Hello everyone, this is Refried. I am feeling close to back to normal after a bad mood earlier as I reflected on the abuse and disrespect involved in my medicine change. I concluded that giving latuda a try wasn't that bad of an idea and happened way after Tamara abused me. It started with being on too much risperdal, so the abuse is still a factor, and over all I do think I have been harmed by medical people.

However I think I can stay positive because the medicine could be much worse. I do feel stable on it, mostly in a decent mood, and my weight gain did stop. I did not lose the risperdal weight but I did stop gaining. The people now want to make that last risperdal go away but I do not think they know how much I depend on risperdal and how bad a manic episode will be. 

I had a few trolls on my recent india boost for facebook, but mostly it went well with very few problem people. I mean it was literally two people out of 1.2 million who really bothered me.   So I won't let it get to me.  It is two american trolls, possibly the same person. I will just block them soon.

One said "Jesus wouldn't use AI." And one said "No hate, but why is Jesus black." Well the Jesus was light brown and looked great. It could not have been better, so I didn't really appreciate a weird american troll heaping his worthlessness onto the scene. And as for the AI, you just don't know that. I mean it is kind of interesting but mostly annoying.

I missed a good theology session but wanted to listen to a song.

Tomorrow I talk to my therapist at 11 and then the mental health counselor at 12:15. So I will try to wake up early enough for that. That means I should take my medicine at about midnight.

I think I will let myself feel back to normal and not worry about the mood problem today. If you think about it I was just mad and my mood wasn't out of control.

Well, that is all.