Hello everyone, this is Refried. Today is Saturday, Jan 24. I went to a meeting online and it was mostly fun. I did not do perfect and might have talked too much but I didn't really realize it.

I mean maybe I really didn't do well. I do not know. I think it is okay. Maybe it is a professional association and not a support group. 

Now it is time for a snow storm. I did not go get food. I think the milk will last a while and then I can use ice cream for the coffee. 

Last night I had a dream that I was going to a mental health event and we were supposed to bring a flavored powder to mix with milk and it would make ice cream but I put a container of orange sherbert in my backpack and then there was kind of an obstacle course to get in the building and it was too hard but I didn't want to complain but I finally did say that it was too hard to get in the building.  Part of the event was a presentation about the musical called Cats and someone sang "memory."

So that is nice. At the beginning of the dream I was in my apartment and found someone in my bathroom and then it turned out that my apartment was in the mental hospital and it was way too crowded like almost a concert crowd of patients. 

So that is interesting. I am glad I caught up on sleep. 

Ups and downs live and learn. One of my friends hasn't talked to me lately and I am worried that something bothered them which is that I sent a card and it didn't get there. I do not know why it did not get there and I should try again but it is hard for me to do that stuff. It is hard for me to do anything.

I think it is because of my psych medicine.  I think I thought I was back to normal and I am not. 

Possibly the issue with group is they think I know I am okay and discovered and I should have given other people more consideration but I actually don't know that I am all set. I feel very much like failure status.

I mean honestly it could be worst of both worlds. Like possibly I only get fame level hate and no fans.

So that is weird.  I thought of some comedy material but I just don't have the money for another class. I can't keep asking my mom for money. I just can't. I have to at some time just be poor.  

Well, that is all everyone. Have a good day.