Ok the other thing is that when I think of what is missing, love and money, I think of something else from another category, which is church, like there is family, work, and church.  And when I think of that other thing I think it is "status." that is the word that came to mind.  Probably that is off in some way and yet I really was thinking that was it, like if I find it through what is missing.  And I think it is interesting that the facebook early posts were framed that way. Like that is the blessing God provided for us. 

Anyway inspection went well today. I am on okay terms with the Bridge. Maybe Ravneet will visit me soon. Maybe I will get some book sales from somewhere. I just don't understand.

Someone did buy the book "Whole Bunch of Stupid Poems."  I just sent a few copies of that to Anne Parris. I know that will be some people's first choice based on title. I just don't understand why the books have to be wasted so much. Why? I genuinely don't understand. I did my part and that should already have been good enough.  Some things are believable and some things aren't.  And it is not really believable that there are no sales whatsoever and I am not a role model instead of menace to society. That is a weird waste that has no explanation. Well we have to let all 7 billion other people succeed first.

And I think when people say, well it is because I got a conspiracy, I think there is something to that, except as I have said before, it is cruel to create an audience and then withhold a normal success path on purpose.  That is a weird bullying abuse that should not be supported by anyone.  And yet everyone is going along with this failure narrative.  I don't understand.  And then the punchline.  Because of Islam. How absolutely ridiculous.