Hello everyone. It is Friday, Sept 12. I did laundry again tonight so I have two thirds done. That is enough for now even though I have a spot on three shirts.

My stomach hurts right now and I think some of it is from stomach acid and some is from a food intolerance. It is getting a little bit better but when I feel upset it gets worse. I might need to take some mylanta.

Today at my program a bad person named Hannah physically blocked me when I was on my way to group.  It was kind of sudden and unexpected and it triggered me severely for the whole day. It will take me weeks to recover from it as a setback. I am able to not say bad words so I won't. But bad words do apply in this situation.  

Something weird happened with a friend not supporting my abuse reports.  So that is too bad but I will side with myself and always call abuse what it is. Too many people think it is my role to be abused and other people are excused because of their identity or status.

Another issue that is affecting me right this second is that I ran out of pantropazole and the bottle said I had a refill but Walgreens said I had to get another prescription from my doctor.  And the reason I had this pantropazole refill was because I had to use virtual care after my other doctor messed up the dosage for the second appointment in a row. Like there were literally four mistakes from him at the pharmacist one time. 

So I switched doctors but my appointment is not until the 25th. So I am sitting here with stomach acid pain and upset feelings from one out of five abusers at my mental health program.

I also have a dark tunnel ahead of me because of having to take care of my mom in december and my five years of agreed time running out in july. 

Something else I discovered today was that amazon was using my old author listing for invasive ads that put other people's books in place of my books in the list. That is only one page so I will erase the link for it and stay hopeful until I have to unpublish.

Anyway I thought things were getting better but they aren't. 

My emails all turned to spam this year because I was overmedicated and unable to participate in most of my affiliations.

I find the conservatism yucky that is happening.

Well, that is all. Tomorrow I will probably call my cousin.