Hi everyone I just missed the cookout. If they wanted me there I would have been there and if they wanted me to have a plate after all when I got there late then they would have offered. So I guess it is just different times than before with Mikala and Jennifer.

They will put some out later probably but I think I will be downtown. I think I will do downtown at 3. I think God is not happy that they did not offer me a plate even though I was late. 

I don't really get the part of the conspiracy where people are mean to me in God's face.  Like the idea is that they are playing along but I think it is actual disrespect.

So anyway I knew I was missing something. I guess that is kind of depressing after a nice day yesterday but I think a benefit is for me to see the stark difference between a fun comedy class and this sad poverty mistreatment in the Bronx.

There were some secret messages yesterday explaining it but honestly those purposes don't justify it.

My mom just said she has to get hip replacement surgery in December. I will tell her to get a home aide of some sort so we are not dependent on my trip there. Because honestly I don't want to be her caregiver because of her relational abuse. 

So that is weird on what could have been a good day. I hope things get better and I can live with Ravneet but I think things might not get better. And my housing program is going to be happy to just be mean.