Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Friday, Jan 30. I just published a collection of rhymes. Weirdly, it is only my second real poetry book in five years. But I am happy with it. I kept acknowledgements minimal and think I got it right. I do not plan to change anything on it. It reminded me of the junkyard of the angels book for a certain reason.  But I didn't think about those acknowledgements and I am glad I didn't. I thanked my parents in that book and in this book I mentioned two mentors like that.  But I only listed one writers group but then put membership in other groups on that other page.  But what was totally forgotten was all SCBWI affiliations. I do not know why.  I need to think about it some. I am not sure I will fix it. 

Anyway I do not know if people are like wowzers, this is supernatural, but definitely I felt some feelings from that last facebook share. Last night I could not take it anymore and I stopped that ad a little bit early.  But most of the feelings were normal. I just kept thinking of rhymes.  Some people might think I should have waited and thought of more. But I think that is most of what I had percolating.

I slept a lot and am glad I caught up.  I slept about twelve hours.  I had an interesting dream. Maybe I will say the dream in one of these posts. Ok I will say it. I was asking Jacqui Lewis if she likes Matthew Henry's commentary and I told her the part I liked where the disabled guy at the pool of bethsaida says to Jesus, "I have no one to help put me in the water," and Matthew Henry emphasized how he said "I have no one," and how that was a need expressed to Jesus and a need that Jesus helped with.  And we were at some kind of camp and outside there was this stony pit obstacle course like a playground for adults but it was in a park and there were kids and the kids went into this cave and all these animals jumped on them and it was scary but the animals were sweet and cute and then a guy like matt damon was constructing some bridges for the site and we found out that he had done most of it and it was like his hobby to build that stuff and it was neat. It was all these hills and ladders to climb on but there were issues and you couldn't really get where you were trying to go.  

So then I bought ice cream for these little black kids who I felt responsible for and we were on the other side of the park and we were near a subway and I was trying to figure out if they knew how to get to their homes.  But I had a twenty dollar bill and the ice cream only cost about two dollars each.

And interestingly I thought I had a twenty dollar bill this afternoon and was going to tip the pizza driver but I already had spent it because it was two tens.  So I just gave him a joke book.  I think we will see him in heaven.

Anyway that is a cool dream, isn't it.  So I was trying to think about that aspect being part of disability. I always hear that pool story being told as a motivational speech like "Get up and walk," like do the thing you can't do, which interestingly is the opposite of what happened. Like it is cruel to just tell people to do the thing they can't do. But some of that is my reflection on young life and like okay.  I just didn't end up being a speaker for them and I think that was a fumble and was it mine? Possibly.  But I am a writer for young people so possibly that calling worked well and people did good. I think that is it but why didn't I get to give talks but it is fine.

Anyway sorry to throw in a movie star name when there a conspiracy like this but that person did good and was like one of the cool PFR people.  So that is neat.  I think Jacqui did good too and was being an authority.

Well, that is all for now. I will reread the book and think about it.  Remember how I changed that junkyard thing and added someone and feel like it was a good add even though it took away some feeling of typographical peace.  

like it wasn't the same but often i am glad I thanked that person in that category with english teachers.

so anyway SCBWI. Weirdly that is a membership and the other things I listed aren't necessarily and that one might nto even be true.  And yet I did wonder that recently.  I mean I don't know. I just was thinking how those rhymes were from those times. But I have already thanked a lot of people and these were leftover rhymes, so I feel like the people in question were in fact claire and johnny.  and it is johnny's birthday today. Like literally today.

So anyway thanks. They piled the snow so we can't get out of that gate.  So tomorrow I might walk to McDonalds and that hospital store.

Ok everyone have a good night.

Stay safe out there. I should call my mom soon. Maybe I will call her tomorrow. I think she doesn't want to be taken care of like an old person but she does need care and I hope she can live in reality.