Gice I think if my work reaches people, some people will like the journal material. They will read all the blog posts. But we know that I might get blocked.

Do you think people will be mad that I repeated material so much? I think there is some value to it because it is like the way some works end up enduring over time.  But I am choosing that myself by repeating the stuff I think is better.  But I am missing some good poems, I think, like from the cousin book.  But even that is already doubled because of the thin book series.

And yet that is the benefit of self publishing so why not take advantage of it.  It is just a file sitting in a computer and it might not even get printed at all.

Gice is anyone out there reading my books. It is kind of driving me crazy to not know.

Tomorrow I am looking forward to my mental health program. I might ask to read some of my notes sometime there.

This weekend I ate a lot of gallbladder food but seem to be okay. But I think now is when I slow it down.  I ate a lot of ice creams yesterday. Like that is where I lost control. But today I have not eaten much.

Mostly that bad feeling was gone but we can see that possibly this book was what both attacks were after.  I mean kind of crazy, maybe it has a future.  But I was starting to think that Stn already knows what happens and he might not, same as the rest of us.  But in one of my visions once a guy in hell was reading a book and looked up at me.  

But again I think it is like the road runner cartoon. And the idea is when I am weak God is strong so maybe not try to manage it so much and predict each strategy against me. Also God helped some yesterday I felt, and there was background music, as if the readers in heaven find this part of my life to be meaningful in some way like a movie. But you can't always know when that is and adjust your facial expression for the hidden cameras.