Hello everyone, this is Refried. I just went to a poetry event and I was an hour late but I had a good time for thirty minutes and heard Jane Hirshfield read a poem.  And I just love that person, she is a fellow religious poet and might be genuinely the closest like mind to me in the poetry world because of that. I mean I do not know but it could be something like that.

So too bad I was late and kind of weird because I missed another Nickole Brown event. That is a pattern. I mean something interesting is that I did go to the asheville residency at risk to my own life but then didn't go to the animal farm and could have. But in a way I couldn't have because it was not easy staying in the hostel. And now what is it a reminder of. It is a reminder that you know what, I have had a tight budget in some ways. People think I just fling around all the money but it wasn't that easy sometimes.

But anyway this is an interesting development. I mean hmm.  I mean should I try to attend some stuff in October. I just don't know if I can. I mean if Ravneet helped me maybe I could.

Maybe I will go to that meeting tomorrow.

I saw a religious vision today but when I saw it, I could not really tell that it wasn't just me imagingin it but then this evening I could see it in my mind and it was so true.  It was Jesus on his throne being glorious, kind of in the sky to the left of lots of us lower and just there in some way. I mean that is interesting. I feel like the take away wasn't about him being in control but was more about him being glorious and it was different from the cross scene.  so that is interesting. Usually I type this kind of things in emails to myself but I guess here it is on a blog post.

I repeat that this didn't feel as seizure oriented but upon reflection it is not something I would jsut imagine in my mind and is kind of static.

So anyway that is nice. I am so glad if I can see visions again. I feel so much better on this medicine amount and I should be walking every day. I think I could have taken a walk today in a coat instead of checking instagram as they delayed it for a while. 

But anyway now it is 9:26. I mean what if I attended that thing in October and sent in the exact poems from the other workshop.  But I bet I would miss it just like all the other events. 

So sad about the flood, I was just thinking of that today or yesterday, where the rain starts, and it is worse than usual, and then houses are washed away. I mean it is so sad. But some people survived and hopefully feel God's love and care.

But anyway, it is 9:30. So I will take my medicine at about 3 am. Should I maybe clean and take out trash or something.  

Ok the list is: take out trash, tidy clothes, do some laundry.  Okay that is the thing is at 11 pm do laundry.

Gice I feel okay with the poets, like not mad and resentful.  They did not torture me.  Some other people tortured me. I mean why is that, I do not know.  

Well have a good day everyone.