Hello everyone. This is Refried. It is 11:33 on Tuesday night, May 26. Tomorrow is my psychiatrist appointment. I am going to tell Dr. Talreja that I am doing great.

I think I will leave here at 8 am.

This afternoon I got my check from Wells Fargo, took a cab to comedy class area, ate some gelato and Chinese food and coffee, and then went to comedy class. Then I came home and that took about an hour and a half. 

My comedy routine went okay but I rushed it for the third time in a row but it was because the class had already heard it and wasn’t laughing a lot.

Our class had good material and our class show will be good. Now I am home and my leftovers have those little miniature corns but I am scared to eat them because of food allergies.

Gice I have had some nice days and good weeks lately. I am thankful and I think some of it is because of the reduced medicine. Sometimes I don’t remember that much about recent days but mostly I do.

Gice what do you think about my book. I think I had to say what I said.

 Ok everyone, I took my medicine, and will probably not go to comedy until about 4 today. So I will go to the bank tomorrow after my appointment with Dr. T.  Taking my medicine in the day time also means that tomorrow I could skip until the afternoon and it would not be bad.

So that is interesting. Things worked out and I am glad I can pay rent. It was kind of a close call but I could have waited until like June 2 and been probably okay.

So anyway, ups and downs, live and learn. Does anyone have any thoughts about my new book?

I should check the other email and see what the emails say. Any time I designate the law category, amazon changes it, but several of my books are about law. But it is okay.

On the train on the way back from eating at Gemini, I saw a dragon talon. It was red with a black nail.  But other than that I don't feel that much crazy stuff.  But I think I feel a certain HS feeling when I do stuff that has to do with Delgado and the other more forceful PTS feeling when I did that stuff for FT.

But what does it mean. Is there going to be a court case? I just don't understand.

Well, I think everyone agrees with my medicine decision. I am simply going downtown later and it will probably be fine, and then tomorrow will be a nice day too and I will get stuff done and then still have time to spare. Then maybe Wednesday I will do more for inspection so it is better this time. Gice I am so glad to have the smaller pills back. I think they were reminding me that I have disorganization.

 Hello everyone.

This is Refried. I think I took my medicine last night and I feel okay. I got some sleep but not a whole night sleep but yesterday I got like ten hours.

My new book is published and I feel okay about it. I mean I kind of question if something different was supposed to happen but I think this is okay.

Also I found some money in another bank account so I have enough for rent. 

I think at about 1 pm I will go downtown and get the rent check. Then later is comedy class. It is hard to go to the bank and comedy class. But maybe not leave here until 2.

I don’t know why I am so awake. I really think I took my medicine.

Tomorrow I see Dr Talreja. I need to check and see what time that is.

I think a day or so ago I understood the plan of the conspiracy. I am not sure I understand why we couldn’t just let it play out.

Did I not take my medicine? Maybe I didn’t and thought I did. I think I didn’t because I would have remembered the new smaller pills. So does that mean take it now. I mean dang I meant to take it at 5.

 Hello everyone, I am in my writers group right now and I'm writing a blog post. I just read through my new book and I think it is okay. It is kind of crazy that I had to write that third essay but I did have to. I felt off two names from acknowledgements but I think it will be okay.

I caught up on sleep today and I am glad about that. Tomorrow I need to go downtown and get my rent check and go to comedy class. I am not sure what order to do things in. Maybe go to 86 street, then take the bus crosstown, then the one train to Columbus Circle. Then get ice cream and food, then comedy class.

I got into a tight financial spot but fixed that problem mostly and will be okay. It was because I did not pay attention to the facebook charge.  But it will be okay.  I rerouted my canva subscription to my business credit card. Ok time is up for writers group.

Ok they gave us 8 more minutes. I thought about reading a certain essay in the group but I just am not for now. I do not want to ever read it.  I just had to write it. I do what I am supposed to. 

Anyway I enjoyed meeting with everyone for group and later I think I will sit outside where it is cool.

I think that Wednesday I will start sending messages to see who wants a free book.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 11:47. I am making coffee and need to take medicine soon but I believe I will be totally normal after medicine and sleep. I am just a little tired but had a great day. I went to a diner with a friend and had a great time. I should have sent a text later but it is okay. Then when I got home I watched my church service and there was a guest who I sent a joke book to and it was an awesome surprise. And I could tell that Jacqui liked the theology idea that I told her.

I will say the idea.  Ok Jacqui is a universalist and I am not but I do have liberal suspicions about purgatory and realms with people who don't go to heaven but can still be prayed for.  That is actually basic Catholicism and I am more in that camp. And the special guest today is someone who I think is in that camp, too, which actually is rare in my circles. So that is really cool. But anyway the idea I sent Jacqui is what if God does a lot of nice things for people in a bad status but he hides his good deeds about it just like he told us to do in the book of matthew. In other words, he does not appropriate the damned. So we all assume hell while meanwhile he might give people ice cold lemonades sometimes.  That is what I pray for even though wow some people are bad.

So anyway I think that is an interesting contribution to the universalist discussion and I am happy because I think Jacqui can really consider it more than I can.  And our little club today kind of had a good mix of people who really wonder about it all.  That is so sweet and I didn't realize that the special guest was like that too until I wrote all this.  The special guest was Grace Ji Sun Kim. So sweet! She said the club should not be exclusive and that is a funny joke!

Also the minister named Macky got ordained and I really like him.  Way to go Macky. I should tithe soon. Also today I talked to a phone a friend and some of it was sad but hopefully will be worked out. 

Gice the diner is gemini diner and when I went to Bellevue the interesting stuff from group therapy was a discussion about horoscopes where a guy said he didn't believe that stuff and I thought he must be St. Patrick. Isn't that so sweet and funny. And now I can go to Gemini diner if I feel like going to Bellevue and gemini means twin and me and my sister have an interesting new york story from that manic episode.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am in a diner waiting to meet my friend Katie from peer counseling. I got here early and it is kind of questionable that I held the table so long but I had a coffee and cheesecake. It is the biggest piece of cheesecake I have ever eaten. 

The diner is a place associated with a certain hospital. I had a dream this morning that I got sent to St. Francis hospital in Greenville for mania and the social workers were evaluating me and the hall was filled with people waiting. And I saw a vision of something scary but it is fine but what does it all mean. The scary thing is that it probably does match what the conspiracy has done to trick actual Satan. Thst is scary and somewhere along the way people figured out that it wasn’t a game. What happened in my family and life, it was serious.

So anyway kind of comical. Funny how the association of this diner was so light and now I see it and it is really funny. I can’t say more about it because people could feel like they need to come find me.

So anyway that is all. I posted that meme and boosted it but I felt grief because it wasn’t how I intended it with the numbers and audience and I felt like it could disturb my sister’s beach vacation so I unposted it. But I think it was because of a bad feeling from the spiritual powers that happen because of boosting the videos. 

That is interesting. I think the idea is that it makes you have to pray so millions get prayed for.

Ok have a good day

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just woke up and had interesting dreams. Then I called my mom but have not heard back yet but hopefully she is doing fine. She does not keep her phone next to her and I told her she needs to but I think it is probably okay. A caregiver is coming to be with her at about one oclock.

I am microwaving some coffee.  I might go walk and get some milk but I could wait until tomorrow. I am getting harrassed more in the streets and yesterday I had to call 911 for something and the guy came after me and I said okay I won't call but 911 was still on the phone so when he went to go keep hurting that other person then I finished the call and the security people handled it.

But anyway about four people got in my way on purpose on that post office trip.  But it wasn't that weird but I will be calling cops more often I think. A guy flashed a knife in my support group and I think that was meant towards me but I am not that worried. I just know I am entering a new time where I am not safe.  But I really feel that I do not die until I am 53. And we should all be interested to see what happens.

Probably at about 3 pm I will go to starbucks or something. I mean I do not know if stuff is still happening that is important but I feel like I mostly just completed some stuff.  I think today I should make some videos. But I do not know when I will boost stuff because I need to wait until my new card gets here.

Wow I can't believe it, the books and the new card. That is exactly what I needed. I don't know who all will get the books but I will keep contacting friends because some facebookers did not get one.  Also the indigo girls but they are on tour. And EB.

I think I am okay with my third essay. And I think that Shemaiah will read it if I want her to but I don't think I need that. I think instead she is offering for me to have a good time and actually do the prompt.

So maybe Monday I will work on that in my creative writing group. I am blessed and God takes care of me and my family. It bothered me when Anne sounded mad when I said I supported her going to the beach. But I thought she might like to know that was my opinion.