Hello everyone, this is Refried.  It is Sunday, April 5. I just got back from my trip. I am in my apartment now.  The subway was not crowded this morning and I am glad I broke up the trip with a hotel.

The staff at the hotel weren't that nice to me. So I don't know if it will still be my go to place but I am at least glad I have one option for emergencies.

They closed up the hole in the gate so I had to walk an additional half mile to get home. I don't respect that but I am just thankful to be alive and have housing for now.

Today is Easter so I will maybe attend a service online. Maybe later I will go to Starbucks.

Well, that is all besides my next posts which I think are rather interesting.

Have a great day everyone.

 Hello everyone, I am in my hotel room. It is 8 pm. I think possibly I will conclude not to do this next time. And this time it did eat up the rest of my video budget.

But I am happy to be comfortable for a while and sleep and then take the train home tomorrow morning. Honestly it might be harder tomorrow because of the Easter parade but I think I know what route to take. 

It is hard to carry my bag when my pants are too baggy. But it will be okay tomorrow. It was okay today. 

There was a wifi scam where the person said I could have free wifi but then it is only if you join Marriott bonvoy points club. But the button says "Join" so you think you are joining wifi but it is the points program.  That is another toxic zap. I thought this hotel was a happy solution to not having a go to refuge as a backup plan but I might have to go back to kind of just having a more strict poverty status and not having a place in Manhattan as a backup.

I told my mom the truth about being here and she did freak out but then saw it my way fast enough. I mean that actually is just a sad part of my life. It is some suffering.  How hard it was to travel, how I tried to make it easier this time but it wasn't really easier.

I was a bonvoy member but they did not properly change my name either upon request and they did not help me know how to use the points for a hotel stay so I actually closed the credit card that made me eligible. 

So this endorsement might not be working out that well for them but I am staying here for now and hopefully will have a good night. 

I feel kind of lonely and need friends to talk to but on face book I am seeing repetitive posts from Mike Vick.  The dog killer.  Why is he on my feed? I mean believe in redemption, fine, but where are my god damn facebook friends.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I just got to New York City in a train from sc. it was an okay trip. I had good seat buddies and was mostly comfortable.

I am staying in a hotel for one night. It is a splurge but I felt that it helped me feel more peaceful on the train without guessing about a subway ride and cab ride and another hour and a half after arriving in nyc.

at the desk for the hotel there was an issue with my credit card because American Express did not change my name after five requests and presenting legal ID every time.

So now it puts me in a jam. And they also switch over their card to US Bank so what am I going to do about my name? I could lose the account over it but if I do I might get a lawyer.

This isn’t really what I needed just as I get back to NYC. I just don’t appreciate the power plays and dishonesty that is tolerated in our country. 

Anyway it is crowded downtown but mostly nice people and I think that is good. People were getting in my way on purpose but I guess they want prayers of forgiveness for the whole city.

Some people mistake that as an accusation but someday they will be glad someone cared.

But anyway I am thankful for this blessing but I am going to complain to both companies.

At least they did finally take the card when I showed my old ID. I just don’t understand why people treated me like crap as a writer. The whole career part has been a swindle with onlooking bullies of every kind.

But the creative work was fun and I guess that is the conspiracy’s clever idea because people think my life is theirs to waste as part of their little religion project.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am on the Amtrak train and we just left Greenville. I have a good seat buddy at least for about two hours. Then it will be 4:30. There could be a bad one after that but it will be almost daylight and that helps when you have a bad person which I did one time. The train station was not safe this time so I do not know what I will do for the next trip. I felt like after the trip here that I was okay to tolerate the train after feeling too disabled for it in the last several trips. But I think some of that was because I was being tortured at housing.

Basically there was a non passenger who came in the waiting area when I was the only one there at 1:30 in the morning. I said hello and he was friendly but stayed too long in the bathroom like possibly either drugs or just sleeping. So I went outside and waited on the platform. Actually it was a good solution because if someone came toward me it would be okay to call 911. but no one was there until a safe couple was standing outside the building later and I talked to them. They were first timers and I told them usually it felt safer. Well then another guy came into the waiting area and I decided to wait there instead. But then I found out he was not a passenger either. He said “ I wish I could get on this train and go to Philly.” Well I went back outside because it sounded like a drug dealer pickup line. But maybe he was a nice guy. 

So then I waited twenty more minutes and some other people came in the train area and the mystery guys left.

But there was another car with non passengers and they were socializing. So I am going to have to write a little note to Amtrak and say how bad it is that they don’t staff their stations. And I will tell them I am also going to send a note to the hometown newspaper to do a story about it.

People could say not to announce it as a target but there should be some leadership to maintain a functioning train station for a city of a million people.

Well maybe this is that article.

Have a nice day everyone.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I mailed some of my clothes to myself so I could travel with just one small bag. I feel that it was a good decision.

I am almost ready for my trip. I think I should call and confirm the cab ride to the train station.

And I need to finalize packing. These are crazy times and I think everything people do that is normal productivity is very valuable.

The post office was not crowded.

Gice I really am glad to be finishing mostly with the art hobby from last year. But I also think I should not waste the video opportunity. I am aware that there are a lot of other people doing what I am doing but I think I have a lot to contribute to social media. Currently I have two videos boosted.

I am happy to have done most of my work in life. God has been good to me and helped me live a creative life. But wow mental illness has been rough. I would say it could have been worse but some people max out your suffering sometimes and put you in the most extreme zone possible.

Anyway that is not the topic. The topic is that I had a good trip and got stuff done for my mom and she did not fuss at me that much this time. 

I wish I could go to the nami conference. I will think about maybe attending if I can. But I think I can’t.

 Well hello everyone. I did my laundry. I think I will mail some clothes to myself but I actually could do two bags. Does anyone have any thoughts about that. I think I would rather mail some clothes.  I think I will not mail shoes. So at about 2 pm I will go to the post office. 

Mom said she felt I did a good job on clearing the boxes etc. I think I did too. There are two leftover boxes of junk and trash.  I think they can just be tossed.

Gice I am coming to the end of my video budget.  This means also that I have less book budget but I actually do have that amazon store card and can do another round of library books.  Do people still want a free book? I do not know if they do.  Those books are starting to fade into the past for me.  And yet sometimes I am like gee this is good stuff and it should not be wasted.

So I will keep trying to get an agent. But you know what, an agent doesn't mean sales.  So possibly I should keep doing ads.  I mean I do not know. Am I supposed to just assume my books are selling when I have no evidence of that.

Well I do not know. I need to charge this computer. I am thankful that the trip went well and there were no health problems, traffic concerns, really bad social issues, outbursts, and things like that. I did send messages and not meet with people but I will try to apologize for that soon.

What were the main things about the trip: the books, the video boosts, the family visits, the computer sale, the food, a few zoom meetings, and I think that is mostly all.  That is good and I am thankful.  

I miss my therapist who is on vacation.  Hmm there is a nami group soon. I think I will attend.

Ok have a great day everyone.

 Hello everyone. This is Refried. I am in a zoom meeting and it is very grounding. Earlier I attended a meeting about autism. It was excellent. I gave a donation. I might do a church donation sometime but I have to make sure the time is right and I have the cash.

Right now I am listening to a guy named Larry Leech talk about fiction flaws.  It is excellent.  I mean the stuff he is talking about now is what I need to figure out.  What setting details are necessary.  Because I think I short people on that a little bit and it might weaken my books. But also it is too late now.

I mean have I already been identified? I just question if I was so good that my novels could be propelled sight unseen.  But maybe people did think that. Or think they could be ignored because my stories were good.

Gice I think my writing career is mostly over in terms of actual work. That is kind of exciting, isn't it? And yet I still am thinking of jokes and poems sometimes. So maybe there will be a story or two. Or I could try to fix Poncheesy.

Hmm, maybe that will be a project soon.  Like take away the last part of the novel and start again on page 50. I mean it was good stuff and then I uploaded my journal. And I think one of my friends who read it didn't like it.

Anyway I had a good day. It was a challenge but I did the right thing.  My budget is back to normal for boosting posts. I want to do higher boosts and get a cool mil for some videos. But I might need to keep it in the 606060 range. I mean I do not know. Mainly I think I need to plan for a higher budget and acquire that funding somehow ahead of time.

I really had more expenses this winter but it was legitimate stuff, like that social work license stuff that did eat up the whole deposit. Hopefully that will work out and my license is renewed okay.

Gice I think it might be valuable info for autism researchers that I am disabled at fiction but able when the characters are mice. I mean that is a fact. Maybe people can read the books later and see that.

I don't know how to find sponsors for my book business.  But maybe there are sponsors.

Well everyone, I hope you all have a great day.

That was crazy that I saw a vision, wasn't it? A bronze or iron Alligator that might or might not be alive.

Possibly the main idolatry problem.  And yet my mom is acting when she tortures me. She is part of the conspiracy. But anyway I got most of the book work done for those boxes in the other room. All that is left are two keeper boxes, one trash box, and one mystery crate. I think I will make it a keeper. I mean I could look through it right now.

Gice ups and downs live and learn. I hope my train ride goes well. Maybe it is not that big of a deal. Gice some people are really suffering right now but a lot of people were okay when I wasn't.  I was a canary in the coal mine for some stuff and I believe the other people will get through it just as I did.

Well have a good day everyone.