Hello everyone, this is Refried. It is Thursday, January 1. Happy New Years. I haven't figured out resolutions but I decided to start treadmilling today. I moved my treadmill near the plug, which was one of the things that was preventing it before.  And I think I will be treadmilling for about twelve minutes a few times a day. I think I will be motivated.  I might try to limit sodas to one per day or something just to see if I can make a difference. I am really only 5-10 pounds away from being more normal for me personally. I mean really I am not in a good situation but any difference will be good.

So that is nice. I had some dreams last night that motivated me, and it was kind of interesting.  I visited the seminary for something, I went to the Echo church's pastor's house and found sunglasses under a car and my friend from my other church was at the seminary thing i went to. So that is interesting. I woke up motivated to get the treadmill goal going.  Interestingly, a plot in the Echo dream was that I gave my pastor's kid a headache, so I thought I should tithe more.  But I know that is not the thing and I decided to treadmill.  And then I had a mascot dream where I was questioning some mascot traditions and then was questioned myself about something that had to do with the military.  So I also felt motivated to get back in shape after that. I mean maybe why blab all the dreams but that was what did it and I immediately fixed the treadmill set up in my room.

So okay. will it work. I think even building some muscle is good and I have been walking more for about a month. So hopefully I will reverse the losses from last year. 

Anyway I will say again that I think mental health people hurt my health in all ways and caused permanent damage to my life and outlook and advocacy that impacts other people.