Pals, this is Refried. I think I am not going on a walk to Dunkin Donuts. But I did take an iron pill.  Possibly that tongue problem last Sunday was because of being out in the sun. Like it might be more about the actual lupus than just the low iron. But I don't know. But I took an iron pill and I am staying out of the heat. But it is only 86. That is really okay for a walk but I just think I will make some more canva videos and art. Like some more cross pictures and maybe start a bible verse series for one of the art pages. I just think that the people like clicking like on that and it is a good opportunity.  So I will try to do some more art like that.

Pals I am really happy with the meme about prayer as shopping for miracles. Is the design just right, I am not sure. Like possibly it should be all photo with text over the photo. But I do not know. I mean maybe this basic solid color style is signature now.

I need to check the payment page and make sure I don't over charge on the capital one card.

Tomorrow hopefully my new credit card will roll over properly.  

They gave me too many notices to take it back now.

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Pals, good news, I had a good therapy sessions, the tasers that the housing staff has are actually bug zappers, and I am probably going to be back on normal meds soon.

So that is really good. I had a fun therapy session and showed Drena some new memes and she did not discontinue me because of that questionable meme. But I feel certain it was the right thing to do.

Anyway I think I should walk to McDonald’s soon. But I might eat a microwave Salisbury steak.

At this conference last year I crossed the line with Christian books of a certain nature but I felt that people would really like them and I think they probably did but I forgot to say hello to a key person. But I can’t help it.

It is right on the edge of my functioning abilities.

Well have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, I had more interesting dreams, which is good because it means I slept. I have gotten plenty of sleep for a long time now.  I am thankful for that. My mental health could be a lot worse.

I guess I will wait and take the medicine for today after my therapy session at 12 o'clock. I think that is okay. Today I will also take an iron pill.

I just got some stuff done in the apartment.  I consolidated some stuff from bags and put the bags away, I filled a cart with clothes for laundry, and I put some water in the other cart and took the water out of the other cart and put up the cokes and groceries.  So now that counter area is clear in front of it so I can sort through that stuff and put more away and clean the counter.  I think cleaning the counter is the first step and then washing out the sink.  It is only one or two dishes plus the sink.  I can do that. And then mop the floor and I think after that I am mostly reset. But I have kept up with trash pretty well. 

The milk I got from Walgreens went bad and leaked onto the base of the bed because I forgot I had gotten it. But I have half and half and the spill is dry now but that is too bad. I could have eaten more cereal.

However I did finish those cocoa Krispies and you can get a reward in heaven for that.

So anyway I also made coffee.

So let's count the actions today: check facebook, put up groceries, put away bags, take water and cokes out of cart, put other water in cart, put clothes in cart, make coffee, add more trash to bag, take out trash.  

That is about ten things.  So that is good.  So floor and counter and that will be good for today. And maybe take a walk in the evening before autism group.

Ok there was something else interesting that happened. I think I will just keep it to myself. It was a good thing that makes me feel protected in a more thorough way than any attack would be.  So maybe there is an interesting movie that God is working on.  I mean that makes me want to kind of be at my best all the time but I don't think that is healthy to always be performing for the judgement day cameras.  Like if you are at home cooking then it shouldn't have to be a cooking show per se.

I mean to be on camera all the time without knowing who from what time period is going to have opinions about it.  But that is why the bible said to do things for the eyes of God.  It was trying to help people have a good book and video from their life in the library of guardian angels. 

Well, that is all everyone. That was kind of weird how I posted to the wrong blog before.

I wish people would have read my worldly monk blog more when I posted that post.  But it was not enough.  Only 70 views. That is not enough. 500 views for the posts, 70 views for the blog.  That is not enough.  People are just making people on both sides of whatever, to hate me.  

So anyway, have a good day everyone. Do you guys like my new jokes. Maybe I will think of a lot of jokes. That would be cool but I don't know if I will but what if I sit down and try to write thirty like a long time ago. I mean maybe.  Well, have a good day.

  Pals. I think I need to send an email to princetonpalities.

I had a dream where a lot of snakes were in it and we had to pick up the snakes to move them as we crossed some kind of river or something but we were at a location and it was a lot of people and some of it was friends from high school and Meg calnon helped me with a snake that was up my sleeve in a black and white Nike jacket.

Before that in the dream I was at a location where I lived and had two small bags packed and was on a busy Mexican street or somewhere else and did some wheeling and dealing in a store for supplies of some kind and then there was some other thing with a few other people where I had the right stuff but we had to do something and that preceeded the snake section of the dream and went well and was positive.

I also before that was like hmm I think I will take that class on the book of John.

So is this about the memes, the evangelical baptism post, or the blog, or the memes I just sent to India. I do not know. I feel that I did the right thing and how sweet that they like that cross picture.

Do I need to do another meme page of Bible verses and images like that. Maybe.

Ok. The snakes. I feel like that was the motherload. I just don’t appreciate people being like told you so etc like if I squawked anti trump stuff at the wrong time that would have solved everything.

anyway what is it. Which meme if any. Was it a spiritual block for me personally. Is it the immigration hold up. I do not know. Also is it defeated or just exposed as a problem which everyone has already been sqwawking about anyway. I mean what if some protestors are real and some are fake. hmm and church people. I just think mostly you can feel when people are doing right and are innocent.

But anyway yesterday I felt God’s presence in a certain location as if in space and it was like I knew him in middle school and it was more accurate than some other times and I felt good prayer opportunities but said I wanted instead to daydream and it made me feel better and he was okay with that and now I feel like he wanted to get a good view of me before the snake incident like maybe that was a good event. Because he did like me from that space perspective and I could feel how he liked other people too and I thought it was sweet. but anyway I mean that is cute it is like me with the imaginary mice.

However I don’t think these memes feel that special except that baptism meme was what people were waiting for from me. Well here is where I curse people out and say I did what I was supposed to. I went to the church that was available to me and it was all good. The churches mostly did pretty good. 

Also interestingly this pile of snakes I don’t think is from my mom but there could be some decoy scenarios because that conversation at Dunkin’ Donuts was like old times kind of before some of the serious problems and I think it was like a trio of things: the mental illness, the medicine, the mom controlling me. Those three things perpetually for all of adulthood. So that is weird but it was a good terms thing on our last conversation but some of that peace is from the hope that something will happen with the books soon. It is not okay for that work to be wasted. People say I need to confess that it is okay. It is not okay. The work should not be wasted. Can the work be wasted. I guess so and all will pass away. Is that what you people were waiting for. I mean you will get another curse out for that. Do you think it is okay for those buildings in Ukraine to be destroyed. No it is not. And it is not okay for my books to be wasted. People say yes it is, it is nothing. And I said no it is not okay and never was.

But anyway I just feel this argument against me like I am so stupid and should have been a better Christian instead of whatever I did do and you are wrong. And how many times do I have to say it.

And now you guys are like oh I am bullying one person well no I am not. This is from a lot of people who think there was no loss and there is something else missing that was supposed to be from me. I mean the absurdity of that. To have a hundred ignored books with a good mood and few mistakes in all of them and people say that a whole life of righteousness is missing from me. Like a house and people who don’t even exist and a career that no one let me have after five schoolings.

Anyway I am going to tell Dallas TS to send people to India. Really all the brands should do it. They have enough people who have God’s favorable gaze that it would be a happy national harvest for anyone would would like to go to a country with fewer trolls and less of the nasty politics. Though they do have their stuff too with that but it doesn’t matter as much as other stuff happening. 

Anyway this 3M attack on my life: the mental illness, medicine, mom. This is where I wonder if Stn is allowed to just choose an attack after knowing a lot about me. And why? Does it have to do with that time I asked God to remind me of stuff and said it was like he was a post it note. And then the post it notes at bn. And 9-11. People say this is where you are a kook. Well I am not sure that is true. because there is another 3M attack- the mom medicine molestation from the Dr brown incident.

So do you Gice think that caused a mild dissociation disorder which is what I questioned at the mall that time like why am I like a child! Because I thought it was the autism. But was it there in middle school? I was mostly just funny before. But I really liked all the toys and candy from grocery stores during high school. I don’t think that was a disorder. I think that was really me.

Anyway I can also pray for the people I chose not to pray for yesterday. I mean you can always pray but it was kind of like a sale that you don’t want to miss but that reminds me of another meme I need to do.

Like to say prayer is like shopping for miracles. I don’t know if that is really good or not and what would the image be well I don’t know. But it is like a giveaway or sweepstakes but I guess people need pray for more serious things than a game show really conveys.

 Wow I had such a great time at hope lab tonight. It was great. It was a treat for people who are sensitive but you can't assume they don't have mental illness but I think that people without mental health diagnosis also need reflection for their psychological states.

So that is interesting. I wrote two blurbs and shared them and it was fun, thanks MC. 

I will post the blurbs on my poems page.

Ravneet is so proud of me.

I had a good day. I mostly slept.  This morning my mood was not great but I am okay. I had to take a latuda so I would not get in trouble. I mean I kind of think I should stay on the Latuda but I wonder if it causes the low iron.  Does anyone have any opinions?

I ate some chocolate earlier and it was nice. And I had some pieces of frozen pizza that I cooked in the oven.  It was also yummy. And some coke. I think I have now had two coffees.

I should have tried to make friends with that hospital guy at Dunkin Donuts. But I guess maybe he is just a nice person in my community. 

So okay Jacobi is saying I am part of their community. What does this mean, I do not know.

I truly just do not know.  I think it has to do with rejecting the evangelical church. Like my acceptance at NYU was based on not being an evangelical but I insisted on being a rep from evangelical. I mean you guys are the ones with the problem on that.

Anyway I am feeling the spiritual feeling that happens when I share jokes in India.  So which ones will it be.  I want to share the idolatry meme because it is so cute and funny but I am not sure the audience will get the references. I mean maybe some people. I just don't know. But it is the funniest in a certain way. I don't plan to boost any posts immediately. I mean can I even afford it. I do not know.

The number of thru plays for that church poem video was 40 thousand. I mean that is great.  I am thankful and I feel that is a good outlet for those poems.

Well, I had a good night. Thanks also to Tami for the fun Complex minds meeting.  There were a lot of sad topics today but we got through it. It was a good mood.  So that is cool. Many hands make light work in terms of getting through problems. I think some of it is too much bad news on our feeds.  And other than that, it is mostly a load that a lot of people are bearing okay.

 Pals I removed that post because of the low numbers.  Facebook doesn't even show me the likes sometimes anymore.  So that is all for me on that one. I mean I put myself out there. And it was kind of an ugly meme. 

I just had some weird dreams but I am glad I slept.  Then I took my medicine. I did not skip Latuda even though I am going to ask Dr. Talreja if we should switch to Risperdal.  Because I am wondering if the anemia is from latuda. I mean personally I think it could be.

But probably it is from lupus. It is kind of weird to say that word. I might be okay with waiting on the diagnosis but maybe not because it is taking a toll on other health aspects and I get the blame.

Anyway yesterday was a weird day. It did not help to miss the Nami meeting.

Also I think the jalapeño poppers were what sat out recently and were old and that is not good for my IBS. But I am okay. I mean that meme wasn't a big deal.

Let's think, how much did I sleep.  Maybe a few hours. And I will sleep some now probably because of the medicine. But I might not take a walk like yesterday. But who knows, maybe I will.

There is not really anything planned for today. I am glad to have a free day.

I am not happy that I just took Latuda but I could really get abused if I skip it. So I will wait and ask Dr. Talreja about the medicine. 

Well, have a good day everyone.

 Hello everyone, this is Refried. I think my post is fine. I mean maybe no one wants to read the blog. Possibly I should have put it on this blog but I felt that it was a worldly monk post.

Today I have an online group and then maybe creative writing but maybe not. I defriended the bad person from that group and may never go back. I mean close range overt bullying in a group of five people. Wow, I feel bad for you. 

Anyway, some of this mob stuff about the autistic professor seems to be going in a direction of targeting free speech.  But I might be wrong.  They might just be using their free speech against people who bullied someone. 

I think there could be an issue where assembly loses its power.  Like the protesting gets overdone. But I could be wrong. I mean maybe something is usually better than nothing.

I am a little bit worried about being tased to death, or at all.  I think that the staff here at housing already has tasers sitting on their desks. It looks like a yellow and black tennis racket. Gloves, to me, are on another level.  And I have some sympathy for people like EMS workers if they are told to start using that.  Not everyone will feel strong enough to leave over it or lose their job, etc.

That is just me. I am also heartbroken and horrified for the immigrants.  But it is weird that I could also be tased as early as tomorrow.  Which reminds me that I need to check and see when my psychiatrist appointment is.

As for my other post, I mean the way the church just kept teaching that bullcrap with a third of their congregants going through mental health stuff. And thinking people were too stupid to see through it.