Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Monday, Oct 12. I just had an interesting dream where I was in a hospital and an army plane that was rectangular in shape hovered outside my window and I wanted to wave an american flag but the flag was my roommate's and she said I could not wave it. So then I went to go use the bathroom which was a ladies room and it said Sarah on it, like it had been named after me as my old name.  So then people tried to come in my stall and there was a guy in the stall next to me so I had to say something. Then I was at this other city where there was a building and it had to do with preparing for Camp Opportunity and something was going on with a skateboard company or something and then I was on a train and there were PFR people shooting machine guns into the air.  Before that I was at Penn Station and it had to do with NY Cares and sitcoms. I mean it was an interesting dream.

So anyway sometimes I feel something lacking like what to be working on. Should I go pass out books at the park. I wish that Bronx event had been a successful book drop but oh well.

I feel targeted by racism again but I am thankful for having a month or two where I did not feel it as much. But I also feel more of the reality how it is going to be called what it is. People really thought God and no one else would see it and say it but it will be said. And I am aware of the people who think it is me and I feel sorry for you.  You are going to be humiliated.