awesome present, a personalized coffee cup, thanks housing friends!

 

  Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Tuesday, December 23. I just went downstairs at housing and got some yummy food. I am thankful for it and for the nice staff. I hope we have a good year here.

I got an email about a peer training but I do not know if I will participate. It has a big in person section during the spring and summer and I don't know if I can do that.

I am still eating the food a little bit. I am scared of the grapes in case it gives me a food intolerance. But I think I will try some anyway. Ok I just did and they were so yummy. It could give me a stomachache but hopefully it will be okay.

Do I need to go to the store today? I think there is nothing at the post office yet.

Wow, this food is good. I think I will feel okay for this time.

Last night I had trouble going to sleep.  But I slept well and woke up feeling good.

Housing gave me a new blanket and I am happy about it.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Ok everyone, this is Refried.

I just went downtown and got my rent check and paid rent.  I also picked up some food as an incentive.

I think my nieces are getting a new years present from me instead of christmas.

Therapy was great today with Larissa. She made me feel so much better and I believe it will last the week.

My book was accepted for publication and I am happy with it. It is one of the best of the third thin book series.

No sign of Medicaid paperwork.

I thought the nieces present would be there today but I think that will be Wednesday.

Soon I will send marah a new years present as well.

My facebook ads did well but people might be sick of them but I believe future similar shares will sell books.

So that is good. That feels different than other times.

Well now I will eat some food.

 Ok everyone, I did my personal inventory for the year. I might be missing some stuff but the list is below.  I think what I am noticing is that I need to continue giving books away and budget some for that instead of only facebook.  But the memes for India were an awesome opportunity but I need to keep the books distributed as well. I might enter addresses directly to amazon for a while. Well here it is, thanks to everyone who helped in any way:

Inventory for the year

Paid off credit cards for jokes page 30 million views, India reached with Christian humor

Maintained three new pages and reached 50 million views, felt love and HS, low budget

One trip to Greenville, attended mental health program despite abuse, finally quit

Maintained weight at 200, failed at exercise

One comedy class and show, successful

Attended nami groups, scaled back

Phone a friend expansion, 10-15 friends, some losses

PHP program successful

Maintained personal facebook page and shared poems and book links

Gave 150 books

Passed inspection 50 times

Stayed alive and did not have gallbladder surgery

Prayed for people

Published three ai books, one novel, one Bronx combo book

Spouse with ravneet

Found new groups with mensa, scbwi, middlechurch, etc.

 Hello everyone, I just put some things at risk, but I believe people will work with me and do the right thing.  If I messed up, I think people will say, party's over for just this one thing. I do not think they will take away everything because of one mistake. 

But I think it is not a mistake. I think it is some really good therapy work that people can learn from. 

Today one of my churches really surprised me with a message that was such a blessing and some of the best material that I have hope in. And they prayed for all of us to have courage.

I was going to ask a philanthropy place to donate to my church and I never sent the email and I possibly did not do right. I was going to ask on behalf of both my churches but maybe next year.

Well, that is all. I think now I will go walk to 7-11 and buy a bag of ice as a treat for myself to drink with cokes during christmas. What else, no calzone, because I ordered a pizza yesterday.

Gice are my facebook friends mad at me, I do not know, but it is okay, I understand, my ads are a bit much. Thanks everyone who read my blog this year.

 Hello everyone, today is Sunday, Dec 21. I think my facebook friends might be tired of my ads, but I felt that I had a good ad opportunity with some rhymes. I did get about a thousand visits to my poems blog, and I am happy about that, but most of the readers are from India. I think they are good readers and I am thankful. However it is weird that I just never reached America.

I think some clicks from America that would have gone to the rhymes page actually went to the book sale page. But it would be few sales, but I actually think I probably got a hundred visits to the amazon page. I mean at this point a lot of people know the thing I did. It is weird how there wasn't a path of success for ten years despite all that work. I mean I guess twelve years or even 14.

But there was a path of success with content and creation so maybe that is the idea is that it lasts after I am gone and I have to play a role of rejected prophet while I am here. It is kind of creative and I did see it ahead of time but I kind of feel that it hurts my motivation and impact for people who did need it in this time.  Is that the gag is that our society is not peaceful? I think people are hurt from that and it is not a good game.

I sent a meme to my friend Johnny who I have a weird history with and I did not hear back. I think he might be worried that I have the wrong idea but of course I don't. But the weird thing is that I felt he started the conspiracy and now it seems like he knows nothing about it. I mean that is weird. 

And I just did all those emails of people who were in the conspiracy.  Ok some people are saying what about Rita for an email in the book. It's not a sampler based on total highlights. It is a selection as I scrolled through the sent box, not the inbox. I am not putting a bunch of other people's emails. I could get in trouble that way. That is why I was saying I did care and was careful about that kind of stuff.

Gice I love this new book, it is one of my favorite books. I am worried that it won't get accepted but I did first names only. Does anyone have any opinions about it. Well I do not know.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Saturday, Dec 20. Happy Birthday, Jeremy Holly and Susan Kelly. I woke up late today after a dream about my old school and I critiqued this lady's book and nailed it. That is weird because my academic abilities have declined and I don't know if I can really give people a good book review now.

I just now finally drank coffee because I was distracted by two things this afternoon, which was a Mensa meeting, and a walk to the drug store to buy shampoo. Well Walgreens has their brand unlocked so people buy their brand instead of all the other brands which have to be locked so as to not be stolen.  Honestly, I don't have time to do anything about that injustice except blog about it, and Walgreens is the one facing all the thieves, so I just buy their shampoo instead and get over it.

Tonight I ordered a pizza and there was a similar lying cheating stealing, which was that the pizza place did not allow me to enter my apartment number in the address. And the form recognized my address from last time and deliberately took the number off so I would have to come outside and get the pizza and they would not have to bring it to my door. Well that is cheating lying stealing and I don't appreciate it. I always go outside anyway but it put me in a bad mood, and they changed the name of my city to my neighborhood, which I also find dishonest.  It makes my address inaccurate in a public context. I just don't need that. Who do they think they are to just change your address for their purposes.

So anyway, here we are, after some of the best pizza I have ever eaten, and now drinking coffee, and this is a good night to pray for enemies.  Because I am in a good mood now because of the pizza, but I got wronged today in ways that could put a whole society of thieves on my mind.

Anyway, the other thing is facebook, who sent my ad only to india but allowed me to choose india and usa on the payment. But I got over it and did another ad for usa.  The numbers are so low on usa but I am just thankful for what I have.  600 people from India read my poems, and I hope they liked them.  The poems are only okay, but there are about five of them, so people can like what they want. I think about a hundred usa people have read the poems, but you know what? They might have clicked the other link for the 5 dollar poetry book.  So maybe that works out okay.

This year I need to think about revisiting the book sales and doing more ads for books, more mailings, and less meme budget.  I hope my girlfriend was okay and did not miss any secret income.  But I do not know what happened.  To me it seems like zero sales.  But when I wrote a blog post complaining, some people did not like that. Well I am glad to know they felt that way, but I question if their work should have been wasted, too. I mean don't my facebook friends want to be part of success and not swindle? Well I do not know.  Anyway, this is a long blog post. These ads will last three days. One ad is for four days. 

Tomorrow I might go to church. The pastor video did make me feel better.  Ok that is all for now.