Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, October 23 at 11:58 pm.  I am making some coffee. I washed out the coffee maker. I think the coffee did not absorb the poison but just now I am like okay of course it did, coffee is actually used for that.  So I need to start over with a bag that was not out.

So I will do that. I mean maybe that works out because I cleaned out the coffee maker with this hot boiling coffee and then I will do a different batch.  My apartment doesn't feel covered in poison and there are still a lot of bugs crawling around. I think they are going to do it again next Friday.

I feel tired but I took my medicine yesterday so am kind of okay. I guess soon I should take more medicine. I felt good prayer feelings this afternoon and prayed a lot. So that is a couple of days after about a week of not doing that well. 

Then unfortunately there were some squids and eels and dragons. But I am okay and I mostly think that is done for now. I think I can stop it whenever and take a break and it is kind of like when hospitals give people medicine to make their delusions go away.

The nami group helped me a lot tonight and I think that is kind of cool because I was like gosh what do I do, I am praying for shame and horror on the bad people but should do forgiveness but that did not feel right either but meanwhile I felt the good prayer feeling of the Holy Spirit.  So then in the nami meeting it became more productive and positive. And personally I think it is cool how that was provided just when I needed it. But I had a spell when typing an email about the pest control thing.  Because I was not invited to the community meeting where they told people the instructions.

Anyway I guess now I will try to make the coffee again. Maybe I will eat some lucky charms.

The hospital told me some opinions which is try to work work work work work. Like the song from the Bridge soundtrack.