Hello everyone, 

This is Refried. It is 10:00 Wednesday. Today I went to a comedy open mic. I weirdly became not scared about it and then found it to be even less scary than that.

So I will be back and try some new stuff. I liked the other people and hope to see them again sometime. I think they saw my name on the sign up sheet and found me online before the show.

I found them to be really funny. One girl did a lot of pigeon jokes. Well I happen to also have a pigeon joke.

I found it to actually be too much of a workshop and to consider myself a real comedian I am going to need some normal audiences. I mean I loved it so much that it won’t count. So maybe I will try to get good enough to open for a class show sometime. Or something like that, but my memory is an issue. But the comedians see me as one of them but they also know I am a washed up oldie.

They were nice to me today but my paranoia made me think they were all making fun of me. Like a roast.

I mean pretty funny. I guess the classes I took were maybe at a more intense level than I realized. And yet I did feel it, the fear, but you do better if you feel like laughs are at stake and you could bomb. But the crowd today was silent and it was friendly and did not bother me at all.

I will try to write some jokes and be really funny. I hope they have enough people every time.

I will try not to overdo it and go every time but I could see myself doing this more than once a week.

Anyway then I went to support group and it is not easy, people suffer every time. I did not do well for encouragement but I think I was space-y from the day.

 Pals, it's me. I am okay with those videos. My skin is messed up but for some reason I have felt okay with the recent videos.

But I am not sure about this F word video.  Was that the right conclusion. I mean I don't know.

Because that F U topic was going to be my speech for toastmasters. I was going to tell the story about the mickey mouse shirt and then end the speech by saying that.

But now I used the idea so I can't tell the story with the finale in the same genuine way.

So I just might have messed up but that was what came to mind when I peacefully thought of what to do next for the question show.

Anyway I mean I will think about it. I think one issue is that it is not going to share that widely among my friends.  But did I disrespect someone who was obviously on my side.  My neighbors. Particularly the one who might have stood up to my mom in some way. But she might have tortured us too.  So I do not know.

So I will talk to my therapist.  I think the idea that it can't be undone is not true.  Because think about how I have been cursing now for a couple of years.  So I already made that choice. But I feel it might be a sign of ungratefulness for my prophecy gift.  And maybe that was why God discontinued me from the main power for it is because he knew I was going to start cursing. 

But I don't know.  But anyway I saw a vision last night which was a tree branch upside down with no leaves, as if it was a lightning strike.  Isn't that crazy? I think it means my family, including ravneet and everyone else, is like God's vengeance on my enemies.  Gice the T key jsut suddenly is fixed now on my keyboard.  So that is good. Wow that was getting on my nerves to have to hit the key extra hard when I had to write a T.

So anyway, I am going to post the bible verse on the page, because why not. It doesn't really matter.

Do you think that was bad of me to say the Oprah thing. Well I do not know. I jsut felt like going ahead and sharing the page twice was not a bad option.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried.

I just ent to an autism event online and feel so much better than I did earlier. I feel grounded and back to normal even though I do need some extra sleep. 

I should do laundry soon too.

Gice I have it pretty good in my life when people are not committing crimes against me.

I tried putting those new videos in the trash but then restored them.

I think it is mostly okay

I don’t know if I did bad or good

There is still one more topic

But really I could do an I finite amount of those videos

It kind of reminds me of how I felt when I started my blog

It is kind of a risk but I don’t think the first Pres people will watch it

I mean was that scheduled

I do not know

anyway I will watch those videos and think about whether they should stay on the page

But I think it is like usual where it mostly doesn’t matter unless I boost it.

pretty cool that some people found the page and clicked like

 the other factor is mental health. But the harassers seem to want me to call the police erroneously and then call that an attempt on their life. I don’t think we are there yet as a socialist hell hole but definitely who is the problem in that scenario? The criminal. So don’t harass me. 

 So what the lawyers are saying is that the apartment is a significant part of the problem.  But there is a question about a possible difference between a racist network and covering for people later on the basis of race.  Also, when taking sides, is it because they think you are racist, or because they think the harassers are not racist, or are innocent, which could also be two different things.

I have to say that I don't think it is that complicated, and I also don't think it matters if it happens on bridge  property or not. It is simply harassment, I don't know the people, it is obviously organized, even if it is hive behavior, and it is in very close proximity to me personally as I walk to go anywhere. Definitely the escalation would suggest a further threat, but I do not believe you have to prove danger. You can prove annoyance on purpose and that is something. And then the fact that that is the only reason they are there. They have no other errand.

And then the bridge is saying that their elevator repair notice serves as an eviction notice because of my predicted logic about the license factor.

But to me, it is a sign in another language that means, "We do not respect you whatsoever and you are welcome to tell the public anything because it is worth it to have you as our community pinata. In fact, that makes it more fun because that is also our audience.

 The NYU lawyer says he believes they were unfairly denigrated. Well I did an evaluation for Kirkus, and I did an evaluation for what Kirkus pretended to imitate.

I need to give Drena a different credit card number.

But I took my medicine so I feel tired.

I will take a walk later hopefully. It doesn’t seem that flooded outside.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Sunday, July 5. It is about 10:15 pm. I started a new facebook page to post about harassment when it happens. It was because of some harassment today. I think there were too many people involved at too many places. 

Tomorrow I am hoping to go downtown and walk. I think I will be targeted a lot on the train and elsewhere. But I have to see it as just good material.

I am making some coffee right now.

I thankfully got a sandwich from 7-11. But I let Manny down but that was because of the harassment that happened. I think it was from non bridge people.

Delores was really nice to me. And Tonoya. I mean is that what it is about? Learning names?

So anyway there is an issue which is no book sales. But I think the idea is there might be secret sales.

Gice what do you think about the demon thing. i think it is not that big of a deal.  But I wish I had not missed Mensa tonight.

But anyway, I will add videos and all kinds of stuff to that page. Will I boost any posts, maybe. Probably only when I really need a feeling of justice.

So two walks today. 4 miles. The "T" key on my computer is messed up and I have to hit it really hard when I type.

I think I should have phoned more friends during this weird four days but maybe this week.

Ok I need to do copyright lists, too.