting your blood pressure. I mean it took like ten minutes and I believe it was on purpose as the very frequent abuse I get from nurses at these places. A lot of times it is when they take blood and they act like they can’t find the vein and they try several times and start digging around your arm. I left one hospital without getting treatment once because of it.

I believe it is meant as racial activism but in cases like this appointment yesterday, especially when it is just two of us in a room, it becomes pretty sickly abusive. Like to me, not just a fireable offense but criminal. Medical people deliberately harming patients in their professional role.

This person didn’t know me, but hated me immediately enough to just put me in pain as much as possible for as long as possible in a little room while I waited to see the doctor. Just me and the abuser in a room, like when Dr Brown molested me as a kid. You’re in great company, city Md nurse at westchester sq. Like the waiting room is almost empty, you’ll see 8-10 people today, “hmm I think I’ll abuse this one as my little private game.” It’s really on psychiatric levels and yet wow there are a lot of people doing that right now, aren’t there. When hospitals realize it isn’t popular anymore, you will find yourself in jail.

 I have reported this stuff before. I mean this ten minute abuse session yesterday with the blood pressure. What a bad person. And how some people think they are being “part of history.” 

I believe it is stuff like this that caused the better parts of social justice to fail. Some people were dirty hypocrites to the point of criminal abuse, and everyone knows it.

And yet there are also people who really believe I should just be a sport and let her abuse me. Like I have mental illness and kind of deserve to be bullied by five health people because I have an injury that needs treatment. A bad pharmacy, a bad hospital, a bad neighborhood, bad cops, all of it in my face as an insult, with two more random criminals interfering in my walk home, too.

it’s a cowardly war from worthless bums who actually could have had a lot going for them if mobs of people just like them hadn’t decided to tear up everyone’s life like monsters from the hell where they are on their way to live forever.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just took dose three of the antibiotic and bandaid treatment. It is looking better but not perfect yet. But almost there. I think that is about right. An infection is kind of disturbing and I am kind of surprised at how much it stays in that area and isn’t instantly everywhere.

The medicine tastes bad but I was okay again and ate a granola bar and orange drink.

So now it is time to clean the apartment. Make bed, put clothes up, throw out trash, was dishes, cut up new rag, wipe counter, sweep and mop, and that is about it. Maybe I will try to get that done at 9 o’clock.

How do you guys feel about my finger progress. I think almost better is pretty good. I still have to take the antibiotics ten times. So it is going okay.

Wow a lot of suffering but part of it is the bombardment of news.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 11:24 on Thursday. Tomorrow I have inspection. 

I am on my second dose of antibiotic for a hang nail infection. I believe this is a key dose. The doctor at urgent care helped me with it some today and I felt so much less scared. It is still a very serious problem but kind of common too.

I wonder if there is purpose in it and God is helping me be mindful of the people with legionnaires, parasite, Ebola, and Covid. It was weird because I was irrationally scared of those things and realized my finger hurt. And I was scatterbrained from a cool seizure and couldn’t sort out the conditions. And then that kind of sunk into my normal depression and I was like what is wrong with my finger.

And it is kind of a classic case of what it is. I don’t know if it is from typing harder on the keyboard or if it is from the sink area. I kind of think it is from the sink area.

That has always been the explanation before for things like this. Interestingly inspection has been skipped twice lately but I can’t blame that because I did do inspection both times. I will do a little bit this time but not as much for some of it because of waiting for my finger to get better. I think it is getting better but online it said it can take five days. So there could be a progression that I don’t expect. But I think it will be ok.

What they did to me today was weird. The fake ER visit, the bad service, the racism, the prescription that got sent to the wrong place on purpose, I mean what do I do but in the end it was okay though two more guys targeted me on the way home. But that wasn’t a big deal I just had to walk between them. So I guess there is a framing component but the cops know it. I think there are good cops helping me and a conspiracy acting out a third world country.

Anyway one of my favorite facebook dogs died and it happened so fast on days that I was going through stuff so I hope I can catch up to that support needed. Probably the timing will be right like a before and after.

Tomorrow the goal is inspection and groceries.

Well have a great day everyone.

I did think of another world monk post and there was something else I thought of and forgot. My online comedy session tonight was amazing and I could not believe it. 

I mean honestly it is possibly my comedy hobby is an example for other people later who will make a career out of it. 

Well anyway have a good night everyone.

 Hello everyone, 

This is Refried. It is 10:00 Wednesday. Today I went to a comedy open mic. I weirdly became not scared about it and then found it to be even less scary than that.

So I will be back and try some new stuff. I liked the other people and hope to see them again sometime. I think they saw my name on the sign up sheet and found me online before the show.

I found them to be really funny. One girl did a lot of pigeon jokes. Well I happen to also have a pigeon joke.

I found it to actually be too much of a workshop and to consider myself a real comedian I am going to need some normal audiences. I mean I loved it so much that it won’t count. So maybe I will try to get good enough to open for a class show sometime. Or something like that, but my memory is an issue. But the comedians see me as one of them but they also know I am a washed up oldie.

They were nice to me today but my paranoia made me think they were all making fun of me. Like a roast.

I mean pretty funny. I guess the classes I took were maybe at a more intense level than I realized. And yet I did feel it, the fear, but you do better if you feel like laughs are at stake and you could bomb. But the crowd today was silent and it was friendly and did not bother me at all.

I will try to write some jokes and be really funny. I hope they have enough people every time.

I will try not to overdo it and go every time but I could see myself doing this more than once a week.

Anyway then I went to support group and it is not easy, people suffer every time. I did not do well for encouragement but I think I was space-y from the day.

 Pals, it's me. I am okay with those videos. My skin is messed up but for some reason I have felt okay with the recent videos.

But I am not sure about this F word video.  Was that the right conclusion. I mean I don't know.

Because that F U topic was going to be my speech for toastmasters. I was going to tell the story about the mickey mouse shirt and then end the speech by saying that.

But now I used the idea so I can't tell the story with the finale in the same genuine way.

So I just might have messed up but that was what came to mind when I peacefully thought of what to do next for the question show.

Anyway I mean I will think about it. I think one issue is that it is not going to share that widely among my friends.  But did I disrespect someone who was obviously on my side.  My neighbors. Particularly the one who might have stood up to my mom in some way. But she might have tortured us too.  So I do not know.

So I will talk to my therapist.  I think the idea that it can't be undone is not true.  Because think about how I have been cursing now for a couple of years.  So I already made that choice. But I feel it might be a sign of ungratefulness for my prophecy gift.  And maybe that was why God discontinued me from the main power for it is because he knew I was going to start cursing. 

But I don't know.  But anyway I saw a vision last night which was a tree branch upside down with no leaves, as if it was a lightning strike.  Isn't that crazy? I think it means my family, including ravneet and everyone else, is like God's vengeance on my enemies.  Gice the T key jsut suddenly is fixed now on my keyboard.  So that is good. Wow that was getting on my nerves to have to hit the key extra hard when I had to write a T.

So anyway, I am going to post the bible verse on the page, because why not. It doesn't really matter.

Do you think that was bad of me to say the Oprah thing. Well I do not know. I jsut felt like going ahead and sharing the page twice was not a bad option.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried.

I just ent to an autism event online and feel so much better than I did earlier. I feel grounded and back to normal even though I do need some extra sleep. 

I should do laundry soon too.

Gice I have it pretty good in my life when people are not committing crimes against me.

I tried putting those new videos in the trash but then restored them.

I think it is mostly okay

I don’t know if I did bad or good

There is still one more topic

But really I could do an I finite amount of those videos

It kind of reminds me of how I felt when I started my blog

It is kind of a risk but I don’t think the first Pres people will watch it

I mean was that scheduled

I do not know

anyway I will watch those videos and think about whether they should stay on the page

But I think it is like usual where it mostly doesn’t matter unless I boost it.

pretty cool that some people found the page and clicked like