Hello everyone, today is Sunday, Nov 16. I missed church today and a meeting.  Possibly if I had decided not to miss the meeting then I would have been up for church. I think I will go to my evangelical church online and feel okay. I am making some coffee right now. I had good dreams this morning where my sister was helping me and then I quit my mental health program and I was at the beach and a hippo and rhino swam with me and I saw capybaras in the ocean, too, and then I went to some kind of ministry in an old house and I kept breaking doorknobs and was a conspicuous visitor and had to crawl out a delivery dock to get out.  I felt cared about and it was a good dream.  Then I woke up and had missed my meeting but I already decided I could not go but what I didnt expect was to be too late and tired for church.

I think it will be okay. 

My facebook posts are doing much better and I will probably be at 1.2 mil after all.  So they are increasing the reach later on and I can't estimate at the beginning. I knew that but still have ups and downs about it.

It does matter to me to be able to feel like the posts were successful. I mean sometimes there is an obedience factor like I need to get it right.

I am glad I have now shared my two eternal life posts.  Possibly the christ died for sinners post will be another challenge but I know it is a good post. I do not know about the christ forgives sins post. I mean it is okay but I do not know if it is really good enough but it is probably fine.

I can feel how these facebook friends need good posts.  How worth it that this hobby is. It helps people. I will not delude myself about what is at stake, but I think it does help with true evangelism.

So anyway I think I will make potatoes soon.  And maybe some eggs, and eat some cereal.  Maybe I will eat the cereal before the potatoes. I could do pancakes too but I think that is not necessary.

Well, that is all everyone, sorry to miss church but it feels like it had to be this way.