Hello everyone, this is Refried. Here is a new meme I might send around soon. The photo is not an exact automatic match but I think it is okay. Soon I go to mental health program. I forgot the other stuff I was going to do today. I think I freaked out some this weekend about not being able to read and became impatient about medicine. But I think in some ways I am too patient and have allowed myself to be on the wrong medicine.  The problem is that if they change it I could be tortured again by housing.  Their secret assessors could signal that the medicine is too minimal so they have me sent to the hospital again by abusive means. So I might need to move somewhere else as I go back to my meds.  What is needed is one mg risperdal and 600 mg trileptal.

I wondered for a few minutes yesterday if I do have another life ahead of me where I live in a nice place with my girlfriend and things get better after book sales.  But I am just not sure that happens. I think that the real path is decline and death over the next few years.  Which means I should not take up the girlfriend's time necessarily.

But anyway sometimes I feel hate from the book world. Like I am aware that it could get worse and more people overtly disrespect me. I think that will be sad for them and they will be part of a life story with symbolic haters and it was them.

Anyway I will try to go to my mental health program at 12 pm.