Hello everyone, it is 9 pm on Aug 9. I just made an ice cream with strawberry jam and chocolate chips. The chocolate chips expired in february but I could tell they were fine. It was a great find in the cupboard.  The ice cream did not have a seal on it. The brand is called "Friendly's." I question that. I mean you can tell it was not tampered with but isn't there a law about that? And if I write about it, the risk could increase. Some people will want to tamper themselves and sue me.

I googled torture and it was a better search than it used to be but still not that resonant in some ways. I think possibly that topic does depress me. I think one concept that reaches back into the early bookstore days, well actually the mid bookstore days, is the support that it took for me to survive.  So the bookstore people want to say it wasn't that bad, but it was that bad, or I would not have needed a conspiracy with several thousand people, and then several hundred thousand. But I think Barnes and Noble was also part of the conspiracy and had to hide that because of my dad and their fear of lawsuits. I mean I do not know.

But I think I can get in good moods and feel peaceful and I need to not get in a bad state of mind now just because it is night time and I already felt better today. I think part of it is feeling lonely and rejected from the way I lost overt support from some people in the past few years. But the support is still there, it is just secret.  

So let's try to stay positive. I think people want books.

Ok I will do what I think is best. I don't know if I should visit people's pages but I might need to for their address and they do deserve a book.

At 11 pm I will rehearse my comedy show one more time and take my medicine.

Well everyone, have a good day.