Hi everyone, this is Refried. It is 2:48. I feel back to normal but expect some visions for a day or so and figured out why it is happening. It is probably because of the Doctors Without Borders mapping event. God likes them and I have seizures sometimes when I pray for them. And that was also probably why the hurricane happened when I was at NCB, and there could also be an Asheville connection from when I prayed at the gas station that time. I am not saying that it is about me, but I have wondered what the meaning is and possibly that is the way that it is ironically not about me.

So anyway I know I seem like a kook now but it is actually the opposite. I am volunteering tonight in the meeting but my internet is not that great. But I think I will try to use my computer instead of my phone if I can. And I will log on at home and not Starbucks.

Soon I talk to Drena. I am glad I figured out why I was having slight spells of something.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Pals, if you do not get your book, please let me know or just order one later. I am sorry that sometimes the packages get torn or misdelivered etc.

The next batch is for Bronx Council for the Arts. There may be enough for the park or a normal few at pastors, priests, and guides. But there might not. So please be patient everyone and to my knowledge the Amazon page works so let’s none of us be too proud to just spend $5.

Hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. It is Monday, Sept 7. I just packed up three more books to mail out. So there are ten packages total. I hope they all get to the people and don't get sent back.

It is a good batch and now I have given away all my copies of the jumbo titles. But I think I still have two copies of the mice series but I think I will keep those for a while.

So that is interesting. That took a lot of work for a day or two. I mean maybe only a few hours.

So anyway now what.  I guess take my medicine soon. Or maybe take a walk. I think I will take a walk.

Maybe google the brain condition. My neurologist is keeping an eye on things. 

She said my brain adapted already to the low iron so there was not "damage."

ok,.. I just think this low iron situation is very bad. And sometimes I do not feel well.

But I think this is part of the process of dying and that is what is happening now.

So that is sad but it will be okay. 

I am glad to send out some more books.

I think I am at about 3000 total official, but really maybe 3500-4000 depending on what you count.

Some people are really happy to have the books.  Some people got left off but honestly it is not that easy.

But it is not that hard, either, like it is part of my normal work life.

Gice honestly my face is not totally back to normal and the weight loss stalled as well.

But it is okay. I feel okay and I have clean clothes and the roach motels are at the post office and the other shipment is on the way. Grocery money resets tomorrow and I am doing okay.

I will call my mom in a few hours and hopefully she is okay too.  I mean what if we aren't doing that great, that is also okay.

Ravneet helped me get through the weekend. I need to think about some of the conspiracy things. The New York conspiracy and how it is going to be fun in heaven. Like New York City is going to exist in heaven and there are a lot of good people headed there.  And some people didn't get their piece of the pie but just think about how cool most of us are. I mean we are nice people and a certain way.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 1:20 on Sunday, Sept 6. I am listening to a recording of a presentation that I liked at the SCBWI conference. Friday I found out that the agent of choice did not accept me.

Today I went to Starbucks and drank a mocha. Later I am going to try to go get pizza, but I need to take an iron pill, because I feel myself getting tired. It is a certain kind of tired that also has a mental spaciness.

Ravneet is helping me get through this weekend and I am doing okay. I think I might believe things to be a certain way for myself. Last night I got upset because I realized an amazon package was not delivered, and I suspected mail interference.  But this morning I see that things are in order.

My mom had a second hip surgery and my sister is taking care of her. I called her this morning and she was okay. But she had pain but I think she is getting through it.

Wow someone on the recording just said something really good. It is about middle grade not being dead.

Other stuff going on is my recent neurology appointment.  Dr. Gokhan said I do not have lupus.  I think I am going to call it autoimmune from now on.  Something made me laugh at the appointment.  It was a comedian on the show called "Sherrie," which was playing in the waiting room. And I laughed really loud, and then Dr. Gokhan later laughed when I said I might get a stroke from eating spicy food. 

So that is kind of funny but we do not know what anything means. I did not get any notes from either doctor at that hospital for these last two appointments. And I am kind of sad about that, because I like notes. But I think they suspect that I am skipping some meds. But I am doing the best I can.

So anyway. I think the agent of choice was my final effort. Thanks KG.

Well everyone, I hope you all have a good day. I am thankful for what I have, and sometimes I know when some of my jokes are only a little bit funny.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just slept for a while, and I feel better. I had a dream where I was at a basketball game and a guy kept trying to make these shots from behind the goal and then another guy did some swishes and then I was at home and told my mom I was going to bilo to meet a friend so I left but then was on a bike or something and cut through a culdesac that doesn’t exist and there was this guy with a shiny pink tri corner outfit and he was a dad and he had left colorful twizzlers out on his porch area for the Easter bunny and then I was on Pelham road on a long boardwalk that went straight to bilo but it was at night and I had a light on my bike and a girl was in front of me talking to someone else about a film school project and then I woke up.

So that is neat about the twizzlers and Easter bunny.

I think I am okay about the other stuff on my mind and can get a pizza or something soon. I mean possibly I need to do a grocery order but I kind of want a pizza but now my bank accounts aren’t that great.

Does anyone have any thoughts? There are many different supernatural feelings for many different things and that is why I started thinking that anything positive might be more supernatural than we realize.

Anyway I need to clean my apartment some so I will take out the trash soon and maybe do laundry sometime.

I am glad I am caught up on sleep and medicine.

 Hey everyone, this is Refried. I took 5 books to the arts council and met a nice person named Tracy. She let me put the books on a table. Thanks, Tracy! She said I could come to an event and leave free books for everyone and I wouldn’t even have to hand them out personally. But maybe I should mingle. I think there is a possible gig but I might have something else scheduled that day.

But anyway that went well and I jibber jabbered at high speed so tomorrow I will try to slow down and not get in trouble about the medicine.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. The next thing to do today is walk back to westchester square. But it is hot and humid outside. So maybe I will but I don’t know.

I mean maybe it is not urgent to give those books to that office but I think I will but I remembered another possible person to send to yesterday.

But it is slowing down for a reason but that could just be my feeling of disability.

I kind of think passing out books in parks might be my new thing to do. I wanted to give that lady one today but it seemed like she was on a cellphone and I did not want to be weird.

So anyway ups and downs live and learn. It is time to eat some lunch. I mean what’s it going to be for lunch today. I guess fettuccine Alfredo. Hmm I could actually boil pasta and use that sauce. That is what I will do.