Hello everyone, I thought of a graphic to do on chatgpt. It is very inappropriate but for some reason I feel differently about this than the other thing recently. It makes me wonder if I should be more accepting of the other thing.

But anyway I thought of another thing to say. About vengeance is mine sayeth the lord.  You know how there are those cherubim and seraphim chanting holy holy holy is the lord God almighty who was and is and is to come, and they chant it 24-7 or something like that?  Well how do you know there are not angels chanting something about what a piece of crap your enemy is in a similar way. 

So bad to say, and yet I feel that catapults me into being a theologian. I mean truly that is an interesting pondering and there really might be something to it. I won't personalize it in this post but I believe I will be revisiting this topic.

Hello everyone, this is Refried. I think the Bridge and the cops might be escalating me again but I don’t know. I possibly should email Elizabeth Hanson. I don’t really know what to do about it. I might call 311 just with a general complaint about the racism. But I can’t take Latuda anymore and told Dr Talreja I wasn’t. And he did not increase the risperdal. 

I also think using neighbors who have been jiggling my door handle and trying to get in my room at night is pretty bad practice. I mean this was a rough weekend and what was it? I was just attending a conference online but had bad interactions with two fireman and three cops. So now I am like ok I can’t go to Starbucks anymore, and should I go to Greenville and skip the comedy show, and once again have to think about other housing solutions. Every god damn year from these pieces of crap. The problem is supposed to already be solved but they make it not solved. God damn them. 

I think I will call Dilarom Monday. I think possibly they are targeting me this weekend to make me miss the doctors appointment with the new doctor so then I wouldn’t have a doctor. Already I can’t call 911 because of the racism. I think that is what I will report to 311.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday. Oct 16 at 8:09. I went to an excellent autism meeting earlier and I might step up and lead a mens group. I think that is what they are trying to get me to do but I am sad because I loved Peter and thought he did awesome. I forgot to thank him in a book but I will try to thank him in the next one.

Earlier today I went to an awesome presentation and I just love those people and felt some book world community. I feel that some of my resentments are being repaired and I am thankful. It is painful to have grudges and mad feelings. 

I have another presentation scheduled tomorrow and it is the same person and I am sorry but I just feel that I will still attend even though it seems weirdly obsessive, it is not. I mean the thing is that 
I remember this person's blog 15 years ago when I was about to query in a normal way.  And then there it was again later on, and then the person spoke at a conference and cares about all the populations that overlap with me and my book path.  And this person also I think has done something similar where they saw all the ups and downs of trends and then did their own thing. And I do respect that a lot. So way to go JF. A true bookstore pal.

You know who I thought of today is John Hensley. He was a good store manager. Remember when he had me do that map? Pretty funny. I think he will produce it as evidence when we are all reunited in court.

That is funny because I told the lawyers that as fun as a reunion would be, I felt it was not a game.

So anyway, I made a corn dip today and had a good day. Inspection was postponed until tomorrow. Hmm I should do a little work on the apartment later tonight. I did not feel tortured today and I think that they are doing the segregation thing which I don't believe in, but I also don't think it necessarily rises to abuse levels unless it does.  Do you know what I mean? I think steering people towards their own identity is not by itself torture. But if you use torture to do that social engineering, then yeah, you did torture me.  

So anyway, I mean who knows.  Possibly a lot of this is about boredom.  Like how I did get hit with boredom and prayed and then had a lot of love and meaning and jokes.

Well, that is all.  Luanne is reading a thin book. I hope I did not give her too much of a chunk to read.

Thanks Luanne!!!

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday Oct. 15. I repeated the word "creative" too much in that email, didn't I? Well I think it is just a writing quirk.  Also the word "honestly" in yesterday's email.  But I think it is all okay.

I decided to tell the Starbucks manager named Donna that I think it was her in my dream who was the school boss that accepted the food and did not let it be rejected. I just think it was a cool supernatural dream and she deserved to know that at least at some point, that person was either her or reminded me of her in some way. Everyone wants a supernatural nod.  Remember that Daniella got a dream like that once.

I have been thinking about emailing Bo Karen Lee. To tell her some random interesting things.

Soon I am going to a group online. Then after that I guess I need to clean my apartment but I have to take medicine soon and I think I got myself into a jam.

But it is okay. It has cooled off in here and I am okay.

Gice I think the dream was good for the army too. I don't think it was just about the food being okay. The theme was absolute victory, we will not be mcgillicuttied and it was good news. Like not just people saying we won't be mcgillicuttied but that the chocolates with the groundhog stickers on them will be accepted. The chicken dishes were good and not be wasted and I will not be considered a faulty teacher.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, Oct 15. I thought today was the 16th. My room is too hot again but I am psychologically okay. People choose to not earn respect sometimes and will have to live with that.

I will eat some ice cream or something later to cool off.  But it is bothersome and it is hot outside. The air conditioning should be on. I believe they would lose a lawsuit but hopefully I can keep housing here for three more years.

I need to talk to my mom about the copyrights etc. But I think I am okay for now with the normal deposit.

It is too hot in my room.  This is two weeks now, as usual. My comedy teacher was able to guess what the thing is that I am keeping to myself.  I still do think I will not say it.

I think I will be requesting another rent discount.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 12:07. Soon I am going to an online presentation. It is the second one this week about platform.  I think it is a webinar but I possibly should be prepared to participate.

I had such an amazing dream this morning about bringing food to an event and then it turned out to be an army meeting and my food was really appreciated and I told people we could also melt chocolate into molds and put packaging that had groundhog stickers and I had this feeling like we would not be mcgillicuttied and then it was this feeling of total victory, like the food could not be rejected and we could cook it or order it and the boss made it unrefusable.  Isn't that so interesting? It was neat and I wonder if people prayed for me because of my problems and that is why I had cool dreams this week.

It is warm in my room right now but I think the air is on and I have a fan.

I emailed the Lieber Clinic about some stuff and it was fun and happy. I miss Emily though and do not know where she is but she is my friend and one of the people who saved my life and it was so fun, such great memories, I mean why did I feel so bad, it was so awful, but they helped me a lot.

Today is a self publishing conference and I hope I can attend well enough. I do want to participate with those people and I will try to put a word in for my lawyers.

My lawyer gave me a secret message to make sure I clean my apartment for inspection this week, according to whatever official agreement there is.  But there can be such thing as bad agreements.

So anyway, that is interesting.  I really love all the lawyers and discovered today that there is some kind of lawyer following for my most questionable facebook posts.

So that is kind of interesting and funny.

Well, have a good day, everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I got home at 11 pm today. I went to comedy class and it was easy and fun.  The apple cider from Le Pain Quotidian was the best I have ever had. I was not expecting that. Their lemonade is not sweet enough. 

The air conditioning situation is probably over and I hope I do not lose housing for reporting it.  But I think that when I feel the emotional abuse especially, I should say something.

The stuff I posted on facebook could lose some people but I think it was the right thing to do and possibly very overdue in terms of addressing the weird coordination of people who turn on me. 

I mean maybe it is just a game or campaign but I feel genuinely hurt by it.

So anyway today I emailed someone with an idea, so if you are visiting this page, I hope you are well and please excuse the drama that is listed for a few posts.  I think some of it is journalism material provided by some of the sub conspiracies.

So anyway I like my comedy class. It was a small crowd tonight. But we had a great time and the route home was good and I got a slushie from 7-11. 

But I started not feeling good on the train and still don't feel great and I think it is the low iron. I only really missed one dose. Is it something else. Like digestion unease from going too long without food and then eating fast or something. I mean I do not know. Is it the coffee schedule is off.

Well I do not know. Tomorrow is the self publishing conference and I hope it goes great.

Have a good day everyone.