Do you guys like my new art posts? I think they are only okay and I need to mix in some animals. I might have some already done on my phone.  I feel good about the level of church messages that it is.  I think it is a nice friendly addition to facebook and just within my zone of skills.  It makes me feel better. I am back on my art and poetry page.  I do not know how much I will use the two new pages but probably some. I think I will stay calm and not feel like I always have to be dropping a hundred dollars. In fact I think the next two posts I share will be thirty dollars only. Just a little something for lucky winners.

I am feeling calmer. I don't know what the issue was.  I also don't know if I drank too much coffee. I think I will have some orange drink soon instead of another coffee.  But the one tonight was decaf.

Do you have any thoughts about life in New York. I mean am I going to move back to the south and write about the north from a distance? I mean that is crazy.

I don't see how I can survive without those hospitals but maybe that is the idea is to not need to survive.

I think I would have about twenty more friends to hang out with if I moved back. I might host parties and let people meet each other.  And maybe the newspaper could do a story about some of my books.

I hope some school teachers try out some books in their classrooms and have good experiences. That is really what the poems and stories are for.

I had a weird dream last night where I was at Montreat and there was a guy who confessed to watching bad movies.  And he was not a church person but I assured him that he would receive mercy.  Isn't that weird? And I woke up and thought about whether I had treated one of my church friends with the same acceptance. And it was about the flood, too, like wow I can feel how crazy it was. Like last time I was here I could not fathom any of it and now I am like oh my gosh what happened. I mean it is weird. I think maybe I was traumatized from a distance though of course I know there was nothing like being there. That is not what I am saying.  I mean there are people from some of those disaster areas showing up at churches and we really need to be there for them. 

And then the teens and poverty and hopes and dreams and strife.  So I feel that differently here and will try to at least pray more.

I did have a good time at my sisters house and cracked some jokes with the nieces.