Pals, it is 4 am. I hope we don’t have a tornado here tomorrow. I think people should be more thankful for the rain instead of just saying we are going to have dirty rain. I mean that is just asking for a tornado.

I felt some more abdominal pain but it was an ache and gas, possibly from the usual gallbladder issues. However I am going to do some googling.

I thought of an idea which was to request the most racist nurses at the hospital. I think that is a trick from the Bible like what Jesus said to Judas.

I might drink some more coffee soon. My skin is not yellow so that is good. I mean one of these days that will be it.

Our building is really flimsy so if there is a tornado that might be it for me. Because I am not sure I will go to the laundry room downstairs.

I think I will throw away more trash tomorrow. I am glad it is going to rain.

I am glad the air is better. Wow I felt more healing powers when I told Beth about the healing powers. I think it is from Joy Robins’ prayers.

So that is neat.

I mean why were people mean to me on that memes page.

 Hello everyone, I had a weird scuffle with someone on the christian humor page, which usually has good posts. And there was a good post where someone made a meme with the bible verse that says not to cook a baby goat in its mothers milk.  and the meme had a penguin writing down "noted." Like haha, a random thing not to do.  And I said a comment that I acknowledged I just had to say which is actually this is a great bible verse that shows God's character.  I mean he thinks it is cruel to cook a goat in its mothers milk. It shows you the heart behind the whole law. So I said so and this guy comes after me and snootily says that it has to do with not participating in pagan rituals.  And I think he was alluding to me being in New York or something. Like maybe he figured out that I voted for Mamdani. I mean it is weird to take it there and I was not mean to anyone and did not bully anyone or question their joke in a bad way. I just for discussion sake said actually it was one of my favorite bible verses.

So anyway I guess that guy thinks I am a baby killer and that is what it is about. Like I can't say something about a meme because I socialize too much with pro choicers.  So finally we arrive at the issue of defending the fetus but taking away medical care from disabled people. And some people being too aloof anyway.

I mean I was positive and having a good discussion and he tried to turn it sour.

 We tried to share good news with you but you didn't want to hear it so now we will tell you everyone else's good news, which is that you're not going to heaven when you die.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, July 17. I just did laundry. Earlier I took the trash out. I might do another load of laundry later but I do not know. It depends if I don't feel too tired.

I got some good orange slices and chocolate covered cherries. And I have not had a second coffee today.

Something bothered me earlier which is that I checked my medical notes from the past week and a wrong diagnosis is all over some recent notes at three places.  And it is all from a wrong diagnosis written down as a power play by someone who isn't even a god damn doctor. A racist nazi nurse named Daphne wrote it down after I asked her not to.  I explained that I had been prescribed medicine as a preventative measure but didn't have the associated condition. It was the first time it has ever been written down. I am nowhere near that diagnosis.  

So really this is the final straw for New York City and I am going to move away if I am able to.  I need to have some book sales or some kind of job or something. But I am going to flee the socialist hell hole.  

This is Alabama and these are the people who poured milk on people's heads.  Daphne and everyone else at North Central Bronx and Montefiore.  They either do the racism themselves or cover for the other abusers. It is very serious and hits levels of attempted murder in some cases.  Probably actual murder sometimes but even I am having a hard time believing any of it.

I will miss some of the blessings I had here but there was always someone around to ruin it. I came to this city ready to die for not just anyone but everyone.  But that is not what they want.  They want for your sacrifice to not count for anything.  They are snakes from hell, racist hypocrits who only know how to ruin things and tear up other people's work. 

Literacy is disappearing and the new lessons are "want, get, keep," which is only worth any effort if the stuff belongs to someone else.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 5 pm. I just woke up from my second round of sleep.  Later I will do some laundry.  My next thing is to take out the trash. I might take out two trash bags worth. Then possibly I will be out of trash bags. I think that is a good enough goal is one laundry two trash.

Any writing goals? Not really.  I am not sure I correctly sent that new comedy routine. Wow it is almost more of an irony routine.  But I think it was just right. I mean maybe perform it somewhere soon.

What about Monday? Hmm, maybe. 

I have not checked my finger but assume it is healing slowly.  I might need to google diabetes or something, because this could be a sign.  I am becoming more confident that it was staph and not mrsa. And that it was more normal and maybe not caught from the hospital or stairwell.

And yet this has been a weird chain of events. 

I will check the smoke stats in a second. I hope my computer internet is back to normal soon.

I ate a little bit of french bread pizza and oreos.  Maybe another coffee would be good. I just wish I could walk to the coffee shop.

I guess the main thing is another round of cleaning. I sprayed pretty thoroughly and did do three loads of laundry plus the stuffed animals this week.  So a lot was improved. And I threw away the sleeping bag.  But definitely I will get some stuff done later if I can.

And maybe eat some lucky charms.  I have eaten two barbecues and a hot pocket and two frozen meals since the last grocery order.  What I am not doing great on is eggs.  I should be boiling the eggs more often, though I did do a good scramble and fry last time.

I am done well with granola bars and cereal, and I made that corn casserole.  What about potatoes.  Maybe I will do a potato casserole soon.  

I have eaten popcorn, peanut butter rice, and some other stuff.  Maybe improve on oatmeal and grits is a good idea. I will cook that sausage too.  I mean maybe some grits and sausage is next. Grits, sausge and eggs. Maybe clean and then make grits, sausage, and eggs.

Does anyone have any opinions.

 Pals my anxiety disorder is also a medical condition and this week has been rough and the medical places were doing weird stuff. The fact that I had to start over at City MD. And the fact that some places lost my trust. I mean we got through it but there are things wrong and how am I supposed to interpret that and why would it always be in everyone else's favor when they are the ones who did not tell the truth and do what they are supposed to.

I mean there is something kind of funny. Because if it is a game there is something kind of comical. Like hello from these people. I mean what does it all mean. Possibly it is something to distract me and think about as I feel anxious about breathing for about ten more hours. I mean this is honestly not that easy to get through. I think I will call Dilarom tomorrow and tell her it is a problem that DM is in my notes.

Ok there is something I just remembered which is my comedy coach session tonight. I actually think there was something at 5 that I was supposed to do and forgot about.

But it is okay. I mean just survival is something. It is good that I did not go to the comedy last night. This air stuff is not a joke. I mean am I the only one totally freaked out about it? This is different than last time.

I think the back of my tongue it getting pinched from a chipped piece of the bruxism.  But it is okay but I can't figure it out. But anyway gice it is not easy when you have anxiety and a lot of problems. I think tonight after comedy I will try to do some more laundry.

 Pals. I read the notes from the doctor. She said she used ai but it seemed like her notes. That is interesting.

Everyone put DM in my history now but I don't have DM. I don't. I know I don't. Maybe pre. And I need to lose the twenty pounds that they made me gain on purpose through abuse.

So I guess that doctor read the HHC notes. Because HHC says I have PTSD and that usually didn't show up on the notes for a long time.

So that is interesting. I guess read about PTSD. I mean maybe read about the other stuff, 

I mean it is kind of comical because it is like kirkus reviews, too. Like the positive and negative.

Maybe the AI picked up that false note from the bad person at NCB. That person was a nazi. An absolute actual nazi. I am going to have to write letters to these places and get a lawyer to help me.