hello everyone, this is refried. i had some ups and downs today. i woke up feeling good and wen to get water and food. then i went to two meetings but missed one. i had a trauma trigger yesterday and one today, and my therapist is going to be out of town this week.  so i think i will call some peers.

tomorrow morning i am getting a home visit from insurance. I have liked these visits in the past but I am not sure I agree with putting the doctor's care within the insurance company. I think that might be questionable. But definitley I won't be the one fixing society.

I feel the political hatred and it feels too personal.

I don't see enough posts from friends on facebook.

I think I will start feeling better soon and go to sleep, but every time I take my medicine, I feel bad for a while. I am worried that I got escalated and didn't realize it. It could have been from the office today. But I had to skip a dose to go get water. I do not respect people who punish me for htat. I do not respect the people who ruined my health and medicine. 

I guess i will listen to music and see if that helps.