Hello everyone. I just wrote a pretty good blog post but did not hit publish. I just felt that the rant quality is something I could keep to myself. 

I can see that the issue is that I am recovering from a recent torture spell that lasted two years, so sometimes I get triggered into needing to explain it to everyone.

Possibly it is time for me to get a PTSD diagnosis based on that experience. I mean I do not know. To me, I would get it based on three two year periods.  But some people say the whole twenty years was a living hell.  I just think there was a lot of relief and happiness in some of the years, and the three two year problems were criminal and tragic with permanent damage to my whole life and society.

So anyway I guess that got on my mind because I was thinking about my attention span problems and how it is making me give up on the books.

If someone has a plan for these books to reach people, you need to make it happen soon because I could see myself unpublishing in a year or two.  Have I said that already?

I might also do a statement soon telling agents they are too late. 

Anyway that is enough.  It is because of the book video, the hints of people seeing that something is missing, then the reflection that the book grief problem might be concluding after twelve years of devastation, and my awareness that there was a recent violation that went unanswered.  An insulting horror of blatant attack from dirty racists in the Bronx, and a crowd of people who excused it because they have no other good deeds to their name for anyone of a different identity.  So that is their one opportunity, to defend mental health workers who commit a crime against a disabled, lonely, depressed person.