Hey everyone, I took a shower. I think I am going to post my new meme and not boost it yet.  I think I will also boost milder art posts and not really hit them with the most extreme.  So that is different than what I was thinking yesterday.  I should really try for a pace that I can maintain.  It is just really motivating when the numbers come through.  But that is not all.  I do like praying for the people and hope good things for them.

Anyway I am listening to youtube because it keeps my computer online. I don't know if it is messing with my mind sometimes, seeing all the ads and having to be vigilant about guarding my feed from bad videos.

Something I am going to be praying for is an effective justice system.  We really need that for everyone and shouldn't give up on it just because activists want to demonize law and law enforcement.  I mean it just has to be salvageable.  But a lot of people don't get justice in this world.  However justice does exist.

Gice that was bad when I said I hope people can see how hard that is for me.  I mean that was a little bit selfish attention seeking but I was just saying that it seems so easy now but there are sudden moments where it isn't that easy and I have to make hard decisions with risk.

But anyway my apartment is getting messy so maybe focus on regular life sometimes and start walking.  But the cops are following me and harrassing me.  So it needs to be the treadmill.  Maybe Thursday I will clean my apartment and start the treadmill.

Well, that is all. Wow, this is a tedious play by play boring blog. Do you guys remember when it used to be a step up from that like nice writing.  Well sorry but I have to be able to journal because frankly I am lonely sometimes and my life quality took a dramatic decrease from the medicine and abuse in the past two years.  And that is a fact and nothing can be done to undo it except one mg risperdal and 600 trileptal.