Hello everyone, this is Refried Bean. It is 11:37 on Thursday. I am doing some laundry and soon going to get lunch with a friend. 

My mom has been doing okay on this trip but she just bothered me. We had an okay discussion about how I was going to take a bag of books to the used bookstore. She wanted me to put them in the back of my dad’s truck but I was planning to keep them in the inside on the passenger seat. It was okay and concluded fine. And then she came back to my room and started fussing. It makes me sad but it could be worse. 

My sister dismisses these problems as normal and it is my fault. I need to prepare myself to be slandered by her.

It is part of accepting that the world hates me. To also accept that actually some credible people in my life criticize me and ignore some problems against me. I will be misperceived. I need to tolerate it. 

Some of it is from being disabled. There are just always people who blame you for not being normal. Mental Illness is especially something where people see the gap and blame you for it. 

This morning could have been different. I did everything I could for a peaceful interaction but it wasn’t good enough.