Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is 10:10 on Saturday, Aug 30. I just watched a video about Sept 11. It was truly awesome. It is the video from national geographic about the south tower. It had a story about two guys who made it out of the south tower in time. It was a miracle and they did the best they could as God helped them.  This could be my new favorite movie, oddly replacing Airplane.

Anyway I read some of my old journal. It was weird to read it with the documentary mood going because it causes a retrospect effect but my life then wasn't that important. It was because I was writing good things and it was also a miracle.  But I am aware of some perspective. So that is interesting.

The sept 11 movie makes me not want to give up sharing my faith on facebook.  It made me feel safe in that regard, like I finally did find an audience who was receptive to my evangelical mission that has been thwarted before so consistently and severely. 

So that is good. I think I will pray as much as I can during this facebook share and care about people like the sept 11 people.  Workers, medical people, TV people, other nations, just people who make decisions in their lives and need help sometimes.

There is something else to say which is that my skin looks bad right now because it had a rough cycle.  But I am also relieved that the medicine side effects are more normal now.  But I hope I can leave it alone and let it heal quickly over the next two days.  That is too bad but it is just something in my life that is probably like that for a reason. I think some of it has to do with racism and giving me a parallel burden.

But that is not all.  Some of it was probably helpful for priestly singleness.  I don't want to say that and make other people despair, because it is not that big of a deal or at least shouldn't be.  And really I was okay for most of adulthood until the medicine messed me up.

Anyway that is all.  Usually I do not discuss it but I am aware it is worse than usual.  But at the same time it isn't, because that aspect that was caused by the medicine is almost back to normal.

So anyway, should I look through the children's book publishers directory.  Maybe.  I mean I do not know.  Children's books. Who is the target. I am just not good at this.  I feel strong and able to not give up.