Here is a good sermon, everyone, about leviticus. I mean this is it.  The atonement.  

And I think Mandy did awesome, way to go, Mandy. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1oLE2d51Qc

And I think this is the one I liked by Steven about the bible:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Arzi98kNSeo&t=7s

That is all for now. This is a good church. I like their teaching. I think they are wrong about not seeing gayness correctly but they will probably come around and do not need to be harassed.

 Hello everyone, I feel a little bit better. I am about to drink some coffee. Then soon I will take my medicine and go to sleep. My internet speed has run out so now I might have trouble downloading the video.  But I think it is different from normal so maybe it won't be as bad. But what about toastmasters. I think I can upload the comedy routine. I can email Glen and Amar.  They are my friends and it is fun. 

I think the conspiracy is back in action.  I guess it was entrusted to new york people for a while. 

But didn't the facebookers do secret messages? I mean I guess we do not know.

Gice.  I wish I had internet speed but I used it up foolishly listening to music.

It is just that I was going to do the canva thing but now I can't because of internet.

It will be okay. It has not been an easy fall season or summer so now you have to see it as a whole year and what were the factors.  Karla, starting in march. This is the new northern segregation. only possible through severe emotional abuse. I sent a tip to the New York Post about it.  Did you gice know that?

Pals, here is a new photo. I like the lighting of it. They did that for the promo, too. It is a cool cursive thing. And a pink curtain.  Really cool. I think my appearance will be oaky for the video but definitely some facial expressions were off for the photos but to me this one is good.

Just kind of weird to have that random issue on my page but I guess it is okay. I guess some of the family stuff is on purpose. So it makes the BN people think they have a case.

I think it is weird that the whole Bronx is doing the re-enactment, but I kind of get it. Like people want the prayers.  So it is a big community project and different people are told different stuff to benefit from it.

Gice my friend Katie probably would have wanted to come to the show but I did not tell anyone in time except a last minute message to Suzan.

I just couldn't because of the abuse. So I guess that is part of the point.  Is how it affects other people and who is targeted on purpose.

 

 Hello everyone, is it about 1:39 am. I had two slight twitches and felt better so I think the tired feeling is from the seizure disorder. It could have been worse but it is not all gone yet. 

I can't tell if my niece liked that gluten free thing but I think it is a pretty cute joke. Also I did have positive interactions with the nieces after halloween and I think they are doing okay. So maybe it is a bridge thing like how it is positive followed up by a shut down.

Anyway that was weird how I started to not feel as good but it is okay. I think if I start falling asleep then I will feel a light jolt and feel better.

So okay two appointments tomorrow plus toastmasters speech. 

It is kind of weird how I got busy for a few days. Maybe this is to catch the anti-disability people.  Maybe that is what Elise is alluding to is exxageration.

I mean that is interesting. How the joke could have multiple meanings.

I have some low iron symptoms but I took an iron pill this morning.  So maybe take one tomorrow too. 

I set my alarm. That is what I was procrastinating.  

My church gave me a reward for not calling karla a name.  So that is good. 

I think I will listen to music for a while and then take my medicine at 4 am.

 Gice I'm getting tired.

Tomorrow is a good day hopefully.

Still more party food tonight.

Maybe some music.

I am so tired now.

Well have a great day.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. My comedy show went great. It was just awesome. I think I added too much to some wording on the most important jokes but they still went well and the crowd loved me.

I mean it didn't even seem like a conspiracy. They really liked me and everyone was at intermediate level.

So congrats, everyone, that was awesome.  I am thankful that I could still remember enough. It is kind of weird that last time didn't go as well even though I obsessed over it for three weeks. I mean maybe that was the point.

But anyway I am glad I did that. It was rough going to those classes when the train wasn't working all those weeks.  And then I missed Elizabeth's event. 

But I think it is okay and I did the best I could. I also went to my critique group for children's books and it was great. 

It is weird that I don't read that genre more because I do like it.

So anyway I have a lot of party food.  Chips and dip, pumpkin dip, hummus, and cheese dip. I need to take a photo of that dip and send my sister because that was our thing whenever we had a mom and dad are gone party.  Pretty funny.

Ok that is the secret message from the therapy conspiracy.  That Ravneet is now my person and some of the nightmare is over.

A lot of people got hit hard with the pain and losses.

So anyway I also have hope for the country and think things will get better.

 I just am a little overmedicated to be doing this show. Possibly I should have skipped the latuda but it will be okay. I think the idea was to make me less aware of people reading my mind and do better on stage. 

I just can't do that much better and I think my career is almost over as soon as it starts. It is kind of funny because that was one of my jokes a long time ago.

So okay, it is 10:30. At 11 I will try to leave here.

The book stuff is all going well but I am going to be late for my meeting later. I should email them a document with a chapter.

Pals the feeling of being out of it is constant.  It is mostl the medicine but also low iron and the general medical condition and trauma feelings from this fall.  The fan, the warm apartment, inspection and then no inspection, the SCBWI conference but I can't pay yet, the copyrights, I mean it is a mess but mostly it is a happy life and I am thankful but at the same time I have to be on stage in a few hours and am out of it.

But I feel kind of ready with my routine.  It is just that why did Ben have to be negative about some of the jokes when they were probably okay. I think he was trying to help me be at an intermediate level.

Anyway I hope it goes well. The medicine will hopefully wear off some. I mean it has been nine hours.  so that is good. And I had some caffeine.

I mean what if I didn't leave until 11:30.  Well I think that is not smart because of the train risk.

Does anyone have any thoughts?