Gice I had a nice Tuesday. I think I saw a missing person today. I don't mean person like person I mean a missing person. Then I went to dunking donuts. Then I did the best I could all day. Then I went to two great meetings. People have done a lot for me and helped me recover from stuff.

What should I do about my finger. I think I should call Dr. Parik soon. But tomorrow is probably grocery day.  Soon I will finish lunch. Then what. Hmm I do not know. I think I made the right people mad with the post.  And it doesn't matter that much.

I can take my medicine at 3 am. At midnight I need to do a finger treatment.  This is day 6. So one more day and it should have been gone by now.  So what does it all mean. I do not know.

I need to pick up that medicine from Dr. Zhao. But insurance might be mad but they need to understand that I have had a rough month and it is not a joke and some people might have gone to the hospital. I mean like overnight for a week or two.

I feel better now and ignored the results of the meme. I posted it for a reason and people can question it.

I think actually the joke will be stolen and someone else will take it further to apply to all big tech.

It's not really as joke as much as a witticism.

So anyway I know it is not that big of a deal but it was a challenge for me.

I think it is time to do a comedy routine. Should I do an open mic tomorrow? Maybe I will.  But what about my hand. Hmm I do not know.

 Ok everyone I am going to try not to view the ad. Possibly some trolls read this blog now.

I think I might go to that humor writer thing.

I mean it is not expensive.

I got some good prayers done.

Maybe bad to say that but sometimes I really don’t get the good prayers done. Like sometimes I really don’t feel it so I am saying that we did get some good stuff just now.

So I will soon rest again and ignore facebook.

A lot of people reached out with support. Thanks everyone.

Gice I might see if Dr Parik will take another look at the questionable issue on my finger. I am not walking to Walgreens yet because there might be a storm. I think tomorrow will be a grocery day.

 Gice I think save the money.  The results are not showing on my page.I kind of like that only the viewers can see it because that is like a reward for them.  But I think maybe I can save a hundred dollars on this so maybe do the videos.  I need to make some more videos. And maybe art memes.  I just feel like what did I actually make, it was these memes.  So maybe don't waste them.  And it could be one troll who is doing those angry faces.  And it is only ten angrier out of 600 views, and there were about 60 likes.

I mean that is not bad but I just think maybe save the money. Am I wrong? 

Just now I was ready to resume the ad but I concluded to save the money.  So I guess I will. But honestly this might go on until the schedule is done.

As for other things going on.  Is my finger better yet. I still see traces of it.  That is not good. I will call Dr. Parik after the whole regimen is done.

Soon I will eat lunch. It will be yummy.  I just think I need a sauce.  Mayo and barbecue, mustard and honey.  That will be a great sauce.

Ravneet talked to me earlier and helped me feel better. Thanks Ravneet.

Pals, this was an adventure, wasn't it?  I mean for some people it is so simple, like you don't say certain things.  But for some people, it is not that simple, and I am one of those people.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Tuesday, August 11 at 2:17 pm.  I just went to Dunkin Donuts and Grab and Go.  I got some good food but I have to make a sauce. I am out of honey so what will I use, maybe some sugar in the sauce. It will be fine.

So anyway I checked the names and I think I made the right people mad.  It is mostly Elon Musk cronies.  But they are trying to add angry faces in bulk so I need to block some of them.  And it is fake profiles.

I think I will do one more resume ad and not revisit it no matter what, like not even check in on that.  Maybe I am wrong to not monitor it.  But I think I am chickening out too easily when I get an angry face.  And Facebook is not showing all the likes.

I mean I think I am compromising some of the meaning by thinking about it too much and yet this is how it really is going for me. Like I really do believe in it, I know other people will get it, I know some people won't, and I know that it got a mostly positive reaction so far.

I also think some white supremacists might be following this blog so they are hitting the angry face on purpose and I need to block them.

I mean it is kind of disturbing.  But anyway I need to eat some food soon. I mean maybe no sauce for some reason. I just wish they would make that creamed corn.

Does anyone have any thoughts? I think I should resume ad.  I think facebook will be patient.

 Pals. I got some support that is a great honor. it really helped me and is kind of sweet like a good memory with some of my socializing. 

I think I will still get hit with some opposition but some people don’t know what I know about other offenses.

And what is to be said about a trillionaire who takes away people’s food stamps. There is one thing to be said. And I will say it. And it is still cloaked in wit and literary value.

Facebook also supports me. So I will try to last a while longer. This is kind of like one of those bull riding machines like how long can you take it. Some people think they are brave on facebook when really that is the trend. This is more about judgement than bravery but it is still hard.

But it is hard in a certain way and not in other ways. 

Well, that is all. Thanks for being my friends everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Tuesday, August 11. I am going to try to take a walk soon. It is good weather for it. I think I will get some food from that grab and go if I am able to.

I got good sleep and took my medicine. Two days ago I accidentally forgot psych meds.  But I am okay. I had an interesting dream about mascotting, children's book writer, and thrift store. 

I feel mostly normal about the meme. It is not that big of a deal. I mean I kind of wish I could have been stronger and already gone through with it but I did tolerate it for a while. I mean if you have to tolerate it, that is a sign, and yet I think it was very successful. So maybe later I will do one more day.

Anyway, not much is different from yesterday. I just need to go take a walk. I mean even that doesn't need that much urgency except now is the time for it so do it and get something to eat.

I paid my copyright bill so three books are going to be registered.  And then maybe in November I will do 5 more.  And then the next three and that is the main 11. I feel good about these three and think it worked out how it was meant to be. It still takes time and is not done until the process is complete.  But it is in someone else's hands now which is unusual for me.

So okay, that is all. I will try to leave about noon.  How is the finger. I still see hints of pink but it is mostly okay but I think in two days I will report back to Dr. Parik.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Ok everyone, I found the post. The likes are not always visible to me.  It actually got a lot of likes for something so severely taboo.  So people get it. They agree with me. They understand the intent. 

So I have a feeling I will resume the ad. I just feel like I had a spell and felt like I had made a dreadful mistake or something, but I know I have not made a mistake in creating the meme and posting it. 

I think sharing is okay too, and it just depends on how it goes and if I can take it.  And this is a reminder to be thankful for prior days.  I mean it has gone well. 

One regret is I wish I had followed more people in India who wanted me to follow them. 

Sorry about that. I mean who knows, maybe it is wiser to not overdo it. 

So okay. I believe I will recover from that mood drop and continue with the ad.

I just feel like it should see the light of day and get sent around to some extent. And think about how many jokes I have not sent around, like that scalpel meme.

Maybe that is what some people have to say to me about this one.

But don't you guys see how this has to do with stuff happening right now and these are the memes of choice? Well hmm we will see how it goes. I think I might always win and lose some people as a writer.

And yet isn't my stuff mostly kind of friendly? I mean is that what some people always saw? Was how zappy some stuff could seem to some people?

Well it is for teens.  I am getting on people's nerves now, aren't I? Hesitating, overthinking, etc.

Like it is not that big of a deal. I just feel like some of those angry faces are not from ignorant right wingers who are sticking up for the trillionaire.  And I take those other concerns kind of seriously.