Pals my anxiety disorder is also a medical condition and this week has been rough and the medical places were doing weird stuff. The fact that I had to start over at City MD. And the face that some places lost my trust. I mean we got through it but there are things wrong and how am I supposed to interpret that and why would it always be in everyone else's favor when they are the ones who did not tell the truth and do what they are supposed to.

I mean there is something kind of funny. Because if it is a game there is something kind of comical. Like hello from these people. I mean what does it all mean. Possibly it is something to distract me and think about as I feel anxious about breathing for about ten more hours. I mean this is honestly not that easy to get through. I think I will call Dilarom tomorrow and tell her it is a problem that DM is in my notes.

Ok there is something I just remembered which is my comedy coach session tonight. I actually think there was something at 5 that I was supposed to do and forgot about.

But it is okay. I mean just survival is something. It is good that I did not go to the comedy last night. This air stuff is not a joke. I mean am I the only one totally freaked out about it? This is different than last time.

I think the back of my tongue it getting pinched from a chipped piece of the bruxism.  But it is okay but I can't figure it out. But anyway gice it is not easy when you have anxiety and a lot of problems. I think tonight after comedy I will try to do some more laundry.