Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Monday, June 2. I went to my mental health program but forgot that we don't have it today. I also went to the post office but my books weren't there. I also inquired about a health program and have to call back in two weeks. That is okay with me. I also heard back about a conference and I have changed my mind about going. I also checked my facebook numbers and I am almost at 44 million but not there quite yet. It will be the next share that does it.

I think I need to do a normal post to my facebook friends. It just isn't the same as it used to be.

I feel kind of depressed about my books not reaching people. But I think if I mail some I will feel better.

Maybe I will work on my novel but I don't know if I can.

I am a little depressed about the job program because I know it is fake and I am going to have to take cab rides with bad people who are disrespectful. And there is meaninglessness when I could have had a purposeful life. I mean think about the talks I could have given but I am just bullied in the Bronx with 100 wasted books. And everyone is like of course this is your life and you don't really deserve this either.

So anyway I guess just pray for forgiveness.  This is familiar to me. To put in a lot of effort at multiple things and then I have one role which is to be patient and pray for forgiveness as my life is wasted.

Anyway I guess I will exercise later and walk to Jacobi again.