ok everyone hello, I am home after two social outings. I am thankful and it was yummy. I did the best I could and mostly am doing better than I was doing last year when I saw some of the same friends.  One of my friends is a famous physical therapist on YouTube.  So that is really neat. They have done about a thousand videos!!  I can't believe that. I told her I thought she might run out of stuff but she said there was plenty of material. So that is neat.  I told my mom the truth that it was my friend from college who was the Bellevue hero and it of course shook her up all day. I knew she might not be able to handle it but I felt that mostly she would be blessed to know I was still friends with those people.

I don't know if I should have told her but it will be some psychological food for her that will probably last months.  I mean that incident was a big event in her life. And she likes Brian because of how he was such a great friend and missed his flight to stay in New York etc.  I actually did not know that until she told me about it today.

So anyway I kind of had some ups and downs today and I don't know if I socialized okay. I kind of jibber jabbered a lot at lunch but I think it was okay. I told Brian there might be a mess with my last will and testament and the book rights. And I told him about the three executors who don't know they are written down for that.  

So anyway that is interesting.  I gave my mom the chocolate cheesecake and I am taking a piece of peanut butter pie from coffee underground.  I am letting the cheesecake set back up in the fridge.

My trip is almost over and I am getting a little bit anxious.  I really have mental illness everyone, let's not forget that. I mean it is not easy sometimes to just get through a normal day.  But mostly I am okay and I have been taking my medicine.  It is important that I take it tonight and tomorrow night.  Ok today is Wednesday. I have a class with MC later. It will be good. I think this break from the Nami groups is good.

I talked to Emma Chesed on the phone about the Nami walk.  I will do the best I can.  She was nice and I hope she feels hopeful too.  It is not that easy doing fundraising during hard times. I told her I might do some emails but I don't know how that will go. 

I think I might get another credit card for the videos. I think I should also ask mom to sponsor the videos but not right now because she just helped me with that.  And really that needs to be enough and you know what, I should accept limitations.  And another thing is that I am getting a following for these videos so I might not need to always boost everything.  But I think some boosting will help that and then I can just go with the following. But I know that when I do a lower boost sometimes I think I should have sprung for the higher numbers.

So anyway live and learn, ups and downs, hits and misses. Gice how did I do, did I do okay?