Hello everyone, this morning I had a dream that I went to Carolina Center for behavioral health and they wanted to keep me there and I wanted to stay but I did not need treatment and I had to tell them that I was okay.  Isn't that interesting? It was so real, and before that I had accidentally attended my mental health program that I just quit.

I need to take inventory of this year and see the pros and cons.  I was lazier because of extra psych meds and that was rough but it could have been worse. And I had an ai hobby that I was able to do as a lazy person.  So I have to say that one of the main good things was my facebook outreach. That was great, a 2025 blessing, and lots of sweet new friends from other countries.

That is the main thing I guess, and then I did the PHP program and that was good, and I passed 50 more inspections at my apartment.

What did not go well? I did not do that well with food and exercise. I ate a lot of cereal and lost some of my insurance benefits.

What else did go well? I talked to friends on the phone but lost two friends for reasons I do not understand. What else. What about books? I went to the novel retreat in Vermont and published Poncheesy. That is kind of funny and I should reread it. Other than that, some ai art books, and two Bronx Combo books: Diagnosis Weirdo, and Thank You, Conspiracy. Those were pretty good books.

There isn't that much besides that for the year. I stayed inside a lot and blogged. Did I do a comedy class? Yes, actually, that is what I did this summer. So that was a hit. That maintains me as a comedian.

What about facebook friends? I think we had a good year but I need to keep praying that facebook restores the algorithms to former years of happiness.

Any community service this year? No. That was the sad thing at the beginning of the year and a documentation of paranoia. So this year was part of the permanent paranoia showing itself, but some of the abuse fading away.

Advocacy: the incident with Hannah and the new website article that will probably eventually disappear. However it is a good piece of journalism and is marked by the loss of a friend. That is sad, my friend is wrong about it and weirdly turned on me about everything,

Ok, what else. You know what, I think this is all. I just didn't have much going on this year but enjoyed the ai hobby. I am thankful for that because it would have been a pretty empty year without it.

What about Ravneet.  A lot of good texts, but still missing Ravneet.  Also not as many online health appointments.  And I switched doctors and that became somewhat of a loss as well. But I landed at North Central Bronx Hospital and they are pretending that I work there.

So was it a good year? I will say that I think it was a year of decline, but a life highlight of the facebook pages was part of it.  Maybe that is a lesson, when we are weak, God is strong.