Ok I am going to save the other half of this meeting for another time.

Attitude and Gratitude are both things I need to work on.

That is what the video is about.

Anyway I will try to attend more city voices things. One of our friends from another group died and I think I could have done better for that person. But he needed hospital care and I am not sure he chose to get the help he needed.

It was weird though because he was a recovery hero and gave up.

So anyway that is all some food for thought because there are a lot of people out there who need support and am I going to be out in the wild or in the meetings.

I hope this summer goes well with the job program. I will take a cab to the other side of town two days a week. It will be good for me to get out and about but sometimes traffic and rude racist cab drivers really upset me to the point where it could undo the benefit of the program.

That is a real thing. I mean if you do the work to survive and people insist on breaking you down, then at some point you have to call it what it is.  And yet maybe not, maybe you can do some kind of very triumphant forgiveness, and maybe that is on the table for me on an overwhelming societal level.

I just feel like I also need to say that it is wrong. For people to say, this is when you show off your forgivness, after they have ruined resources that could have helped millions of people for generations.

But anyway I kind of am able to move on. I think that guy named Chris wanted to be my friend. Well maybe it is not too late Chris.