Hello everyone, today is Thursday, May 1. I went to my mental health program and it was okay except for the racist staff people.  I got a new worker named Angel and he will probably be nicer than Clarence who started making me feel bad on purpose in January.  I still have to see Hannah sometimes who is really nasty and makes certain people look and feel bad on purpose.  Wow that is nasty, I am embarrassed for their organization to really try to pass that off as justice.  Probably it will be a large cultural wave in the north and a lasting shame and setback for people who worked hard for progress.  

This could be their attempt to hurt my life and make me have serious losses each time I stand up for myself.  But the loss is absolutely theirs, and what a tragedy.

I think what happens is that those of us who know how to treat people accummulate a belovedness that mental health agencies think they need to cap for the benefit of people who never learned basic decency.  So they provoke us and use us as dummies and spoil our experience.  It is blatant theft of something sacred, and God is not happy with it.  They could have instead taught other people to do the behavior that made us powerful.  No one wanted me to talk about power, did they.  Some people will never be brave enough to face where real power comes from. They will always choose the shame economy and it will get worse and worse for another hundred years or so, until they can receive charity from the people who did choose the humility.