Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 3 pm. I just attended an online write-in meeting and it was really fun and nice. I think they are going to help me with an e-book issue. I mean I made my choice to stop publishing e-books but will try to get that done sometime. 

Maybe that is something I can work on instead of churning out too much random stuff.

I feel better. I felt better after therapy and this meeting helped, too. I just felt really tired this morning and haven't slept well in two days. And I have taken a lot of medicine lately so that could also be it.  Later I will go to comedy class. I kind of want a piece of pizza so maybe soon I will go do that and stop by the post office and then go to comedy.

I didn't improve my comedy routine but I think it is almost ready.

I should try to memorize some of it.

My smashwords page is okay. It seems a bit too religious but that is okay. I mean why not. Sometimes people only visit a page so that is their impression, it is not that bad.

I ate some baloney and cheese. But I really would like a piece of cheese pizza. So maybe at 4 pm I will go to Westchester Square. I guess I am doing okay.

Today at therapy I talked to Drena about some recent questionable judgement and asked her what she thought about the medicine factor. She feels that it is a chicken and the egg scenario where the escalation is an obvious factor but happens in relation to the medicine sometimes.  But I think they torture me with both the medicine and escalation because I am a trophy privilege hostage in the Bronx.

 Gice that song was so good today at westchester square. Wow amazing. I am listening to a sermon from Amanda right now. Monique and Sandra were really there for me today so I think I will thank them.

Amanda just said something funny and is going to write her memoirs. You’re going to do great, Amanda.

Tonight I felt more sightings, kind of faint but I think it has to do with people I gave the books to.

I just think the books are working out in a way that is supernatural and it isn’t going to be wasted. There have been some mistakes and foibles but I am happy for these supernatural signs and for it to be very inclusive. And a variety. 

And when I was talking to Drena about it there was another one that was different. That was really cool.

I talk to Drena again tomorrow at noon.

Now it is 11:39.

I need to send Monique and Sandra a message.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. Slowly some of the housing problems are fading for now until tomorrow. It is 2:11 am.  I took my medicine at about 9 pm. So that is three days without missing it, maybe even four but I think it was like 3 1 3. 

So anyway some people are coming to my apartment tomorrow from Jacobi hospital at 1 pm.  I think they will see for themselves how it is too hot in my room.

I think there might end up being a legal case about this. Maybe for 130k.  I think I will easily win. I guess one issue is whether it is criminal or not.  Or whether I should also sue the other mental health places.

Well I do not know. I do not want to sue but if I lose housing I will, just because of what they have cost me in terms of health and hobby, friends and reputation, and most of all advocacy for staying alive.

Possibly my friends and family should also sue. I mean maybe it will be a family lawsuit from me and my sister and her family or something. I think my mom won't want to do a lawsuit.

As for facebook, I had to pause some ads because of the threat of being hospitalized. And I tried to pause them earlier but it did not work.  So I do not know why. I might need to check those other continuals.

I think one of my friends offered condolences on an email. That was nice but don't give up on the book drop.  I believe I will not fail on that permanently.

Ok there might be a secret message. Ok it is saying to pack a bag for tomorrow.

I just am really tired right now and it is too hot in my room. I just can't stand it. This is how it has been for a month now.  I have autism and pay rent.

I have calmed down some though and don't feel an extreme psychiatric escalation.  Just an awareness of continued abuse that has lasted all year. And I will report it and say what I think about it. It is wrong.

I think I got hte wrong flavor of slurpee at 7-11 but I guess just live and learn.

But anyway I think the books are secure now. There is something funny from the book people. I mean wow they really helped me and it is supernatural from all of them.  So okay go in that direction.

I need to talk to Ravneet because I don't want her to be nervous about whatever the in person plan is.  Because frankly I would be and I think that is why they are doing this so I know that she knows what I went through but I do not want her to go through it and some people are like yes you do but I don't.

So anyway it is so hot in my room, I can't stand it.  Tomorrow the Jacobi people will witness it.

Some people had an interesting discussion on my facebook page. I kept it up for now, I mean why not.

I thought of another thing to say if there is a rebuttal.  To say some people judge all that problem of evil stuff but have they done that much for people, often not really.

So anyway, have a good day everyone.

 

Refried Bean <smefird@gmail.com>	3:25 PM (0 minutes ago)
to Elizabeth

Hi Elizabeth, 

My room has been uncomfortable for a month. I think I should get three months of free rent because of the problems this year which were caused on purpose.

I also think I am being escalated but I take my medicine. I told Dr. Talreja I could not take the Latuda and needed to instead increase the risperdal. I have enough extra risperdal to increase and am taking my medicine as directed. The hospital switched doctors and I was totally honest with them about all my medicine. They left the latuda listed in order to make it seem like I was dishonest if they had to. 

That is the kind of stuff people do for power in my mental health system.  It is dishonest and abusive.  Karla is part of it and The Bridge does it too. 

All I can do is report it which I will keep doing and some people do believe me.

I think I should not be charged rent if you guys show your power by closing the gate unsafely, shutting down the elevator for a month, taking away air conditioning for two months, threatening lockout with pest control, leaving me out of community meetings, telling me to prepare for inspection and then skipping the appointment to show disrespect, lying to my face, and emotionally provoking me in order to try to reach my readers with trashy racism and abuse.

That is all I will say for now. There is something conspicuously missing which is accountability and compensation.

from Refried Bean

 Hello everyone, I paid two credit card bills. I think there are about three more that I should urgently pay but most can wait until Oct 31. And then the train ticket. I mean that is not that easy but I can do it. It is just that those credit one accounts were a close call and I am not sure. I might have recurring charge that is a problem. Hmm should I fix that, I think I should.

Well hmm that was a challenge but I think I am mostly okay for now. 505050, 100100100100, 200, ok, I think I will be okay at the end of the month but I am forgetting the affirms and amazon card. They never sent me that Icee Bear jacket but I will email them after it is paid for.

It is okay if I wait until tomorrow to go to the post office. I made coffee and have one more serving of milk and then I need to buy milk. Will I do a grocery order, I do not know. Should I cook the ground beef. I just think I am tired right now and don't feel that good. Does anyone have any thoughts.

There is something kind of funny.

Ok let's think about these facebook posts. I think a weakness in the cereal post is that it says book and then that makes the cereal box seem like it could be a book for a second.  But possibly it is okay. I think mostly it is good that I had another one like that for America.  But I will send it to India too sometimes hopefully.

Pals.  My posts on my page. I think it is fine. Should I have said something that extreme about the gloves. Well I do not know but I have had a lot of questionables this year.

Anyway should I address a book and then go to starbucks. Well I do not know. I think the theme is no because of the credit card close call.

Pals.  The SCBWI conference.  Is it going to be in NYC. If it is then I will go though I might stay at my hotel instead of their hotel but I would stay for two days instead of one so I would not have a bag.

Ok it is going to be in NYC. Because there are publishing house tours. I do not think I will do that.

Gice. Some people disagree with my extremes but I do believe in force. And I think there has been limited wisdom about that so I do say it sometimes and sometimes it seems out of place or weird but I felt I need to share that with people who think they are above it when they aren't.  And their culture does other violence that they think doesn't count.

 Hello everyone, I just woke up and it is soon time to take my medicine. Will I go to the post office today, I do not know. I had a long series of dreams where I was at some kind of event at Byrnes as a former teacher and I kind of had a low status but I kind of beat them at whatever it was. Then I passed this other location that has been in my dreams before and I went to some kind of meeting at an organization and was asking if I should sue someone and they said yeah why not and then I passed a highway section of a lot of tulips about to bloom and then I was at some intersections in Greer and this couple tried to make me responsible for their kid and I saved it from falling into a pond and then I was behind this truck where people were on stationary bikes on the back of a truck that was going down the road and then I questioned some justice about something and then I woke up.  

Do I feel okay. Some possible low iron feelings but I took my medicine yesterday at about this time. So I am not even late with medicine yet.  I might have some coffee withdrawal but I do not know.

I just ate a fudgesicle. I need to check the financials.

Are people mad at me, well I do not know.

Ok the images I saw last night, some faint saints but one right in front of me who seemed kind of new york-ish, a nice brown haired brown eyed lady, maybe 60,  seemed to know about the apartment bullcrap but unlikely to be chanting slurs over the building.  So that is interesting. It doesn't mean there is no one doing that but possibly some socialites are assigned to everyone.

My room is too warm and will be like this all week.  This makes a month of it being uncomfortable. Usually it is two weeks. I knew it was too early that they were turning the air off.

 Ok everyone I added some music to my page. It is okay now. That is all I will do for a while. The blob post is cute. I will check on it and see how it is doing. 

I just remembered I have some ground beef that I need to cook.  I might do that soon. I mean like in an hour. 

Tomorrow I might mail a few jokes books or just one or two. Actually I thought of another person and then forgot. Oh I remember now. I will try to look up the address.

Ok will I change my mind about my extreme post. I do not think I will. I think I will take my stand about the shock gloves but I wonder where I was when it was tazers.

So anyway.  Halloween.  I might read some articles but I do not know.

I think also there is a secret message about something.  But I feel like it is a few days away.

But I do see the next step. But possibly they are saying I already did the next step.

Gice did I not do good on that comment. I was just kind of shocked and might have been too wordy.

But oh well, I do what I do and it is a humor page.

So okay. I will look for that address and then do the ground beef.