Ok everyone I just posted that other post. I don't think there is going to be a court case for most of the bad stuff that has happened to me, but there is an idea to protect my writer rights.  Well that is interesting because I just had some of the most serious challenges so far this week, but I think I am okay. From my perspective, I have done everything I can. And therapists have worked together with church people and friends and family to help me get to a great and costly place where I can truly accept a total loss of all work and effort for my whole life and everyone in it.  Like if this book stuff gets wasted, I do finally feel like I can face judgement day with any failure status for any reason. I would like to thank India and the people in other countries for being nice to me on facebook, because that was a huge part of the healing process.  Thanks also to Converse College. The fact is that some people did find my jokes to be very funny.  And that can be enough if America lets me down one by one or all at once.

I think there are going to still be ways to keep trying if weird things happen like Amazon unpublishing me, or someone blocking my name from being used.  That is actually very unlikely since it is my legal name, but obviously America has a lot of core institutions at risk right now. However, I feel the peace and acceptance that maybe my life and work were successfully wasted, insulted, and reduced to nothing.

I can see it as an external problem that other people will answer for.  I don't need for people to be humiliated over it, but I can watch people be wrong about me from a distance and feel bad for them. I think that is all I will say about it.