Hello everyone. Today we had another pest control day. It was okay and I went to Starbucks and McDonalds again. I read some books and am happy with what I read. You know what I read is Poncheesy and I like it. I think it is a cool book.  That is kind of a surprise to me. I wonder if people will be able to tell the difference between that and my other novels where I did not use journal filler.

At Starbucks they sharked me for a while and I figured out that all along it was probably to create witnesses of innocence.  So I guess I get that but wow I sometimes do wonder if the other success path would have been a good choice. But I believe all of this is meant to be for whatever really weird reason. I mean such a detailed mess but maybe it is about a lot of us being trained to be good judgement day staff people. 

Anyway there was a funny picture on facebook today and it really cracks me up. I mean wow so funny.

I read an article that was kind of discouraging and reminded me of something I figured out also.  About my generation already having some of its writers harvested and now it is going to be second effort people. I mean that could be good but I do feel hurt and mis-seen to be counted as being from that wave.

But there is another factor involving bookstore and library shelves and some kind of equal opportunity that would be more fair than social trends. I mean wow what was ruined for me was so epic so I don't just casually dismiss it when it reflected a lot of life and work  from millions of people.  But there is maybe some other ideal where people go into a library, especially as a kid, and they see the shelf of joke books and choose one.  And it isn't about generations and work trends and promos and privilege, but there is supposedly a factor where someone chooses what book they want to read.  And the person who wrote a classic a hundred years ago and the person whose book is next to that in alphabetical order both have an equal chance. I mean I can feel how that is not how it works and yet it kind of is on some levels. And it is good to still believe in that. Also, to insist that if self publishing in this time is not a legitimate option, then someone out there is cheating and blocking.

Anyway I might revisit that article. 

Gice I am sad to miss the Dr. Fatima appointment but it will be Nov 9 right before my trip. Which I personally think is very thoughtful and caring. I think they knew I could not take my medicine last night and still be out for pest control today. I mean maybe that was what it is about.

But anyway some lawyers are helping me now with the apartment situation, but most of them think it is an abuse issue that needs intervening and not just a case to cash in on.