Hello everyone. I just attended a middle church lent meeting.  It was nice. Possibly I will attend again sometime but I do not know for sure.  I might attend online. I mean maybe just let myself be disabled and meet online sometimes at places. I mean will the like me, maybe. They will know I am a gay evangelical.

So anyway it was good but our group didn't do very well.  We were supposed to discuss injustices in the world and I complained about facebook.  But it is a real thing. But still kind of selfish.

However I will be praying for all those nice people.

People probably think I am daydreaming sometimes when really I am praying.

However my sleep schedule is suspiciously off.

So interestingly I think God likes this book I just published.  I do not really know why and what would make it any different from other books but I felt his love and approval this weekend and some drama as to this moment in my life.  And I genuinely don't know why.  And I just recently figured out I am probably not a seal like one of those 144,000 people in revelation.  I feel like it was a possibility but I am now reality checking it and planning to use it for humor. 

The other theological breakthrough for me is a renewal of my understanding that God and his ways are unfathomable and beyond what we can request through prayer. I just felt that to really give it my all I needed to aspire to request anything God does, and it is better to know that I can't and he is more thoughtful than my little prayer life.  And that is good news is that he likes me more than I can dream up over eternity. So that is nice.

Some people are like "it's about time," but I have reasons for my mental work and it does pay off sometimes. And people judge me for not reading the new testament very frequently but you can do a lot of mental work and then read one verse somewhere and get a miracle and that is what I have either chosen to do or been forced to do through what actually has been some exclusion sometimes.

Anyway, that is a long story. I like middlechurch. I feel like I should have listed Amanda in this recent book but maybe it is enough that I listed her other times. And maybe it was Jillian's turn because Jillian really helped me have a happy easter.

Thanks middlechurch, see you online hopefully and maybe a visit to the church soon!